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    In my experience, weed made me only paranoid and I became addicted to it, I wanted to do everything high on weed. However, I recently tried a full spectrum cannabis oil and it has all the good qualities I always wanted to have from weed, without the high, paranoia effects and no risk to overload the lungs by smoking it to often. Maybe this is what you are looking for.

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    @kira yes it can be overwhelming at the beginning. Maybe try to find a balance trying not to rush and just to keep a good progress, if it stops being fun and interesting, it is a sing a sing that maybe you have to change something.

     I started doing Kriya at the beginning of the year and I have reached a point where I can  do it two times a day around 36-48 KPs. So I am not that experienced as others maybe but I can now do it much more but combining it with meditation and psychedelics has brought me some profound mystical experiences.

    So have fun and good luck!

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    @kira Hi there, I think there is not just one way to do it, nor that you should care to much on the details. It was also harder for me on the beginning but with time and practice you will master it. The first book that Leo recommended clarifies and makes you follow a slower and maybe easier learning path.

    Just listen to your hearth, some days I don't chant Om on every Chakra and some days I do it.

    Most of the time I do it like the first explanation you give, stop on each Chakra for two to three seconds, feel it and chant Om and then continue to the next one. I try to do this as mindfully as I can. Hope it helps!

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    Medicine: 150 ug 1P-LSD
    Intention: Contemplate How am I God, Infinite, Love? And retain more insights after the trip.

    Background

    Before this trip I had a very difficult experience with 4-AcO-DMT, so I decided to take some time to understand what I was going through and integrate better integrate the previous trips. I dedicated myself as well to read some books from Stanislav Grof and James Fadiman to understand more about LSD and other well known psychedelics as well as some other books from  Leo's book list about God and spirituality. I also worked on improving my Kriya Yoga techniques and have been observing my micro fears and contemplating how these fears are related to myself. Finally, I contacted a psychotherapist which helped me during some earlier hard phases of my life, because I started to get anxious with the psychedelic trips and some personal stuff started to come during the trips, which I was not being able to integrate alone.

    The Trip

    Made all the preparations and took the LSD around 8:00 am, after that I made Kriya Yoga, I managed to get to 30 minutes but I started to feel the effects of the medicine and started to feel a little dizzy. I find interesting that the peaceful and after glow of Kriya some how merged with the effect of the LSD. I also made some Hatha Yoga because the LSD gets me some muscle soreness, and I have realized that Hatha Yoga helps me relax the body and allows the energy to flow better.

    I then laid down as the effects of the medicine were getting stronger, and started to ask me how am I God? I also started to become aware of the rapid movements of my ego mind and I managed to calm it down. And the I had this very deep insight about Nothingness, it was a very profound insight but I will try my best to describe it.

    I realized all the limitations that make me believe that I am a person, and realized that I had to overcome them in order to become God. As I realized this I had this vision of my body being fully surrounded by white energy and how all the limitations simply disappeared. And then I became Nothingness, I don't really know how long I stayed in this state as time had no meaning there. It was like if I was in the Void, there was no difference, it was Absolute Nothingness. Later I went to see how many time had passed since I first laid down and I spent at least two hours there.

    And suddenly I see how I decide to go back to the form and create myself as a tough and as this happens I have this vision that the Nothingness merges again with the white energy of Love like a multidimensional living Yin Yang and it creates a strange loop and I become this strange loop. As I realize the insight I sit there completely shocked and I see how my mind tries to wrap around and make an idea of it which is impossible.

    I tried to write about the experience and it came to my mind that is impossible to describe Infinity with something finite as words. Nevertheless there are some moments of great inspiration I feel during the trips, here is something I wrote down and I wanted to share:

    "It is as if God could talk me through music, thoughts, light, in all the many dimensions of the Self and It manages to do it so overwhelmingly good that It leaves me breathless".
     
    I became a little agitated because of the magnitude of this insight, so I started to walk around in the apartment and later made some more Hatha Yoga. It felt as if I was a puppet being shown how to make the Yoga positions. I wanted to lay down again and I realized that my ego-self didn't wanted me to do it and became agitated. I realized that I was also contracting my body and opened-up and started to make bilateral symmetrical movements and I managed to calm down. I am really amazed how easy is this technique and yet how helpful it is in such cases.

    I managed to calm down and relax, I wore some earplugs and tried to be as still as I could. I had one of this Samadhi experiences I have been having with the psychedelic trips. As I relaxed the mind, the limits of my body cease to exist and I literally feel I have no limits, during that moment also experience a lot of Love and it feels as I would elevate and leave my body. I guess that this is the sort of experiences that yogis get after many years of practice.

    There was also a moment when I felt I could remember who I truly am, not as my ego-self but as the higher Self. I could feel I was Infinite, Infinite Love, Eternal. It was just Awesome!

    I also realized that there is no such thing as a reference point and that everything is relative, except for the Absolute. As I got this realization I started to feel disoriented and fearful, my body wanted to close again but I managed to remain open, make some bilateral movements, so I could accept the insight and continue tripping.

    There was also a moment when I was at the kitchen and started looking at a mango, I became fascinated with its different colors and textures and at some point I realized that by concentrating myself on the mango I became the mango haha, I just don't know how to put this in words but it felt like that. At the end of the trip I started listening some music, something I have learned to enjoy specially when I do LSD, and there were some moments that I feel I become the musician playing the instrument and the music.

    I then went for a walk in to the forest, I felt drawn into the nature, part of me wanted to see the and be part of nature, so I spent a couple of hours walking and flowing with the constant changes of the wind, captivated by the fractal forms of some plants and the beauty of nature, looking the awesome colors of the leaves now that the fall begins here in Europe.

    Conclusions

    I felt I had a much more organic trip, as in my previous trips I could not remain so conscious of all the insights I got.
     
    I see that working on my fears have helped me go deeper during the trips. There where some moments where I felt I was drawing towards madness, but I saw that the only way I could get over my fears is to face them and that it is a long and slow process.

    I was reluctant and skeptic to contact the psychotherapist but working on some more personal stuff that has came up during the some previous experiences also allowed me to go deeper during this trip. But then again, it is a therapist that I have known for years, which could accept the idea of me working with psychedelics (even though she may not recommend it or like them) and someone I can also trust.

    Bilateral symmetry and remaining open is a great technique to avoid getting into anxious during the trip, at least it works for me and I cannot recommend it enough.

    Something I don't like about 1P-LSD is the muscle soreness and body load it generates, but I could counteract some of it by doing Hatha Yoga, something that may be manageable at least in lower to moderate doses where it is still possible to move around.

    When I started working with psychedelics at the beginning of the year I was afraid I would not be able to this with my girlfriend around and that it may even cause is trouble, but to my surprise it has been the complete opposite. I have learned to understand her better and to get closer in our relationship.

    Thanks a lot for reading this and for your comments! Thanks to the great community of Actualized.org and to Leo for his great teachings!

  11. Posted

    Drink lots of water! I like to meditate after I take the psychedelic, and maybe listen to some music until I start to feel the effects and maybe later when the effects are almost gone. I also like to go out for a walk in the forest after 6-9 I took the medicine and the peak is long gone. I wouldn’t watch any videos, but that’s just me. Have fun and let us know how it goes ;)

  16. Posted

    You can also read trip-reports as preparation and this video from Leo: https://actualized.org/articles/how-to-use-psychedelics-for-personal-development. Drink lots of water, this is very important. Start with a low dose, you can always try higher doses later when you get more experience with psychedelics.

    With LSD I get body soreness, so I take magnesium before taking the medicine, this helps me a lot. I also drink ginger tea and helps me reduce nausea effects. Have fun and let us know how it went!

  17. Posted

    On 9/14/2019 at 2:57 PM, GreenWoods said:

    How long did you hold your breath at bindu? And how long was your inhalation?

    Hi there!, I hold the breath at bindu for 3-4 seconds. The inhalation is about 10-15 seconds.

    On 9/14/2019 at 2:57 PM, GreenWoods said:

    Would you consider that positive or negative ?

    Well it became harder to concentrate on each Chakra.

    Also, prior to the KP2 I do 18 KP1 cycles. I guess I have work more on my breathing technique.

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    Today as I was doing my routine, during the spinal breathing (KP2), as I was holding the breath at Bindu, I started to feel I was about to pass out, I felt like a reduction in my blood pressure. This happened like two or three times. It is the first time that I experience something like this, I always try to do the routine very aware and try not to rush through it.  Has anyone experienced something like this? 

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    Prepare yourself all you can! There are some great resources on this forum :

    https://www.actualized.org/articles/how-to-use-psychedelics-for-personal-development

    Lots of trip reports etc..

    With that said, be safe start low, 25 ug is not a micro-dose, most likely you will perceive some effects. You can always build yourself up to higher doses but if you start to strong you may  an overwhelming experience and get really scared, psychedelics are to be respected.

    I really like LSD, you can do some serious work with it. It may generate vasoconstriction, sometimes I get some pain on the articulations and muscles, I have relieved this taking magnesium before the LSD, or doing some hatha yoga if it is to intense. I also drink ginger tea at the beginning of the trip, which helps me in case i get nausea feelings. Drink lots of water, be safe, have fun and let us know how was it!

  22. Posted

    1 hour ago, Paan said:

    @reves Thanks for the reply.

    Do you have any good hatha yoga routine, ive looked it up but there's so many

    I have no special routine, I just do sun salutations, and I combine this with a routine of exercises I make to prevent lower-back pain. As @GreenWoods  mentioned, I also found cold showers effective. Or you can try one of the many techniques that Leo describes in his Body Awareness video: https://actualized.org/articles/body-awareness

    Hope it helps!

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    36 minutes ago, remember said:

    does that mean the magnitude is gone now that you know others can have similar experiences, god doesn`t talk to you alone? it`s funny how that`s exactly what god seems to reveal. no wonder how ego backlashes are predetermined. :D

    Hehe no, what I meant to say is that during the psychedelic trip, I did not understood what was going on, it was just a big WTF moment for me. At that moment it never crossed my mind that God could have whispered me something. It is after working on integrating the trip, doing research and reading stuff like the one Leo posted here, when everything made click ;), which is a huge realization for me.