Sparkist

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    @Arman Thanks for your thoughtful response. I shall definitely do some research with regards to my specific meds in that case. Why the high dose? I've been doing some research and the general consensus has seemed to have been that a high dose is was really pushes you to a full ego death and lifts the veil entirely. That's the only reason I suggested a high dose. Although, in hindsight, I think your (and others' suggestions) to build up in dosage is very wise. I certainly don't want to take any silly risks. What sort of person would you say would fall into the category of 'shouldn't do psychedelics' in your opinion? 

    @ChimpBrain That's very interesting that your 5 dried grams + darkness and silence didn't do much! I'm taking it that it wasn't your first experience with psychedelics? Nature 'sounds' wonderful, but I have some quite heavily ingrained phobias about certain bitey/stingy insects that I suspect might make my experience hellish! OR perhaps it could cure the phobias?! Am I willing to take the risk? Hmmm lol 

     

    @PsiloPutty Thank you very much for all that great advice! I absolutely love a clean environment, so the house cleaning will certainly make me feel extra happy! Good tip re curbing the nausea too. Your last sentence made me very excited! Haha. I shall continue with my research and refine my intentions and very much look forward to this experience! 

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    @Jed Vassallo Thank you for your comment. I always said I'd never take acid as I was fearful of it. I'm changing my perspective but fear is definitely something I need to clear as much as possible before moving forward. 

    @Nahm That's a very informative article, thank you for that. I think having a guide would be an important factor, now, for sure. 

    @Javfly33 That's good advice, thank you. The first time I tried ecstasy I only had a small dose to see how my body and mind handled it. I think this is important in helping to free me from some concerns.

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    I experimented recreationally with 'party drugs' for a couple of years in my early to mid 20's but I've not really taken true psychedelics. I had a very small dose of mushrooms with a group of friends once, at a party setting. That's about it. 

    During this coming summer I will have roughly 4 weeks of continuous child-free time to play with. I am interested in trying a high dose of a psychedelic drug to expand my mind. Ultimately, it's a learning experience that I'm seeking. 

    Are there any hard and fast rules in terms of setting that I should take into consideration? Is it something I should do solo? Is that safe? I'm taking prescribed medication for anxiety (short term)...is this an absolute no-no? 

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    If you make a video or two and your worst nightmares come true (spoiler alert: they won't) then you can always try something else. There's no right or wrong and you're not signing your soul away.

    You can fail at doing something you don't love, so you might as well give doing something you DO love a go. Go on...take the plunge. Facing fears is what being alive feels like! 

    This regurgitated sentiment was brought to you by Sparkist and is sponsored by Gilette. 'The Best a Man Can Get'.

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    4 hours ago, MM1988 said:

    @Sparkist so you are saying a guy who is a potential rapist turns you on? Thats exactly what I'm saying and what studies confirm. How would feel about a man who physically dominates other men?

     

    I am not saying that at all. Studies confirm women get turned on by potential rapists? What studies are these, pray tell? 

    My comment described a sexual threat as someone a woman would not trust HERSELF to be around. Not a man she wouldn't trust. You may have taken the term 'threat' somewhat literally and in the process completely missed my point. 

    Some women like an 'Alpha' male, yes. Not all of them, though. And Alpha's don't = aggressive, narcissistic, abusive, violent etc etc. Real Alpha's don't need to call upon those traits to hold their status. They earn respect, they don't demand it. 

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    3 minutes ago, MarkusSweden said:

     i'm studying a book atm, called "The 1000 most funny jokes through human history" 

    I'll try to memorise all of them and hopefully I will get laid afterwards. 

    And you say you're not funny...lol

     

    The question on the OP seems to be asking other men what they think women want, which amuses me a great deal. 

    I'm a woman. What do I want in a man? Oh...nothing much...just...

    Great sense of humour (preferably dark and/or inappropriate and/or ridiculously random humour), intelligence, a range of interests, talents and passions, very good personal hygiene (even better if cologne is involved...not enough men wear it nowadays), someone who has good social skills and has a respectable friend network (not hanging around with dodgy sorts), someone who has empathy, someone who is fully self sufficient, as I am.

    Money doesn't come into it for me. Physical attraction deepens when other great things are present, so looks don't have a huge bearing. 

    I do NOT like violence or aggression, for the record. However I heard a term once called 'sexual threat' which I found I really related to. A man who is a sexual threat is someone who you wouldn't trust yourself being alone in a room with (as a woman)...because you'd be worried you couldn't help yourself. THAT, is a huge selling point. But that's obviously pointing more to sexual attraction specifically.

    Anyway, that's just my own opinion. I'm only one person, but I do have a vagina, so maybe I'm a little bit qualified to answer this question :D

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    P.S I note you said 'I truly think I'm a great guy but reality shows i'm not desirable'.

    This doesn't make total sense to me. That's kinda like saying 'I know the sky is blue but all my friends are saying it's green so....it must be green!' Either you think you are truly great, in which case **** what anyone else says/does because you KNOW you're awesome and if they can't see it, screw them! OR....you are allowing other people's actions and words to determine your worth. It seems you are dealing with the latter. And that's okay...ya just gotta recognise it and work on it. Me too!  

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    As a woman reading through this thread, a few things made me pretttttty wide-eyed lol Interesting reading, I'll say....hmmm

    Vibrations have a lot to answer for. I've been around a guy, in the past, in his absolute prime, absolutely killing it in the dating game. He was sexy as hell!!!...and then several months later the same guy was in a rut and couldn't attract anyone, seemingly. No-one wanted to know. Nothing physical had changed. His vibe was totally off and was a complete turn off for all the women he tried dating. All humans pick up on the vibe you're putting out. 

    When you are feeling like you need validation from outside of yourself, you are repelling the romantic vibes, for want of a much less cheesy turn of phrase. All you'll get is a whole lotta friend zones, or if you're really down on yourself, you might not even get those. When you don't need validation from anyone and you feel good about yourself, for yourself, you become attractive to many. This is why a lot of people get hit on when they're in relationships but then when they're single and trying to 'pull', they fail. Or why you hear 'you'll find love when you're least expecting it'. Those specifically looking for romance give off a feeling of desperation or neediness, or something. I've done it before, I know that much! But, there's something so alluring about someone who is 'whole' by themselves. This relates to both men and women. 

    Easier said than done, mind. And it's a bit of a paradox. 

    My suggestion is to spend less time with those who trigger feelings of worthlessness in you, for now. While you figure out some shit. You may be able to deal with it better in the future, or maybe you'll discover you prefer the company of some different sorts by then. 

    Either way...tell yourself some good things about yourself. Don't be your own bully...life's too short, and you're too awesome :-) 

     

     

     

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    Name: Amy
    Age: 34
    Gender: Female
    Location: Suffolk, UK
    Occupation: Currently unemployed and working towards a new career (in alignment with my truth, for want of a less cheesy term)
    Marital Status: Single
    Kids: One, 13 y/o
    Hobbies: Spirituality, personal development, enlightenment, comedy, acting, making burlesque pasties, live music & festivals, going to the theatre, making art!

    I got into personal development about 2013/14 when I truly started questioning everything I thought I knew about life and this world. I began to feel that there was a lot I was missing. I started researching and stumbled upon teachers such as Eckhart Tolle and Dr Joe Dispenza who really helped to shift my perspective on everything really. I became passionate about self help videos/books but found that I wasn't really practising what I was learning. I paid to learn transcendental meditation but found I wouldn't commit to the twice daily 20 minute meditations. Anyway, long story short, for many years I've been aware of the things I CAN do in order to reach a higher level of consciousness, I've just been too lazy or unconscious to go the distance. Well, recently I reached a peak of existential crisis (thank you universe! Ha! It's helped me get to this point <3 ) and now I find myself not wanting to continue my path of ignorance. So...

    Personal challenges I've overcome:

    I have quite smoking tobacco

    I have quit smoking weed

    I have cut out a lot of toxic people in my life

    I have taken up running

    I have lost 50lbs 

    I found a way out of a career which was causing me deep unfulfilment and adding to my emotional grief and existential crisis

     

    What I'm working on now:

    Meditating daily

    Kicking my addiction to food

    Enlightenment

    Improving my health & diet

    Working on being my true self

    Working on my personal development in such a way that I can fully benefit those around me, and not just myself

    Working on being in a place where I can grow and maintain meaningful and rich relationships in all aspects of my life