Dizzy

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  1. @Maxx Interesting post Thanks for sharing. I will share a bit of my experiences. Sorry, will be long too, I can't put in short words such an interesting subject. 1. Mystical meditation experiences Commonly happening during meditation. Had many joyful experiences, body expanding feeling or body numb. Funny one: breath speed altering by itself and funny sounds coming out of my mouth as the breath keeping turning fast and slow, faster, faster, slower. 2. Enlightenment and liberation Had experiences of no self and realizing existence is the true nature. Nothing I had realized is any different then what you pointed out. 3. 5-MeO-DMT breakthrough Didn't have the opportunity to try yet. But certainly willing to do so. 4.Kundalini awakening I resonate very well to the awakening process. I haven't reached a permanent state of the so called full kundalini awakening, but maybe had experiences? I don't know. The suppressed energy and information coming to the surface is no fun, and I have all the side effects you mentioned - haven't sleept a full night in many weeks, often have headaches especially after entering a deep meditate state, visions also are crazy these days during meditation especially but also during the middle of the night, and I am unsure if I am going insane or it's an awakening. I also experience often my body expanding, where I can't tell where the body begins or ends, like it had merged with the air. Other times I feel like I am floating, again usually during meditation or the middle of the night when seems like the energy wants me up. To be honest I had no clue this would get so intense and I never really planned to "do" kundalini awakening. Maybe if I had read this post of yours 4 months ago would be another history. But yeah, people should be aware that this is no child's play. I could never ever have being closed to imagine where I was getting myself into to. But it's worth tho. If you have any advice for me, please feel free to tell me 5. Opening of the 3rd eye and other chakras A shaman told me all my chakras are open and often I do techniques to balance them. Having the third eye opened can also be frightened. I had merged with what is in front of me, if someone has a strong light within I see them in blurry way, I see colors and fractals, and have a light - head feeling, similar to dizziness but it isn't "normal" kind of dizziness, is more like my mind is floating or "leaving my body" sort of thing. Not sure if it's related but I also experience sounds on my head, like a wiring sound. I hear louder, a sound way out there I can hear and "feel" it with my entire body, like I had my body shaking many times with a sound or a coff of someone else. Being beyond the body and body merging with all also became something common. I was intuitive before, it just been way deeper these days. I can easily pick up on others energy and recognize it quickly. 6. Clear light of bliss Never heard before. Sounds interesting. 7. Rainbow Body I read rishis have/had this ability. ---- To be clear even if I am unsure that I am going insane or just waking up, I still would rather 10000 times be on the path I am now over being asleep. It may sound all terrifying shit I wrote about, but I just wanna say that with chakras open and Kundalini energy work along with all the other practices I do, I have found so much love and joy on my daily life that I could never had imagined either. Overall I am loving my path even with it's difficulties I face.
  2. @Hero in progress thanks for this
  3. @egoeimai would you really feel good after overeating that grease meal ? Like how does you body react after you finished overeating a meal, be it a healthy one or unhealthy? You are not the body so yeah, sure screw it if you wish, but I find that anytime I eat more then should my practices don't go as well. Like literally I can't meditate well or do yoga on a too full belly. That's why I choose to eat well (most of the time). I don't know if that answers your question, but to me yes, go ahead and eat whatever you like, but I would suggest to try to be mindful about it, especially on the afterwards. IMO Looking to fix the mind isn't going to work. The point is to no longer by identified with the egoic mind, so fixing it isn't the cut. Mind is always seeking for pleasure, so "nothing to be fixed" might be an excuse to seek pleasure. But you have to find that out for yourself by increasing awareness
  4. @Annetta you are not in trouble Its a fine quote to me and I felt like sharing if it isn't applicable we can just ignore it
  5. "People have their prejudices, their ideas. Rather than seeing into reality, rather than looking into an enlightened man, they come ready with so many concepts, and unless he fits them he is not enlightened. And let me tell you, no enlightened person is going to fit with your unenlightened prejudices; it is impossible." Osho
  6. @Shanmugam Would you know names of rishis that was known to be in the 6th - 7th bhumika? πŸ€”
  7. Hey there @nexusoflife , I can certainly relate to you very well. I am unsure if I can give any valid advice, but I will tell you some of what I went through. As I seriously walk on this path of true self realization, I am less and less attached to the external world. I realized that hanging out is no longer interesting to me, as I also rather spend my free time meditating or reading. Initially, it was difficult to tell people about this "new me" that no longer seeks doing this or that. Also, at some point, it was awfully hard to be around highly asleep people. I was ready in a sense to give up everything to go to meditate in a cave for the rest of my life. Why didn't I ? Well, with a little help, I realized I don't need to shut down the whole world as I wished to do so. I can practite mindfulness around people and it became a fun practite to watch how others interact, worry and look for drama. I also did learn that is ok to put up a mask to be around people, especially at work. The Dizzy they see and interact is not the "real Dizzy". And that's fine too. Like I don't need to preach anything I learned on my spiritual path to anyone around me or tell my co-workers all the mystical experiences I had last night. I am learning to allow people to be as they are. Ok, mostly everyone I know seems to have a miserable life and at first was hard to see them suffering and be quiet about it. The more I told them my true about this path, more closed minded people became. Then I realized there is nothing I can do for them. I can only allow them to be themselves, even if they emotionally are just hurting themselves. I can not preach, teach or try to change their perspective of the world. I may be able to do so if one has interest on listening or may be looking for a change, but if not, nevermind then. I learned that the best way to interact is to listen, and while listening I am aware of my own judgments. Doing so, it was easy to keep looking deeply into the situation and layer by layer removing the barriers that separates us. The only barrier is really what the mind creates. I also became distant from my family, boyfriend and dearly old friends, although it dosent mean I don't love them anymore (as some claim that's what happened) but much to the opposite. As I became more aware of our true nature, I found myself in love with all. They just can't see it πŸ€” Adyashanti said " Make no mistake about it – enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretense. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true." So yeah, during the process of awakening our identifications will be declining, I suppose it's common to experience a release of many or all attachments of the mind. And that has nothing to do with non love towards family members. I guess we won't find people to talk about psychedelics trips for spiritual growth or Akashic records in ordinary work or school, so yeah, I also don't have anyone around me that I can talk to, so this forum came very handy to me I am forever grateful for many people here that helped me greatly. I guess you can meet up like minded people on retreats, workshops or even Buddha-like stores/ coffee shops. I never tried lol I find too difficult and I am completely fine having online friends that I can deeply relate to and talk like I am talking to my oldest best friend. Not sure if that's any helpful to you, but thought I could share it. Trust your path! You seem to be doing great progress and eventually you will know how to live to your highest values. Rumi said " what you seek is seeking you". Slowly but surely you will know. There is no hurry to figure this all out. You are only 20 and seem uncommonly wise for your age, so yeah, keep doing your practices and clarity will come Being minimalist is one of the greatest aspects of my days now You said you are going to college, is your major related to what you realized you want now ? If not, well, you know what to do...😁
  8. @Loreena Did you feel good while having this trip. What was your emotional state ? I can not say I felt good. Good didn't really exist or made sense during most of the trip. Emotions were gone too. Just at the very start I laughed when I looked at the window and the ocean was there but at same time it wasnt. It was there as the ocean, but it was clear the ocean was also me. There was nothing to separate me from the ocean, and I laughed because I looked to the window and saw the ocean everyday, but now I looked and didn't see the "same " ocean as before. After that, all the emotions were gone. You said you felt everything was, your hand was you, you were the water, and you said you had no emotions, wouldn't that feel very passive or robotic like dead. How is that feeling beautiful ? If you had no emotions, it means you neither felt good nor bad, just like a statue. Mundane and unaffected. Yes. Pretty much it, neither good or bad. At some point I could not say that the experience was beautiful, having no emotions and no identity, was intense. Yet, intense was not bad, or good. How helpful was such an experience in real life as you were coming out of the trip ? Very very helpful Shortly after the trip and the next few days I was still in a deep state of no identication with my mind, thought, personality, or emotions. Emotions still came up, and as I noticed them, they would go away pretty quick. And it was no longer intense, it was a sense of liberation on what I seemed to be stuck. So the good part came after the trip. A lot of my fears has been washed away. The night after the mushroom trip I dreamed of seeing a lot of snakes. I was just looking at the them. My whole life I was scared to death of snakes and would wake up in a state of deep fear when dreaming of snakes, but that night, I woke up in peace regardless of the snakes on my dream. Also, this last trip has helped me to clearly see that what creates the duality is my mind, and any minute I go to separation I ask "what is separating me from them?". The answer is clear: nothing! Then I can look deeply and find love. It's been wonderful to find love anywhere I go. Of course, I still experience negative emotions, but my awareness has increased deeply since this trip. My meditation practice also has been deeper and deeper since then. It's like a " Zero Experience" or "No Experience," right? ...How is that a good experience. It's like you are temporarily cut off from life. Yes. A good way to describe is that I felt neither alive or dead. And as I had no identification with nothing, I could just be existence, or life itself.
  9. Why would that matter ? πŸ€” People idolize Trump, Obama, Leo, their teachers, God, the sun, the stars, this guy's thread. Not a thing one can do about that. If he sees it or not, if he likes or dislikes, that shouldn't be a problem either
  10. Awesome!!! Thank you very much for sharing @Nahm I can relate to your insights very well, especially the cosmic joke πŸ˜‚ it's a hilarious universe indeed! " Are you really telling me that this little Dizzy found out the secret of universe ?" Oh well, that cant be a secret, only If one dosent want to realize it. "All is one, one is all, so this little me here has no say on play? " πŸ˜‚ that's just beyond awesome and very funny to me. " Are you telling me love, the thing I always wanted the most and was scared to have it and then loose it, is actually here within, and has no conditions and nothing personal to it ? Like I don't need a reason to love ? Is this simple? That is the most insane joke LOL !!! πŸ˜‚ "I am not this, or that, or X, Y, W, Z, 1, 2 or 3, or nothing as a matter of fact, so what am I? Could it be am I only existence ? πŸ€” well, yeah. A while later: πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Keeps going like that πŸ˜‚ too funny!!
  11. It's where I met like-minded people. Where I am now it's very hard to find people that I can relate to, so I am forever grateful for this forum and all the wonderful souls here
  12. It certainly appears that way Did you have this impression too @nexusoflife ?
  13. That's awesome! Thank you @Shanmugam :)
  14. πŸ˜‚ The Upanishads is on my book list, which only seems to grow these days. I will write to you when/if I get to it. I am also very interested on reading Liberation in one lifetime- Milarepa and Ramayana. Have you read these as well ? Yes, I am very curious to learn more theory and ancient tales, but ultimately we know they are a distraction.