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45 min meditation today as well. Yesterday I came home from an ayahuasca retreat that lasted from friday to monday. The ceremonies were on saturday and sunday, but we were a group of 5 friends who had rented a cabin together nearby from friday to monday. The 5 of us made up the kitchen team for this weekend, so it was a very intense and rewarding experience of doing ceremonies, taking responsebility in the kitchen, and staying in this cabin together as a group. I cannot possibly imagine a more full and intense weekend. Fortunately I can rest today and tomorrow before I start working again doing two night shifts from wednesday to thursday, and from thursday to friday. Looking forward to do a lot of integration and landing now, and also to use this afterglow and inspiration to play a lot of guitar.
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45 min meditation today as well. Very nice and deep concentration. Finally I've started to look into how I can improve my sleep. Thanks to the night-shifts I'm working, and also being slightly manic easily in the evenings, and being a sensitive person who easily gets overstimulated, and seeks to become high and overstimulated through my creative and intellectual interests to get into a flow state, my sleep has been utterly trash for many many years, but through the surrender and acceptance I've developed through meditation, ice-baths, yoga, etc, I've managed to just ignore it and push on through, but it is actually quite terrible, and these last days I've experimented with magnesium and melatonin supplements, and oh my gosh, I've been sleeping like a baby. It seems like magnesium in particular is really helpful when it comes to overstimulation and sensitivity.
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45 min meditation again this morning. Going deeper into concentration again.
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45 min meditation today as well. Very rejuvenating 😊🙌
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Thank you 😊❤️💫🙌🙌
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1 hour meditation this morning. Very nice.
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45 min meditation today as well. Very nice and revigorating.
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45 min meditation today. Really beautiful. There has been yet another pause in my formal meditation practice, but I do other types of practice, especially devotional singing, but oh my gosh what a strong effect meditation can have. I'm somehow very lazy about my meditation these days, and it is related to the low levels of existential suffering I'm having these days, so I'm not compelled by my suffering to push on for further meditative development, but ideally I should be able to meditate even through this laziness, especially when I see the profound effect it gives me. Why do I want to walk around with a foggy awareness, when I can walk around with a crystal clear one? There are some interesting paradoxes at play here. Do I really need a crystal clear awareness when I can fully accept and embrace a foggy one? But still I seem to suffer less and be more energized when I clear my mind and body through meditation. Aaaah, all these cycles. And then one eventually always return to the perfection of knowing everything is exactly as it is supposed to be and it couldn't have been any other way. But can I abide for longer periods in this clearity, or should I just allow myself to lazily drift in and out of whatever way the nature of experience presents itself? And fundamentally, do I even have a choice one way or the other? Let us see how things develop. I guess I can only try to stay open for the ride.
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45 min meditation today. Centered and powerful energy.
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Did an ayahuasca ceremony this weekend. It was really great, but I came down with a cold and spent sunday and monday in bed. Today I was well again in this felt like my big integration day. I played a lot of guitar and sang the hymns, did weigh-lifting, cold shower, two good forest walks, and 30 min yoga and 3 rounds of Wim Hof breathing in the evening.
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45 min meditation yesterday, and 45 min meditation today. Very nice and energizing.
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45 min meditation today. Very nice. Powerful and deep. Concentration still hasn't established itself fully, but it is on the doorsteps. Lots of process stil that I have to breathe into and ground by focusing on the bodily sensations they create, and thereby counter-acting the tendency to spinn around in the mind.
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45 min meditation this morning. Going into deeper concentration again, or the at the least to the entrence of it. Much of the noise in my mind is starting to quiet down, and there is more energy and focus on the object of meditation. On the remaining "noise," I welcome and open up to whatever suffering is there that I'm resistant against - feeling how the sensations manifest in my body, while staying with the breath simoultanously.
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8th session of ice-bathing this winter 45 min meditation this morning, and then 3 rounds of Wim Hof breathing and an ice-bath down by the beach when I came home from work. An amazing warm shower after this, ended by a solid cold shower. I'm getting to point where I can just shower in cold water again without thinking about it being cold and me feeling like I have to endure it. The ice-bath was amazing. So empowering. Wow.