flyingwhalee

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    Trust me when I say you can go through the darkest times. My 5 years long relationship ended over a year ago, and that taught me a lot because I allowed myself to accept suffering, to stay present and then to take concrete actions in my life. Props to you first of all for realizing you have to work on yourself. Work on yourself enough so that you won't need to cling to the idea that "maybe he will take me back". 

    That's a hard path to walk, but it pays tons.

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    5 minutes ago, Gregory1 said:

    Thanks @flyingwhalee,

    Without you this could have taken much longer. Thanks for your help.

    I love your music video. It is amazing. Continue doing Gods work.

    I knew you would take that seriously. Your "life" really begins now, with the truth of what you are in mind and heart. 

    And thank you for the compliment. Just like you, I'm quite the music nerd. 

  6. Posted · Edited by flyingwhalee

    BTC is relatively safe. With crypto, the higher the risk, the higher the reward, so get a proper understanding of what coin you're investing on, what problems are they solving, are the devs legit, is the team serious, are they backed by other companies, etc etc

    Lotss of scams in crypto so be extra wary

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    8 minutes ago, Gregory1 said:

    Isn't it obvious, that he hasn't gone all the way? Perhaps you havent realized God yet. Or maybe I'm full of shit, who knows.

    It's quite obvious many non-dual teachers didn't go all the way as you say. But I'm sure you know what "all the way" means. Consciousness is literally infinitely deep, you can go so far even material existence would cease, and you wouldn't be here to talk about it, nor would the universe be (this is going controversial). I would add I believe you can ony go so far without the help of psychedelics, so that would explain the situation.

    Also, for having read Eckhart Tolle years ago, I think the guy is conscious of more than what he lets people know through books, seminars and interview. He doesn't call "it" God for example, maybe to appeal to more people.

    Finally, you can find Soufi teachers that are conscious of God. Most of them did not recognize that they themselves are God thought, and that's just where they are. 

  12. Posted

    I would add Absolute Wakefulness, Infinite Consciousness and Infinite Being, since really everything arises from it at all times. 

    An interesting note: in the Islamic tradition (in which I grew up), the divine has 99 holy names that really are just its inherent attributes. Now, of course, anyone that has been conscious of God enough would agree that it is beyond the grasp of any religion or ideology since it is everything already, and even every possibility unmanifested (which simply put is Infinity). But I personally find interesting to take a look at these names. Genuine insights from 1400 years ago:

     

    https://www.islamicreliefcanada.org/resources/99-names-of-allah/

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    6 hours ago, Gregory1 said:

    @flyingwhalee

    I have an idea what the reason for that might be; Could it be, that a few days (maybe even weeks) before your trips, you are getting a chemical in your body, that wasn't there on your earlier trips?

    I've tried this out a few times now, for me when I use Modafinil 50-60 hours before my LSD trips, they get hellish and don't give me any insights. When I do not use Modafinil I consistently come to Godrealization.

    Could it be that you are taking a chemical that might affect your trips?

    That's actually likely I would say. The supplementation I'm taking since that started consists of Magnesium, Zinc, Calcium, Vitamin C and D3, and Cyproheptadine, which is a medication that helps stimulate appetite. That last might have something to do all of this. I did take it before those trips. 

    On 11/21/2021 at 1:54 PM, Gregory1 said:

    Thank you so much @flyingwhalee, I can‘t thank you enough for all the great advises you‘ve given to me in the past as well! Sorry for my late response, I had zero time this weekend - I‘d be very interested in good Kriya Yoga recources, I think Leo recommended Kriya as well… All the other tips also make a lot of sense and I‘ll try my best to integrate them into my day to day life!

    No problem @Gregory1. I have no doubt these tips already resonate with you. I'll DM you my Kriya ressources today.

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    Hey @Gregory1 ! Love how far you've come from a few weeks ago. Now if I tell you "you are me as unitary consciousness", you know exactly what I mean. Not as a belief, not as a concept, but as experience. Great job, I knew you'll get it.

     

    As to how to embody God in your day to day life, this is the real challenge. Here are some pointers:

    • AUTHENTICITY. Let the true you speak as much as possible in any given moment. Let authenticity slowly transform your life, even when it's difficult. Embrace difficulty with the love you're growing towards reality.
    • Speaking of love. In my experience, it is a by product of being authentic. Let it manifest as inherent love for Reality as it is, at all time. It's a learned "skill", for lack of a better wording. Grow love for things you as a finite self you thought as bad, and expand your viewing of any situation to see how anything that happens serves something greater, in the grand scheme of things. Embrace anything with an open heart and a warrior mentality. For more on that, check out Leo's video "Self-love: The highest teaching in the universe". As to understand what Love really is, he has the What is love serie.
    • Have a daily spiritual practice. I see you began to meditate for 1h everyday, that's very nice. However, in my experience, Kriya Yoga has been a lot more effective to grow and sustain the everyday level of consciouness. Downside is that it takes some learning, and most online sources are so bad / watered down. Hit me up if you're interested in A+ ressources, or check the Kriya Yoga mega-thread on this forum. (As of using psychedelics as the only tool, I don't really know about that. For me for example, now I have the worst hellish / suicidal levels of bad trips on LSD, on pretty much any dosage, for a reason I have no idea about. And that is after having infinite awakenings on this substances. I'll soon post about it here.)

     

    All in all, if you remember everyday to be the most authentic you can be, strive for it and always stick to this principle, it really is the best way to honor your highest self as God. 

    Great job again man. Really proud of your progress.

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    @Lyubov at least you were honest. I do sens a lot of clinginess from your side though. The simple fact you're so worried about the matter sells it out. To borrow kind of a new agy wording, maybe take some time alone and really connect with your masculine side. Whatever she thinks should absolutely not impact your well being, she's "only" your girlfriend. You might think that it's easy for an outsider to give such advice and that your case is a special one, but I've been through the same. And that will hugely play in your favor in your spiritual work, since you mentionned it.

    The only thing that won't change in your experience is the unshakable truth of your being, and you can literally draw from it unlimited strenght of will (and love). Your girl can break up with you tomorrow if she wants. 

  22. Posted

    Awakening aside, one useful thing to know is that some psychedelics such as LSD do interfere energetically. You can totally awaken kundalini on it, and feel the energy centers very profoundly. Some Yogis use this as an argument against psychedelics, saying they do interfere with the practices, which frankly is true. I had to stop microdosing at some point, because it was not sustainable along with the Kriya practice. 

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    Hey @Gregory1 !

     

    1) I'd wait at least two weeks between trips, but really even 2 weeks is a bit short. Not only because of the tolerance. If I want the next trip to be even more profound, I would need time to integrate in my day to day life what I learnt and live accordingly. But that's just me, I guess there would be nothing inherently wrong with frequent tripping. But you can't with LSD anyway. 

    2) So many. Then again, be clear with yourself about what you really want: Truth ? Urgent existential questions ? Healing ? Creativity Simply learn to be a more decent person ? Need practical answers to better your life ? Because you won't really necessarly need Truth for practical purposes for example. Maybe take some time to reflect on this. 

    3) I would say yes 100%. And don't be afraid to dive deep within your being (and it will be extremely deep). Psychedelics are such gems for exploring the nature of the self. And LSD does its job amazingly. Also, that alone will take a lot of trips. In fact, you can discover for yourself there is no boundary / limit to your self, so you can be going infinitely, so to speak. If the thought of it scares you now, remember that whatever shows up on a trip is a part of you. Therefore, not only there is nothing to fear, but there is everything to love. And you will need self-love to progress. More on that in 4)

    4) I would say both ways are fine, in the sens that accessing Truth is extremely healing. Nothing will teach you self-love more than tasting the existential love of God for everything, and that will translate in your life to Self-love for the whole universe (that you are). I personally went for Truth straight from the start, no regrets whatsoever. Made peace with the radical implications of Oneness. Then again, I read recently on this forum reports from people for who realizing God and Oneness has been horrifying, so perspective varies a lot. My advice for you would be to make sure that you're so thirsty for Truth, you feel you can't live without. So no regrets after, because it's literally pulling the curtain, seeing what's behind the scenes and break all illusions of separation. Realizing your POV is all that exists and is the whole universe is a rude awakening for some. But it's 100% true. Would you be okay with consciousness being unitary ? It comes with a sens of responsability for everything, and it asks to be tough (aka very accepting) from the perspective of the conceptual self. Ultimately it's perfection itself.

     

  24. Posted

    @Gregory1 My pleasure.

    5 hours ago, Gregory1 said:

    Especially the "loving intent" helped me to just open up and let myself fall into the experience.

    Excellent. You get it !

     

    5 hours ago, Gregory1 said:

    I will contemplate in my next trip what reality is made of (consciousness?) as you said. I think that there might still have been subtle concepts and rationalizations that I added on top of my direct experience in the first trip.

    Definitely do that. Super important. That alone is quite the discovery. When you'll get it, it will feel so obvious you will laugh. 

     

    5 hours ago, Gregory1 said:

    One deep problem that I have with the trip is that I can literally NOT REMEMBER THE EXPERIENCE. Is this normal? It is due to the fact that the state of consciousness that I'm in right now is not capable of imagining the radically different state of consciousness I was in on LSD. Don't know how to explain it differently. Am I making sense? Is it normal to not be able to remember the experience? Isn't this a problem? I am even doubting weather or not I even HAD the experience simply because I can't remember it (although I obviously had it).

    It would be awesome if somebody could help me with this. 

    Let's see if I can help on that. I think I get what you mean. You might even feel a hint of self-denial when you recall the few flashes of memory you hold, like "Was it THAT good / beautiful, or is my mind just making it up / embellishing the memory ?". Or maybe it's even more pronounced, like you literally can't recall anything because of the switch in perspective. In any case, 2 things:

    1) The obvious: you need more experience with psychedelics. And don't believe some who say it's impossible to bring back anything from those states, that is bs. Just build more familiarity with altered states of consciousness.

    2) Second was a game changer for me: Martin Ball said in an interview that one of the ways one can work / make progress with psychedelics for a non-dual purpose was to especially pay attention to the phase when the sens of self / patterns of the ego comes back, how it does that so you can learn to deconstruct it later. You don't need to go that far in your case, but simply pay attention during the phase when you come back to baseline state, like you would build a mental bridge over time. It's more challenging with compounds such as LSD, because a trip can last up to 12-13h. I personally do the trip strong determination sitting-style all along. It's challenging at first, but the fact you don't distract yourself at any point really pays off. It's a matter of getting your state of consciousness as high as possible, and grounding yourself in it as much as you can.

    Over time, I bet you will go from not remembering a thing to seeing infinite beauty wherever you look. 

  25. Posted

    Nice. Now you know what you put your feet into ! The best is still ahead indeed. Gradually increase doses while working on how deep you can surrender to your conceptual self being gone, and you won't believe in a million year what you will find.

     

    About your questions on how you might want to go from there: it seems from your report that you have realized that everything is consciousness, at a primary level, before you conceptually add atoms, molecules and other ideas on it. This is extremely important, now you should be aware that your mind is constructing fantasy over fantasy to rationnalize / explain what is before your eyes. Didn't fully got it ? Maybe contemplate this more in another trip. That is crucial.

     

    Next step will be even more radical than that, and you might need to up the dose a bit. It would be to a realization that actually, the substance everything you experience is nothing, which is the substance of God's imagination. It will come with a first recognition that God indeed exists, and that is already quite shocking in itself, because there might be a duality between you and God, and you might not know how to relate with it. That phase will take a bunch of deep experience, of course don't rush it. You don't want your ego to draw the wrong conclusions. The "God exists" realization will take surrender. 

     

    Next step is by far the most beautiful and epic. It will not only take surrender, but skills you will want to develop outside your trips, such as a faculties to deeply concentrate, to still the mind, and frankly courage. This is the awakening to your true nature as God / Infinity. What Leo reffers to as levels of wakefulness that your own mind can't even fathom, that will even scare your own self, this is it. If you're using LSD, you will be so awake, your visual field won't even be distorded by the chemical. This is awakening to life, literally conquering the illusion of death. This is the realization that you were in a dream all along, as God, on purpose. If you're awake enough, you will even assist in real time to how you are creating your own body, the room around you. This phase is quite difficult for a lot of people, because you will instantly realize the Oneness of consciousness (you), which means that all people you though as others will be revealed as your own imagination. It is not a big deal on the moment, because as God you are so complete, no illusions are needed. But beware when you come back, existential crisis is awaiting. But you will get past it, and then, lucid dreaming begins.

     

    Congrats for your trip, and you seem willing to use the compound responsibly with a thirst for Thruth. I can only encourage you. Good luck !