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The path I walk is long, since I'm fueled by continuous deconstruction and recontextualization of reality instead of just being content which if I really willed, I could be since the path is infinite anyway, but I need to realize it like becoming meta of what I'm talking about right now, which I do for example by writing this very sentence and diverging from my original intention by new realization, but then I have priorities that keep me in the loop, because I'm not willing to let them go or change my awareness yet out of a deluded sense of obligation in hope of getting there after I conclude my local task. So anyway, I've had 10 Psychedelic Trips in last 3 months and the insights are my continuous spiritual insights. 1 Letting go of disorders, fears and phobias and getting back to old friends 2 Feeling alive and getting in tune with my body, emotions, senses and passions 3 Revisiting my past to reexperience nostalgia and dancing for the first time 4 Immortality lost appeal when contextualized to be a prison of my own creation 5 Seeing the nature of society, its structure and myself within it, quit my job 6 Unlocking cognitive speedrunning and witnessed myself and others ethologically 7 Realizing I was the alien I was looking for all along, materializing in body 8 Becoming aware of universal consciousness and a transcendent "puppet-master" 9 Breaking through fear-rationalization, consciousness disconnect and letting go 10 Clearing my "cache" and old "to-do" pointers, realizing them now instead So I'm really getting the feeling of trembling next to a singularity at this point and I want to conclude and let go of all the memories that keep me localized by reexperiencing them and then letting go, my physical environment and my computer is full of ideas I saved in a desire to realize them at some point, but the desire is recontextualized now and no longer authentic, I still feel that I need to fully immerse myself in those one last time to show my past self some love, before I completely change my trajectory towards conscious practical spiritual in the present living without baggage, being mobile, unattached, all reasoning top down from universal recontextualization and transforming it at every new insight and recontextualizing anew, intuiting the arbitrariness of the process and living on ever less concepts and instead point to reality more, building holistic minimalistic contextualized theories instead. So that's where I'm at, and being aware, open and having let go, I will soon recontextualize myself anew in my next trip. But not before squeezing as much consciousness out of myself as possible before tripping, since the trip is a multiplier to base consciousness, and I can do so much more now, before I enter another wave of synthetic accelerationism. Truly I'm intuiting that my identity is the process of getting closer to an asymptote instead of becoming the value out of ego-identification, but it only takes one move to change that when aware, and I'm leaving that for later \

I had my experiences but as I focus more in direct experience I sort of close myself a bit to this StarSeed thing So, who here had, have or know how to explain how can this StarSeed thing make sense at all with Awakening ? May not be possible that all this Starseed thing is all another way to th ego have another background to avoid realizing that all there is is this, here, now? But anyway would be nice hear from Leo since he himself is an Alien https://typicallytopical.com/starseed-types/ Did your soul really originate on Earth? Or are you of Starseed origin? Close to 78 million beings on Earth were sent here from planets, galaxies, and star clusters far beyond our solar system. These intergalactic, Lightbringer beings are known as Starseeds https://typicallytopical.com/starseed-types/

I'm pretty sure when you realize there's nothing behind you its the beggining of you getting sucked put of 3d. I had a similar feeling it felt like something was sneaking up behind me and I kept turning around in a circle cause it was scary but it was always behind me. I had to just sit there in the fear it brought and I got sucked out of my body. If you can sit there with no fear and focus on a dot on the wall shit will get way crazier you will faze put of reality like link does in when he going into the dark world. And you will see other dimensions. Totally alien dimensions and you will just be watching. I hear a voice and it told me to focus on a dot on the wall. it felt like my conciousness was a rock wrapped in a plastic bag and the bags handles were outside the back of my head and someone was pulling it but my conciousness was too big. Then I just totally let go and my conciousness was naked and I slipped out. Its like an insane trance. Its like a portal opens in your mind and you can get sucked out.

@OldManCorcoran i was watching a sadhguru video and he was talking about aliens and said they were cardboard cut outs too. When I saw an alien it was 2d. I will have to train my brain to see cardboard people. Very interesting to contemplate philosophical cardboard zombies

Alien women is where it’s at.

the most constructed mind vs the most deconstructed mind, or the least conscious mind vs the most construct aware mind. it'll be something like a religious fundamentalist vs leo gura. the more you deconstruct your mind the more you deconstruct boundaries between men and women, human and animal, human and machine, religious and atheist, men and god, men and alien... the more constructed your mind is the more you feel like reality is outside of you and you have no control over it. the more deconstructed your mind is the more you become like god and become more conscious. take an example at a religious fundamentalist vs a blasphemous hedonistic atheist. which one do you think has more freedom and is more godlike? counterintuitively it is the blasphemous hedonistic atheist. Literally you have more options and freedom in life and is more godly in your existence. that explains the charlie hebdo phenomenon for example. when you understand that religion is a construction of your mind, you can play around with it, whereas when you take it as physical reality, you become a terrorist and assassinate the blasphemous atheist. because for you good and evil are also not a mental construct but objective reality, and you see charlie hebdo as evil. That's why religious people have a very strong duality between, god and satan, good and evil, halal and haram, heaven and hell, the believers and the infidels... That's why they have problems with technology and science look at the amish, the hasidic jews, the mennonites... the more you become conscious the more you blurr boundaries. that's where racism, homophobia, religious intolerance, animal exploitation, transphobia, sexism, denial of science and technology comes from. people have their mind so rigid and constructed, they're not evil people, they're just living in a separate reality, very unconscious. after religious fundamentalism, comes something like materialism, then something like the new age, then something transhuman/transrational. Notice each time an increase in freedom and consciousness. atheists have their minds more deconstructed than religious people, even though atheists themselves don't understand this, they think they're more rational than religious people, no, they're just more conscious. that's why atheists tend to be more open minded, less homophobic, racist... the more racist, homophobic, xenophobic, religious fundamentalist, a person is, the more unconscious it is, the more reality feels real, tangible and outside of oneself, because oneself and the world is also a duality, which is not deconstructed, mind and materialism isn't deconstructed. and real and unreal isn't deconstructed. That's why religious people have such strict rules about how to live life, they don't realize these rules are mentally constructed. it's not just the racism, homophobia, close mindedness, science denial.. it's a whole reality, very firm, very constructed, very strict in morals and upsetting god for the most little thing, represses sex... The more deconstructed your mind is the more like a yogis you become. That's why psychedelics are powerful. related to this topic:

Happy Holidays! Watch out for Alien Santa.

Well, as some guys in the Other section of Science, Technology know, I am diving now in the AI art scene. I am still working in my music composition endeavors, singing, percussion and Ukulele. But long ago drawing was a thing for me but I never took it to next levels because to reach the level of expertise to draw by hand what I wished to bring into manifestation was to time consuming for someone who needed to work in 7-9 jobs. Now I am having a little by leeway or space to recreate my direction. So, I feel that with better equipment and allinging the internet marketing I start making magic with AI. My ask for help is from those here who are more Tech savvy and could share links or a coherent path for me to settle a Parteon or whatever best venue of selling my creations. With AI in want to re-create some visions I have in my Ayahusca explorations, also translate spiritual concepts into image. To create covers for my future music albums and on-demand power images for people. For example, I feel that if one can get inspired by the image of a fractal or sacred geometry, why not get inspired by an energy image that represents a magical being. Why to hope to contact an Alien if you can create one ? So below is one of my recent creations. My ideia is to sell it in prints, t-shirts so people can dress the energy of the image. I love to create crazy beings like the other one below the Godess, but I feel more drived to create Divine beings that Horror. So, who from you guys know the sequential steps to set a profuse art selling online shop? I am still doing my own research online but open to get more clear pointers. Thank you.

. Very true. Imagine you invent AWAKE (tm), put in some leading edge Alien style high level exploration of manifestation, like really avant-garde relative level exploration, belittle Enlightenment (or seeing the dream sobre for what it is) because you are still looking at the show through the lenses of the still quite well and alive you—know—who. And two(!) of the forum mods you selected yourself actually get enlightened and don’t deviate a single inch from their position. Ever. Because Absolute Truth = unchanging or eternal. What are the odds for that? Ain’t God having fun and watching out for the (at least longterm) more or less healthy development of its Lila at the same time? So thanks a lot, because of that „coincidence“ Water at the River can actually enjoy his holiday on Tenerife without any need for commenting on the latest Solipsism—confusion, because it’s already handled very competently. Like the absolutely wonderful two sentence answer above. Happy holidays everyone!

Many factors. I want to try it orally by some extracts, I have the intuition it will make the experience much better as in the shamanic context of Mexico is the first psychedelic they introduce the student shaman to. So the 4 dangerous factors for me are: 1 Total Loss of memory. 2 Total Loss of body movement 3 Salvia feels Alien 4 Nasty visceral Ego-deaths. It's called the backdoor of Death So, why is memory a problem? You forgot you took any drug, you are tripping balls you don't remember life being any other way, what is, is the only explanation you have, and it feels weird and unnatural. Scientific studies show that they trigger the same receptors of craving that heroin addicts have, among many other things, so the experience is Truly Amazing but there is this strange background noise that you cannot put your finger on. 2 You can crack your skull open while your POV is an elve mechanic world. In DMT that could happen but body stays (usually) calm and relaxed lying down. You can find crazy videos in the internet of people absolutely losing control of the body and doing the weirdest things you can imagine. 3 It feels weird man. Like 5meo is hella crazy but feels home you see. Salvia is hella crazy and feels weirdly exotic like it has nothing to do whatsoever with anything in the Human-frame. 4 You think you've had an ego death till you have an ego death in Saliva Extra: They call it the yonqui humbler, imagine how strong it is. I don't have more than 10 Salvia Trips under my belt but I took the decisions to leave it aside. Just for the one reason that I couldn't make any sense of it, so unique, so itself. In fact, I'm in love with salvia, it's such a profund mystery that only a handful of humans have gone into.

I don't like suffering nor get a kick out of it nor do I like to see others suffer. Of course, I love my identity and my ego because it is still perfection, and is God. I know the I is also God you don't. Change and uncertainty can be frightening for some you have been changing your whole life and it has always been in a way uncertain so what is new? Most humans will have no idea what a real visceral fear is and never will. Religion and spirituality are but distractions just like I am distracting myself now. Let go of all your attachments and desires because they cause suffering. Now where have I heard this before? The point of this dream is to experience your desire to have attachments have fun or don't. But all this is entirely up to you. Whatever path or paths you choose to take never harm others or yourself. Have faith in your faith. Faith is another human concept of course it is. Faith is an attachment to another one of your beliefs. That teacher who lives in a cave and is no self has no thoughts and has turned off his monkey mind and no attachments. That sounds somewhat limiting your consciousness. So where do you believe these thoughts arise from in the first place? Out of thin air? what you are saying is they are not God's own thoughts. I don't know, well are they or aren't they? And you say he has no attachments left. How does he acquire food? the villagers feed him okay what about sleep? Yes, does he have to still wee and poo? Yes, what happens if the cave crumbles? he will find another. And you say he has no attachments?? As long as you are still breathing you are attached so good luck with that. I have an affinity for infinity. How could you not be misled and beguiled by your infinite beauty? God is infinite seduction. There is no difference between you being a cartoon character or an amine or alien in some distant world or whatever you can imagine. Just like Leo becoming a cartoon wolf. kind of reminds me of Who Rimmed Roger Rabbit. That does not sound accordingly. No, it is who framed Roger Rabbit. I kind of remember there was a wolf in it, or perhaps not. Anyway, if you were to be conceptualized or transposed into that dream as that being or character you would believe that to be your reality. And if in that reality you were a cartoon character and let's say you took some kind of mind-altering cartoon drug and you experienced this other reality where you were human or you were viewing in that dimension it would blow your cartoon mind. Kind of like when Homer falls into a black hole and somehow migrates or transcends his reality into are so-called human reality mind scrape dream world what have you. In Homer's mind, he may believe that it was all just his imagination a hallucination, a dream, or perhaps he believed he fell into another dimension who knows what Homer would think? I have experienced a two-dimensional landscape or plane of existence and amongst other things of course infinity. You are just used to this particular perception as a so-called human. Like any good actor, you should be able to lose yourself in that part and forget who you are for a time.

Self-inquiry? Are you trying to make me realize no-self or something? I'm looking for solipsism and alien consciousness, not some boring state of no self. That's old news, I've realized that a bunch of times already. There's much more to discover in consciousness, it's infinite after all. You're not gonna transform into a cartoon wolf by doing self-inquiry, so you might as well just quit.

@Bandman I haven't tried DMT yet, although I did try ayahuasca, my cooking might not have been good enough, or maybe tolerance already kicked in. In short. Week 1: 15g strong truffles, 2 days later 15g (some hallucinations, but only on strong effort and focus), 2 days later 44g, 2 days later 88g (overstimulated, amnesia, time loop, bad trip, but no hallucination). Weeks later: 44g (very mild face morphing only), day later 30g, day later 14g. Weeks later 150ug 1P-LSD (no hallucination), days later 600ug (no hallucination in the first 2 hours, then fell asleep due to exhaustion, missed trip). Weeks later: 150ug again, no hallucinations. Weeks later: 10mg 2C-B (no hallucinations), day later multiple psychedelics (no hallucinations), day later (low dose ayahuasca + 150ug LSD + 20mg 2C-B no hallucinations, probably tolerance), day later repeat, day later 22g truffles (great trip, no hallucinations) The long version: I started 3 months ago. I took 15g of the netherlands' strongest magic truffles (psilocybin), spedrun all insecurities and completely dissolved social anxiety. Second trip two days later was the same, I got fully in tune with my body. Then two days later I took 44g, had a beautiful nostalgic evening. I tried 70g two days after that and was lost in an existential amnesia bad trip that felt like I would lose my consciousness forever if I fell asleep. I recovered tolerance and came back after a few weeks, tried 44g again, ranted about humanity and my role within it all night, repeated next night, my body felt alien, my energy was hyper, a medium dose the morning after that, I perceived humans and myself through the lens of us just being more evolved animals but it was all interpretation. I returned some weeks after that, I unlocked my interconnective and learning capacities on a blotter of 150ug of 1P-LSD, got so in tune with my body I started doing handstands for the first time in my life, at the end I felt as if I was an alien coming into this body, materializing, but all intuition, no perception. I tried 600ug of LSD before I had to leave but was so tired I only managed to stay awake for 1.5 hours, there was more traces in my vision, more motion, I felt more anxiety about people outside the hotel talking in the rain and being seen despite closed curtains. But I didn't see anything unreal and fell asleep. Few weeks after that had my first god realization on 150ug of LSD again, I intuited that everything is connected by consciousness, emotions swarmed into me. I saw the branches of trees as a conceptual network, I imagined a raisin as a solar system, but it was all conscious imagination. I had a psychedelic week last week, I started with 10mg of 2C-B-FLY, it felt like my first trip, instant happiness, love, couldn't stop smiling like my first LSD trip. Thought about many things. Felt trapped in solipsist zero-sum emotion projection, but no visual changes, just thoughts, projection, imagination. Actually, the night before I started the psychedelic week, I had my first nightmare in a dozen years, maybe in anticipation. Then I was in a half asleep state after I woke up from it, said something, heard that repeated as I fell asleep in my dream, woke up, said something, heard it again, felt scared, heard breathing, freaked out, woke up, felt hard to move, my blanket seemed to be pulled down from both sides by an external force, scared the shit out of me, but it subsided after seconds, that wasn't even on any psychedelics though and long after my last trip. The second day of the psylic week, I mixed some LSD and 2C-B with the intention of letting go, my mind felt in love with reality again, I made lots of peace with it, my awareness rose, I could control my body more directly, like inverse kinematics in the entire body, also heat energy from the environment and myself in a holistic sense and conception, but no hallucinations. On the third day I cooked some ayahuasca, like 50g and 25g of caapi and chacruna, boiled the water away at 70-80C, drank, it felt like a mid dose of truffles, mixed more psychedelics, not that big an increase, went outside, felt more in tune with nature and my bodies capacities like running and breath. Tried 10x salvia on the forth day, never smoked in my life, probably did it wrong, didn't show much of any effects. Got myself 22g of truffles for the fifth day and that was amazing, had vivid day dreams but still consciously constructing them, very in tune with the universe but no hallucinations. And now I'm here, my senses are sharpened, I see objects with more contrast, saturation, balance my body better, run and breathe like never before, do what I was afraid to before, change my life 180 but still no hallucinations. Only on my second trip, the first hour I stared at the ceiling in the dark, there was this pattern, I kept reinterpreting it, I felt scared, focused on one object, it felt like I consciously interpreted dark figures around it, but I wasn't scared because I was depressed and had other priorities in my life to work out. On my fifth trip, I saw my face stretching and morphing a bit, but I was too focused on recording my rant to focus on it. Ideas: I was always hyper-conscious about how everyone perceived me and always needed to be in control, it might be that I need to let go of that. I haven't let down my guard even on the handful of occasions where I drank alcohol, I passed out on a bottle of whiskey, but never lost my composure until I passed out, alcohol doesn't work on me. I might be too protective, too in control, not letting lose enough, I might be able to induce it if I take a high dose after tolerance reset.

I was referring to something different under suffering, but you want to go extreme, as usual . All right, I will address this question. It is very interesting question, I appreciate it. “Would you be happy if you tested positive cancer? Or if your children die in a car accident? Or if you become blind? And I mean the list can go on and on.” – actually, you would. You would be surprised how much a human being can take, survive, and adapt to the change. I do not want to sound cynical but a lot of people who went through these situations at some points of their lives have accepted and surrendered to these horrible incidents. I know such people. Some of them are members of my family who had cancers, not even one. My own grandmother lost her son when he was little. It is scary how human being can rebound and move on in life. Let’s put it this way: there are two different types of situations in life. In one situation we can not do anything and must accept the outcome and change/adapt, we do not have a choice: death, illness, disability. You go through all the stage of grief and coping mechanisms. (Denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression and finally acceptance.) A lot of people who have terminal illness come in peace right before their death. A lot of people escape death and recover. Notice, there is no suffering in it at the end. It is just a gradual process that begins and continues with suffering and morphs into something else. In another situation we can do something but choosing not to, and staying in the victim mode, pleasuring from suffering, even though might not realize it. It is not in your nature to suffer, fundamentally. That is exactly what I meant when I wrote that you even love your suffering. Everyday suffering, long-term. One that can be escaped or transcended but for some reasons is there and tiring you. Do you see now how different suffering can be? Why do you think you have this insatiable desire to know “yourself”? Because deep down you know that you’ve tricked yourself into thinking you are a limited human being, and now you want to break free from it. Because you also know that suffering is alien to your nature. Let’s be honest. If you get blind one day, what would you do after the 5th stage of grief? You would probably go inward and develop in that direction, listening to audiobooks, meditating a lot on nature. You would use this as an opportunity to realize that you are not just your solid body. You would adapt. You would develop other senses better, might start composing your own music or play on the handpan. Unless you have a mental disorder, then you could kill yourself, but if you are pretty healthy, you would find a coping mechanisms. when you do not want to find coping mechanism nor transcend suffering, you might start enjoying it as well. I would be careful and avoid such negative statements, you realize that you will be shown exactly what you believe in? there is no compromise in it. When one realizes "he" is infinite in all aspects, man....these all mundane things become irrelevant. That is exactly what we are doing here. Still not convinced?

Traditional nuclear plants are very expensive to build and mentain, they produce lots of radioactive waste, it can create Cernobil situations in cases of earthquake, war etc. and it is just scary for the average people, especially stage green paranoia folk Solar power will be the future I think, because it will be dirt cheap. We just need cheaper batteries to store all that energy during the night/lack of sun. The small modular fission reactors would be something if you can't make renewables do the job. Fusion reactors or some alien technology will eventually replace all this crap, even solar panels would look like a joke.

That will show him! Topic: I thought he meant in a way that he disagrees with the man, in that his memories or understanding of the alien was wrong.

An alien would have a 5 hour long interview with him.

We need Leo to tell the alien it isn't AWAKE™ and then send it off to its home planet with some DMT

I wish Leo would be there, he would immediately have a deep existential discussion with this alien being and teach him some lessons. Also Leo would send him some homework if he ever made it back to his planet.

I don't know then, I avoid these theoretical discussions like the plague, since it never leads anywhere. Leo can say he knows exactly why this is impossible and still be dead wrong, and you can make any argument for and against it and still be either 100% wrong or 100% right and never know. If the doctor said he observed the alien heal his skin, flesh and bones within 24 hours then the mf can heal, case closed. Why would you believe that the doctor witnessed an alive alien in front of him, but reject some small part of his story about alien healing if he said he saw it happen? That story is crazy in Its entirety, and we're only going to disagree about the healing?

It's such a Leo move to disagree with a hyper-intelligent alien species off the get-go

No the alien was talking about their race, that they can heal themselves and then Leo says he disagrees, I don't get it.

What he probably means is that he has a better understanding of humans than aliens on this subject, otherwise why would he state his opinion so strongly on something he knows he has less understanding of than Aliens? I don't know why would aliens say something like that, as if diet, exercise and proper sleep are not the best ways to 'repair our bodies'. Very vague, could've just told him how to do it Mr. Alien instead of blabbering about some shit he knows we won't be able to understand. "Rub space emeralds into your penis and see how good you feel"

I can’t tell if this is a serious question or not. That’s some alien wizardry right there

On Leo's last blog post he says he disagrees with the aliens. I get confused here. Are you saying this part of the testimony is false? Did the alien lie or the surgeon? Sounds to me like this is Leo's bias because of your personal health issues, and I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with your health, that really sucks. Perhaps the aliens can heal themselves but humans with alien consiousness cannot?