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  1. Or is it the requirement for all different games? I mean can god play with itself without self deception? What games are there other than self deception?
  2. Hey there, I'm meditating for many years now and always struggled with it. There were some breakthroughs but most of the time it felt forced and inefficient. Through contemplation some insights came up that helped me tremendously and now meditation is something pleasant that I look forward too. The biggest key for me was to stop being ideological about the techniques. Explicitly that means: I am allowing myself to move when I want to move. I don't have to sit still, but I can if it feels right. I don't have to sit cross legged, I can sit on a chair, lay down or stand. Also I can change positions during a session when my body gets stiff, this allows me to meditate longer. Also, I allow myself to switch to techniques during a session. That means i start with breathing and after some minutes I switch to labeling for example or to kriya. This is always different and i try to follow my intuition. Basically, meditation more and more becomes like play for me. I don't force myself to stay in line with the teachings, although I appreciate them and use them as guidance. Lastly i just want to say that the cold hard disciplined way also has value and can be a great way to balance the more experimental and loose approaching. Much love
  3. What Leo showed me is that even highly developed beings can have shitty and limited perspectives in music.
  4. @LittleYoga this is the right book, i bought it and it changed my life. I don't know about the audio programms but the book is well structured and clear.
  5. Currently i am going with number 2, works gerat for me. What does your intuition say?
  6. Are there any good stage blue role models to study? I want to integrate blue but i can't find good books, courses and youtube channels with healthy stage blue content.
  7. @JosephKnecht Dude this is great, thank you! Fits perfectly.
  8. Hey there, I finally have a concrete goal in life but I am not sure how to formulate it in the right way. My main problem is that I have a financial goal and a life purpose: "I create a monthly passive income of 10k dollars by producing groundbreaking music." Now I feel I should pick only one of the 2 goals, mainly the second one so that my mind can focus on it... Will it work with both or will it scattter my brain?
  9. @egoeimai @Roy First I broke up because I didn't want a long distance relationship, but then I decided to give it a try 1 hour later. (now we live closer and its not a long distance relationship anymore) Then she broke uo because she couldn't trust me because I wanted to spend the day alone. After that she explained to me she has something like borderline, which makes her push me away when she gets scared. Then she broke up some weeks after because I was going out with friends and didn't reply for 8 hours. She is reflected and after those incidents she comes back and takes responsibility for her over the top actions and accusations.. She is quite clever and spiritual. I am really confused.
  10. We are together for 5 weeks and we ended the relationship 3 times already but always got back together soon after that. Wtf? Never had that before. We are very passionate and get easily scared I think. A red flag?
  11. Hey there, i use bioenergetics everyday and i love it! It helps me to express my anger and repressed sexuality like no other technique can and it gave me a huge confidence boost. Do you know Devaraj Sandberg?
  12. @Serotoninluv I didn't know that, thanks! Could anyone tell me how long the tolerance reset for 50µg LSD would approximately be in your individual case?
  13. LSD is great but it takes to long for tolerance recovery (2 weeks) You might say "just increase the dosage and then you have enough to integrate in 2 weeks" but i feel this is not my way of going about this whole shabang. Ideally i want to trip every 3-7 days with small to medium dosages, this would fit perfectly to my lifestyle. Any ideas?
  14. @Esoteric I've read and watched some Kahn, exactly what i was looking for. "Whatever arises, love that"
  15. @Thought Art I just finished it, wow what a ride. I've read many books but that one struck me deeply, almost painfully. Thanks for giving me the push.