EddieEddie1995

Accepting the Journey and Me Bungee Jumping

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I decided to share little story of how my life changed in past year and a half and  video of Me Bungee Jumping hehe :D

After a long struggle of depression I had yet again had one more of those emotionally devastating   moments , and that one was where  I got scammed for 4k in the US(Work&Travel Program) and that was the money I worked hard for two months. With 4k in Serbia you can live one year without working comfortably and I was negatively motivated for independence at home… So that was my breaking point when I decided who I will be, and I finally chose not to be a Victim. From that moment I new I had to change and take responsibility of my life! The drive for fixing my life was created. I accepted the Life Journey! All this led to everything I tipped below.

Bungee Jumping 

vid-131591018-054832-815-5gafpvsbmp4.compressed.mp4 Here is the Video :D :D

I decided to face one of my fears and bought a coupon

The though of Bungee was excited at first and but I delayed and procrastinated the jump for the  last day of my reservation, it was a 3 month coupon :D The night before the jump came is when I started freaking out. I couldn't sleep that night. When the moment came and I was waiting for the set up  my mind went CRAZYY

"What em i doing here in the middle of nowhere at 7 am bungee jumping alone? Are you nuts? Lets just go home, its fine, we will do it next time. Lets just turn away and go home. What if the bungee snaps, you are dead!" 

And all the excuses my mind could project... I did not listen my mind. I hopped in the balloon and it started getting higher and higher . I felt my heart pumping and I got dizzy. The moment came and the guy casually said,us that was hes who knows what flight : 

"Okay, here is what you are going to do: Put your leg there, and jump over the edge of the balloon and jump"

"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? THERE IS NO WAY IM JUMPING OVER THERE! EDDIEEEE, DONT DO IIIT,YOU  GONNA REGRET THIS ! " 

My mind was going nuts, i was really scared. I  hopped on the edge and said "OKAY, THIS IS IT, IT IS NOW OR NEVER" I knew that if i set there for 5 more seconds i would give up. I just LET GO and JUMPED 

In an instant the FEAR vanished .

I was in the present moment filled with excitement.

The first thought that came up after the present moment  was "DO IT AGAIN. OMG! THIS IS BEAUTIFUL!   WHY WAS I SO AFRAID ?"

I was really proud of myself , BRAVO EDDIE! 

I didn't know I was smiling all the way hehehe

 From that moment i know that the best things in life awaits you is on the other side of fear ! 

Is taking LSD close to this? Heheheheeh 

 

Here are my addictions and achievements after that moment I decided not to be a Victim .

   Addictions and difficulties i overcome:

  • Cigarets
  • Alcohol
  • Weed
  • Porn Addiction
  • Gambling
  • Gaming Addiction
  • Depression and Suicide Thoughts 
  • Junk Food
  • Lost 20 kg
  • Low Self-Esteem 
  • Good Guy Syndrome
  • Break up 3 years of toxic relationship and let go of successful business that I started with her the same year,so I could play Football ( that’s a big vision) and  everyone laughed at me :D

What I Achieved :

  • Started playing Football again after 7 years(Became my LP) . I made it to FirstTeam after 6 mouths and decided to move to a better Team in other City
  • Reading Books
  • Meditating
  • Fix my diet . Intermittend Fasting and got to be a Vegetarian 
  • Yoga and Exercise 
  • Nootropics
  • Cold Showers every day
  • NoFAP , SemenRetension - I sometimes wake up at night knowing all the answers  I struggled  that day
  • Football was a steppingstone for finding my real LP after tearing my meniscus and ligament in my right knee( Ego BackLash from overtraining) 
  • Leap of Faith to a new City with limited money and no job so I could work on my LP. (I lived with Toxic Family and in RED/BLUE City with 7k population xD)
  • Removing toxic people from my life 
  • Transitioned from toxic Blue/Orange to Orange/Green/Yellow and now working on Teaching  Yugoslavia to Actualize, reading SystemsBooks and how I can apply it in 90%Blue country  ahhahahahha the transition I made WTF
  • Exploring spirituality and God
  • Got to trip on low dose mushrooms
  • Contemplation
  • Gratitude and Tears of JOY
  • Lucid and Astral Projection
  • Enjoying the Process etc.

My goals this year are :

  • Work on past traumas ( I would not get started on those xD)
  • Shamanic BreathWork, Pranayama ,Chakras
  • OMAD
  • VippassanaRetreat
  • LSD trip
  • Launch my Business
  • Healthy Green Relationships
  • Tantric SEX and exploring Sexuality 
  • Integrate  Green and work on Yellow etc. 

Yes, I wanted to share my achievments, but what im more proud about is inspiring others to take the journey and believe that everything is possible! I know that all my life and suffering I went through has prepared me for this, like a bamboo tree waiting to break through. And the worst moments in my life are now the best moments that ever happen to me.. Ofcourse I had Homeostasis kicking in every change I made and ofcourse  I had Resistance and Backslides but that’s the part of the process. Deciding to go through the hard moments is when life becomes EASY! 

I would never believe that i will be where i em now. But here i em, and im just getting started! 

 

I em really Grateful I accept the Journey and  I will never forget that night, I think around 20th May 2019  when I was lonely, because no one could understand me and the path I have taken. I decided to search for a video on How to deal with Loneliness and a weird looking guy with shiny head popped out to make my life really fucking interesting (check the pic on the video xd) 

@Leo Gura  Im Grateful for fining you! Thank you and the Impact you are having on this world!

And the people on the forum, thank you for actualizing, being authentic and thus making the world a better place <3   Bigupyourself :D

Love <3

 

 

 

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Great work, very inspiring! I wish you all the strength you need to execute your new goals :)

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Happy for you my friend. Best wishes ?❤️


What a dream, what a joke, love it   :x

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3 hours ago, EddieEddie1995 said:

 Addictions and difficulties i overcome:

  • Cigarets
  • Alcohol
  • Weed
  • Porn Addiction
  • Gambling
  • Gaming Addiction

Congrats! You are doing so well. What did u do to overcome these addictions? 

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Bravo Eddie! :) Let' play football together. 

Inspiring post. Congrats mate. 


You are addicted to alcohol? Yhym... Try quitting coffee.

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@YonkonThank you! <3

@CodrinaThank you! <3

@SerotoninluvGlad to hear that! Thank you  <3 

@Austin ActualizingThank you! 

I was so highly addicted on this things for about 7 years that led me to a point of i could say "live or die" .  

What was important for me that I had a vision of playing football again.  It was a dream and purpose that motivated me. To play football again i had to lose weight, to lose weight i had to fix my diet, to have condition i had to stop cigarets, to stop cigarets i couldn't drink and things led to another.

So first I needed a Vision.

Daily Motivation- I watched  videos on YT how to stop being lazy and how to hack my brain to do things.How the brain works.  I discovered Personal Development , Tony Robins etc. Books. 

I negotiated with myself - Every bad habit i replaced with other until i got rid of them all.Instead of watching league of egends videos i started watching football, If I quit smoking cigarets   its okay for me to smoke weed, if i start cold showers i will go out for few beers etc. 

I had the mentality if i don't stop now, when? Its only gonna get worse . 

I could dive deeper at each of the addictions, and the struggles  i faced to overcome them but its gonna be a long night writing :D 

Do you have problems with some of them? 

 

 

 

 

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@Amilaer---Hehheheh, lets do it! My knee is getting better :D Do you play often ?  And Thank You! Glad  to hear that <3

 

 

 

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7 hours ago, EddieEddie1995 said:

I was in the present moment

Nice. It's one reason why ppl do extreme sports . The monkey mind usually shuts up, even if there's lots of screaming. ?


“You don’t have problems; you are the problem.”

– Swami Chinmayananda

Namaste ? ?

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@Anna1 Ehheehheh Yes!You can find really funny videos on YT :D

 There is no better feeling :D

Its the Present Moment, The Flow, The Muse, The Zone, thats what Self-Actualization boils downt to, present moment and no monkey mind, right? :D

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@EddieEddie1995 ??

...Normally, monkey mind (thought) will continue. Just know its mind stuff and not...you.


“You don’t have problems; you are the problem.”

– Swami Chinmayananda

Namaste ? ?

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“You don’t have problems; you are the problem.”

– Swami Chinmayananda

Namaste ? ?

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