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Say NO to being human, and YES to being Alien

Every villian is a projection of your own mind. And you are playing with yourself to understand higher and deeper truths. Alien Hide and Seek

@AerisVahnEpheliaI watched a bashar video and he said they dont come because when we feel their physical body our body feels like its dying and we freak out. I personally feel like if you and an alien were to look into each others eyes you would feel all the light get pulled out of your eyes and go into the aliens. Like they have black hole eyes. You would lose track of where your body is and freak out.

If aliens are reals, they are cowards and I don't want to meet them at all now. I want them to come now and stop the bullshits flying around for nothing. alien possibility of visiting earth : 1% humans capable of religious bullshit self induced deception or farming engagement and bait stories for money : 99%

@Leo Gura I’m not sure if you've mentioned or revealed this yet, but what was the compound you used when you reached Alien Awakening? I’d be curious to know!

No. I deliberately try not to, so their limited human ideas don't limit my mind. I am at a pioneering level now, so I have to go alone into the uncharted alien swamps. I still research stuff and an open to ideas from others. But I do not follow their work as if it were true. This is necessary for true innovation. You have to stop following others because by follwing you can never exceed them. That is a huge topic. But very simply, there are many so-called enlightened people who still misunderstand reality in various ways and hold false beliefs. So clearly enlightenment does not solve the core epistemic problem. And beyond that, there is much higher consciousness and understanding than enlightenment. And beyond enlightenment is personal development. Developing yourself is a distinct pursuit. Awakening & mystical experience is not cognitive development, nor does it give you the kind of life you want. There are many important development topics which do not fall under Awakening. Like relationships or career development or business or art. And none of this even mentions the Alien aspects of Consciousness.

Solipsism isn’t the only facet to explore You’re missing Alien Intelligence (AI)

I've been cracking away at it pretty substantially since I was 20. Hence, why I feel a bit of resistance to coming on here... as it's me doing what I was doing at age 10 in summer camp. I would subject myself to pain, only to prove myself more stoic to my male peers. And it was before puberty, and I would challenge them all to arm wrestling and win more often than losing. Like I was always trying to be tough and macho between age 8 and 11. I think it's because I was sensing intuitively that I was about to lose cherished identities around being physically strong... as guys were about to be pretty much universally stronger than me. (I'm also like 5'2", so that didn't help me.) And then, I "rebranded" at age 11... and that suddenly wasn't important to me anymore, seemingly. But I still carried a lot of internalized misogyny and resistance to femaleness and Femininity, underneath the surface. And there was plenty of anti-Feminine messaging in pop culture to reinforce it... where very attractive women were frequently scrutinized for being "fat" when they were stick-thin AND they were also made fun of for eating disorders pretty openly. And I was super misogynistic at age 10-11, in the 5th grade before my "rebrand"... like, I was talking like a Red Pill podcast guy without the sexual resentment component. It's uncanny sometimes to listen to those guys because I hear my 10 year old self. Like, I would set myself aside in a category that was neither male nor female (like I invented a non-binary identity for myself as a child in the year 1999 just so that I could be misogynistic and hate on girls/women and feel like an exception to my own biting hatred of femaleness and Femininity). And I needed to do that... or I would become conscious of the self-loathing I felt around being female. I was even semi-aware that I was in some kind of cognitive dissonance around it... but I would just come up with all kinds of reasons why I'm an exception to my judgments. And it came from a lot of internalized misogyny... where I absorbed from both the patriarchal undercurrents of society where femaleness and Femininity is always the butt of every joke and the well-intentioned, necessary, but problematic messaging of Second Wave Feminism's, "You can do anything a boy can do." (which automatically sets up Masculinity and maleness as superior to Femininity and femaleness... as no one was telling little boys that they could do anything a girl could do. Mind you, a very necessary message in itself.) I had also had started having issues with my mom... which is probably the biggest origin of that wound. Like, I recall hyper-valuing Femininity when I was a child in order to be like my mom... and I liked women and disliked men. And I had the sense that my parents were on opposing teams, and I wanted to be on team-mom, though I still liked my dad and tried to connect with him. I just hated being subjected to his manly hobbies. But then, at age 8, my mom suddenly flipped on me and got a lot meaner. And she ceased to be the parent I was most connected to... so I started to identify more with my father, who was my safer parent... albeit more distant and more self-oriented. Now, I don't think either of these hyper-Feminine or hyper-Masculine expressions are me. They've just been ways of trying to ally myself with one or the other of my parents in the face of feeling weaknesses in the foundation of my connection to them... first with a "girls team" mentality and next with a "boys team" mentality. And it was like I started trying to prove myself more Masculine... probably to try to impress my dad with my strength, stoicism, grit, and work ethic. And the only relatable female characters that were written during that time is "the girl who's still pretty... but not like the other girls because of her Masculine preferences." And the other female characters were either Feminine pretty bitches or Feminine pretty dumb bimbos. So, it was clear which character the audience was supposed to be rooting for, who was cool and good specifically because she was different than girls and not Feminine (but also incredibly Feminine in appearance and grace). So, as a teenager (still unconsciously holding onto a lot of internalized misogyny... but believing that I like everyone and conceptualizing of myself as a chilled out person) I sought to shape myself into a physically attractive young woman with Masculine preferences... and it was easy to do with my goth style at the time. And it's not to say that nothing in all of this is me. It's just mixed in with a bunch of filters and coping strategies. And I've seen my unfiltered self before in a mushroom journey where the mushrooms forced me to face with unconscious terror and made me sit with the terror for about an hour... and I eventually "popped through the bottom" of the terror and found this equanimous state. And I was able to finally speak as myself... and from my heart. And it's honestly so frustrating that I don't get to live and express as that all the time. But I keep chipping away at these blocks. The way I expressed in that time was very soft and calm with effortlessly authoritative... and totally unaffected by fear with all filters removed. It's mostly Feminine but not without integration of the Masculine. And I was just absorbing so much more information from the environment where I was sensitized to subtle energies because nothing rattled me emotionally... as I could allow all feelings. And it took away the need for all the filtering that I do... and not just for the reasons mentioned here. There's tons of filtering for a variety of different reasons. Also... I saw a being (the same being) twice in two separate medicine journeys of a soft and graceful alien-like Goddess figure possessing immense power and with sacred geometry decorating her skin all over her body like subtle delicate jewelry... but that jewelry was also subtle and swirling and moving through her ethereal skin. And I saw her as this Feminine being with the Masculine coursing through her like currents in the water... to where it was the Masculine was her subtle adornments, which increased her power and beauty. And her arms were my arms... and I could look down at my arms and see that it was me. And it doesn't resemble anything of society's gender roles... but it's very Feminine and somewhat Masculine in it's subtle animating qualities. It seemed to me during the journeys that this being is some other-dimensional aspect of myself. And in that mushroom journey, I feel like I got to express what that represents through my terrestrial form, but that has been blocked individually and collectively by society's multi-millennia-long polarization into the Masculine and repression of the Feminine.

Well, despite promising visual aspects and NMR spectra, the in-vivo could still turn out faulty somehow, so I prefer not going overboard on first orders. I'll assay 5mg soon, day after same dose HCl for a fair comparison. If it performs as expected I'll get another 1-2g. After unpacking & weighing losses + gifts I'll have 900mg remaining. Trips range from 3-10mg, beyond that only on special occasions. That's via IM of course, with the other inefficient routes a gram is only good for maybe 50 mediocre trips. So just the current amount is over 100 trips easily, which I won't be doing more than once per week due to having plenty of other chemicals to work with and in general having switched to a less frequent but more potent schedule. A second buy then guarantees stock for a few years at least, the rest are similarly secure already. Studying the effect of daily sub-1mg injections on baseline consciousness & prolonged exposure would be interesting. Transitioning to alien with 5MM 👽 Next comes time to lay off spending money on chems, talking on forums, etc. to concentrate on building wealth that will allow buying the kind of bulk you're proposing. Or better yet, ordering custom synths 😎

I am Alien, and no human agency has any control over me.

These days, I sometimes stop to think and wonder: isn’t it kind of lame being human? It feels that way to me, we’re always stuck dealing with the same sets of annoying problems over and over again. Take the one outlined in the topic, for example. There are never any truly satisfying solutions to any of them, not really. Like, not REALLY. Especially with long-term problems, where all sorts of unpredictable variables are constantly at play. All advice and solutions end up feeling like putting a band-aid on a bullet wound to me. Our existence is frustrating in that way. Maybe there’s something to being an alien, maybe Leo should hook me up with some good stuff after all LOL

Alien Joy

Every single ALIEN COME TO ME BRING IT ON ALL OF YOU.

A stiff upperlip is not good for anybody, not for the others and not for yourself. It is very unhealthy for yourself to have pent up emotions and you basically freeze the relationship dynamics by being clinical and sterile. Most of the people here are deeply traumatized people who are looking for answers in the holy grail of actualized which is psychedelics. It is all in vain and all overcompensation. People don't look for truth and alien consciousness when they are wounded and looking to heal. Truth and healing (and being healthy aka embodied truth) is the same thing that a lot of people still have to discover but I rest my case. All disease comes from trauma or some kind mental perversation. It is good that you are focusing on that because if one is wounded one can't even see reality the right way and see truth rightiously. All greatness comes from loss. A forum can't be low a good medium to express it. But I found it more useful to go to a city I'm unknown in and just be myself unapologetically. This might something you might to try out because that way you are skin in the game. I still think you still have a lot of uncovering to do though and I wish you all the best.

The second part of this post is my "alien" experience

@Eskilon I wasn't going to reveal this here. But I just sort of lost all fucks hiding shit that is a big part of my experience. I used to be so closed off. As I get older I just stop caring about how I am perceived. I have just as many questions as you really. I don't know why the mantis ones showed themselves to me. No other type. I can tell you that they don't exist in our material reality. They don't experience time. They have a collective form of memory/consciousness that is really different because they don't have voices, there isn't a language. Whole concepts of information felt transmitted - it feels like you suddenly have all these gestalt/images but with context transmitted at the same time. But there is an awareness another is connecting and sharing the concepts. You feel the expanse. It is like a giant mind behind the eyes - and it makes me wonder if @Leo Gura's alien consciousness wasn't something similar accessed, somehow. And I do not mean alien as in NHI or extra-terrestrial. I mean like a hive mind of consciousness like a river of knowing. Like a tap into some other type of consciousness that isn't contained to a form but semi unified and expansive. Don't know any of this for sure. Just makes me wonder. I don't have answers - just more unknowns. Like yourself!

Just think for a second smoking dmt with a alien and getting all their information you may think eh it’s still god imagining it all even if it’s all dream stuff there’s no telling what information and consciousness they Possess

You claim you met an alien??

So I posted this video on the "Alien Intelligence" Thread, but no responses! I find it weird, top government officials, Rubio the Secretary of State as well, claiming we have Alien (non Human Tech, Ships, Bodies) in the possession of the US government.. Isn't this the top story, more important than the current long running wars, economic or medical problems going on? I don't understand why no one is interested, am I missing something?? Here's the vid..

Title: Alien Black Pill

You are also gesturing towards a new and different type of cognition that can process info and reason in completely alien ways , right?

@jimwell you're thinking too much. Definitely not an alien, thats the human condition. You want to quiet your mind and look for who/what you really are right now, but that wont be conceptual Human/Alien answer, but will be the experiential I before any thought.

I'm only in my 30s but I have already embodied this worldview. Damn, I'm really an alien.

@Carl-Richard Finally someone brings this real topic! I would like to know if you are living such current reality of no control at all? In the past I was going far through such path but I had to stop because I thought I was doing something wrong. It just feels crazy and completely alien to society. You basically can’t fit in anywhere by chance. could you please expand more on this because the line is really thin between such liberation and total insanity in the bad sense. How would you even survive? Keep a job? Etc? How do one understand such path if that’s even something. I had to stop because I was about to leave my job, university and while even living with my parents the stress was real since they thought I was crazy and did not understand. Sadhguru has scratched this topic saying that you need control so you don’t go mad. I think he fears fully letting go and created and ego again through magic or tantric means just to perform since I once perceived hidden anxiety in him by holding hidden veils just as I had to do so I could perform into society expectations for the sake of survival. Did you experienced dissasociation and depersonalization? Some say this is a problem and others don’t and that it’s part of the path. I experienced in the past and it was liberating yet crazy and had to force a stop through karma gluing. This path is serious since it triggers the real matter of the dark night of the soul which is an extensive theme that go through different stages as you evolve and expand your consciousness. You will continue having different dark nights until fully avatar. The dark night manifest through different forms and dimensions not just feeling lost. It can manifest even through chakra problems of energy leaking and past life karma surging up that you are not even aware of and don’t know how to handle. Or past life karma congestion when surging up that later manifests as disease.