I'm not experienced with it, but from what I've researched it's basically a lot of intense visualization and concentration exercises.
Like, imagine spending 4 hours per day, for 10 years, visualizing intensely that your fingers can light a match on fire. And then if you do that intensely enough maybe one day you will be able to do it. Although there's no guarantees so you could just end up wasting a lot of your life energy on nonsense.

Btw, I find the woman's self-defense skills to be very impressive. I wouldn't mind if she was my martial arts teacher, I could learn some self-defense skills from her if I really wanted to hypothetically speaking. She was probably working on her strength as a martial arts student which is why her grip is so strong. It's possible for a woman to be stronger and a better fighter than a man, it would just take more work which is something that I respect and find honorable. I really like that you can show dominance regardless of your gender and how you can overcome your limitations through hard work (although genetics and other things still play a factor). 
Also, lets pretend that I was in this fight and I somehow escaped her grip. Kicking someone in the balls is a cheap move if it was used in the beginning of the fight and is usually unnecessary but the way that the martial artist uses it with her strength is impressive and is an exception. Tickling is also a really cheap move and should only be used as a last resort if someone for sure shows too much power with his or her feet. It's actually said that a woman is more tickleish. That would actually mean that there would be more potential for self-control because she is more sensitive and has more to control. It would be true inner emotional strength. It's very unlikely that it pan out and is basically a tradeoff so I wouldn't want that, at least not right now. I'm not saying that one can resist getting tickled through sheer will but it's just a thought about that I have on self-control. There is a video of someone successfully resisting getting tickled that I would like to show you: https://youtu.be/pXudt9hneTg
Also it takes serious "balls" for Martin Ball to take psychedelics because of what can go wrong and it changes him. I hope I made that clear in my illustration. 

@Juan
Tropical vibes are so satisfying.  I just typed in Puerto Rico in the search, and I saw that it's home to the only tropical rainforest in the US.  Interesting... So my mother's side is from American Samoa, and there's a tropical rainforest there as well.  Lol... we're both territories of the US; I was curious to know what makes Puerto Rico's rainforest different than American Samoa's?  Any way... Salsa is a ton of fun!  I love to dance!  I want to travel around and dance everywhere I go.  I know if I was in Puerto Rico, I'd be exploring the rainforest during the day and dancing at night  
Yeesss!  That's awesome!  I can relate, especially because I've tried other psychedelics but for some reason Aya is just something different.  In fact, when I go back to say mushrooms, there are moments of Aya that comes into my experience.  It's unusual because it seems like I don't even want other psychedelics anymore, but I'm so glad I was still open to trying new ones... that's how I found Bufo.  Bufo is up there with Aya as well for me... just for different reasons.  For me Bufo seems like it can give direct experiences of what Awakening feels like.  I know that it's not like that for everyone I've shared experiences with... but for me it's just as fulfilling.  These experiences have given me so much drive and has inspired to make solid changes in my life.  I can try to explain it... it's like the psychedelics become my theory even though their direct experiences.  They give me a theoretical reality that I can create through the direct experiences of change.  Eventually I know I'll not have to use psychedelics.  That's one of things I've got in my bag of work... eventually embodying the abilities to use this physical reality to gain insights that move me as much as the psychedelic experience.  But for now, I'm still gaining so much value with psychedelics.  

There are infinite degrees to "Awakening". All possible awakening that can or can't exist, exists. God's imagination is unlimited and can create any form of conceptual or actual Awakening possible. It can imagine a so call absolute awakening from some human perspective, but it can also imagine infinite ways to go beyond that awakening. Because it's all infinite, and because you can only recall your direct experience of infinity when you are in your human perspective (which is a finite recollection of the experience of the infinite) it is possible for you as a human to continuously experience/remember higher and higher degrees of infinity compared to the amount you had remembered/experienced prior. But as God, all possible awakening and existence are all happening beyond time in infinite ways. You as God can experience all the infinite possibilities of "Spiritual Awakening" that existence can possibly experience and come back as a human retaining only an infinitely small portion of the whole of that experience. You can even consciously know how many infinite lifetimes, existence, or dimensions you've experienced, but you will likely only be able to recall, with detail, an infinite fraction of the whole once you are back to the human perspective. Because otherwise the sheer amount of information will melt your human brain. However, since you are God, you can remove, or at least lessen that limitation if you wish, the amount of infinity you can retain can change through God's will, and if you have a deep desire to continue exploring/experiencing higher degrees of Awakening or infinity, then you shall create that in your direct experience. There is always more, or higher, or beyond a certain awakening to be had because God is infinite, it can just keep creating infinite possibilities to entertain itself.    
You might continue to experience higher and higher infinity for infinite times/lifetimes/existence until you reach the extreme of the infinite of infinite of infinite... You might then go back to the most limiting perspective of a little human, and in that contrast, you can experience the infinite beauty of yourself. The degree and love you have for yourself that you can create and experience all of yourself. (In human language this experience seems linear in time, but to God, it's all happening outside of time, or in infinite time) 
You can experience being the "organ" of a higher dimensional being but within yourself containing an infinite universe that contains endless lifeforms and beings, and then zoom into the hair of one of the infinite alien beings, and find that within the hair it contains another infinite existence in a completely different dimension, and so on. You might even remember the non-human sensation of being these higher dimensional beings, or the vibration/language that are non-human. Even though just a finite recollection of the actual.  
This is very hard to communicate through human language since it's infinitely paradoxical/strange-loopy. Degrees of infinity can only be measured in one's direct experience to their prior direct experiences. Because it's not possible to mathematically measure infinity, or reduce it to human concepts. And the infinite variety of infinite consciousness makes any comparison obsolete. Only you can, through your direct experience, "know" in human terms how awakened you are. And depends on how much of the infinite you can retain as a human, the human perspective can feel so infinitely small and limiting. Most human concepts of awakening refer to the understanding/being of the infinite/God, which is true, but beyond that awakening exists infinite more awakenings. Most humans are satisfied with the first because compared to their human experience, just an infinite fraction of God is enough for them to stop seeking. But some people are more curious than others, so they can continue to explore infinite consciousness and discover new forms of conscious experiences.   

Well, I haven't been on this forum for two days yet and man, I feel a bit uncomfortable... which is good; there's something I need to look at.   A part of me is saying don't put yourself out there like this because there's going to be strong opinions that probably won't like what you're trying to say.  But fuck it... I do the work and I'm going to go ahead and do it regardless of the fear I'm feeling right now.  I have a suggestion about possibly adding some additional buttons on the profile page.  One button is where you activate it yourself when you decide you need a break from the theory (forum), and you want to focus on the work (experience).  Another button is where others can activate your button to suggest you should take a break from the theory (forum) for a temporary period of time, so you have the opportunity to do the work (experience).  I don't know if this would help, but in theory it seems like it would.  
Why am I suggesting this?  Well... as a newbie I'm trying to feel out what's going on here and to see if I can see myself fitting in.  It's easy for me to see there's a lot of tension and drama going on especially directed towards Leo, and we can try to find solutions to turn this into a more constructive situation.  Absolutely I am grateful to have found Actualized videos.  I appreciate the vision Leo is creating, and if I can help in any way for that to continue... I will.  I'm not saying Leo doesn't have his own shit to work on, but who doesn't?  That's why there might be a solution on how the forum is structured.   
 
 
@Leo Gura We want you to be at your peak (energetically speaking in this situation).  Trust me... you are reaching Actualizers who understand what's involved.  To simplify it... there seems to be a huge gap between yourself and majority of the mental masterbators.  Trust that there are Actualizers who don't have as much distance to the mental masterbators state who can remember, relate, and influence them easier.  Some of these Actualizers have a different temperament and still like to play the games as well.    I love your direct no bullshit teaching style.  But in my experience as a teacher, most of whom I work with don't want to begin their learnings that way.  So, I had to develop a more subtle approach and gained a well of patience.  Trust there's a diverse group of Actualizers developing, who can take some of the drama that goes on.  You don't have to waste your energy responding to every little thing.  Maybe you can benefit from getting away from the forum for a while.  Possibly? 
I asked myself:  If I was Leo, what changes could I try to create different results on the Forum perspective.  I want people to do the work!  I know they are going to be addicted to the theory... so how can I, as an influencer, help these Forum members understand that the work is where the magic happens.  Of course, I cannot make them work, but they are a part of my Forum so I can have more of a say at what goes on here.  I know I've got a lot on my plate, so I don't have to read and respond to every person, because I'm focusing on the whole instead of each individual.   But I do gain value participating with members. 
With a quick brainstorming moment... I came up with possibly using the button options.  I want people to see how much balance it takes to do the work along with theory.  Maybe there's a way to track how much time is spent on the forum researching theory and how much time is spent on experiencing.  I might have gained relationships with the members because they've given me value and they fit into my niche of actualizing.   But I've noticed that my intuition has been nudging me that I need to gain experience away from the theory (the Forum).  So maybe there will be a button or a setting letting members know I've decided to take a break for a while, and I can come back and see how I've changed and see if anything has changed in other members.  I also know there are many people who are blind to what the work really involves.  They are addicted to making excuses, placing the blame on others, and drama.  We know it's going to happen, but do I need to allow their toxicity to infect the Forum?  I know they can be blind so maybe I'll put another button where the community can click on to suggest to that member they're stuck in theory.  Recommend that they take a break from the forum for a while.  It's not like I don't want them to return, but I also want to emphasize to them that the work is what's most important here.  Maybe there has to be a certain number of members who clicks before they are timed out.  Maybe the time out period is like a month.  Maybe because this is my damn website, and I have the final say... If I decide this particular member needs a break, I don't need a certain number of votes per se; I'll just click my own button.  
Obviously, this button thing is just the starting point to see if there is a solution towards growth together.  Having other opinions can really mature into something that might work better than it is now.  
 
 
The Forum community:  Have you ever been so absorbed in something that you don't even notice how dysfunctional it's getting until an outsider points out the dysfunction?  What's this Forum for?  Where are we on our development when we are dealing with relationships?  Are we working on changing our behaviors to be healthier?  Have you actually been doing the work... honestly?  When you are writing your comments, how are you feeling?  You can ask yourself if your comments are constructive or not.  You can disagree with others, that's natural.  But can you work on responding in a respectful way?  That takes work.  Can we empathize with others when they're frustrated?  That's been a huge challenge for me.  I knew theoretically why I'm frustrated with others is because my own frustration in myself.  I know I wish I could learn faster than I am.  Because of my own frustration I was robotically lashing out to others who don't have the experience of growth as I have.  I am learning I have my own pace as do others.  It helps my frustration disappear when I accept myself more.  I also realized most people place up walls of defense.  I thought of myself as intelligent and persistent, well I can get around that wall.  I thought one way or another I can find a way.   I didn't see how much energy I was wasting especially if there are several walls I'm working on at once.  If there is a wall of defense, leave it alone and respect that.  Move on gain perspective.  Allow the other person to take down their walls before approaching again. 
I want to see Actualizers differently from the herd, but how different are we really?  
  

Not sure why Leo thinks he's the only person in human history to ever meet a DMT entity. Astral projection is a well known phenomenon, in which one moves between the inner planes of consciousness, meeting thought-forms residing within the collective consciousness. People have been talking to "alien" consciousness for centuries. Modern, more disciplined examples include channeled works like The Law of One,  Q'uo, Abraham, Bashar. 
These experiences are still mind. You can be in a heightened state of Consciousness and still be completely at peace.
Or you can dream of being an alien kangaroo ? ? 
 
In the end, there's nothing to figure out!
There's nothing more to know other than You Are It.
You Are Infinite Imagination. ♾️?
It's fun to explore the mind. Have fun with It!

This guy is very enjoyable to listen to, and he makes a very thorough case for why religions (or "grand narratives") exist and why we need them.
 

How about this?
1. Commit to write simple sentences. It's hard to understand you.
2. Sign up for a Martial Arts Class, I recommend BJJ or Krav Maga.
3. Get up one hour earlier every day, go to bed one hour earlier.
4. First thing in the morning (when then fantasies come!!) go to the bathroom and shower C O L D for 1 minute.
5. Prepare 3 things to do right after your cold shower (like: Go on quick walk outside, learn for school for 10 minutes and read a book for 10 minutes [Think and Grow Rich, The Way of the Superior Man...]).

 

It does make sense, because if you understand more than others around you, they will constantly gaslight you with their ignorance and you will have to stand up to it. Arrogance helps cut through that gaslighting. If you are too humble, people will gaslight you into their level of ignorance. This is exactly what happens to most spiritual students. They are told to be humble sheep and just follow the dogmatic path. Most Buddhists are like this. It's a disease. I escaped that by daring to challenge all systems of thought. It takes arrogance to dare to do that. Because people will tell you: "How dare you think you know more than the Buddha or Jesus or Rupert Spira!" You will be shamed into place. People will call you names like egotism, narcissist, etc. All in order to get you to become meek, shut up, and stop questioning. Everything is designed to get you to stop serious questioning. You are not allowed to go into a Buddhist temple and seriously question all their teachings. But that is exactly what's necessary to develop a sovereign mind, which necessary to reach the highest levels of God-Realization.
Be careful. This is very tricky stuff. Human use humility as a trick for self-deception. They think that by acting humble and pious that they are actually pursuing truth or understanding. But those are very different things. I don't act pious, which makes people think that I am narcissistic or just outing out out of ego. But I am not pious for a much higher reason, because I need to cultivate sovereignty of mind.
Arrogance is not something you should glorify. But it can be a nice antidote to the kind of fake humility that is found all around spiritual circles. Be ware of pious spiritual sheep who act sweet but are not actually conscious of much. Obviously you can take arrogance too far. So you must strike a good balance between those too. Humility is important. But it has to be genuine humility. What galls me is that these humble spiritual sheep are actually more arrogant than I am, because they think they have found the one true path and all they need to do is adhere to it like sheep. That is truly arrogant because it assumes that God can be reached without serious independence of mind. It is actually extremely arrogant to claim that you know that Buddhism is the Truth. People don't know that. But they act like it's true. And if you dare to challenge them on it, they cry arrogance on you.
These are advanced self-deception games that humans play. It has taken me years of gaslighting by spiritual idiots to finally understand these games. And so now I put my foot down if someone tries do that to me. After 10 years I have finally reached complete sovereignty over my own mind. And that is what I wish to teach you.

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Behold! The lovely face of "Christ" (idk what other word to use for pointing).
Randomly bumped into this, thought I'd share it as it's another good example of what the result of "ego dissolution", integration and awakened self can look like for those wanting to go farther. You can see the "light" and "innocence", joy and love shining through .
 

I feel that I have never lived a day in my life...
There is this nagging feeling inside that says, "You have been living the past 23 years as part of the audience for the play that is life, never an actor."
Here are a list of things that have been in and or a part of my:
Practicing Meditation, contemplation, and self inquiry for years Have had a great family that have supported me with so much love Great friends from childhood, college, work, etc..  Finish college with a computer science degree (This was well worth it. Personally, I needed the structure back then. I had struggled with childhood ADHD and being around peers with similar interests helped a ton!) Exercising consistently (weight training, running, yoga, etc.) Nutrition is where I want it (Leafy greens, tomatoes, carrots, berries, cucumbers, beans, nuts, all seeds, almond milk, salmon, olive oil, peanut butter, etc..) No fast food and or processed sugar.  Reading tons of books Practicing my speaking No debt Practicing my writing Being obsessed with philosophy and neuroscience as always Practicing my programming Have had many awakenings that make me love this very moment with all my being Have not dated at all since high school but I had tons of great experiences with girls when I was young and yet, I still feel as if I have been failing to live. There is a part of me that feels like I am faking my entire life. Trust me, I am grateful for this life. Also, I work as a software engineer and enjoy my work. Yet, I feel that I am an imposter.  I also feel that I do not deserve what I have. Each day I wonder when I will be fired for not being good enough and or ousted by loved ones for being a loser. 
I also spend a ton of time by myself. I do not socialize at all. There is a part of me that thinks I will never be able to find a group of people I can fit in with even though I have had amazing times socializing with others. I failed to find anyone to really match with in college. Overall, my alone time has not been negative. It has helped me accept that I am someone who has a hard time fitting in and that is something I need to work on. Yet, this all feels like one big joke. Each day passes and I wonder, "Why code this application? It will just be another thing I fail to finish," or "I'm a selfish fuck. I only live for myself. What do I contribute to others? Nothing."
How do I finally live?

Was just watching this Leo interview. Around 4 hours in he compares his views with Tom Campbell's. I pretty much entirely agree and have mentioned the same critiques to Tom, but this still seems like a blindspot for Leo. A major one.
If you asked Leo why he bothers with teaching or doing any of the human stuff he does, he'd say something along the lines of "Why not? What else am I to do but live here as God? Why would I want anything else?". It's like he can only be at one extreme or another. There's an infinity between human life and total God-realization, and he dismisses it off as "dreams that can maybe help with trauma". The sheer scale of Leo blindspot is hard to fully comprehend, but it's pretty big.
 
 

@UlaxGod doesn't hold anyone to a specific level of consciousness it's an illusion, god can make anything out of it because 1 day you can operate at this level... The other day at another level... One day you're narcisstic/arrogant, the next day you may be awake or have enlightenment experience. God is in control at all times, the characters that are playing the game on earth and are interacting with each other are doing it in the name of god. For example:
You wanted to speak to a person in the truck, the truck has 3 people inside. You roll down your window and 
Person A says: We have no time
Person B : Random thought popped up and you just repeat it automatically: Just drive , Just drive with a big smile and you wave your hand automatically saying "never mind"
Both actions are interconnected/interplay between god and were done unconsciously. Person A was a narcisstic female sitting next to the driver. Person B was a nurse .  Because person B lives in higher consciousness, person B is also responsible for person A in the teachings. Higher consciousness will always have higher role in the interplay between god which means your thoughts/nature/actions will always be greater.

Original title: 167 Days Before College
Goals:
weekly 30m of  shamanic breathing  to transition from 30m of do nothing meditation to 30m mindfulness meditation to finish the LP course  to spend more time outside  to re-start doing mind powers exercises consistently to read at least 3 books  to continue pushing  myself daily   no tv series or movies eating clean(less sweets,bread,processed meat) daily journaling ( onenote)  to improve my English skills going to sleep at a decent time(23.00/00.00) to make a vision board  no facebook solo meditation retreat to travel alone in my country for at least 3 days  to continue abstaining from alcohol and weed (one year and six months since i drank alcohol or smoked weed) to continue nofap ( i relapsed yesterday after one year and three months)  
Possible goals:
pick up yoga classes swimming martial arts part-time job  to upgrade concentration practice from 10m to 20m to upgrade meditation practice from 30m to 60m stretching routine    
Books i want to read/listen to:
Holotropic Breathwork: A New Approach to Self-Exploration and Therapy by  Stanislav Grof M.D. 
Conquest of Mind By: Eknath Easwaran (audiobook)
“STATUS ANXIETY” BY ALAIN DE BOTTON
Stuff Every College Student Should Know (Stuff You Should Know) by Blair Thornburgh
Daygame by Tom Torero 
Day Bang by Roosh V  (audiobook/pdf)
Getting Things Done by David Allen  (audiobook)
Boundaries by Henry Cloud  (audiobook)
The Like Switch by Jack Schafer
The Rum Diary: A Novel: Hunter S. Thompson
Feel the Fear . . . and Do It Anyway by Susan Jeffers  (audiobook)
Adulting: How to Become a Grown-up in 468 Easy(ish) Steps  by Kelly Williams Brown  (audiobook)
Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz (audiobook/pdf)
The Defining Decade: Why Your Twenties Matter--And How to Make the Most of Them Now  by Meg Jay  (audiobook)
 

To put it simply, a man took photos of his sons genitalia to send to a doctor online and was false-flagged by google, which auto-backs up his photo to the photo cloud service. The Police determined him innocent after a child abuse investigation, but google still asserts the power and authority to permanently shut down all his accounts, including his active phone number service (Google Fi). 
 
Google’s reasoning is that they personally looked at all his photos and found a video he took of his wife sleeping naked in bed with his sleeping son in the morning. So they continue to keep his account banned. 
 

here’s a link to the article.
https://www.nytimes.com/2022/08/21/technology/google-surveillance-toddler-photo.html
 
Google’s ability to defy Police Judgment is scary, and their position to snoop through auto-backed up photos of people even after innocent cases like this one gives them too much power in my opinion. What do you think? 
 
Some people make their money from using google products, so a permanent ban on accounts can be very damaging and disruptive to a persons lively hood, especially when Google is this big and prevalent in people’s lives.

 
 
 


 

there’s a whole category of Youtube videos attempting to simulate the visual effects of various substances, take a look:
LSD
Mushrooms
DMT
Datura/DPH (deliriants, this video is as close as I ever intend to get to experiencing)

It certainly isn't limited to 11 dimensions. That is a very artificial construct.
Salvia is insane. It will deatroy all your ideas of awakening and nonduality. It's way more profound than anything Buddhism teaches.
It's not merely that you see some crazy object like watching it on a screen. In order to see that object requires your whole field of consciousness to undergo a radical transition where you hardly feel human any more. That is the scary part. You lose your humanity and sanity in the process. Then you see some impossible geometry, as you are in the middle of losing your mind.

The spiral dynamics didn't break it, in fact I think it has a pretty good understanding of it, however this pickup one is a big challenge for the AI .
 

https://chat.openai.com/chat
Sign up and chat, easy, here is a sample output
"give me ideas on how to make a chess game except the pieces are ideas and the board is a mind"

So I was coming up on a bachelor thesis in psychology, and I figured this was a viable option for a thesis: what is the relationship between mindfulness and physical activity? I looked up the relevant scientific research and was surprised to find a substantial amount of studies on the topic, but the research is still very new, a little more than a decade old. More research is needed, and my thesis will be an original (but small) contribution to that.

I've now come to the point of having to collect data, and this community, among others, is a very good candidate for this type of study (everybody here is, if not directly interested in mindfulness, at least acquainted with the concept, and even if that is not true, you do share similar beliefs, values and interests).

That is why I'm very thankful for the opportunity to share this with you guys, and I hope that you also appreciate the opportunity of contributing to my little contribution to scientific research on a topic that we all value very much and has changed our lives for the better.

The survey is short and simple and only takes about 5 minutes to complete. It's completely anonymous and completely voluntary (nothing bad will happen to you if you choose to not participate), but again, I would highly appreciate your contribution. I would also appreciate if you could share the survey with other people you know who are also interested in mindfulness and self-improvement. The more the better

Here is the link to the survey: https://nettskjema.no/a/311732
Thank you for participating!

(For the people who are unsure if this is against the guidelines, I believe one thread like this is fine, and so did other moderators in the past.)

Will link my old journal and continue here, and slowly integrate my structure let's see how far I can go. I will miss some sleep today, yet I will approach these endeavours with full energy and create my dream life with the value of Consciouness and stop utterly with distractions as far as possible. Implement the plan and use this structure in the morning as this helps tremendously with accountabillity in terms of mental health. I did not meditate today and I will meditate tomorrow and wake up at 5am and start my routine. Basically to write it down once my routine will look like.

Linking old journal to express -> Value of personal growth.

Link To Old Journal

There is more order I need to for re-assesments and planning of structures etc. Talked to a friend etc.
Wake up, make bed Shower and meditate infront of PC Use journal for gratitude journal/success journal and short review Cook food and eat breakfast as reward Punishment when I don't wake up at 5am -> become a Patreon member of Leo Gura and pay 30€ to some samiterian cause etc. All in all I wish there was less fear and me and less issues. I frankly am still highly suicidal as to my upbringing horseshit scientist etc. They are also responsible for creating a ticking time bomb. So thank you for that.