Paulus Amadeus

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  1. Posted

    50 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    Reality is groundless. If you try to ground it in anything, like a brain or atoms, you still aren't getting it. Oneness cannot be grounded in anything but itself because oneness can have no other.

    Brains have no absolute reality. They are imaginary. Just like all form is.

    It's very simple, you cannot ground form in another form. That is delusion.

    Discover this for yourself.

    Brains are a relative duality which we use to speak about relative reality. This concept works, but only up to a point. If you examine it deeply enough you will hit upon a self-reference paradox which results in a strange loop. That's your clue that you've reached the limits of that concept of "a brain".

    The strange loop is this: if the universe in happening in brain, then where is the brain happening? In the universe? You can't have it both ways. On the one hand you say that the universe comes before a brain, on the other hand you say the whole universe happens in a brain. Which is it? Is the brain itself happening inside a brain?

    But I guess a regular materialist would just say that the brain is in the universe, and that the perception of the universe is happening in the brain. 

    I don’t see how we get strange loops if we assume the ‘‘behind-the-scenes’ reality.

     

  3. Posted

    @Raptorsin7 your best shot is finding a girl who is open, and then slowly introducing her to enlightenment and self-actualization. This will probably require you meeting a ton of girls though, and then still you need to get lucky. Most girls wont be open to this.

    It is possible though!

    i think going to events around spirituality and psychedelics could also help, although you are going to feel creepy real fast at those place when you try to do pick up there ;)

  4. Posted

    Why do some people develop anxiety disorders, and others don’t?

    How does one retrain ones brain to not have anxious thought patterns?

    how does ones worldview influence the amount of fear one experiences?

    why are some people so much more prone to fear than others?

    what are the best mindsets to overcome excessive fear in your life?

    what is the number one technique to reduce the amount off fearfulness in ones life?

    Are we inherently selfish in a fearful moment?

     

  5. Posted

    @Michael569 Your view of pick-up is way to harsh in my opinion. There does actually exist some pretty high-consciousness pick up content. 

    Also your 'just be open to feminine energy' stuff most likely doesn't mean anything to a 17 year old dude without dating skills or sexual experience.

     

    Pick up pretty much saved my life at some point. Yes pickup has it's downsides, yes you don't want to be doing pick-up for too long. 

    But I think that for a young guy, doing pick-up can be one of the best things to do. 

    It's just important to get out of pickup as soon as it no longer produces growth for you, cause it can get pretty toxic after that point.  

     

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  8. Posted

    29 minutes ago, Bodigger said:

    Wants are not needs.

    Yes, people should be able to do whatever the fuck they want.  As long as they not harming anyone.  Government in the U.S. was put in place to protect the people, and that's all.  We are truly messing things up though.

    I noticed the word freedom was left out of your comments.  We still have freedom here in the States.  That is, until the liberals prevail.

    You will find that if you are poor or lower middle class in the Netherlands, you have a lot more freedom than in the US. For instance: you can afford to travel, you are not enslaved by debt if you have to need surgery, you can study even though your family has little money.

    sounds like more freedom to me!

    And i agree, people should be able to do whatever they want, as long as they are not hurting anyone. But you need a lot of laws and government to carefully and thoughtfully enforce that. Also government should do way more than that! Like help out people in need, educate, make sure people have decent opportunities in life, create roads, create a sewer system, etc etc etc.

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    13 minutes ago, Andrew Rogers said:

    I don't see how it might correspond with reality. What is the need for government to engage in some sort of massively complex management systems?

    Are our needs more complex then in, say, Roman empire? I don't think so, plus we have modern technologies, which replace most of the bureaucrat.

     

    Ofcourse the needs are way more complex now. Now there is the internet, a truly global economy, rapid changing technology, much more people with very different ideologies and different levels of development, global warming, way more infrastructure, space travel etc etc etc. 

    And yeah, it's really really necessary to not just let everyone run around and do whatever the fuck they want. So you need a massively complex management system. 

    I live in the Netherlands and the gouvernement is waaaaaayyyyyyyy more progressive and left here than the US gouvernement is. And I can tell you, life is a lot easier here for the average person. Gouvernement get's involved in a lot of stuff, and  usually it works pretty well. 

    And our gouvernement isn't even half-way to becoming a truly conscious gouvernement. But compared to the US, it's a political paradise here. 

     

     

  11. Posted

    @Ibn Sina maybe consciousness needs a very complex system to be conscious of, to create the illusion of seperation. If the 'god consciousness' is aware of some sand, the sand will never trick this consciousness into thinking that it is the sand. However, if you have a complex being as a human, than there will be thoughts, emotions etc in awareness. And apparently, this is enough for awareness to be fooled, and to believe that it is the ego. 

  12. Posted

    I'm pretty into creating multi-definitions for words. I think they really help to make your thinking a lot more clear and precise. It's and Idea I got from Eben Pagan, and I've been experimenting with it quiet a bit in the last two weeks. 

    So I just made a multi-definition for "becoming conscious of something"

    Here it is:

     

    1. Becoming Conscious of something is Suddenly seeing the way something actually is, based in moment-to-moment experience.  
    2. Becoming conscious of something is noticing that something is happening, where you didn't it notice before.  
    3. Becoming conscious of something is seeing through certain beliefs, ideas, or unconscious models about the world and/or yourself.  
    4. Becoming conscious of something is being able to all of a sudden see a habbit pattern objectively. 
    5. Becoming conscious of something is suddenly noticing what you are doing, or suddenly noticing what is happening. 
    6. Becoming Conscious of something is Becoming aware of a part of your experience, that was seeminly previously hidden to consciousness 
    7. Becoming Conscious of something is suddenly getting a bit closer to truth, and furhter away from being asleep.  
    8. Becommming conscoius of something is consciousness suddenly being a bit less hypnotized by the ego.  

     

    It's a work in progress, so if you have some good new definitions, I'd love to hear them! 

     

  13. Posted

    @khalifa I've also heard talk about that it's very important for a 5meo dmt trip to have it's 'natural end', and that it is possible to 'get stuck' in the midway point of a trip for a long time. 

     

    When I did my second 5meo session, I took a hit of 5meo, and I kind of got stuck in this weird super energetic but super unpleasent state. When the shamans who were doing my ceremonie saw this, they insisted I should take a second hit of 5meo. They said otherwise I would 'stay in that state'. I took a second hit, got out of this weird state, had a crazy experience, and afterwards I was fine. But in between the two hits I felt really strange and uncomfortable, and I can really imagine not being able to get out of that energy/state.

     

    Maybe you got 'stuck halfway' in a 5meo trip?

    I think Martin Ball has also talked about people leaving before the trip had come too a natural end, and having issues with it. These people also couldn't sleep etc. 

     

    So maybe the solution is to go back and do 5meo-dmt again?  I know it's probably the last thing you want to do right now, but maybe you got stuck in the midway point of the 5meo trip, and it's the only way forward. I'm not necessarely recomending this though!! It's just a thought. 

  15. Posted

    Excuse me for some weird English here and there, not a native speaker. 

     

    So yesterday me and a good friend of mine tried our luck with DPT for the first time. I had never even heard of DPT before Leo talked about it. So once again, Leo has delivered enormous value to my life,  DPT seems to be an amazing substance. 

     

    So.... Thank you Leo!! :)

     

    We took about 18 micrograms over the course of 1,5 hours. We started with 6 micrograms, than took 6 micrograms half an our later, and than took another 6 micrograms an hour later. 

    Because we started with such a small dose, the come on was kind of slow and subtle, but after a while we started noticing what I can only describe as 'increased consciousness'. I had no hallucinations and no crazy thoughts. It just felt like the presence of god or consciousness was much closer than it normally feels it is. And I was much more just 'right there in the room', not lost in thoughts, emotions, or theories. 

    There was also a very pleasant heightened sense of body awareness, and just a general vibe of profoundness, holiness, and peacefulness. 

     

    Also there was a tremendous amount of tension being released from the body, but we kind of participated in this process. We did long weird chanting sessions, rolled over the floor laughing for long periods of time, my body started shaking pretty heavily at some point, and I did a lot of yawning. 

    My ego was still there, but it never got even a bit scary. 

    I've had one experience on 5meo-dmt that was somewhat of a non-dual experience. That experience was very very intense, and since then something in me is kind of scared to go there again.

     

    But it felt like this DPT trip was kind of assuring. It was just so gentle, yet there was clearly something very profound peeking around the corner. 

     

    So I'm a total fan op DPT now. My body feels amazing, I feel like I've made some spiritual progress (whatever that is), and I just feel I let go of a ton of tension. 

     

    So I think DPT might actually also be a pretty amazing medicine for a bit less experienced psychedelic user. I have quiet some experience with psychedelics, but not with non-dual states, and my friend had barely any experience. Yet the trip was amazingly gentle but profound.  

     

    I think DPT might be a great drug for more inexperienced users, just as long as they really start of with a small dose. And than the beauty is that, when you feel ready, you can just up your dosage and go for deeper and deeper experiences. 

     

    Anyone any thoughts on this?

     

     

     

     

  20. Posted

    Hi! I used to post stuff on the forum sometimes, but haven’t for a long time. Read the posts on this forum regularly.

     

    2 weeks ago I had my first encounter with 5meo-dmt, and so I have been very interested in listening to Leo and Martin Ball since. 

    And I just found out Martin Ball has been having some horrible sleeping problems, that have completely derailed him. 

    Here is the podcast on which he discusses it: https://www.podomatic.com/podcasts/entheogenic/episodes/2019-05-11T09_19_02-07_00

     

    he doesn’t describe himself as enlightened anymore and he seems to be in a very bad spot.

     

    so I would urge Leo and anyone who is taking a lot of 5meo-dmt to listen to this podcast. 

    The 5meo-dmt road to enlightenment is pbviously totally new, so this seems significant to me.  

     

  23. Posted

    Hi @Leo Gura and the rest. I would love some strategic advise on my situation!

     

    I'm Paul, 26 years old, and I find myself at a bit of a crossroad. 

    My life purpose is to help people become happier, by coaching them and by creating online courses. I'm currently looking at creating coaching and courses for stress, in my native language (Dutch)

    Although I feel I'm definitely getting closer to my goal (have studied a bunch of marketing, sales, self-development etc), I also feel like I am still quiet a long way away. I had a programming job before, that I hated, but that paid pretty good money. I left the job months ago, I could do this because I had a bunch of money saved up. 

    Now my money is running out and I need to find a new job. It seems to me that getting a job in sales would be most beneficial for my business and communication skills (an Eben Pagan idea), but because I have no experience, I can only seem to get pretty crappy sales jobs. Like some pretty hardcore cold calling at some agency. 

    I'm looking at two options right now:

    1. Get a low graid sales job for three days a week.

    I will not make enough to make ends meet, but close to it. And still have some money reserves. Would free me up to make money in more creative ways, and would maybe teach me some valuable business skills. 

    Disadvantages: maybe bad for my self-esteem (doing a ''low'' job), bad for my financial situation, and I won't be getting in contact with any interesting people

     

    2. Get another Job programming

    This would probably mean a lot more money, also a bit more career safety is build in, if the life purpose thing never works out. Would probably be full-time, or in the best case scenario 4 days a week. 

    Disadvantages: Don't give a fuck about programming, not related to my life purpose in any meaningful way, would take up valuable time I could spent on LP, self-actualizing, or just enjoying life. 

    @Leo Gura or anyone, any thoughts?

    Some advise would be very much appreciated!

     

  24. Posted

    @okulele, ah such an interesting reply! Thank you!! I really relate to how you talk about what you thought when you were pursuing your original life purpose. I have these thoughts all the time too. Very interesting how it all turned out for you eh, I'm really happy for you!

     

    @Equanimitize, thank you man! :) Of course I know these things, but it's really nice to hear them from someone else too. Thanks!!! 

  25. Posted

    Hi Guys, 

    I’ve been actively pursuing my life purpose for some time now. Already learned quiet a bit, but I’m still pretty far away from my goal it seems. I have a lot of fear comming up, and I also have a lot of greed and egotism coming up. I guess this is al part of the work, and I’m definitely growing, but it’s all just so damn hard. I feel really bad not only for myself, but also for all the people in the world who Will have to go through this in order to Get a fulfilling carreer. I’m such a privileged motherfucker but still it’s so so challenging for me. And the crazy part is that it’s all in my head! I’m not hungry or sick or lonely or anything, but still it feels like a giant weird battle. I feel very alive, which is nice, but also often doubtful overwhelmed and scared. Life seems so brutally hard sometimes, especially if I look at other people in tougher situations.

    it often seems to me that the world is just hurt people fucking each other over. I’ve gotten pretty good at not judging racists etc, but now the world seems just like this big unnecessary clusterfuck sometimes. If, as Leo says, everything is truly happening in the best way possible, that would be a Nice dicovery!

    Anyway, just a little rant from someone who can Get pretty overwhelmed by the world and his own mind. Would love for someone to also do a mini-rant here, it’s nice to relate to people who are going through similar things.