Finally! I've found God and Pure Divinity, and I'm simply dumbfounded

[Anton Rogachevski]

Yes! It's so profound beyond any words. All I’ve said before is but the faint, flickering shimmer of a dying candle - dim beside the blazing light of all the suns in the universe. All words are empty shells that are so far from telling you what it really is that it's scary from this point of view. They may only spark some nice little imagination, but it's so Grand and so Profound, that it can only be experienced directly in order to understand.

Thank you God!

God is Love!

Love is the way God sees everything.

There's nothing to do but cry in pure ecstasy of Love and to just experience infinite gratitude.

By the way, it's not through psychedelics. I am extremely sober. It does feel like MDMA x10 though.

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Update:

After some integration through the "normal" state. I can see that each state is a facet, a way in which experience can dance. It's True in the sense that experience may be like that, but it may also be in all the other states, including the normal and the low. They are all the Truth. I don't think that discriminating lower states because I can compare it to a higher one is wise. The best realization is to understand that I'm studying the nature of experience in all its shapes and forms and not to discriminate any one of them. God is not hidden but parts of it may be revealed through other states.

When I say God, I also mean Experience or Consciousness. These are synonymous for me.

The facet of Love specifically was revealed to me because I was in a very strong state of being in love with my girlfriend. So God is Love, but not only it. Love also revealed the Perfection aspect of God, because I saw experience in such a way that I wouldn't change anything about it, I saw how perfect it is. It's also revealing the Unity aspect, because I felt almost united with the whole of experience, and it was all shining with Love - It feels Divine and Pure in its nature.

The secret I presume was the amazing ways in which our souls match and the deep mutual understanding and actually seeing each other while uniting in love. We made out for hours, but didn't sleep together, so I think that might be the way we generated this amazing Kundalini energy which caused this amazing state. 

The fact that she's reporting the same "spiritual" in nature sort of experience, and that she'd never had that kind of thing before kind of breaks my paradigm about the enclosed nature of experience. It may be connected somehow after all, maybe the awakening was mutual for us. That's pretty darn cool!

After all she's God too, and finding her feels eternal like I've been missing her for eternity, missing myself my true nature.

It's also Divine as it reveals the Angelic nature of humans seen through this lens. I saw it way back in my 200 microgram LSD trip where I realised that we are all like lucifer in a sense - fallen angels. We simply forget and we can't see our angelic nature, because divinity is not accessible in the normal state.

So I'm saying something pretty radical. That a state of pure hate, or pure depression are also God. They are ways in which it can dance, and any such way must be therefore inherently Phenomenologically absolutely True. 

It wasn't a completely non-dual state as the ego was intact, but it felt so small and insignificant compared to the whole of me, Experience itself. 

Obviously it's not the end of the journey but only the beginning. I have much more to contemplate and integrate, and let's see hopefully my new relationship will reveal something even deeper in the months to come.

Also I'm not gonna claim I'm enlightened, or that I know what you don't know. You know it, you are it. It's not hidden.

Edited July 14 by Anton Rogachevski

[aurum]

11 hours ago, Anton Rogachevski said:

By the way, it's not through psychedelics. I am extremely sober. It does feel like MDMA x10 though.

How'd you do it?

Good work.

Edited July 12 by aurum

[Sugarcoat]

Is this experience of love including a self or is it devoid of it?

[Leo Gura]

@Anton Rogachevski What did you experience?

[Recursoinominado]

Nice! Tell us more about how you did it.

[OBEler]

@Anton Rogachevski this can't come out of nowhere. Had you a deep understanding of god already? How important was that?

What was the trigger?

[Carl-Richard]

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

@Anton Rogachevski What did you experience?

 

1 hour ago, OBEler said:

@Anton Rogachevski this can't come out of nowhere. Had you a deep understanding of god already? How important was that?

What was the trigger?

Haha.

[Hojo]

What did he look like?

[Carl-Richard]

29 minutes ago, Hojo said:

What did he look like?

Is this an episode of Seinfeld?

[kray]

18 hours ago, Anton Rogachevski said:

Yes! It's so profound beyond any words. All I’ve said before is but the faint, flickering shimmer of a dying candle - dim beside the blazing light of all the suns in the universe. Thank you God!

God is Love!

There's nothing to do but cry in pure ecstasy of Love and to just experience infinite gratitude.

By the way, it's not through psychedelics. I am extremely sober. It does feel like MDMA x10 though.

Sure buddy

[kbone]

@Anton Rogachevski

Hugs.

Imo, don't talk about anything for a while. No point in doing so. Settle into the Presence. 

[Anton Rogachevski]

As I said, nothing I can say will do it justice. I don't think that it was completely non-dual as I was sober, but the intensity of love was just unimaginable. I'm still in disbelief and integrating.

I think it might be an intense Heart Awakening. God was there but as presence of Divine Love.

The self was there, but it was like a faint and insignificant little shadow, but the whole of me seemed an infinite light. 

The trigger very surprisingly was a very loving romantic relationship. I never thought something like this can induce such a state. 

When we are together we just stare into each other's eyes in disbelief, and it feels timeless and like an amazing unity. It's not even close to any other relationship, like 100x times more loving. I just don't have words I keep saying "wow you are an angel I love you" and the words seem like empty shells compared to what's in front of us.

Edited July 13 by Anton Rogachevski

[Anton Rogachevski]

@OBEler

I did study and contemplate it for nearly 10 years. So I had the fish net when going fishing

As I said surprisingly it was a very loving romantic relationship that triggered it! 

Edited July 13 by Anton Rogachevski

[Anton Rogachevski]

@kray Why do you think that your belief or disbelief matters?

[Anton Rogachevski]

2 hours ago, Hojo said:

What did he look like?

The shape was not revealed, but it felt like every part of experience was Divine and shinning intensely with unconditional Love and just a pure bliss. It's formeless in a sense.

[Anton Rogachevski]

@kbone ❤️

[Breakingthewall]

6 hours ago, Anton Rogachevski said:

@kray Why do you think that your belief or disbelief matters?

I guess that matters to you since you are trying to convince us about your happiness 

[UnbornTao]

Is it a state then, as you said? Try to put your experience into words. 

Great to hear.

Edited July 13 by UnbornTao

[Anton Rogachevski]

3 hours ago, UnbornTao said:

Is it a state then, as you said? Try to put your experience into words. 

Great to hear.

Perfection comes to mind. The thought that "I wouldn't change anything about this experience."

It is revealed through the higher state apparently. You can only call it a "state" if you remember other states, which are not present in the now. Like now, I can only refer back to it as a state because I can recall it and compare to the present state, that we usually call the "normal" state.

Edited July 13 by Anton Rogachevski

[Anton Rogachevski]

@Breakingthewall

Not so much just to share a cool experience and to try to find more words to describe it through talking with you guys.