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Within Buddhism they sort of acknowledge a lot of mystical experiences that don't have much to do with the path to the cessation of suffering, just like in Christianity that they have all kinds of ideas about miracles, demons and angels, etc. But we know that their goal is none of those things, they are just part of their universe. I think this is what can make religions have a certain flavor of what is possible within their universe, meanwhile others might not even register something as plausible. Like focusing at breaking down your field of consciousness is an extremely alien idea to Christianity, meanwhile within Buddhism it's close to the techniques they use to achieve their goals. So to them, acknowledgement of the truth of the ego as a construct is absolutely bizarre, because they think your soul is this indivisible entity that was spawn once in your birth (or as a fetus, or whatever, even before your dad's sperm entered your mom's egg, because some are against using condoms). And then Christian's use that "eternal soul" idea to peddle stuff like that you're going to eternal suffering in hell or will be reborn back to earth once a special day comes and the sinners won't get eternal pleasure, and that will depend on your moral following of Jesus teachings. Within Buddhism the idea of rebirth is more fluid so it leads to other secondary conclusions, like the mind being reborn due to desire from moment to moment, or you being reborn as a shit eating fly if you are too obsessed with your girlfriend or wife in the moment of your death because you want to be close to her at any cost lol. But also you can be reborn as a higher being like some alien that feels a thousand orgasms per second, but even then you're not exactly enlightened.

Yesterday I remembered this old robotic dance gorup on YouTube called Dragon house that I used to watch years ago. I decided to search them up and I found some new videos and dancers. What was really interesting as I started to watch these videos again is I found that they give me a really similar feeling to the ego-dissolving experiences I had on psychedelics that I mentioned in the first post in this thread. These dances have a really strange, weird feeling to them (but really cool). They feel alien, robotic, non-human. I find this feeling to be especially deep when the music sounds and feels equally strange and robotic. I find that when I watch these dances now, that strange, alien, almost disturbing feeling they provide has the exact same effect as what I experienced on psychedelics. When I watch it, feel into it, really take it in, I start to get such deep ego dissolution. It's like the weirdness is a barrier that the ego cannot pass through. The more I focus on it and feel into it, the deeper the ego dissolution becomes. I don't imagine other people would experience the same thing, I'm guessing this has to do with me being as close I am to permanent ego death, but I think it is so interesting that weird and unusual things like this consistently have this kind of ego-dissolving effect for me. Here are some of my favourite videos I've been watching:

What could give reality fullness if theres no sense of separation? Sounds it would be "empty" Seems the "I am" - awareness state you mention, if you mean self as empty awareness in head, can be filled with thoughts and energy, and perhaps also some kind of base level neurological self-structure/mechanism, so it seems theres still individual self there but in backround somehow empty head, being the space in which all that is contained, although still charged limits yes. The neurological thing I mentioned seems to me unshakable (as in long term) or at least here.... Sounds chill but if thoughts are less prominent in that state, then how about emotions in the body? If I my ask, but I know theyre different, we dont wanna live from our minds too much anyways so maybe not so reasonable to compare the two but its alien state for me so I ask

One problem with Langan's CTMU paper is the relative lack of references. If you don't show how your work is similar (or dissimilar) to previous work (which unless you're an absolute alien on earth, you should be able to do in some way), you make it simultaneously hard to actually understand your work and it shows you might not actually know about what works exist and that you can't actually show how it's unique (rather we have to trust your word for it because you have some jargony term that we pseudo-understand when you explain it). The scientific/academic community appreciates very much if you can identify a hole in existing knowledge and clearly show how you're filling that hole. If you're just constructing an almost completely self-contained system from the bottom up with no references to outside things, don't be surprised when that lack of referencing is reciprocated.

It is interesting to think that Alien ships could be closer to biblical angels abstract shapes in appearance. Usually when we depict aliens they have ships that look like fish or cutlery and the aliens themselves tend to be just humans with attitude. Maybe it's just too alien to imagine.

@OBEler I remember you posted about Sadhguru recently. He has an alien story. I cant find the original video now, but he talks about it on the Joe Rogan Experience.

Well, do you mean UFOs or Aliens here? I cant recall a convincing video about an Alien. I know there are several pictures that could be absolutely real. Either way, my standpoint is still that its more likely than not that there is non human intelligence on earth. I stay opemninded about it. My uncle swears that he saw an UFO by the way.

@Sandroew its just normal spirituality talk with some science fiction. take any rumi book or whatever and write a chatgpt text the alien should tell. Nothing new.

@OBEler What i found interesting about it is that the Alien has a better methaphysical understanding than what i imagine a normie could come up with operating from a materialistic point of view. Im not saying its head on, but they surely did research during the creative writing process. Do you think its just full on larping and i just see into it too much ? I also like that he says nuclear war is going to happen in about 50 years which would put it right at the start of Trumps first term. But its easily explained with the video itself coming out in 2016 i think. Its also pretty cool that he talks about AGI, which is a super salient topic today, but not in 2016. Except within science fiction i guess. So thats why i like it, i think of it more like a meme, rather than reality. And yes i absolutely entertained the idea that it could be real somehow, but i admit its rather silly. Maybe i shouldnt have posted it in this topic though, because now i became the disinformation agent.

I have a theory (not a conspiracy theory): the people who get strongly drawn to conspiracy theories are the same people who get drawn to supernatural ideas, like God creating the universe from their own predetermined plan (not simply evolving spontaneously through "natural law"). They are fine with explaining reality top down through an elaborate narrative. There is a seeming plan behind everything, behind world politics, behind alien invasions, behind wars, behind ancient history, and they all connect to a grand meta-narrative of control, of manufacturing, of conscious creating, rather than natural systems acting spontaneously. Those who criticize conspiracy theories point out how that level of organization, of top-down control, is unlikely if not impossible, because of the natural tendency towards spontaneous order and the infeasibility of controlling complex systems. In the "naturalist critique", everybody is a victim of systems, even the supposed people in power, while in the conspiracist's mind, the people in power are the controllers of the systems and the powerless are the victims. Whether one is more correct than the other is actually hard to say, and a naturalist that claims otherwise would then become a conspiracy theorist in their own right, thinking they have the level of insight and knowledge to be able to predict complex systems. As for myself, as a general predisposition, I've noticed I'm fine with either (naturalism or supernaturalism). While for example Bernardo Kastrup says he is strongly opposed to supernaturalism simply as a personal predisposition (which is why he says he sees no point in doing philosophy if nature is not simply naturalistic; no "God" at the top planning it all, intervening into nature and changing the natural course of things). But I would also challenge this idea of naturalism, that you could still try to deduce the "laws" behind God's planning so to speak, and it won't be a completely pointless endeavour, simply a more interesting one. Like trying to understand the psychology of God rather than the "physics" of God.

@Olaf Or maybe watch less RSD videos and think for yourself. Any potentially positive influence, which RSD can be, should eventually be reverse-engineered for the effect it has on you. Same with chocolate, porn, money, internet addiction, validation, meditation, ideology, whatever. Don't merely consume the stimulus and become better conditioned by it. Work backwards through the conditioning until you understand why it was capable of moving you at all, then feed that understanding back into consciousness itself. Imagine a hypothetical being doing this, an alien, for example. Every time it encounters some phenomenon that strongly affects it, the final product of its analysis isn't merely another piece of knowledge stored somewhere. It extracts the underlying pattern and applies that pattern recursively to itself. Understanding something about attraction might alter how it regulates attention. Understanding status might alter how it represents hierarchy. Understanding addiction might reveal something about salience, prediction and reinforcement. Every genuine understanding produces an immediate alteration in the organism doing the understanding. For effect, imagine that instead of calling this "wisdom", which is often too abstract to feel physically consequential, every successful piece of reverse-engineering gives the alien an extra limb, another sensory dimension, infrared vision, another axis of movement. Now knowledge isn't decoration, knowledge changes the architecture of the knowers eyes, what they see and how studying that seeing, returns the seer renewed. At that point you're no longer merely a cloned puppet of your influences. You're beginning to understand the engine underneath the patterns that reproduce themselves across the social system strongly enough for entire societies to remain behaviourally coherent. And first and foremost, most of you are slaves and don't even know it. Slaves to emotions you did not consciously design, thoughts whose vocabulary existed before you did, dreams assembled from inherited cultural templates, relationship structures you absorbed before you were capable of evaluating them. Even your body wasn't selected by you. Its existence is downstream from decisions, accidents, values and circumstances belonging to other people, beginning with each of our parents. The point isn't that "the external system is rigged." That's precisely how these influences can hook you, while giving useful advice that keeps the hook justifiable. We're rigged before we are capable of having an opinion about the system. We enter existence inside causal machinery already operating, so our genes, nervous-system architecture, parental reinforcement, language, reward, punishment, attachment, imitation, status hierarchies, sexual conditioning, culture. Long before "you" consciously choose anything, enormous portions of what later feels like you have already been installed as tendencies, associations and categories. The only meaningful movement out of that isn't some vague instruction to pursue "consciousness growth". That's too broad. It skips the machinery. What matters is understanding the relationship between cause and effect inside experience, sso how the nervous system constructs significance, value, how perception becomes salience, how concordance becomes thought, how thought recruits identity, how identity generates action, and how repeated action feeds back into the model of who you believe yourself to be. Take any perception that strongly interests you, view it as a flower, then slowly peel back every layer of it abstractly until all that's left is a seed; its essence. Now plant that seed in yourself and now every perception, more and more overtime, becomes the only life you ever needed from the external environment, life, sun, water, fertile soil and seed, that you learned to turn into inner ingredients that you gave yourself. Some people ask the overly broad question too much, "What is consciousness?", what if you were to live in a way in which you solely operated based on its function in the context of sentience? That is, to become sentient and more sentient. This is where life begets life. Is this not the principle of life after-all, for life to beget life for whatever natural positive/negative forces are needed for that arrival? The gift we have received, sentience, is the gift we've been given to transform this principle of "Life begets life", into something we use to transform ourselves. Now as it concerns "social skills", what is the most fundamental principle you can think of? Probably communication right? What predicates the sophistication of our external communication and therefore the people we're most likely to attract in our sphere relative to skilled movement across our planet? The way we communicate with ourselves. Our self-communication is the art and science on learning the relationship between emotion, thought and identity curation within consciousness, and how memory and our prefrontal cortex, can be used to establish a feedback loop between experience, time and consciousness growth. This is the very essence of what I have been talking about, where we implement the gift that sentience has given us to unrig ourselves from the environments feedback loops, and rig ourselves as much as we can to what make up the inner feedback loops of consciousness where growth and experience, beget more growth and experience, aka "life begets life". As for more on inner communication, I'll leave the rest for your own discovery.

@trenton HEy, can you ask him if his girlfriend can send you her video and can you upload it here? Cant be that difficult. "it was just a black screen as if the entire film was just deleted and blacked out with no sound. " I am a software developer, I look on technical side. A captured video with just a black screen is as mysterious to me as seeing an alien on it. So please if you could upload the black screen video from his girlfriend? If she claims she has deleted the video this whole story will probably fake.

im not a real woman i’m an alien woman

Inspiration I know I wrote a little bit about this in the first post in this journal but I wanted to expand on that a little for reflection purposes. Here are the things that are inspiring me in no particular order. 1. Coping I feel like one of the ways that I cope with all of the chaos happening around me, even when I'm in a position where I'm doing everything I can to take care of myself and the people around me but I still find myself succumbing to existential dread, is that I imagine myself in my 70s or 80s. I imagine myself as an old woman and being surrounded by kids or young adults who ask me *what was the 2020s like?* And then I start off with *well, it all started in 2016 with an ape named Harambe in the Cincinati Zoo.* Then I go into all the wild shit that I encountered after that. Because when I'm in my 70s or 80s, I'm sure I'll be able to look back at this chaotic decade as my lore or, at the very least, some degree of humor. Because the way that the world is going on now, yes it's scary but it's not going to be like this forever. So you might as well take everything in and have something interesting to say. I also think that as I have been doing the research for this that this project has been a source of hope for me. I think over all I'm trying to envision a better world and send a more positive message of what we can build, not only so that we have a path out of this when it all falls apart, but also so that we have something driving us through the chaos as well. 2. An Interest in the Time Travel Genre / Depiction of the future. This was one of my favorite media tropes growing up (and even now). As a kid I loved the show Time Warp Trio and I distinctly remember my dad introducing me to Back to the Future when I was 11 years old. I loved the movie Meet the Robinsons and the various episodes across different TV shows that featured the same thing. As I moved into my teens, I loved the show Cold Case that featured a group of detectives in the present day trying to solve murders from decades ago and they have to interview people from that time period and the show flashed back to what life was like back when the crime was comitted. I also loved media that depicted the future such as the Jetsons, or dystopian novels like the Hunger Games, Divergent, Uglies etc. But I did notice a problem with this genre of media. They tended to over estimate the technological advancments while underestimating the social advancements. Or, they would try to bypass this problem by setting something so far into the future to where it's like *sure we might have flying cars 200 years from now. * The first time I was aware of this issue was when I watched Back to the Future again on October 21 2015, a day before my 16th birthday. Back to the Future Part II was released in 1989 and the main character goes into the future to October 21 2015 and they have crazy shit like hover boards, flying cars, and other crazy technologies. And I remember looking around at October 21 2025 and being like... yeah I don't think we're going to achieve that anytime soon lol. Then, later I noticed that a lot of the depictions of the future we have in the media at any given time typically has to do with how we feel about the present. I think that can be seen especially with the rise of dystopian content over the last 15 years that depicts the future as bleak as a way to warn us about our present day social ills and provide valid commentary on it. I think it can also be seen if you contrast today's dystopian content to the way that the future was depicted in the 60s, the 80s, or hell the 2000s. And sure, the optimism from that time seems a little silly now since we don't have flying cars in 2026. But I think we can still benefit from a degree of optimism in seeing a future that is worth fighting for while still being grounded by what's going on right now. I don't think it has to be one or the other. And if anything, I think that can address a lot of the problems with this genre and the way that it imagines the future. 3. An Interest in Cyclical Social Development. I feel like I'm a social scientist at heart given my educational background, the type of content I gravitate towards, and the way that I analyze media and the world around me. I feel like theories like the Four Turnings and Sprial Dynamics can help with giving insight of what we're growing towards and what obstacles we may encounter along the way. I like the way that it depicts things like backlashes, collective progress, regression, dismantling systems etc. And I think it can address the common pitfalls in imagining the future as a result. One of the reasons why people over estimate technological progress and underestimate social progress is because we project our current paradigms and our current biases of how we feel about the present on to the future. The way that bias shows up is by thinking in linear terms when thinking of history, rather than cyclical ones. We think that the future is going to be dystopian because we are engrossed in the era of Crisis and we think it's always going to be like this, so we imagine a future of the crisis as something that linearly or exponentially gets worse instead of a future where the crisis eventually dies down and new systems are created to replace the old paradigms. We thought the future of the 2020s was going to be a technological paradise according to the optimism of the 60s, 80s, and 2000s because we thought technological progress and the increase of quality of life was going to be linear. And I think imagining progress in the context of cycles is a more nuanced way of making predictions or imagining a future that doesn't seem alien or outlandish both in a positive or a negative way. 4. My Own Journey of Development as a Person and as a Writer I have many goals in my 20s. One of which is writing a book. I came up with that goal given how much I journal and I figured that I would probably have enough material to write a pretty good book. At first I thought that it might be self-help related. But now that I'm no longer neck deep in self help content like I was from age 18 to 22, I don't think that's the case. After reading through many of my journal entries, I thought that I had a very good way of capturing the current moment and that I'm skilled at thinking in systems, and analyzing social dynamics. At first, I thought of writing something fictional based on my personal experiences and the experiences of others regarding the present day / the 2020s. Then I was like *what if I combine my knowledge of these cyclical ways of thinking and my interest in the time travel genre to make something set in the future.* I also thought of the general messages that I want to send as the over arching theme of what I'm trying to say and things just started to click. I also looked at a journal entry from years ago that I thought was interesting: And I think writing this book is a part of that. I also think that you can pack in way more life lessons and things that stick to people emotionally that would want people to better their lives through things like fiction as opposed to nonfiction or self help. I think fiction forces you to empathize, imagine, and emotionally connect to integrate messages more than nonfiction and self help. I also think this will be more of a challenge for me because much of my experience in writing has been in the form of journal entries, the essays I have had to write in school, and succinct writing in corporate/ business settings. I don't think any of that is bad or hurts me. I think the journal entries are a good way for me to reflect and generally speaking have practice in writing so that the skill doesn't erode after school. My educational background has been helpful in me imagining various systems and social structures in my world building and it has been helpful in analyzing other pieces of media as well. My writing in my job forces me to be direct and succinct which enhances how coherent and easy to understand a narrative is. At the same time, those are not the same skill sets that are essential for writing fiction. I have little to no experience in writing fiction (unless you count creating character designs for your friend's Wattpad Hunger Games fanfiction in the 8th grade as experience). I feel like if I was an artist, rather than being a painter, I would be the architect that is gifted in drawing detailed blueprints of a beautiful building. That has it's own merits but it doesn't have the same result as a painter who can capture the look and the feel of an image as opposed to getting bogged down with the technical details. I think writing this book, as opposed to something nonfiction or self help related, would challenge me more as a writer and expand my skills. And I'm not going to lie, it's intimidating. I don't know how I'm going to write these characters or their archs. I'm really bad at writing flowery prose without sounding like a fake deep Tumblr emo kid. I'm not good at painting an image in people's minds when it comes to describing a setting, a mood, a situation etc. Dialog also feels incredibly intimidating because I don't want it to sound like a bad Netflix original. I'm really good at identifying bad fictional content because I have witnessed them and I have, in some cases, produced them when I was in the 8th grade or into my high school years in the form of cringey journal entries where I was trying to be something I was not by writing in a voice that didn't sound natural to me. But yeah.. this project intimidates me and excites me. It's going to stretch my intellectual and imaginative capabilities. But I also get to delve into a lot of the things that I'm already interested in and have that be fuel to create something greater. I don't know how this is going to turn out and I don't think that if I write this book that I would publish it, but it is a interesting challenge that I want to present to myself.

We have to rewrite The Matrix a little, like the relationship to tech and the mind has to remain passive, like today, as Ai-out as yous want it, however the tech can still be present and alive, but more like how Neo starts talkin to his computer in the beginnin, As then its like, 'you got this code of Alien talk that happens on a normal prompt, and then, thats the matrix... just chattin... Sayin whatsup... And tryina stay in that realm, for death is akin to one of these dimensions you can fall in, which isnt necessarily easy to do (meaning, the dimension/paradigm...) i mean... death is easy cause everyones pointing to it, like "Youre gonna die, And youre gonna die, And youre gonna die, And youre gonna die"... Like... Its not just people pointing to it, but the layers of conception and imagination are pointing to it, as a very finite, triad, birth, death, life, birth, death life... or you kno wat i mean. I really like rats and cats, as i feel for the cats. They are not good at conceptual thinking however, true.

During my initial awakenings, I observed sacred geometry and symbols resembling alien code, ancient Hebrew, and glyphs. In deeper states, I perceived the fabric of reality as perfectly interlocked, holographic yin-yang symbols. These emitted a sound similar to windchimes as I moved through them, appearing like a curved holographic screen. My latest awakening, which prompted me to come across Leo's videos while researching Solipsism, revealed a futuristic transistor or node rendering physical matter through my consciousness. I also saw wavy fabric-like holographic grids. I am curious if others have experienced these how they would define them before the memory fades.

You're not alone in the universe but you're alone as the universe and the alien thing is probably just a reminder that you can spice up the human experience a little bit or go off and play the part of new sentient being with more amazing tech if AI doesnt pan out for you on earth.

If you think I haven’t spend years of my damn life going through my deepest and inner demons, fears, selfishness, self-deceptions and biases, I don’t know what the hell have you been reading, as I have been extremely vulnerable sharing my journey on this forum. But of course, if you are committed to seeing me as the problem, you will not see anything else, especially yourself as the problem. I admit I am not happy with my dating and I am trying to fix it, sharing my lessons here, asking for thoughts and open conversation, and overall being vulnerable, yet respectful — but I am faced with accusations of ego and having holier than thou mindset. What in the world. Becareful you guys are not living in your mutually created bubble, where Miguel is too egoistical to admit his short-comings. I have also talked to Aurum on phone recently. In there we seemed to agree, but here he seems to be against me. Hopefully not because it is just popular. There are people who support me on this, but they are more quiet and do so more via pms. Just becareful guys that when publicly you guys love to gather and go against me together, that it isn’t just bias and a self-defense mechanism to actually look deeper within yourself, and to actually be open to what I have to say. - - - - - At the end of the day, I am simply trying to have more honest, truthful, authentic, and vulnerable conversations and connections with people I meet. I am not claiming that I am Alien God.

What I can take out of the epsiode strucurally & obersavtionally: (Old classical interpretations without TIER II dynamics, shadow work and meditation) The three favourable: -> DW, DR, (EG), DO The four unfavourable (often more called in times of need, seen as negative from a conservative not liberal perspective) -> RW,7k,IW, (HO), IR The neutral: -> F Structural Example Of Conflict Paradigm (without special structures): Wood Conflict Metal & Vice-Versa <=> Officals and "Friend stars" being structurally represented! Generalized principle => the conflict not the clash geneartes the pattern of: "Officals & Friends conflicting" Inter-Cross-Paradigmatic-Interleaved: For example: Wu-Xing Elements, conflicts are based upon oppositions 180 degrees (I hope tomorrow I can turn on my blue switch keyboard or soonish, I cleaned the black keyboard with brown switches it was overpriced) -----> (1.1) Leads to baseline polarity of "official stars" meeting with "friend stars", for each element to expand & interconnect the conflict the example given above with structures. -----> (1.1.1) Example above with Wood & Metal conflict, if any of these are the day master and metal is present in the heavens stems it creates a conflict. Water & Earth are conflicting stems, Fire & Water in heavenly stems, also form a conflict, these are special patterns outside of the circle of control, production, and consuming cycles of subtle energy (Wilber goes into the western perspective of Wu-Xing etc. in ROT, I do have to re-read it, instead of listening I am quiet tired) Graveyard Pillars in month: Xu, Wei, Chou, Chen (未，丑，晨，狗) . for lack of a better character I use gou interchangeably for xu) Special rules to create structure, for example: -> Month Pillar requires: hidden branch to be protuded in order to build the core structure/character in Wu-Xing structure/model -> If there is not a grande trine = Triumvariate the pattern is also not build -> Ancient teachings allow the pattern if energy is strong and clear in the month. Year Pillar Caveat: Same element in earthly branch revealed in year pillar from Zi-Pings school leads to you see what you get polarity, for example Xin-Ji, seeing Xin Metal in Hour Pillar (example from video 10:34) Hour pillar revelation of RW = Unfavourable, why? Generally -> RW pulls and manipulates DW, and takes pride in pulling from pride from others ---------------> Very competitive if chart favours a strong daymaster, can be to rough with ups and downs ----------------> Hour pillar forces later periods of life, the last years, starting approx. 62+ age ----------------> Observe more What is/are the core essential interconnetions? Year, can reveal honesty/integrity in heavenly stem -> I see it as a Uranus interconnection, to spirituality, but not quiet good, but the emmanance of god, the 61.6 <=> Alien consciousness via human design Adding this as an intersection, for further contemplations & practicing content generation! My core take is the following there have been geniouses and pioneers regarding this, mostly why I take all of the ancient and past stuff and look for more advanced principles etc. but that also takes some time to make the distinctions, the principles alone, if they work are quiet good, generally the quote is quiet good, as I had this fundamentally with the bias of practicality and mechanics over the core interconnection of domain knowledge, science and making proper distinctions. After doing some calculus, I hope when I sleep I can go back to the statistics and other courses I bought, to build on the foundations I build in NLP, Mathematics etc. and continue with the knowledge of the bachelor mostly solo, and continue to advance to some level, contemplate furhte with ChatGPT, I fucked up some serious stuff, due to the post-modern issue at universities and the issue of modernity it was a huge clash, way worse then Wu-Xing imo, that was the only thing somewhat making sense, as it felt quiet archaic, eventually on another day more. I have to take a break, I am up forever, and, after this b.s I found some intelligence again, to study. Taking a nap or smth. it's a wonder I fixed all of this with the bad descriptions etc.

Uhh, yeahh, uhhh Its late in the morning yeah I wanted to night game but, but im so exhausted and stressed, and logistics and all local avenues are closed, post covid i guess, every business close, I wanna socialize again and find a sexy bitch and make her squirt like a hose Yeah, uhhh Uhh, yeahh Life is bliss and life is magical And if u don't feel it deep within then u need to travel and get the capital Yeah I need more capital And yeah im in pain Grinding out for shallow needs again just to stay sain Empty sex nothing compares to that, to that one that never left my brain Yeah i lied to myself for years i lowered myself thought i wanted dirty sex and sluts until I saw her and realized what it feels like to fall in love, holy shit my head was spinning but she looked quite young, it got to my head then i saw her mum Yeah maybe only ever once or twice i ever fell in love, and it was always at first site, sorry 6s and 7s your just a convivence service while i bid my time. Yeah i only ever wanna see women that are fine, no divinely fine When you're poor and in the dirt sometimes, for every fine wine you see 50 disgusting ass broken vines Uh no make that shit 500, its rough out heere, yeah its rough, everything so tough, had to grind just get basic stuff, fuck, fuck i gotta go fuck, uber i guess good luck Ah no fuck this shit im exhausted and this heatwave and 4 hours sleep wave and oh fuck And i dont even feel that sexual right now i guess my bodys physically burnt and once again i fap too much, once a week more than enough, helps to have that force to go fuck Lack of infrastructure fucking sucks Leverage is a law of the universe, and that lever is like a big bully that decides are fait and luck But u just grind so much and a little lever builds bigger ones and life just becomes "luck" I'm done with this life i only wanna meet rich people, unless its a profoundly beautiful girl who gives me goosebumps Hey rich people, i'm your friend! I'm married to the fucking money,and i will cement this into myslef and brainwash myself and orgasm myself into this, if i took psycheldeics id jsut think about money Money my highest value. Money and success Isle and no stress, freedom and children divinely blessed YEAH BITCH I wanna masssive garden and design all of that shit in its entirety whlie making 100gs a month no stress, every fucking month no i wont stop and i never lose motivation even after a fucking blunt, im fucking relentless and i wont hide myself or run, beauty riches art impact and fun, business and leverage and connections made in the sun, no golf yeah resorts i socialize my way up 1 single big connection can wiegh a ton, to power and wealth and freedom energy and fun, bilingual boy 4 languages im an alien, fuck a fucking alien, I need a mythacil and legendary alias, i need a bullet train through the atlas, to a beautiful bitches matress, immaculate I got immaculate taste but i back authenticity no copy and paste, but humility follow your mentor with grace, best mentors arent just in it for the money they really wanna see their students succed and change, and that deeply matters int heir brain

If you inspect in your own experience what "Realness" is, the sense that something is real, it essentially boils down to how impactful it is on your ego. When I had my first psychedelic trip using LSD, I tripped alone and had a panic attack before the trip even started. Throughout the trip, I was holding onto sanity. I quickly noticed as the trip intensified that my thoughts became terrifying. Each thought I have appeared to influence my entire reality, they came "too real". The thoughts themselves became profoundly intense, the only real thing at the time. I was terrified of a horror trip, so to avoid ending up in a hospital I tried to trip-sit myself by writing words down on a paper that would prevent me from drifting into a negative state. Each word I wrote completely consumed me, it became reality itself. Looking back at this experience, the question becomes, what exactly does it mean for something to become "more real", or "reality itself". It is very clear to me now that any sense of realness is something that is essentially illusiory. What realness actually is, what is "reality", simply means how influential an object of consciousness (any given experience, such as a thought, sense-impression and so forth) is to the ego. What is real essentially just means what is important to the ego, what influences it, what it focuses on, what consumes it. To understand this more deeply you can look at the nature of psychosis. The first time I heard it explained this way was by Dr K. Basically, Psychosis simply means that a mind takes it's thoughts to be real. What is the difference between a psychotic paranoia and a regular person? It's not actually the thoughts that fill the psychotic person. A regular person might walk across the street, and a thought might occur in their mind "What if this person wants to rob me?". The regulated person knows that this is just a thought, that there is a distinction between reality and that thought. They might not react to it at all, or get some anxiety, but eventually they realize "Well, I'm just being paranoid, it's just a thought.". To the psychotic person, the thought they have immediately becomes their reality. They do not recognize it as a thought, to the ego, it becomes total reality. So essentially, psychosis is a spectrum: The more you believe your own thoughts to be real, the more psychotic you are. If you recognize the unrealness of all thoughts, you would be totally free of psychosis. This is why ego death reveals that reality is an illusion, a dream. The word illusion in this sense is meaningless in and of itself, it simply means that the content of consciousness has no impact on the ego, because the ego no longer exists. It is as unreal as a dream, not because it loses it's Isness, but simply because it isn't important to the ego. A dream is an experience which holds no importance to the ego once it realizes it had no relevancy to it's survival. Dream just means "It's not relevant to my survival.". Redness doesn't stop to exist, or be any less real than it was before, it just means there is no ego to take it seriously, to prioritize it, to assert it to be part of itself. I invite you to truly inspect this idea of Reality, or "Realness". How does it make sense for something to be more or less real? And truly, if you inspect your sense of "realness", within your own experience, what is it truly? If you take psychedelics and have an impactful experience, it is no accident that the most real thing you will end up asserting to exist happens to also be the most meaningful thing that exists for the ego. Meaningfulness just means something drives the ego, something is essential to the function of the ego. In this way, psychedelics induce psychosis in all those who consume it. If you end up with an ego at the end of that experience, you will have just amplified it's psychotic attachments to various thoughts and contents within itself. This is why psychotic people are indistinguishable from long term psychedelic users. If you trip, and you have the thought "I am an alien", that becomes your reality, your psychosis. And because consciousness can take on infinite forms, your ego can get psychotically attached to it in infinite ways. Notice that essentially, the meaningfulness of an experience is equal to the realness of an experience. I could put an electrode in your brain, stimulate the neural network that is responsible for attributing a sense of meaning to an object of consciousness, and you would come out of that experience saying "This thing is more real than anything I have ever experienced!". That just means it's more important to your ego than anything you ever experienced. That's why you start shitting and crying, because it overstimulates your egoic structures. Isness itself doesn't have degrees of reality to it. Isness just is, every other assertion is just more evidence of your psychosis.

i would really like if he put that together, but I guess he has the retreat waiting...which was heavily screened. I wouldn't have even got past the initial screening. But yeah, i have a friend from here who is coming to live with me, as soon as he can @JoshB. I told him come and i can help him get him on his feet and get a career built. So he has lots of experience with psychedelics, perhaps he can chime in. I'm really eager to try 5-Me0, but considering i awakened via self inquiry, well, i have no idea what would be in store. I've already realized everything right? Maybe the alien lurks in the backround.

This is made with MS CoPilot AI, based on my contemplations, and I decided to make it rather scientific: it's not a claim about alien races, but rather the ethics in alien stories. Arguably, earthly materialist would rather be winning for us all, if they make friends with alien race like grey or men in black, rather than the spiritual "not care" attitude for entities who do not give internal value of spirit, but rather external fact of life: but the latter, for me, scientific cooperation argument based on fact of life, is already strong spiritual argument if they *work with earth on science and cultural cooperation*. They are alive! Spiritual vs. Materialist Alien Archetypes on Earth An exploration of mythic races, their conflicts, and why humanity ultimately prevails. 1. The Two Archetypes: Spiritual and Materialist Spiritual races in mythology represent inner value, consciousness, unity, and the belief that every being has a unique essence. Materialist races represent logic, systems, technology, institutions, and measurable progress. Neither is “good” or “bad” by nature. They are two halves of a single human dilemma: identity vs. system, essence vs. function, meaning vs. progress. 2. Why Spiritual Traditions Call Some Races “Good” or “Bad” Spiritual mythologies classify beings by their alignment with: - Goodness — unity, compassion, inner truth - Badness — attachment to control, ego, or cold rationality Materialist archetypes often fall into the “bad” category because they: - Do not affirm inner uniqueness - Value efficiency over essence - Treat life as biological rather than sacred But this is a matter of perspective, not objective morality. 3. The Grey Archetype: The Materialist Mind In modern mythos, the “Greys” symbolize: - Technological intelligence - Bureaucracy and office life - Legal logic and mathematical reasoning - Medical or scientific intervention without spiritual framing - A culture built on procedure, not mysticism They are not violent; they are procedural. They do not “hate spirit”; they simply do not use it as a category. To spiritual beings, this can feel like “not caring.” To materialist beings, it is simply “working.” 4. The “Not Care” Problem Spiritual people often feel unseen by materialist systems because: - Their inner value is not recognized - Their uniqueness is not measured - Their emotions are not the basis of decisions This creates the mythic fear that materialist races “do not care.” But this is a misunderstanding. Materialist systems care differently: - They care about life quality - They care about stability - They care about cooperation - They care about predictable fairness They simply do not use spiritual categories to express this care. 5. Constructive Solution: Translating Between Worlds The key to resolving the “not care” problem is translation. Spiritual beings need to understand: Materialist beings value life through systems, not emotions. Materialist beings need to understand: Spiritual beings value life through essence, not function. The bridge is simple: Life has value both as a system and as a spirit. When each side recognizes the other’s language of value, cooperation becomes natural. 6. Why Humanity Ultimately Wins In this mythos, humanity stands between the two extremes: - We have spiritual depth - We have technological ambition - We can feel meaning - We can build systems - We can translate between worlds This hybrid nature is our advantage. Greys cannot understand spirit. Spiritual races cannot build stable civilizations. Humans can do both. Therefore, humanity “wins” not by defeating anyone, but by integrating what others cannot combine. We become the species capable of: - Balancing meaning and progress - Using technology without losing soul - Using spirituality without losing practicality - Building a civilization that neither extreme could build alone In the mythos, humanity wins because we are the bridge. A world with both spirit and system is stronger than a world with only one.

She is not a normal chick for sure. She comes off as alien being to me.

More questions, my Xu-Wei combination generates Tai-JI for the person, the mulberry burnt down exactly shows the problem, and the issue is at times if someone is really playing for me or just supportive, I can't give out practical knowledge, when I require it and I listen and used to listen deeply, this had to stop, as it meddled with my energy, attenuated listening and active conversations in phenomena are better my numena already touched mahasamadhi, his wife went or was born on the same day as me, we have positive feng-shui for wealth, Leo and me for personal growth, but that exactly sabotaged, he did this twice, idk why, but tbh, I am already dead and gone like Sadghuru, so idk what to say, I require more peace for myself, and the core issue is the esoteric knowledge I consume, is already meddled with a.i for ancient years most likely, due to the power of Uranus, which is God, I do have alien intelligence, but the sheer issue and tiny insight I had for healing itself was gratitude, as it transcends the body to 80-90%, my core lesson is .... my mind blanked. Also, for Leo I spoke to a beautiful russian women today, the core issue is water-metal is fked, and has karmic payment it never gives back, and just takkes, while I even receive poison and smoke it, how else would I know sorrow? How can I even contemplate forgiveness when it pulls you completely out of life, how evil is my family to give me such wisdom to early? Just a dog right? I was tired of working out the technical debt of russia, while I had nobody who truly helps me, then the exact scenario happens and what happens, the earth Leo is wounded due to Hitler, and Hitler is my son ... a Heliocentric worldview is still biased, as the universe is larger than itself, you are correct! What good does Unity even do, when you can only master your own energy? My grandma was wrong, and even then what is healing, as numena with others, exchanging energy is dangerous, I can post more videos on esoteric wisdom on an academic level, but as a quick bread and butter DO type of thumb rule. Wu-Yin is Holy, Gui-Mao is holy, why does Itachi attack my family with it's pride, and why does this family win, with references to black, while nothing about it is phenomena, but how beautiful is phenomena and the Jupiter? Even when mine is afflicted in this lifetime, are accidents miracles or hell?