Thittato

45 min meditation today as well. Processing of emotions and experiences lately, combined with a deep sense of peace. Very nice state.

45 min meditation today as well, and 3 sets of kettlebell snatches. I've been fluctuating a little with the meditation, a few days on and a few days off here and there, but the kettlebell snatches, approximately every second day, has been really solid.

45 min meditation today as well. Good flow.

Yesterday: 45 min meditation Today: 3 sets of kettlebell snatches

Saturday: 3 sets with kettlebell snatches Sunday: 45 min meditation Monday (today): 45 min meditation

20 min vinyasa flow yoga today. Really sweet. It is really interesting how the kettlebell snatches are tearing up the body, and then yoga helps soothe the way the body builds itself up again. Experimenting with two short programs like this feels like an existential sweet spot at this point. I'm looking forward to get both of these programs fully integrated into my body, and I'm not going to increase the load for a long time. Technique, form, and flow, over load.

3 sets of 10 kettlebell snatches on each hand with a 16 kg kettlebell, today. I was getting a cold a few days ago, so my exercise routine halted. This short little kettlebell program only takes 10 minutes, but it feels very powerful. I guess I'm thinking it is supposed to be like a little snack. Easy and compelling to do. Just like with that 20 min vinyasa flow yoga program I'm also doing.

Today: Warm-up, and then 3 sets of 10 kettlebell snatches on each hand with a 16 kg kettlebell. Basically I'm just doing one short kettlebell program, and one short vinyasa flow yoga program, these days, and I'm going to explore the synergistic effect of this, and to also really nerd on these two programs and really get the form and the technique really smooth and solid.

20 min vinyasa flow yoga today. I've been on another forum that is more specifically about vipassana-meditation for some time now, but I'm returning here because I'm returning to more physical body-based practices.

5th session of kayaking this season Went kayaking with a friend yesterday. Approximately 3,5 hours, including having lunch and hanging out on a beautiful island. This might be my last kayaking session for this year. Motivation is not what it used to be. But still it is pretty awesome. Here are the numbers I've logged here from these 5 years of kayaking: 2021: 20 sessions 2022: 30 sessions 2023: 11 sessions 2024: 9 sessions 2025: 5 sessions In total: 75 sessions

4th session of kayaking this season 1,5 hour of kayaking around two islands together with a nice friend. After that we went to the spa and did sauna, warm baths and cold baths. Super-nice. I'm also more active with yoga again, so I'm getting back into shape.

3rd session of kayaking this season So I haven't been active in journaling here lately, but today I felt like keeping up with one of the sub-aspects of this journal which have been my kayaking explorations, and how that relate to a meditative lifestyle. So kayaking has been starting slow this year as it was last year. During the first 2 years I was kayaking it was really, really explosive, so it has been sort of disappointing that I haven't been able or interesting in keeping up that explosive quality I went into it with during those first two years. Now I'm on my fifth year, and we are already far in to the season, and it has been very slow. But basically I've been a lazy slob for the last couple of months when it comes to physical exercise, but I did my 2nd session of kayaking for this season one week ago, and yesterday I did some kettlebell-exercises, and today with this amazing kayaking session I just had I feel amazingly strong and fit again. So maybe I should just stick with kayaking simply for the primary benefit of being a really awesome form of physical exercise. So I was kayaking out to an island where our local bhajan/mantra group was hanging out for the day and evening, and oh my gosh, it was so amazing to arrive there. They were swimming, jumping from cliffs, sun-bathing, having nice conversations, and we starting drumming and singing mantras and even went for a forest-walk. This was just really, really perfect. Coming there, good and warm from having paddled for 45 min in this perfect sunny weather, I just melted totally into the experience. When the leader in this group started playing flute I felt like I was at an ayahuasca ceremony. There where lots of other boat-people around us who where also out enjoying the nice weather and hanging out on this island, and they were clapping and cheering for the music we made, so it was like we had this really nice and appreciative audience for this pop-up event. I've been talking a more active role in both drumming and singing lately, so it was really nice to feel that I could influence this group positively with my energy today. And then when the time came to kayak back home it felt like bliss to glide through the water. Back in the house of the kayak-club, I took a nice warm shower, and ended it with a cold one. This is one of the absolutely most awesome experiences I've had of kayaking so far. So from feeling like a lazy slob only a few days ago, and even today before I decided to go to this event, to feeling super-empowered. Wow. This is the reason I've been taking it so seriously to also document my kayaking-project in the light of my meditation-journal.

45 min meditation today. Starting out in low level equanimity. Then some subtle boredom and resistance preventing the equanimity to mature. After first trying to bypass this resistance for some time, sort of like trying to script yesterdays beautiful meditation, I instead started turning towards this subtle boredom to objectify / own it, and after some time it melts away and then the equanimity starts to gain traction and deepen. Very nice.

1 hour meditation today. Really beautiful sit. Just letting the softness and peace permeate and infuse my whole being. Not trying to "lock in" on any state, just allowing whatever is there to breathe organically.

I'm slacking off with meditation again, but holy smokes. The benefits I've gained from starting to take supplements, primarily Magnesium Glycinate and Fish Oil (cod liver oil), are really awesome. It seems like my whole body-mind system has had a systemic inflamation for a really long time, but I've managed to keep the flames on a low boil for a long time through a very devoted spiritual practice, but now it seems like I've found the root cause of why my system has been so fragile and vulnerable. I guess it is all holistic, so the meditation, yoga, ice-bathing, therapy, ayahuasca, kayaking, sauna, weight-lifting, etc, that I did was really good. But at the same time this neglect of physical health has been really bad, and now that I found some supplements that made this chronic inflamation go down, holy smokes, I'm suddenly a very different person, but in a calm and quiet way.