ZenSwift

I understand this thoroughly, but for the past 5 years now, vision has never made sense. I feel like I have an inability to imagine something exciting. I really need some sort of resource or something to help me vision something out for my life. Or maybe even examples of what a strong compelling vision looks like!

Looking forward to experiencing this.

The more I suffer in the right ways, the more I can rise up and become a badass and have a REASON to ground myself.

Feel free to share your why with your vote.

I literally write insights down out of survival. Nothing is worse then forgetting a juicy insight.

7/10 tinnitus when I woke up this morning. It's like I woke up and hear what you hear after a flashbang.

What would make you think that?

Thank you for the valuable information guys!

Here are some things that I intuit: What is the intelligence of love? What is Love? What is intelligence? How is Love Connected to Intelligence? What is Relationship? What is Oneness?

What are some good things that I can contemplate to directly reveal the infinite intelligence of God?

@Michael569 in not sure! I expect to have to pay to get some comprehensive results.

Hey guys, seems like it's a good time for me to get some blood work done to see what the hell my body is running on. I'm Looking for advice on distinctions between different types of tests and what data can blood work give me? What is the most valuable data Bloodwork can cover? Also if you have a direct suggestion of where to get it done that would be great! I'm in Calgary, Canada.

It feels like there are many scenarios where survival is made easier but we then don't replace it with any additional challenges and we suffer the consequences of not living a life pursuing emotionally difficult tasks.

You need to feed your mind more direct experience of having sex with men to give you the clarity you need. That Clarity/bombardment of the truth of Direct experience will help massively. Literally surrender to what you are drawn to to the point where it's fully seamlessly integrated into your worldview and people can fuck off if they don't agree with it. It definetly takes a pair of nuts to go through with it, but it's liberating. And it's probably the most manly thing you can do TBH. This fear probably comes from your perceived survival situation. Survival of your identity, survival of you being a good person, survival of how you're seen in your relationships with other people, etc. If you change the environment completely, notice how that may change how you think about this whole thing. Imagine if you traveled to the most hippie, loving, pro LGBT place on the planet where also nobody knew who you were, so you had a fresh start. Another important thing to note, counterintuitively, you might actually get straighter if you have sex with a couple of men. Because you lack the direct experience to make sure. But you fear the possible outcomes of the experiment, so you just hold yourself back in your paralysis of fear. Literally in the end you may find out that you are straighter than you thought, but in order to get to that clarity you need to first be able to fully admit and love the idea that you may be gay. And honestly fuck the labels, they carry so much additional unneeded meaning and misunderstanding, just go "fuck it we ball" and follow what the hell you are drawn to.

Requisite Variety.