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I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

Ego embraces Your Identity, Opinions/Beliefs, Personality, and allows a Sense of Separation (this is important for Spirituality to exist!).. The Death of Ego means Your Identity is gone, and so is the sense of Separation, Your Experience of that of Completeness and Connection to Everything, but Your Intellect is still intact, Your Personality is there, but You choose when to use it, it doesn't Use You! Enlightenment is the highest Potential for a Human Being to Exist in Experiencially, its all of the above, but the Energies within are super Intense all the time, Your very Present Moment Aware, Peace and Bliss are always there in the background and can be as intense as You want it too be.. Your relatively Healthy, Compassion and Love (including others as Yourself) are natural to You, You dislike only the Actions of the person or thing, not the person or thing itself! You play this Human Game, deal with all situations with openness and clarity, your not a know it all, but are curious about a bunch of things... This is the last Incarnation, no more body/mind complexes to go into again, you merge with Absolute, no individuality anymore!

This is the illusion and the very reveal that exposes the trap. This is where the ground and the earth from which you stand is disregarded and you are swept of thy feet with an invisible power that never delivers, rather only provides a false mental bliss, no different than those who abuse psychedelics. Here is the truth and words of Christ, your heart will reveal unto you what is true (by how it feels) in your being. "Teach the people to work on the base of their beings,” he was saying, in a voice that was like a chant. “You would like them to have wings to fly, while in reality they have yet to find their feet. If they do not recognize the Earth as the Mother who feeds them, who nurses them, you may expect that they will spend their whole lives desperately seeking my Father." If we deny the Mother (the earth), we deny the very *medium* that allows the Father to be known. In essence, you cannot reach the Father without the Mother. The Divine is immanent in the earth and body; we experience God through life, matter, and presence.

God is a playful energy, much closer to true Non-Duality because it doesn't ignore Duality. And it is Infinite, even Infinite beyond Infinity itself, and Infinite beyond Itself. Ahahahaha. This is a profound and precise statement that reveals the essence of the divine. God as playful energy embodies the principle of joy and lightness of being, allowing a person to feel inner freedom and harmony. This interpretation emphasizes the dynamism and fluidity of spiritual experience, offering a way beyond strict definitions and dogmatism. God is not a frozen image or a static force, but a living, ever-changing energy, manifesting through the play and interaction of opposites. It is this quality of play that allows one to maintain balance and flexibility, preserving a sense of freedom and inner lightness. Non-duality does not deny the existence of duality, but rather incorporates it into the overall picture of the world, making it part of a unified whole. This approach brings us closer to a profound understanding of the essence of God and the meaning of human existence. This perspective is particularly resonant with Eastern spiritual traditions such as Hinduism and Buddhism, where duality is perceived as an integral part of our existence. The principle of lila ("play") in Hindu philosophy illustrates the idea that the entire universe is a grand interplay of divine energies, encompassing both light and dark energies. The playful nature of the Divine expresses the joy of creativity, freedom of expression, and the absence of rigid boundaries. It invites us to let go of control and enjoy the journey, opening ourselves to new experiences and possibilities. After all, it is in play that creativity, inspiration, and spontaneity are born, allowing us to uncover the deepest layers of our soul and come closer to a true understanding of truth. Thus, seeing God as playful energy becomes the key to perceiving reality as a field of infinite possibilities, where boundaries are erased and unity is revealed through the diversity of forms and manifestations. Natural expression of unity: Playfulness implies a free, relaxed manner of interacting with the surrounding world. It is a state of mind free from rigid boundaries and limitations, allowing one to easily move from one aspect of reality to another, sensing the unity of all that exists. Non-separation: In a state of playfulness, the division between subject and object, observer and observed, disappears. Everything merges into a single stream of consciousness, which is close to the state of Non-duality, where differences are perceived as conditional and temporary. Creative process: Play involves creating new combinations, experimenting, and exploring the unknown. This quality of creative energy is inherent in Non-duality, which allows for the manifestation of a multitude of forms and phenomena while remaining the unified foundation of all. Spontaneity and openness: Playfulness is accompanied by a sense of mild uncertainty and a readiness for everything new. This attitude allows one to openly embrace the different sides of reality, including duality, and integrate them into a unified picture. Joy and pleasure: The emotional component of playfulness—the joy and pleasure of the process—is close to the state of bliss characteristic of experiences of Nonduality. It arises when a person frees themselves from attachments and prejudices, enjoying every moment of life. Thus, energetic playfulness serves as a bridge between everyday experience and the state of Nonduality, helping one overcome artificial barriers and immerse oneself in direct contact with the depth and fullness of being.

There is Basic Awareness via the 5 senses, yes they don't tell Us Everything, every little detail but they tell Us enough to allow us to live another day, and if Our Thinking Process was not so identified with they would be enhanced for each individual, almost as good as dogs or cats when it comes to smell, sight and hearing.. Since our neurological system is the most complex and integrated that too allows us a sense of Awareness that most living things do not have.. Then there is Spiritual Awareness which is not via the 5 senses, it is in this area that they say Awareness is Vast, because now Your not just Aware of the Physical realm but the Spiritual One which is everything that is non physical in nature.. You are made up of 5 Bodies, Physical, Mental, Energy, Etheric, Bliss Body, each one is more subtle than the previous one, Energy is the most subtle on the physical side, after that the Etheric is half physical half non physical, Bliss Body is not physical in nature.. So if Your intouch with those last 3 to a high degree, Your Awareness is the size of the Universe!

I am God,I am Infinite Love . I am so powerful that I imagine this present moment ,it is perfection it is bliss. I am all alone as Infinite Consciousness .I achieved full self acceptance on this. But now I have to work on my dream only I can do it. Yeah lets give "them" a purpose since my mind projects reality. I am unmovable unchanging Absolute. Absolute Zero haha

The biggest blindspot in spirituality is that people refuse to admit the obvious: God is a hedonistic bastard. God’s only “agenda” is the maximization of pleasure for Himself. Not moral duty. Not self-annihilation. Not abstract “awakening.” Just pure, unashamed enjoyment. That’s why the ego exists. If God only wanted flat bliss, He could dissolve into Infinity and stay there. But Infinity without contrast is boring. The ego is God’s own spice machine — it provides limitation, longing, frustration, contrast. And why? Because contrast makes fulfillment infinitely juicier. Pain isn’t some cosmic necessity. It’s seasoning. God chooses just enough of it to make the banquet of pleasure explode with intensity. And here’s the most absurd part of mainstream “nonduality”: people like Leo Gura draw a line between “ego” and “God,” as if the ego wasn’t God’s own creation. As if God could create a desire and then declare war on it. That’s not wisdom, that’s stupidity of the highest order. The ego is not an obstacle. It is God’s art form, designed for maximum enjoyment. Look closely: every time an ego desire is fulfilled, a piece of it softens and dissolves. That’s how the “death of ego” actually works — through fullness, not annihilation. No torture, no horror, no cosmic masochism required. Just the overflowing pleasure of a self being fully expressed and then naturally bowing out when it’s complete. So let’s stop pretending spirituality is about self-hatred or fear. The truth is far simpler and far more radical: God created the self to taste Himself more deeply. God is Infinite Love, yes — but Infinite Love for Himself, expressed through every possible form of pleasure. The ego is not the enemy. It’s the instrument. And annihilation is not the point. Fulfillment is.

There are no "problems" in life, just situations! If You freak out and act compulsively, reacting per say, then Your intelligence to get thru the Situation is reduced, but if Your bliss or peace is not affected, your clarity is still there, Your Blissful no matter what, then Your intelligence is always there, that is the teaching, it makes sense!

I’ve had many awakening experiences induced by self inquiry. My question is-when is the fun part? Every time it happens, I just feel myself disappearing and it is rather frightening, as everyone I love disappears too and it feels like there is no one else in any of my loved ones bodies. I just don't like the solipsistic part of it. Any tips on how to get over this so I can go deeper and fully experience my awakening without fear? I always cut it off before it goes to deep.

Heres how it went for me the order is a little fuzzy This is kind of how it goes but in no specific orders: No Self realization (Enlightenment- ego death) The mystical wind - (spirit) Bliss - Divinity- amazing- miraculous- godlike - mystical Infinity - (The God Wind - Absolure Infinity - reeling on the ground for momma. You are Infinity and Infinity is reality. As a result of Infinity - its Consciousness - Consciousness continues to expand encompassing all. Its a dream. Everything is ideas not material reality. Mind blowing Nothingness. You are Absolutely Nothing ..as a result of Infinity (Devastating a feeling of complete emptiness) Complete Omniscience - grasping it all. Wonderful. You grasp it all in one go. God realization - You are God and are dreaming the whole thing. All of it is yours. Satisfying. Complete Oneness Solpsism) self and other duality collapses - it really hits you now. Yeah you were God. But you're fucking God. Like that's it. There's nothing outside of you.. Beautiful but terrifying. Ego returns. Somehow keep your sanity.

Imagine you could dream any dream you wanted, every night - you could dream 75 years of time in one night. Every night you could have any kind of pleasure, adventure, or experience you desired. At first, you’d live out your wildest fantasies. Love, power, beauty, triumph, bliss! But eventually, you’d get bored of predictable pleasure. So you’d start adding uncertainty, risk, and surprise. “Tonight, let’s dream something less predictable… maybe something that feels real.” And after many such dreams, you’d eventually dream the kind of life you’re living right now. Complete with its ups, downs, heartbreaks, uncertainties, and miracles. “You would be living exactly as you are now — because that’s what you would dream." - Alan Watts

It depends. Both possibilities exist. If you go into the formlessness very deeply eventually you will reach a point of complete annihilation where there is not even bliss, love, orgasm, or anything -- just a total blank. It is such a high degree of Unity that you can't even call it Unity. It is so united that it has no distinct qualities. It is Unity but you cannot call or think it "Unity". It is Love but it is a Love too deep to even be called "Love". Just to think of reality as "Love" or "Unity" already requires a degree of separation and form. If you have complete formlessness you cannot even regard it as "formless", because "formless" is a form. However, you can also be conscious of formlessness while being in a state of form. You can think formlessness. You can comprehend it as Love. So there are multiple ways here. The common mistake is to try to reduce it to just one way. That's the error of the Buddhists.

In formless, post-physical-death unity with God, there is of course still endless love and bliss and all of that, like existing in an endless orgasm, right? It’s not like going to sleep where there is literally no experience at all?

Nobody is done. Actually, there isn't even somebody beyond the appearance of somebody. There is,was, ever will be only THAT. Cosplaying sometimes as somebody in its own Being. But that is another story. Stabilizing Awakening via resting in True Being is just a stepping stone to whatever other adventures there may be appear, beyond having a human appear in ones Being. And yet, it is the stepping stone of fundamental importance, from duality ("somebody" in here, "other" out there) chasing experiences/states/awakenings/whatever (another word is suffering in cycles) to truly starting to become able to rest in bliss even in the so called "ordinary" world (which in truth isn't ordinary at all, but holy manifestation of the Divine Ground). And from thereon, become truly able to celebrate the journey, which in truth never really happened beyond appearing to be happening. Which takes the whole stress out of the game.

To realize what Reality is and what my true being is, 15 years+ after starting with a Mahamudra and Dzogchen based practices similiar to Pointing out the Great Way. Before that, some years of Zen-like meditation, but that would not have led anywhere I guess (not efficient enough, at least not for me. Too much brute force effort required). So nowadays I am enjoying the bliss that comes along the release of the ever-grasping self-contraction/ego-illusion and effortless in True boundless nondual impersonal Being, getting rid of the remaining "character-hangovers" (Chat-GPT: "The lingering emotional or mental effects you feel after being deeply immersed in a fictional character or story.")... Ask my wife . And somtimes I wonder why some chase their own merely appearing and temporary (Alien-,x/y/z) tails in a grasping way (wanting x/y/z Awakenings or else suffering/contracting/grasping), which is exactly is the opposite of getting rid of the remaining lenses/filters by resting for really long periods of time in choiceless Awareness, which would make true Enlightenment possible. And propagate the tail-chasing as superior. Mayas illusions and cul-de-sacs, all the way of the path.... So, Godspeed by the River

I was floating, living in the peaceful bliss of my immaterial dreams, content with the world... Until you reminded me of the abuse this show put me through 😜 I WANTED to love it. It didn't love me... I'm re-watching the remake of Battlestar Galactica currently. Gimme a show like THAT (except maybe the very end when the writers strike scrambled the eggs slightly)

That which is truly aware doesn't come and go. Sometimes "it" has nothing to be aware of. I see this deep intuition in your posts, and why you value Ralstons material so much because of that. In my view, that comes deeply from your soul, and I consider it as a very precious intuition of your soul. And THAT which is aware watches all the Ant/Human/Alien/Divine Being "individuality" (aka consciousness), which is nothing else than the subjective appearing side of the nondual whole. It is still an arising in the dream... For me its perfectly clear why Reality looks for Leo the way it does (some "consciousness" higher than the other). Because he has never let go fully of all of these juicy subjective parts (aka what he calls higher consciousness, or "consciousness of" Ant/Human/Alien/Divine Being, n+1), leaving some filters/lenses and subjective distorations (aka states) still in place. Even in nondual states giving rise to beings more complex than humans (Alien)... And I totally understand why he totally doesn't understand what I am saying and why I am saying that. My challenge for Leo would be: Sit down on the pillow, meditate until suffering and boredom stops, die on the pillow, then die some more, then die until the Leo-thing is done with, and then see what is really the case when one is able to shut down the arisings of the illusionary separate-self (aka Leo) in real-time - sobre. And if that is not doable, then why? Hint: Leo not quite dead transcended and done with. Ah, the untranscended self-contraction. And once this bug is fully transcended in real time, then tell us when the bliss of the Absolute and the release of any form of self-contraction has started flowing, if the Alien is still so fascinating. Maybe then he will understand why everyone who has achieved Enlightenment (or realized ones own True Nature) values the flow of bliss and the infinite release of Duality, or resting in ones True Being as the Summum Bonum. All possible questions are answered in this. All there ever could be (including Alien) is just mere appearance in ones boundless Being, and the bliss of that Being drowns all grasping. And the end-point of this multi-life-journey is not exploring the multiverse in a grasping way to ease the contraction of the untranscended separate-self. That is done until one tires of it, which can be speeded up with insight. Then, one can still celebrate Gods Infinity of realms. But then, in a non-grasping way, a celebration, because the self-contraction that suffers/grasps/contracts is dead/gone, a mere illusion that once appeared in ones True Being. You will never have the answer going down that road, since its Infinity on Infinity on Infinity forever. God will never run out of Infinities/Aliens/Diving Beings/whatever n+1. You will drop dead before you have the full answer going down that road. But if that is the only tool you have to ease your self-contraction a bit, well, go ahead on do it until you are tired of it - this life or the next. Which, btw., is also the point of the ride: To do what you like until you get tired of that. Or maybe have some insight into the whole process and jump to the next step. Less tiring & suffering. Either way, its how Reality celebrates the appearance of your life. In that sense, let's celebrate the journey we are on to the best of our abilities, and Godspeed in/by/on/as the River PS: UnbornTao wouldn't be UnbornTao if yours truly wouldn't get a snarky comment on his blasphemy, so... and Namaste! PS PS: Leo, having read Reductionism from you quite a lot quite lately.... How about replacing that with Essentialism, and coming home? See you there! And then, from "there", the exploration of the Infinity of Infinities is a celebration, being & feeling at home wherever possibly one seemingly goes.

Well I experienced God/Infinite Love and realized everyone and everything is literally me.So how I can I live other then being a saint /sage. I awoken myself for some reason. I have clean mind,pure heart and many times experience bliss without taking the drugs.I am satisfied with small.I don't need money or sex.I am happy and I accepted myself as God. I know all of this is projection of my mind so what other thing is left is other then to Love because that is my true nature. I want good and beautiful dream.

In this forum very few people had Kundalini awakening. But that doesn't mean they don't know truth. Kundalini awakening is not everything. Understanding, consciousness development etc plays a role. Chasing bliss in spirituality will probably end up like you. It's ego who wants that. You have not transcended your ego enough so you are suffering . Because the bliss state you lost makes it even more harder for the ego. I think that's what the dark night of the soul describes. It's a common phenomenon on the path to enlightenment. You need to return to the spiritual path once again, but from the right intentions. Otherwise you will end up probably in misery again. And prepare everything for serious work. Have stable income, good diet, sport etc so that you have a strong basis you can rely on when things get heavy.

Here is my life story condensed: I have had it, I will tell the Truth After many years of experience, I know the Truth, and it is dark. A dark, dark place. I was bullied throughout my years in school, except at some level in Junior College. Right from kindergarten, Primary School and Secondary School. But I was perfect. I had no real flaws, no real failings or falls. My struggles won me strength, and around an early age that I can't remember, I walked the straight and narrow spiritual path. And from my efforts, I won me Enlightenment. It was perfect, I could strongly declare it perfect then. It was partly because I met a Guru at 17. My friend told me about him, and said very positive things about him, mainly that "you should meet him", and that it will be an "eye-opener". I did, and when he first met me in school, he looked astounded, brought me aside, and asked me to ask him anything about spirituality or religion. I asked him later why he had this look on his face when he met me. He said "sometimes I meet someone that my Lord favours". So we talked, and I finally asked him to teach me the secrets of life. He said he could, but it will cost me. As we talked however, I managed to convince him to teach it to me for free. He brought me to a book store, and showed me a book on Islam to read, saying we need "cannot be building castles in the sky". So I read it, two pages, and failed at fulfilling my promise. At the start of the next year, he came online on MSN again, and told me this "go to army first and learn to be a man boy, then come to me!" This really affected me, because here was someone so keen on helping me, and here I was doing nothing. So it went on, and he messaged me on MSN around the March holidays. He said, "How's things with you?" I said I had a dream where he gained a divine name. "He said, congratulations, you have some levels." Then I asked, "What is God?", for which he replied, "This is not what a true person will say." So he then taught me a meditation, for which I did twice. According to a Spiritualist, when I did that meditation, I attracted blood demons to inject their blood into me, because there was a spiritual clash when I did the meditation at night, which I did with verbalising a lot of vibrations with my mouth, repeating the verse, "Om". Sometime after, he asked me how I felt, if there were any changes. I couldn't really tell, because it was very subtle, for which he said again, "Looks like you still got a long way to go." Within a span of one month though, I came to feel an extremely high energy within me. It was pure, purity, if I was to describe or label it, a very strong surge of pure energy. Then sometime after, after some serious investigation into the nature of Life, I awakened my Kundalini. The singular most powerful moment in my life. At that point, I was happy, supremely happy. I had everything I ever wanted, and was satisfied. My only fear and issue is if I couldn't bring my enlightenment with me to after my exams, for which I was aiming for straight A's. Because I could see my doom coming, because I was getting a bit too complicated. I asked the Guru, is there anything I should know, he said "Nope." I wanted to really ask, if I was to fall, I want to fall after my exams. Also, it was the Guru who told me my Kundalini was awakened. I told him that for some reason, I was feeling very confident. He said "What you are experiencing is Kundalini, when the negative energy channels start to open. Some say it is Enlightenment, but it is nothing, it is just mechanism, what we want is True Lord." Also, the Spiritualist is my cousin's boyfriend's father, and there was once when we were house visiting, she came into my grandma's house and talked about his father, and I was intrigued given my interest at that moment, but I waited 30 minutes before coming out of the room, but she had left already. As you can see, my life is quite unfortunate. So within the months of April, May, June, July, August, September, I was experiencing a tremendous bliss, powerfully transformative. I was very high on life, due to the Kundalini. Nothing could touch me, or at least apparently, for here I now tell my tragic story. I was the class monitor, and was given a task on Monday to make a Teacher's Day Card for Friday. I was thinking as I was enlightened, I could do it on my own pace, and also, if I hurried, I might seem insecure. On the Thursday, I went in front of the class, after our last lesson, and this guy, I admit he has strong leadership skills and willpower, if arrogant, who was a prefect, so knew we had to make the card, went out of the classroom and said, "I got to go, I got stuff to do", and just left me standing there, and then the whole class joined in "Sorry, Calixtus! We got stuff to do as well." In this manner I was destroyed, my first falling. Honestly, at this point, I could still salvage myself. I might have fallen, but it wasn't beyond help. But honestly, it was in Army that shiet happened. I wasn't in the right state of mind to enter army. A tough place. I was diagnosed as "schizophrenia" in army, in 1 minute by the doctor, who was a manipulative person. Then after that, I was designated to the Navy, and everyday as a clerk, I would go insane at them laughing at me. First of all, because my energy meridians were blocked, my true strength as a person did not show. They were laughing at me because they thought I was weak, when I was lost, constricted, and in pain. If I had just gotten out of it, I could easily show my superior spiritual levels. There's a lot more to the story, if anyone is interested. The basis is this, that I struggled, suffered, gained, lost, knew it would be a pity to not salvage, and then even lost at my attempts at salvaging. It is a very sad life. Basically, I got nothing to look forward to, and I see the Reality every damn day, it is complete emptiness. I lost everything, all my efforts, all the time, all the joy that could have been. My higher self doesn't like to waste time, and this was from 2005 onwards, 20 years of wasted time. This is a fking bs story, if this is the best God can do, I am not impressed, this is not the resume of a supreme being. So much more hurt to speak of, tell me if anyone is still interested in hearing. They said "no weapon shall prosper". The problem is this, I was lost, and could not help myself anymore, I tried my best to salvage, but was stopped by various forces, I was deceived by the devil who planned my destruction, and I was all alone, without a guide or guru, which I gravely needed. How now? When everything is lost and gone??

You have no idea of the truth, it is a tremendous bliss, there is humility in how blessed I am, and clarity comes before Kundalini.

Ok sorry for my suspicion and welcome to this forum. Your story is very unusual and interesting. Do you think about getting back to Kundalini awakening through meditation to experience the bliss once again? Do you want to become a spiritual teacher again? Have you reflected why your scholars left you, what was the real reason?

No, I am a real person, and you have no idea of the spiritual level I once had. I was very high on life, with what can be called, supreme bliss. I can share more if you want. Also, that's a picture of me at 5 I think, how can you think I am a bot. You can't see how real my story is?? He said I met him, because I asked God to meet a man of God, so God answered.

Ok then it's an AI, which creates automatically a new user in this form and pastes the stuff from Reddit. See this AI is not programmed to answer in this thread on my question if it's an AI. And who knows if this reddit post is not also AI generated. This story is confusing and unrealistic. Finding a guru next door, who teaches you for free and you awake your Kundalini because of some ohm meditation and your life is perfect and pure bliss. Yeah. I know how Kundalini awakening looks like. It's not like that at all.

As I explained before, he has to charge for it, firstly to pay for the facilities, the food, the travel to get to the venue and such expenses, second, know one today will give any value to attend his events if it is for free, that is the way it is today unfortunately.. As I said, all 3 events I attend, the fees for all of them combined where below $2000, which is crazy to think about when other self help or gurus charge over $5000 just for a one day event... Also, he doesn't "Make" ppl do anything, he just offers a method for the person to use so they have their Free Will/Ability to Respond back in their control, and from there they can do what they want to do with it, if they want to have Suffering Experiences go for it he says, if Bliss is what You want to that is fine to, that is up to the individual, not for him to decide..