Austin Actualizing

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  1. I've got a lot of insecurities relating to sexual performance and penis size. It all started with my first sexual experience when I was 17 (currently 23). The gal came over when my parents weren't home and one thing let to another. I was extremely nervous and I didn't know what I was doing. The girl made fun of me repeatedly and called me a virgin and laughed at me. I felt extremely crushed and it was after that moment I decided I wanted to get really get at sex. I read books on the topic, watched courses, practiced a lot, and ended up getting very good based on comments I received from girls. As for the penis size insecurity, a gal I had hooked up with acted very irresponsive during sex. She would barely make a sound or react at all. I called her later and asked her about this and she said that it was because she couldn't really feel it and if I was a little bigger she would have reacted more. I later found out that, that wasn't the case and it was actually she has been raped multiple times and shuts down during sex. Immediately after that I researched ways to increase the size of my penis and ended up gaining half an inch after 3 months of exercise. Then I decided to just stop and accept what I have. This insecurity got triggered again fairly recently when my current GF made a joke about my size and was just kidding but I took it to heart initially and started doing exercises again. Just to be clear with this next statement I'm not trying to brag, I'm just showing how deep this insecurity is and how it's illogical. She has had a fair amount of partners (17) and says that my penis is large and that I'm the best sex she has ever had. I had a conversation with her about my size and she says she doesn't want it to get any bigger. The first time she saw it she was a bit scared (she told me later). She has assured me it wouldn't make a difference and it may even hinder things potentially. I know she is being genuine and honest with me. Now even despite getting tons of compliments from her and others about my size and performance I still feel as though I'm not good enough. I know it's purely ego and it's ridiculous to get hung up on penis size and performance, especially when it's not an issue. I've read the six pillars of self-esteem and I meditate daily to help deal with my racing mind but I still don't feel confident in that area. How can I develop core confidence in all areas ideally or deal with this past trauma. I'm tired of this bothering me every day. Thank you in advance for the help
  2. I would stay on the side of caution. Your health is more important than putting yourself at risk.
  3. @Michael569 Any other good books you know of on detoxing?
  4. As long as you don't take the hormone testosterone itself it is safe. Also I wouldn't take DHEA (which is a hormone) before you get your test results back. If your DHEA comes out low then you can supplement with it. The other ones I listed are completely safe to take, they just aid in the production of testosterone. Search on Amazon or another online retailer for a test boost supplement. They are all safe to take. You can also consider taking Tribulus. As far as edging goes you don't have to finish, it's completely fine if you don't. If you go through this process and still have problems you could reach out to Michael569 on the forums. He knows a great deal about health and could probably help you if you are still having issues later down the line.
  5. Well that happens to me if I try to concentrate on something intensely when my mind doesn't want to. (I have ADHD)
  6. I agree with Leo, get your testosterone levels checked. Plenty of info online on how to naturally increase testosterone. There are also supplements to increase levels of testosterone Tribulus, DHEA, Ashwagandha, Zinc etc. Maca and Yohimbe are great for sex drive/sexual performance. To help with ejaculation control and erection quality there is an exercise called "edging". Check out this article: @Dlavjr
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  8. Try modafinil. I have ADD and it really helps for focus. There aren't many side effects and there is no withdrawal/addiction. Also, check out the book Finally Focused by James Greenblatt. The book lists a lot of different things that can help ADD. @Evoke
  9. I can get one very easily from my psychiatrist, but it's because I have ADHD and it can be used for that.
  10. @IJB063 If you are worried about that you can always get it prescribed from your doctor.
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  12. @IJB063 That vendor ships to most countries. Pretty confident it will ship to UK. You can contact them and ask to make sure.
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  14. Master one first, then you can move on to another language.