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That's my main issue, I don't feel CAPABLE of doing things. Even when I do do things, it feels like big effort and drudgery and so I PUSH through it. That doesn't feel like being truly capable, idk

This sounds correct to me

These are good questions. Thanks. I'll think about them. I think normally I tend towards being slightly more ambitious than average which isn't perhaps saying much. Just struggling and fearful atm. Been feeling a lot of anxiety. Trying to just get up out of bed and face the day, as thinking too much before acting amps up anxiety even more. When I look into my future I cannot see a clear way out of my situation. If feels like the same path will continue forever. So I've been trying to drop thinking too much about the future. Sometimes I feel suicidal and the furthest into the future I can bear to think about is 10 minutes. I'm not feeling suicidal at the moment. It's been a week or two since my last intense feelings. I'm slowly building more trust with my coworkers and more opportunities for having fun with them are coming up. Today I had my first real laugh with them which felt really nice and made me feel a bit more safe. I guess if we're able to build a better social atmosphere we'll be able to tolerate keeping the job for a bit longer. But yeah anyways, just really trying to get my anxiety levels down and I think a better income would help me a bit. I've been saving up and filled out spreadsheets with my expenses. Quite sad to look at Lol. But Joshe's questions sound helpful and I'll think about them. And yeah I guess thinking about what my "passion" is just literally doesn't work when I'm depressed. "Having a deep passion" sounds ridiculous when you've been feeling chronically depressed and anxious and all you need is a decent survival strategy for some breathing room. I'm tired

I'm headed to work right now at the grocery store after 2 days off. I can already feel the HEAT and ATTACKS of demands from customers and bosses coming from every direction. This is making me want to kill myself. But let's go. I literally want a life of ease and comfort and time to think and study and contemplate life deeply (from a distance). I do not want my skin in the game

I think he's talking to me. We never know who he's talking to

Because like, a lot of teachers talk of the possibility of making an abundant living doing something that one is passionate about and that comes EASY... Others are adamant about the hard work and effort mentality. So, what is it? Do I really have to swallow the reality that it's gonna be harsh and effortful? It feels like hard work is forced, I don't know..

I wouldn't tell them to just get in and fail. I also wouldn't tell them to study hydronamics because it's too detailed and doesn't get motor skills locked in. But I would offer guidance, some support. There are stupid mistakes you can learn about in advance and avoid. If we can't learn from the experiences of others, why would we live in a world with billions of people? We don't have to go everything alone without external guidance. (Note to myself as well)

Makes sense. This actually clarifies a lot of things about my impatience. This thred has been very useful to me, y'all. I might keep coming to the forum more often this year as I work through my mentality issues around money and what's possible in money-making and value-providing for me. The first barrier is definitely about ridding myself of the idea that this should be easy. Ugh.

"It is characterized by an overestimation of one's own abilities." What? I'm literally dealing with the opposite condition

I'm putting together a Youtube playlist on this topic. There's some Leo Gura, some Teal Swan and some AJ Miller in it. More to come https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLk-zP5FXAEEZwYJS-RWzL76CeZabosU-O&si=dFuGqPVuplE-3tMX

I'm 26 am I still fixable? ———————————— I got some pretty good responses here. Thanks. A lot to think about😭 Basically I need a major mentality shift and lifestyle changes. I'm now working at a grocery store basically just receiving the products the truckers bring, checking if everything's correct. Sometimes I work the cash registers as well. Sometimes I help bag the groceries. Sometimes I help customers find or carry stuff. And I oversee 2 people working the cash registers. I make minimum wage in Brazil. I created a spreadsheet for my monthly expenses like Leo suggested in one of his videos, and looking at the numbers feels terribly depressing and despairing Lol. I just really feel very stuck about how to make more money. So I'm kinda making it my 2026 theme to understand more about finances.

As I've mentioned in my previous post, nothing really comes easy to me. I wish I had financial abundance so I never had to worry about money again in my life. But money only comes in as a result of offering value to others. And building up something of value takes time. And I have no patience for things that take too much time to actualize. I feel a sense of urgency. I wanted more money NOW. Guess I'll just give up, I can't bear the long process... I wonder what's at the root of this impatience. I wonder if I can speed up the process somehow, idk My fantasy is I wish I already had a natural skill that required no time to develop, just like a gift that I could naturally offer others. But I guess it doesn't work that way right?

Nothing comes easy to me Life is a constant struggle, and everything seems like hard work (yesterday I created a post on suicide and today I'm thinking of my life purpose. My two personalities talking..)

Is it too late for everything, like getting over addictions, developing a solid life purpose, fixing up my relationships, becoming more decisive, getting over past stupidity and mistakes, etc? i feel like ive wasted so much of my life so I’m so depressed over it