The craziest things happened when I drank ayahusca

[ExploringReality]

@Natasha Tori Maru  Hows mod life up there? Haha I would love to come up 

[Natasha Tori Maru]

41 minutes ago, ExploringReality said:

@Natasha Tori Maru  Hows mod life up there? Haha I would love to come up 

Candid - everyone has been quite good (so far).

I've lurked for many years and have seen snapshots of some caustic behavior. I think the forum improved before I was promoted.

Time will tell 😈 

 

[Sucuk Ekmek]

@Flowerfaeiry I'm grateful you shared your story. The mind often reveals its drama not merely as memory, but as a symbol-laden narrative that crafted to teach. And if we attend to it closely, we find that this drama unfolds within the very structure of our own symbolic relationships, shaped by meaning, not chance. 

[Razard86]

On 7/26/2025 at 9:57 PM, Flowerfaeiry said:

But Leo! No but seriously Leo one thing you don’t understand (with all due respect)  is what ayahuasca is and the energies that it allows you to see. Can you try to be open to that. And then with this knowledge I began to see what’s really happening here. Good and evil is real Leo. Spiritual warfare is real. And Jesus is the most high, beating all other dark spirits. It’s so real dude you cannot make this up. 

Jesus=Flowerfaeiry. If you go deep enough you will realize YOU ARE JESUS.

[Jehovah increases]

2 hours ago, Razard86 said:

Jesus=Flowerfaeiry. If you go deep enough you will realize YOU ARE JESUS.

eternity the insanity of insanity

Edited Monday at 11:54 AM by Jehovah increases

[Someone here]

@FlowerfaeiryEvery now and then someone here just HAS to post about that feminine guy Jesus. If you want to get into religion at all..at least pick the only religion that makes two leafs of sense. Islam . You guys ..most of you are western..you know that Abrahamic religions fundamentally originally arose in the middle East or what is called third world. I mean there is literally VR  and AI porn right now and you can design your dream porn video ..and you still cling to Jesus or seek refuge in religion Is beyond me . 

I hope Leo and mods don't erase this comment or give me points but jesus was a cu**.  Muhammad was a real war lord real man . Become a Muslim. Wear hijab "sister " . This is totally a joke please mods chill 😂. 

but all in all ..as leo have told you in a funny way all deities are lesser than you .there is no god that can burn you forever in hell in the afterlife even if you pick out the eyeballs of a starving child and cook it for dinner and then make him drink chlorophyll. 

There is a huge peace that comes with discovering that everyone everywhere  in every place and  across all time are full of shit .These days I'm walking around with a constant mild smile in my face.. Observing the show and completely seeing it for what it is.. all thanks to Leo ..Osho ..and Robert Adams. You underestimate the power of spiritual liberation. why people like Robert Adams lived his life like that ?he literally couldn't be bothered by anything . The entire human race could spit on his face and he doesn't give a flying dam. Geesh . Much love sister. 

[samijiben]

5 hours ago, Someone here said:

@FlowerfaeiryEvery now and then someone here just HAS to post about that feminine guy Jesus. If you want to get into religion at all..at least pick the only religion that makes two leafs of sense. Islam . You guys ..most of you are western..you know that Abrahamic religions fundamentally originally arose in the middle East or what is called third world. I mean there is literally VR  and AI porn right now and you can design your dream porn video ..and you still cling to Jesus or seek refuge in religion Is beyond me . 

I hope Leo and mods don't erase this comment or give me points but jesus was a cu**.  Muhammad was a real war lord real man . Become a Muslim. Wear hijab "sister " . This is totally a joke please mods chill 😂. 

but all in all ..as leo have told you in a funny way all deities are lesser than you .there is no god that can burn you forever in hell in the afterlife even if you pick out the eyeballs of a starving child and cook it for dinner and then make him drink chlorophyll. 

There is a huge peace that comes with discovering that everyone everywhere  in every place and  across all time are full of shit .These days I'm walking around with a constant mild smile in my face.. Observing the show and completely seeing it for what it is.. all thanks to Leo ..Osho ..and Robert Adams. You underestimate the power of spiritual liberation. why people like Robert Adams lived his life like that ?he literally couldn't be bothered by anything . The entire human race could spit on his face and he doesn't give a flying dam. Geesh . Much love sister. 

+1

@Flowerfaeiry

Hey Flower, just curious, have you changed your mind? Have you bothered at all to reinterpret your ayhausca experience after reading through this thread?¿?¿

I am really curious to know about the progression of your interpretation of what happened.. have you second guessed yourself at all? Doubtful much? Room for error, anyone?

I say this because I was hoping that something clicked in your mind after reading some responses here, like "Ohh, right, obviously "I" AM Jesus!" Jesus Christ! Jesus THE Christ!

[UnbornTao]

We're such jerks. 

[Natasha Tori Maru]

1 hour ago, UnbornTao said:

We're such jerks. 

I feel like I am witnessing the dialogue of my own mind when I attempt to shred up understanding and juice reality for more truth... 

[Carl-Richard]

21 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Haha

I have those strange thought 'pickups' quite frequently. Similar to what you describe.

I am quite familiar with how my thoughts arrive - how they span out sequentially. How glancing at objects triggers a new thought stream. How I got from this thought, to that thought, then onto the next etc rapid fire. So fast - like recalling a song. All the notes...thousands of notes and instrument tunes in a song. You can easily think of a song right, sing it in the mind? Thoughts, to me, are perceived in such a rapid manner.

It's when I cannot figure out where the sequence that produced the thought originated from - that's a clue I picked it up. Almost as if I am perceiving a thought form. Its all very woo sounding because it cannot be empirically tested. The only way to confirm is to test the thought against reality. If they are congruent it confirms it. But then it's not a measure really as I am providing a subjective, internally perceived metric to compare reality against.

I'll try to notice these discontinuities. I notice them mostly with my "odd" dreams.

 

21 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I highly suspect I am getting cold reads of body language, tone and facial expression as these foreign thought forms are local and from individuals in my direct experience. I have a talent for reading others - especially if I have their baseline. I am a little witch voyeur watching people.. I notice things many people do not.

So as much as I like to think it is woo - I bet I am somehow perceiving/feeling something real, triggering a thought and unable to bridge the gap of understanding  

This is why meditation is so important to me! To identify

You know how some gurus can "look you in the eye and know your past, present and future"? What if it's simply their visual perception that is so attuned that when they see your eyes (and face and body), they can see and deduce exactly what has caused those things, reading your karma like a shopping list, but it's indeed not as much separate from a "physical" thing but it's just their perception is so deeply detailed and profound? But then, how is that really different from essentially getting a massive download of information from the ether (as you're deriving a lot of information based on comparatively little information)? Psychics are maybe just psychos at physics 🤪 (partially 😌).

[Natasha Tori Maru]

3 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

I'll try to notice these discontinuities. I notice them mostly with my "odd" dreams.

I find it very difficult. It has been getting easier when engaging in more prolonged meditation practice. Half the issue is the rapid nature of thought. My awareness of the thoughts is slower than the thoughts themselves. It's a constant attempt to bring the speed of the two together. Again it comes down to what I want to get out of the practice - because I have 3 types I go between: dreamstates/hypnagogic work, sessions where I want to stop all thought, and sessions where I just want to witness and keep up. 

To be honest I only make headway when I go HARDCORE. Like no stimulus. No music. Sit and stare at the letter A for an hour until everything is moving like a mirage. Until I don't even know what the thing is I am staring at. My concept of the letter A dissolves. Awareness and being is then raised to a level I can witness the ping ping ping of constant thoughts like notes. When that happens the thoughts are perceived as slower - so I can sort the wheat from the chaff, so to speak...

This is why trying to sing a song or recall a song in my mind is good fun - I can't really think at the same time I play the song in my mind. Too many thousands of notes. Like the thousands of thoughts...

3 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

You know how some gurus can "look you in the eye and know your past, present and future"? What if it's simply their visual perception that is so attuned that when they see your eyes (and face and body), they can see and deduce exactly what has caused those things, reading your karma like a shopping list, but it's indeed not as much separate from a "physical" thing but it's just their perception is so deeply detailed and profound? But then, how is that really different from essentially getting a massive download of information from the ether (as you're deriving a lot of information based on comparatively little information)? Psychics are maybe just psychos at physics 🤪 (partially 😌).

I think of it like a dog's sense of smell... they live in another world. Humans blind to it.

Something there we simply have no sense for - OR - have we just not refined the sense enough?

OR - have we not removed enough of the cataract of survival to perceive and sense? 

[UnbornTao]

4 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I feel like I am witnessing the dialogue of my own mind when I attempt to shred up understanding and juice reality for more truth... 

[UnbornTao]