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@Rezo gelenidze Don't commit suicide by killing your body. Commit suicide by killing your ego. Life will continue without an ego. Thoughts like "I want to be special", "I am not good enough" will vanish. Because the "I" that wants those things will vanish. Remove your ego and live a live in peace, bliss, calmness, regardless of your circumstances.

It has been quite a while since I've posted here, but I think this is worth sharing. About 8 years ago, I had a very profound enlightenment experience. I posted about that here: In short, I had a very clear and direct experience of the true Self. From that moment on, I could see the Self clearly. For months, I lived in a state of bliss. I concluded that the search was over and simply carried on with life. But eventually, the ego returned and began to take hold of me again. I never "forgot" the true Self, it’s not something you can truly forget, but over time, the ego slowly regained significance. I found myself in a strange place: on one hand, knowing deep down that nothing was truly real, and on the other hand, being heavily invested in the world, in my business, my family, and everyday life. Old patterns resurfaced. Addictions returned. Depression crept back in. Mood swings, distractions, a sense of being lost. Sometimes I would meditate or watch a video from a spiritual teacher, but I didn’t have a clear vision or direction anymore. I also struggled with my business. Before starting it, I had a clear goal in mind, nothing huge, and I reached it around 2019 or 2020. After that, I had no new direction, no motivation. I kept doing what was required, but I was often just distracting myself, gaming during work hours and avoiding deeper engagement. In 2018, I attended a 5-day retreat with Mooji, which was a profound experience. During those days, I returned to that blissful state. But once I came back to "normal" life, the ego quickly returned and took over again. Then, last year, something changed. I discovered a new teacher here in my own country: Hans Laurentius. A very down-to-earth man, but clearly someone who knows what he’s talking about. At one point, he said something like, “You need to live there.” And it hit me: I had known the Self, but I had never actually made a consistent effort to stay there. Others had said the same: Mooji often says, “Marinate in it.” Ramana Maharshi said, “Stay with it.” I had made half-hearted attempts before, but I never stuck with it. Until now. About two weeks ago, I began going deeper. And it worked. Every time I felt suffering, I could quickly identify the source: a mind-made construct. The one who was suffering was just a concept. The “me” character is only a thought, deeply rooted, yes, but still just a thought. I had to dig it out. And when I did, bliss. No more "me." No more ego. Just being. Just being, like I experienced eight years ago. Like during the retreat. And really, it never left. It’s always been here. Now, then, when I was a child, even in sleep, always. Without the noise of the mind, everything feels so natural. Desire is gone. Work? I let it flow. Whatever comes, comes. There’s no more “I want to achieve this,” because there is no “I” to chase anything anymore. So now, I stay here, with the Self. I don’t see the ego returning anytime soon. But who knows? Still, I don't think it even wants to. When I was identified with the ego, I sometimes had thoughts of wanting to die. And in a way, I did. But the "I" that died was only the ego.

If I'm the only dreamer then how do I wake up from this dream and what happens to me when I die is it madness, limbo, bliss, divine schizophrenia or super self awareness manyfold spiritually but without human distracts to escape myself

I do comprehend all of that. But knowing what God is, does not answer the question. I feel I have a different integration of the term Love. Which means I will only ever answer the question in a different way... For myself solipsism can never be the conclusion, as at the heart of my integrated love is sacrifice, surrender. And the knowledge that others are so real... to touch another, to see them for exactly who they are. Accept. Taste them, fall asleep arm in arm, heartbeats as one. Breath, as one. Caring for another, wanting nothing else in return. Such things cannot be born from a conclusion like solipsism. The fragments of one individuated consciousness meeting another. The pure bliss of it, removed of the fanciful romantic definitions of love. In that moment there is no time. You swim with another consciousness in pure earnest authenticity. Close your eyes and senses and there is no more material reality. Just two points of light vibrating. None of this can be reduced to a single experience being projected. This is WHY God allowed fragmentation, for this real experience. This experience is outside sensation, as sensation cannot even begin to describe it. This for me, is not simply a reduction to human love. Romantic love. It is the connection to another consciousness that once experienced destroys any options of solipsism being true. It is outside of reality, and yet, channeled into it via the sacred body. I think you will reduce the above to woo or new age turds. And sure, you are free to - in which case we agree to disagree. But this is exactly why the conclusion of Solipsism is false - because Love.

The excuse for ignorance is that it is preferable to growing intelligence and awareness. Both of which lead to greater understanding of the reality and world we live in. This understanding then creates suffering, anxiety and angst in the one that grows to understand. The avoidance of those feelings is why ignorance is so prevalent. Anything to be had that sits behind things like suffering and boredom will be avoided by most people. "Ignorance is bliss". You have to change when you know better and change means death to a part of you. Examples include: using less AI when you find out how much water is used to cool it, not eating meat when you see the conditions under which the animal is raised etc.

At 6PM I drank a small class of psilocybin mushrooms mixed with coca, put on an eye mask, laid back and waited for the effects to begin. Prior to this experience I had experienced several affirmations from the cosmos that this experience was in fact ordained. The first was a surprisingly wise quote from a my best friend who isn't known for saying wise things, the second was the approval from my teacher which came by way of not disapproving of my journey, and finally the day of. I blew a small amount of hape' up my nose in the morning and asked it to help get me ready for the mushroom experience. At that time I was highly anxious and considering backing out of the event all together. The hape' did just that. It caused me to cry which released a lot of stored mucus and allowed for the energy to pass through me. By the time I was finished with the experience, I was no longer afraid to take the mushrooms. These three events served as affirmations that this experience was in fact an ordained or approved experience from the Universe. An hour before, the shaman entered and asked us to pick a spirit card. My spirit card as 'where heaven meets earth'. When I read the book that came along with the cards to express its meaning it stated (something along the lines of)- You got this, the universe has got you, what is destiny will occur. Step forward with no fear. So I lay there on my mat, waiting for the experience to come on as nature sounds eminated from a small speaker in the living room. The shaman walked around reminding us to breathe and to surrender. For the next series of events, I want to use a timeline as it'll help me better explain the different events that took place. This timeline is essentially arbitrary as throughout the duration of this experience, I had no concept of time. Nevertheless, 20 minutes in- I notice a shift in my perception. Normally my consciousness feels as though it is contained in some close proximity to the body. Suddenly, my consciousness extended throughout the room. No longer did I feel as though I were an entity in my head, I felt as though I was something within which a perceptual visual/ audio/ feeling sense-field appeared. 45 minutes to an hour in- The music changed from nature sounds to shamanic music. Beating of the drum, belting of the voice, strings, flutes and other naturalistic sounds played on the speaker. The sounds filled the room and took over my attention. I let the songs take me wherever they wanted to go and enjoyed the arrangement of the music. Each song took me on a journey in my mind. 1-2 hours in- At some point in time I got lost in the music and forgot about myself entirely. I entered trances within which I don't know what occurred. The feeling was primitive and animalistic. My body felt as though it was some sort of infant animal in a nest. My mind simplified. There were no thoughts in the traditional sense. Instead there were vast visions, dreamlike and ethereal. The gap between waking consciousness and sleep was exaggerated. I found myself in an 'in-between' state. You know how when you sleep there seems to be a gap in time between the moment you fell asleep and the moment you wake up? I was in a state where I could see a vivid universe unfolding in front of me like a dream but I could also see that empty place where nothing ever happens simultaneously. I was somewhere in between and beyond it all. It was here that my energy was liberated from all identity. I forgot who I was, where I came from, what was going on. Nothing mattered anymore. 3+ hours in- I was beyond existence and non-existence, yet somehow beings from throughout the universe called on me for help with suffering. I manifested myself into form and liberated them from suffering. One time, I became a cosmic Hindu dancer. My fingers and arms swirled around as a feminine energy filled me up and my movements healed countless beings. Once my work was done, my dance was over, I would then return to the state of being Beyond existence and non-existence. My Natural State. I recall waking up on the mat and remembering that I am a man and yet within myself I felt as though I was a women. Immediately following the remembrance, I transcended male and female, masculine and feminine and saw that choosing to be either of those is optional. I chose to be neither and rested in bliss. 4+ hours in- I began to come back into identification my body more and more as the medicine wore off. I began to remember my history, my family members, my girlfriend etc. Everything I remembered about myself felt painful. Rather than ignoring the pain, I just let it be and it went away on its own. I felt like a brand new being just born into life. The come down was an interesting experience because I watched all the parts of my mind come back online, one at a time. The ability to discern, the ability to differentiate, the feeling of the need to understand, to sum it all up, to know, etc. My history, my body, my sense of self all slowly came back online as the night came to a close. Realizations- 1) Part of what it means to be human is to be in a state of suffering. There is a seriousness to human consciousness that takes over and colors the experience of being. By seriousness, I mean, there is a kind of fear of lawlessness that racks the mind of the human being. A fear that at any moment, something terrible may occur. I found myself fearing that the physical reality I inhabited was so far removed from spirit that I couldn't trust others. This I call being born into the animal kingdom. 2) As I came down more, I entered a state of autism. I was deeply connected to the spirit in this state. So much so that communication, moving around in the world, completing tasks, etc. were difficult to accomplish. I felt at peace, gentle and wise. Yet if I were to be examined by a 'normal' person without the context of the psychedelic experience in mind, they may think me stupid and in need of medical attention. 3) Later, more complex parts of my mind came back online and speech was easier. A type of adulthood or maturity came online. No longer did I feel connected to spirit, I felt rather disconnected and rational. All I had left of that deep place within myself was memories. If a normal person were to view me here, they would say I was normal. 4) As the mind assimilated and I fell from grace into form. Layers of mind hardened as I fell until mind appeared as an external world. From there, mind fell further and I entered the animal kingdom, from there a state of autism and beyond that what we call sanity. Mind is currently falling deeper and deeper. This falling we call cognitive development. Modern science and healthcare see's cognitive development as a benefit but it isn't. It is a fall from grace. 5) Therapy to me seems kind of silly and pointless. The idea that you could talk someone into healing makes no sense and is probably non-sense. The idea that healing can occur at all beyond the bounds of shamanic ceremony and in the midst of unity seems preposterous. 6) The idea that there is some kind of spiritual work that needs to be done is preposterous to me. Any spiritual work that could be done is done on the perceived self. What I am is imperceivable. It is merely a matter of identification. Spiritual work is valuable but is not required. What I am is already whole and complete and is need of nothing. I have no mind, I have no self, I have no form. What work is there to do? 7) I listened to a record I was working on and I didn't like it. I saw my videos on YouTube and realized that the only reason I make those video is because I'm lonely in my life. 8) Going to college and becoming a therapist isn't my goal so much anymore. I think the path of a shaman may be closer to what I want to do if I want to heal others. 9) Psilocybin didn't help me heal in the way that it gave me life advice or some kind of relationship advice. Instead it allowed me to relive the infant stage of my life and to experience healthy parenting. As I lay in the bed, an infant, the experience reassured me, comforted me and loved me. This was healing. Another way it was healing was getting in touch with my true Self. Just being the true Self and getting to stay like that for a while is healing. My girl said that I avoided the 'work' and I disagree. The work isn't always crying and rolling around in misery. Sometimes the work is getting a chance to heal via positive experience rather than purging the negative.

Someone said that there is Kundalini and Kundalina, i myself skip this concept of kundalini. I rather talk in terms of the dragon or reptilian parts of the body. In my experience, in the first stage of awakening the reptilian parts, was something too much mind focussed. Later on in experience, is something like a naturality, regaining the naturality. Hallucinating to mind in the mind spectrum and kundalini concepts, only brings brief bliss and after months and years vanishes. So in conclusion, don't look for the spectacular. There is nothing spectacular in regaining your full faculties or potential, in reality is the other way around, you will feel strage aroung people and even animals. They say animals live their potential, maybe, but this world if full of dormant people who hate you without knowing they doing that. So, is complex. The awakening is something foreign to society. Loving outside the self bring more sleep. In reality the dogma about love should be focussed only on the self, there is no love outside, is anti natural to love outside of yourself. Outside you can call it acceptance, empathy or sympathy when it comes to other people. And one last thing, you don't have to love your enemies, as i said, loving others is just a social construct that leads to sleep and ultimately death.

I think she was just noting (perhaps based on her own memory) what the mind often does 'after' such events. Unconsciously, and as a sort of momentum of 'reasoning', the mind takes over. The appearance/construct of the 'I' held in mind takes credit for finding and/or being absolute truth; whereas, such appearances of I/ideas/experiences/memory/stuff only exist within/as the Absolute (which was glimpsed). Was there a 'you' or a 'god' there, or is that just the story, a mental overlay that the mind has conjured based on an assumptive 'I' and memories of an event of spaciousness/bliss? Was anything 'learned', or was there just a 'Being conscious as Consciousness'/ ABSOLUTE NOTHING type of dealio? Perhaps, we could tinker with your avatar name and say 'the Atman is within Brahman'. We're tinkering here in a way that won't 'add layers' of explanation and rev up the mind too too much (it can be a lil dominating stinkshit at such times- based on memory). But, perhaps the attempt here is to 'preserve' or bring in to focus some of the clarity that was realized so it can inform the mind of the Space within which it appears. The human mind is a tool, not the master. The distinction is clear. As per Plato's Cave allegory, 'you' had a glimpse outside the cave, and canNOT for your life NOT bestow value on the experience, but it somehow alludes you as to how or why it happened. And typically, the mind wants answers. The mind might start reeling a bit in an attempt to bring it into the confines of its reason of cause/effect, 'me' centeredness, and all the rest. Just relax a bit, settle into that spaciousness that you gnossis/realized is immediately present/available, and let it inform mind of its secondary role. The mind is the source of all follies of pursuit, from HERE/NOW... blank TV screens and all. There is not 'more and more consciousness' to pursue. No thing has been lost, physically, experientially or otherwise. There is nothing to say, but there is always more to say. There are no more levels to conjure, no more infinities to imagine.... Just THIS, appearances of thoughts/things popping up and disappearing in/as what I AM. FREE

Most people are aware that their negative thinking causes distortion in their relationships. But what most people are not aware of, is that positive thinking also causes distortion...but it causes distortion in how we perceive reality itself. Women are using men to enhance their self image. Men are using women to enhance their self image. This is just normal relating. But within doing this, we create a foundation of "We are separate". To hold unto or create a "positive self image" is still a mindset of separation, even though it feels really good and blissful. The "positive self image" grasps and clings and attaches to gain something. It wants to become or be something. There are 2 kinds of Unity. There is the Unity of the shared happy dream. (which is what I think most people want). This is where the Man and the Woman hold positive self concepts for either themselves or each other. In this state, they are often gracious and loving towards each other's shadow and trauma states. But on a mental level, they see distinct self images ..... self concepts.... often positive about each other....and they believe these are real. They think the positive stories and self concepts are actually real. This state of Unity feels like an oxytocin soup of bliss. haha It feels like heaven. But then there is also a deeper Unity where [both] positive and negative self concepts collapse. This is where a lot of the mental differences between Men and Women shatter completely. Romantic Love, as a mental concept, shatters here. Relationships, as a mental concept, shatter here. Marriage, Kids, Sex, etc. might still happen but the mind isn't attaching to an image of self. The barrier and block to reaching this state is usually clinging to "positive self concepts" or specialness. This is not a highly desired state but it's still a state of Unity. It can be argued to be a deeper Unity state because you both collapse into nothing. The actual truth is that Unity, on the level of mind, is already the case. There is nothing to join....because nothing was divided to begin with. The title "Why unity between man and woman will never be possible" implies that division took place. It is implying Unity isn't already here. But division never happened to begin with. There is nothing to connect or join or unify or bring together......because nothing was separated to begin with. On the level of the body, yes, men and women are divided physically. (though certain people debate this as well) But division does not exist on the level of the mind. [There is nothing to unify, because nothing was divided to begin with] is only seen clearly in the 2nd form of Unity. The 1st form of Unity, where you are blissfully Unified with a lover/spouse....but still clinging to self concepts of either a positive or negative variety, won't reveal this.

After following actualized.org for a couple years and diving into spirituality and existential contemplation, I might have had my first awakenings or mystical experiences. I’m curious if people on this forum can relate to this. I’m not sure if I should call them proper awakenings or glimpses of awakening, but I had these experiences on two separate occasions. I’ll explain the longer lasting one here. I was contemplating absolute truth after watching an actualized clip (I was completely sober and have never done psychedelics). I had heard about it countless times from Leo’s videos but didn’t really get it- I understood it intellectually but only on that level. As it turns out, there are deeper levels of understanding Leo’s videos- who would’ve thought? Basically, what happened was that I grasped what absolute truth is all at once and it was abundantly clear. I realized that I am in absolute truth already. I stared at a blank tv for about 30 minutes realizing that this is absolute truth. This was accompanied by a feeling of bliss and a sense that nothing could go wrong anymore with this realization, and this lasted for a couple hours. The thing is, these experiences went away, returning me to baseline consciousness. I’ve heard Leo mention being able to focus on absolute truth in his direct experience, but when I try that I can’t quite get there. I seem to generate some fantasy of absolute truth that is almost there but actually just an illusion of understanding when I inspect it. So the question is what to make of these experiences? Are they glimpses of awakening, actual awakening, a weird state of consciousness, or a self-deception? I’m aware that asking if an awakening is valid is ridiculous, but that’s what I’m asking 😄 This is the video I was watching, in case anyone wants to try their own Leo-fueled awakening. I found it to be very powerful.

Ignorance is bliss, that's why. You're ignorant too, to some degree; look at your punctuation.

@Breakingthewall so you could say that God is a mystery to itself forever and ever it will never know it's just pure mystery and in that mystery is Bliss

@freddyteisen I personally recommending stating with low dose phenethylamines. Getting comforting the epic transcendental space and gradually moved up. Long term this is better it provides you with a solid base to slowly build upon. If you jump dick first into a 5meo breakthrough it might snap your mind. Also look into combos, you can combine diazepam with 5meo to reduce fear. If your doing any tripping for 6-12 hour periods you can also look at getting some trip killers (olanzapine 🔥🔥). Some people in Martin balls book (facilitators) also used mdma + 5meo and said they seen "a lot" of this combo we think hundreds. There is more risk with serotonin syndrome with MD+5meo combo but it's yellow warning as opposed to orange or red. so from reports it's very roughly around a 0.2857% chance of getting serotonin syndrome and after you do get it, it's about a 0.13699% chance of death lol. The only reason I'd suggest something that has even a 0.00001% chance of death is cuz I personally tried nnDMT+mdma and it was the single most beautiful experience of my entire life. Mdma has this incredible effect on the removal of fear. No fear virtually. Quite amazing. But you'd need to do lots and lots of careful research before doing the 5meo+mdma combo. But there are reports of 5meo causing serotonin syndrome on its own. You have to appreciate the gravity of what your doing when you move towards the 5meo space. This all sounds very negative but trust me, if you can get it right...heaven. This is what I seen on my breakthrough (kinda) but the bliss...holy shit...:

It's easy to perceive, almost everyone who's in spirituality are pursuing bliss, immortality and feel accepted . Its a kind of evasion. Then in some moment they have some experiences, they match them with everything that they ve read and they think that they know the truth, but then, after some time some crisis happens. Almost no one is on the path to real enlightenment.

When they really want it. Not bliss, or evasion, or do psychedelic to believe that they are god imagining the reality like a game. just absolute openenss. If someone really want that, means that's ready

your problem is that you didn't focus on the truth, but on bliss. It seems the same, but it's very different.

Keep in mind that when Leo says there's something after death, it's not something he believes. Leo never "believed" in an afterlife, and nonexistence is a perfectly reasonable hypothesis pre-awakening. That's why I'm so critical of people's afterlife theories. Hell even an afterlife doesn't necessitate any kind of continuation of the personal self, of memory. If "you" got reincarnated into a medieval torture machine as you mentioned, that might not really be "you." Also, another point, if you did have an awakening into immortality, it's statistically more likely to come from a heavenly experience than a hellish one. The experience you had seems like just the very tip of awakening, not a full breakthrough. If you had reached full breakthrough , you'd be in bliss , not agony. I hope this helps a little bit. 🙏

@Carl-Richard You’re right. Many use weed with visions of creativity, introspection, or spiritual depth, but often it becomes an excuse, even a veil. The ideal stays just out of reach. The potential, postponed. I rely on the body—affirmations, imagination, and breath. Bliss, begins within. If life calls for it, anything will come naturally. If you truly seek bliss, go straight to the mind. It’s harder, yes—but far more rewarding. You get the clarity without the cost. That’s why I’d rather wait years than use it poorly. Honestly, I can’t even recall the last time I got “high”. I used to use it more than ideally. And I prefer to know to use sparingly.

Most are trying to go where they can get more for 'me'. When that gets exhausted, and the me is still found wanting, speerchal stuff/desires starts to arise, balancing out all the previous pursuits. That goes on and on. With any luck, the seeker will fail in the futile search for bliss, as it seen as unnatural. With the futility, one becomes more responsible for their self-serving ways. Once the little bugger has been seen for the construct that it is, and all the conditioned behaviors that have held it in such high esteem are seen for what they are, there's a chance that the Great Letting Go happens. One may realize that they were ACTUALLY always looking for THAT which is actually 'doing' the looking. No one 'knows' what makes that finally happen, but the futility is likely the key to the doorway that leads to the Great Surrender. Tat Tvam Asi

People can't help it, it's a reflection of God's desire to explore all of itself. Most will stop at merely surface level curiosity or theorizing, it's a whole another thing to actually willingly experience such states, if only temporarily. You say that we don't know that they exist, that's a good and honest starting point for any inquiry. But then you categorically claim they do not and cannot exist. How do you know that? What would actually be unimaginably terrible is for those states to not exist, that would diminish God's Infinity. Hence God does not imagine the universe like that. In your bias against hell, you deny it reality, essentially conceptually killing it. Heaven and you have neither more nor less right to exist than hell and a rapist. It's a very good thing that reality is not ran by your, mine, or anyone else's whims and preferences. That would be true hell. God is all-giving and all-forgiving, which makes it Love. There's no incompatibilities within God whatsoever, it will grant existence to absolutely everything, irrespective of how monstrous or beautiful it is. Imagine if God had some personal bias against you and would deny you existence. You'd probably think that's an evil God. In doing so, God casts you out of heaven, which is existence itself. Non-existence, therefore, is the actual hell. But precisely because God is absolutely infinite, non-existence is not a thing. So rest easy. Not even God can go against its own infinitude. Even though some parts of God can inflict an enormous and disproportionate amount of suffering on other parts, it's all temporary, fleeting phenomena, it will not persist forever, in the end all returns to God where all is healed and reconciled. Finite as they may be, they're essential, inalienable, and irreducible parts. Take away a single number from the set of natural numbers and it's no longer infinite. But you can keep adding to it forever. That's how Consciousness is, or rather it's a set of all sets that includes itself in an infinite recursion. Its perfection is not a static notion, it's in the eternal autonomous engine towards ever more perfection. That you don't see this is no accident, no finite form can fully. To have this temporary experience as yourself you need to deny that everything else is also you, otherwise there'd be no distinctions. Currently you deny hell as it's threatening to you. Many people today still deny others humanity due to their religion or race. I deny a mosquito life by killing it, as I'm biased towards not getting malaria. As we all must. The design couldn't be more intelligent, intricate, twisted, and beautiful. Every act of denial, violence, cursing, is performed by none other than God, on itself, having tricked itself into believing there are discrete objects. Similarly, all kindness and love given by someone to you and from you to them, are done by you for you. The illusion of separation plays a vital role, because it's rather easy to just love yourself. It's also easy to not hurt yourself, but refusing to abuse others even though you don't experience the suffering is the mark of goodness. Loving those parts of yourself you consider separate, particularly those that threaten, scare, or repulse you, is the real challenge. In essence, spirituality is about a gradual transition from denial to acceptance, including the acceptance of the fact that all the progress you've made will turn to ash and loop back around to denial. The more you do of it, the smoother the passing into death will be. How far you'll go in this acceptance is entirely up to you, one could even go in the opposite direction and construct a fantasy through denying truth and affirming falsehoods. Those are acts of creation too, so God loves it all the same. In its mercy it has given people an infinite capacity to deny reality, some even deny the moon exists and no amount of evidence in the world could convince them otherwise, because they're sovereigns. Still, an excessive denial of reality brings about its own ways of suffering, as does truth, so choose your poison. Over time, truth is easier, as it becomes effortless to act intelligently in alignment with reality. When you wake up and say "When I think about heaven... I imagine THIS", your "THIS" is severely limited — to your thoughts, body, house, maybe the view of your neighborhood. It's merely a "this"; the "THIS" you're probably not imagining consciously is someone getting raped, tortured, eaten alive, dying from a terminal illness, having a psychotic break in terror, yet it is undeniably happening simultaneously with you imagining your heaven. And you as God are personally responsible for it all. A heavy burden indeed, hence barely anyone chooses to perceive it. "All is imaginary" won't cut it as an excuse as by that point you're conscious that there's nothing more real than imagination. Yet that is Truth, and the unconditional acceptance of it is Love. Truth without Love is a cold, lifeless thing; Love without Truth is a fantasy. God has the highest power because it assumes full responsibility for everything, like a CEO or a leader of a country. But the CEO can blame the government for poor economic policy, and the president can blame some other country or weather conditions, while God can blame no one, there is no one else. That which you call unchanging bliss is the whole field of Consciousness within which all sorts of weird and impossible things are happening right this instant. Constant change is what's unchanging about it. There won't really be a you to 'enjoy' the bliss, but you'll no longer be separate from it either, which is the happiness of reunification. Better experience it partially as much as possible before then, as this perspective is unique, there won't be another like it. You could opt to stay statically dissolved in Love as long as you like, but it's a certainty that eventually the process of division will begin anew.

Easy .Jesus never even existed. Close your eyes ..think "Jesus". Now open your eyes ..where is "Jesus "? He only exists as a phantom of imagination in your mind .Leo has a great episode called "what is Actuality?". Check it out . Don't be so sure about that .maybe since God is Love that our ultimate destination in existence is eternal happiness. In fact for People who gave actually awoken..its not a " maybe " for them ..its undoubtedly true . I know an enlightened guy who runs a forum similar to this forum who told me after all of it ..you will end up in infinite never ending unchanging bliss .

Maybe there’s different forms of awakening? So not all of them lead to this “levitating with so much energy” id agree with you. I don’t agree with those who say it’s easy . Exactly , monks spend entire lifetimes and some dont get there still. I personally believe it’s something in the brain that creates the self so you gotta break through that You won’t believe this but what I have basically done since childhood is a form of observation of the self/self inquiry. And that’s why so much dissolved april 2023 I had a big breakthrough that put me in this subtle yet profound bliss So I’m stuck with this thin sense of self (that’s why I feel I barely exist) . And I’ve been stuck with for over a year now.

"Basically almost no sense of REALITY." You're confusing reality with illusion. When the ego dissolves, what you lose is illusion - time, stories, even perception of boundaries and separate things. And what you get is reality - a timeless, formless domain with peace and bliss. No more fear, no more worries, finally back home in Reality. This is causing you great confusion. You think you are losing reality when you are losing illusion. If you fix this confusion, you should be fine.

There's a right way of doing something and there is a wrong way. You did it the wrong way and then project that to all of islam. You can have extreme amounts of fun and bliss while also following the guidelines. Just because you can't manage it doesn't mean it can't be done

I mean listen to ekchart tolle's story. Miserable, suicidal for 28 years. Then one day woke up enlightened. Was in perfect bliss all the time. You probably heard the story.