Flowerfaeiry

I got punched in the head and it was my fault

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@Flowerfaeiry

Hi, I have been sober for 9 years and counting. It's my biggest accomplishment in life.

One day I got punched in the face and it was my fault too...

Alcohol is THE worst drug. That's why it is legal.

Be smart take LSD instead. No hangovers ever again!!!

 

Arc

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20 hours ago, Hello from Russia said:

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:D Is this accurate tho? IMO life feeds the Ego, or even creates the ego, no?

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You did what you could. There is no point in blaming yourself now.

In fact the very act of blaming yourself can easily keep you stuck in a loop by strengthening your shadow's desire to punish yourself.

What kind of shadow work have you been doing?

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On 18/04/2021 at 0:46 AM, Husseinisdoingfine said:

Never leave your house without some sort of self defense, whether it be a gun, pepper spray, or tazer.

in some countries this can get you in a lot of trouble. Then what, would you pepper spray the girl who slapped you? :D Or will you taze her? You know those things can give the victim an instant cardiac arrest especially in people with a preexisting heart condition (many have this but don't know about it). 

Would you say "but your higness, she slapped me?" as you're being escorted to serve your 30 year sentence? 

 


“If you find yourself acting to impress others, or avoiding action out of fear of what they might think, you have left the path.” ― Epictetus

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Great important topic and wonderful responses in various post :x

It can be healthy doing a "relapse" to bring up suppressed stuff or get a slap :ph34r:reminder:ph34r:, so can stop the romantics how it was back then, and work with left over crumbs that need attention to be able move on. Turn your past into experience and able use it as balanced tools for your self and others, instead of get triggered and wake up after a couple of party weeks or longer for example.. B|

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On 18/04/2021 at 4:06 PM, Yali said:

Violence is never the answer, but sometimes it is ;)

 

Fuck yeah that's true. 

If someone hits you you betta smack their ass to the ground & ensure that they learn a lesson. 

Just 1 big nice hook to the jaw. Nothing else. Once they're down you walk away. 

When I was younger I used to let people pick on me, I wouldn't retaliate. 

The lingering sense of frustration of not standing up for myself was not worth it. 

Always sort the person out then & there. THen you never need to think about it later.

 

Edited by Striving for more

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On 19/04/2021 at 2:39 AM, Arcangelo said:

@Flowerfaeiry

 

Be smart take LSD instead. No hangovers ever again!!!

Taking LSD was the worst decision I ever made.  

Traumatising experience.

Really depends on the person & context. 

Mushrooms & MDMA Though ... what a blessing. 

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Never let people disrespect you like that, if someone punches you punch him/her back.They'll be responsible for that too ;) 

Just because you're into spirituality doesn't mean you have to turn the other cheek/let people walk all over you.

You can be a "good person" with an edge, not necesserally a stereotypical hippie who allows herself to be other people's bitch.

Edited by Evil Raccoon

I'm not friendly.

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On 18/04/2021 at 9:52 AM, Chumbimba said:

Nah, fuck all that letting go buddha shit. Beat her ass. 

You can let go... let your fist go right to her fucking face. 

I agree with my boy here.


I'm not friendly.

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21 hours ago, Striving for more said:

 

Taking LSD was the worst decision I ever made.  

Traumatising experience.

Really depends on the person & context. 

Mushrooms & MDMA Though ... what a blessing. 

I feel the same way about LSD. I prefer to micro dose it, but even then it can be a bit much. 


"You Create Magic" 

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Why would you even say hi and want to chat to a random girl as a girl?

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5 hours ago, StarStruck said:

Why would you even say hi and want to chat to a random girl as a girl?

And why not?


I'm not friendly.

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40 minutes ago, Evil Raccoon said:

And why not?

I'm not a girl

Edited by StarStruck

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4 minutes ago, Evil Raccoon said:

@StarStruck Was talking about her not you.

But why wouldn't you wanna talk to a girl too?

I'm a guy and I do talk to girls because I find them sexy and like to do things with them. 

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6 minutes ago, StarStruck said:

I'm a guy and I do talk to girls because I find them sexy and like to do things with them. 

What if an ugly girl comes to you and starts chatting with you? 


I'm not friendly.

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On 17/04/2021 at 7:57 PM, Flowerfaeiry said:

I'm sitting here in tears thinking about how I got into this situation. I have this complex about myself that insists I am better than that type of drama. But I attracted this into my life because I still haven't worked through a lot of the pain I have from my childhood. I recently moved into a home with 3 roommates. I noticed right away after moving in that I had gotten myself into a situation that I was trying to move away from, drinking and partying. But at the point of my realization, I had already moved in and was settled. In a new city, all by myself. Okay, I should be alright, right? Well, I have a history of using drugs and alcohol and I feel a very strong pull to do those things when I am around them. I thought I could just, not do it, and live in the house regardless. But I was needy, I wanted friends, and my roommates were partying so why wouldn't I join? I tried to not get involved but I was just drawn to the things happening all around me. 

 

This girl punched me because she didn't like me being friendly to her. I take full responsibility for it. I walked up to her, she was drunk, high and angry. I smiled at her. She called me a bitch and punched me. I didn't react. It's my fault for trying to prove to her that I am a nice person... I deserve that. I moved out the next day. But now I'm living in a hotel, alone in a new state. 

 

I keep turning inwards and looking at how I got myself into this situation. And it's a little overwhelming to see all the ways in which I am at fault for all my drama. I just feel like I should be over this by now. I've been really putting work in for 3 years but have been into spirituality for 10+ years. To think that all those years were just me lying to myself about how "spiritual and good" I am just pains me. I'm a liar to myself first and then to those around me. As a tall, white, pretty girl I have this look that makes me seem like I have my life together. But I am suffering deeply, and the only reason I'm not a homeless drug addict is because I have a really good support system. I just feel like such a fake. 

Honestly, you're too harsh on yourself.
 

It's not that you're wrong to notice you did something that could have the results you described, but you attach too much importance of you being a spiritual/better person, and thus hate yourself even more when something proves the contrary.

This kind of approach just bolster what you don't like about yourself as of now, not being as spiritual as you thought.

Can you see how destructive that is ?

It's not the initial act of being punched or even the realization that you did something obviously dumb (by your standard) that makes you feel pain, it's you judging yourself by thinking you should be better than you are.

You aren't, and that's all good.


You'll never be perfect, and you'll always do stupid things (in retrospect), always.

That's actually a good thing, to do stupid mistakes, and to realize you're way off track of where you think you were, or discovering you have to work on some very basic things etc., that's what create the possibility to enhance your life.

Be happy about it, interested about it, don't punish yourself by feeling like shit on top of all the work you have to do to correct those things, it just hinders the possibility to actually do that, it can even make you go in the opposite direction.


You need to change the way you see failure.

Failure is amazing, failure is what create the best possible life for you, you just have to see it from a different angle.

The most amazing person you can meet in life, are person who failed millions of time, because they did have the balls to put themselves into positions they don't know how to handle properly.

Lots of people fail, but where those people differ from the normies, is that they don't take failure as failure, but as information on how to proceed next.

This mindset makes everything so much easier, you can do everything you want if you think like this.

 

Edited by Shin

God is love

Whoever lives in love lives in God

And God in them

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1 hour ago, Evil Raccoon said:

What if an ugly girl comes to you and starts chatting with you? 

I wouldn't punch her in the face. :)

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22 minutes ago, StarStruck said:

I wouldn't punch her in the face. :)

Fair enough xD


I'm not friendly.

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In boxing getting hit at first is a very emotional experience, but with practice and experience you learn that even with dodging and weaving you still get hit and its ok, its part of the game. The impact lessons until there not felt at all.  

Edited by integral

How is this post just me acting out my ego in the usual ways? Is this post just me venting and justifying my selfishness? Are the things you are posting in alignment with principles of higher consciousness and higher stages of ego development? Are you acting in a mature or immature way? Are you being selfish or selfless in your communication? Are you acting like a monkey or like a God-like being?

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