Challenge: Invent A New Word

[Joshe]

29 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

took me a long time to admit that maybe I was right and everyone around me was just stupid, even though I learned across layers why and how it would suit survival, role dispersal and societal homeostasis, the level of unawareness still overshadowed any type of justification to keep any of it up though, not knowing what to do about it either.

haha, yeah, I never wanted to admit it either. I just always told myself they were all capable of seeing the same things I see, their thinking just needs to be adjusted. They don't care because they can't see, I thought. They're so petty because they haven't contemplated it. All they have to do is contemplate it, right??  😂 There were multiple opportunities to join, and I tried many times, but in the end, I couldn't betray myself even if I wanted to. 

[Keryo Koffa]

28 minutes ago, Joshe said:

haha, yeah, I never wanted to admit it either. I just always told myself they were all capable of seeing the same things I see, their thinking just needs to be adjusted. They don't care because they can't see, I thought. They're so petty because they haven't contemplated it. All they have to do is contemplate it, right??  😂 There were multiple opportunities to join, and I tried many times, but in the end, I couldn't betray myself even if I wanted to. 

I've recently been continuously extending my consciousness in the realm of synchronicity and universal sub-telepathy, integrating perspectives, tearing down all my defenses, and inviting global judgement of all my insecurities, flaws and cringe aspects, then having perceived all its sources continue by stating controversial sentiments that betray the majority of the field while forcing awareness and uncomfortable truths to be diffused into collective consciousness. And then suddenly everyone was reaching out to me, full of doubts, questions, suggestions without me physically having communicated or reached out to anyone, it felt like I had withdrawn the energy that previously manifested them as npc fillers within my experience and made them independent sources that jumped up a spiral stage and were now projecting the most superficial lessons that came from that onto me, quite hilarious, as if I was the center of the world, but if I was, I sure wouldn't be on Earth. 🤭

Still got shadows, but I also know the narrative machine that postpones evolution because it waits for me to embody a generic arc, and I'm calling its bluff because if I don't get to create my world then it may as well abstract my consciousness away and stop pretending there's free will.

Edited yesterday at 02:18 AM by Keryo Koffa

[Joshe]

4 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

I've recently been continuously extending my consciousness in the realm of synchronicity and universal sub-telepathy, integrating perspectives, tearing down all my defenses, and inviting global judgement of all my insecurities, flaws and cringe aspects, then having perceived all its sources continue by stating controversial sentiments that betray the majority of the field while forcing awareness and uncomfortable truths to be diffused into collective consciousness. And then suddenly everyone was reaching out to me, full of doubts, questions, suggestions without me physically having communicated or reached out to anyone, it felt like I had withdrawn the energy that previously manifested them as npc fillers within my experience and made them independent sources that jumped up a spiral stage and were now projecting the most superficial lessons that came from that onto me, quite hilarious, as if I was the center of the world, but if I was, I sure wouldn't be on Earth. 🤭

Still got shadows, but I also know the narrative machine that postpones evolution because it waits for me to embody a generic arc, and I'm calling its bluff because if I don't get to create my world then it may as well abstract my consciousness away and stop pretending there's free will.

It’s interesting you say that. I’ve arrived at a similar recognition. I wrote down on a whiteboard 2 years ago “everyone is for you”. It’s still there and I glance at it from time to time and I say to myself “ yes, that’s true, but I’m ignoring it for now”, and I continue on with the npc filler. 

Sometimes I’ll be doing some mundane task like washing dishes and think of how I’ve gotten lost in irritability towards them, and I’ll recall that it’s all for me, then contemplate why, and my best hypothesis is transcendence. 

Postponement is a good word. I’m doing just that. 

Edited yesterday at 06:31 AM by Joshe