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I take a stress test everyday its permanently relaxed. It hasn't moved past this state since I awakened. Its like the fear in my brain just stopped and isn't turning back on.@Sugarcoat I feel like I'm brain dead. I have had like 6 others use it cause I thought It was broken and every person that has used it is high stress.

Why ask us, if you already did it. And if you dont know or cant hold it then you didn't do it.

Get a job

@EternoHope is a cope. Its actually holding you back.

Before I awaken I was going through the same things but I didnt have any spiritual bullshit ideas like you have gathered. I was athiest so it was probably better. This seems like you have a spiritual ego. Ignore all these ideas of solipsism and everything. All my problems had to do with reality, not metaphysical reality.

Sounds like you are doing good. The path to Spiritual awakening is not fun. You empty your cup of the good emotions then you empty your cup of the negative emotions. Before I awaken I felt impending doom everywhere, I felt demons looking at me from dark shadows. I felt like I was turning into a robot. Then something beautiful happen. Just accept it. Release all hope.

@ZenterusIt relates too all humans. The feeling you had when she was there was being created by your own body. It has nothing to do with the person. You wont grow from this you are giving the emotion away to the woman. You can grow from it by emptying your cup then keep giving all your emotions away to people. You can tell you were being too clingy by what you wrote. 3 dates, upset that it took her hours to respond. Saying I miss you when shes going on vacation with barely knowing the person. It spells C-L-I-N-G-Y. Clingy men are dangerous to woman. You can tell she knew it by this response. 'I'll miss you too, I think?' That means she dosent even know you yet. You are caught in your emotions and the woman is saying she barely knows you.

Live and learn you came off as clingy cause you are deeply lonely. Dont do that you are looking for someone because you dont realize you make your own emotions. You are lying to women you arent telling them you are deeply insecure because you lost a part of your soul. Woman cant give you emotions you cant give yourself. Learn that. Its easy to see when you know.

Woman are just as disgustingly horny as men. It dosent have to based on connection besides I want to fuck you. They might be even more horny. Its like the opposite woman will have sex with attractive man just for sex and then want to be with someone they deem less attractive than them. And me will have casual sex with someone they deem less attractive and want to be with the more attractive one. If a woman is with a man that is attractive or they deem more attractive they will get jealous and lose their mind so they take the lesser attractive one to feel secure that hes too ugly to cheat. The woman needs to feel more beautiful than their counter part or they go insane. Men dont resepect the woman they have casual sex with because they already got it. To a man its like an ego thing can I get this beautiful woman thats how I define my beauty and self worth. A man can be with a woman lesser beauty that him if she makes him fall in love with her. If a man falls in love with a woman she will gain attractiveness out of thin air. She will do this via making him feel important.

You asking leo for his advice on your life purpose is like a baby asking his daddy if its ok. Just fking do it a rapper wouldnt do that. Leos not your daddy God is.

@theleelajokerI have the same experience with my neice and nephew. They are severly mentally ill. I could tell the parents what they are doing wrong but it would just be met with arguments and fights. My neice is so fucked up she already tried to kill herself once at 14. She was born a girl and turned into a guy and now just sits around all day smoking pot. I ask my aunt wtf are you doing here and she says you have to pick your battles. Like wtf is wrong with you retard. When I look at them I see I did pretty good. I cant really help them tho. I see alot of myself in that kid, they were telling me a story about their teacher telling them they are worthless and the same thing happen to me. The best I can do is to take their side against everyone else cause they already have given up on life. My family is cursed. to see God in a cursed family is a blessing beyond anything imaginable.

I think cause the human body is way more complex than this. And since they dont make it they dont know what the parts actually do or what they actually are. Any machine a human can make will always be 1000 times less complex than anything God can make.

Until you try psychedelics you wont know how insanely different peoples minds can be. The variety is infinite between what people are experiencing in the same room. You will be shocked at how crazy human mind is. No 2 people are experiencing reality the same way and no one is experiencing reality the same way you are even if it seems they are.