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  1. I've been thinking about this phenomena. It just seems so delusional, to think in terms of satisfying justice. I can't pinpoint the ego mechanism of justice. Is it desire, aversion, attachment? I'm talking about both the broad term and the narrow one. (narrow - why is it *just* for a criminal to be pursued and persecuted and get his sentence) What is justice? What is the root of a desire for justice? Is it innate?
  2. @Milos Uzelacno no start contemplating now not when you're in the rut. you need to know exactly what is the root of suicidal ideation to be able to work with it. good luck
  3. Why commit suicide? Meditate on the reason, get to the root of the desire. What answers do you find? Don't answer with your intellect. Is it because you're unhappy with your current self? Not living according to your values? Then the suicidal drive is a call to growth. Is it aggression towards yourself? Is it out of strong kleshas? Which ones? Is it because you're suffering too much? If so, why are you suffering? Is there another way out?
  4. How do you think a mental hospital would help him? Stuff him with pills that "block his dopamine" because his delusions are a chemical disbalance? It is a tough situation though. Im sorry.
  5. really enjoyed the story. thank you so much i burst out in laughter at the not identifying with your thoughts part. Oh, I'm so damn silly, how can I keep believing all these silly stories... much love
  6. @outlandish Has 1 day on 2 off been tested to make you minimal tolerance? I basically already do minimal effective doses but because of exams I've been using it frequently. I want to be a chronic user, yes. The high is worth it. I don't want to get addicted.
  7. Thank you! Espresso is too strong for me. I drink really weak coffee and still get half-jittery in a good way because I guess I'm really sensitive to it I don't want to be like my mother, who drinks 4 cups of coffee just to be functional. What do you think is the best way to cycle? I'm also interested in other nootropics, first to start with the "natural" ones because my body is obviously really sensitive to stims, I guess I wouldn't be able to sleep for 3-4 days because of modafinil
  8. @DrewNows I dont actively smoke nor drink coffee but I love to use both cigs and coffee from time to time. Whenever I started abusing it I just quit and reevaluated (when I was a kid smoking packs on school trips for fun and then suddenly get additcted). Now I cant get myself to the point of addiction because I'm actively actualizing and using them only moderately haha
  9. I'm talking about the type of coffee, how much should I consume it to never build tolerance or only a slight one, etc etc. I've been experimenting with coffee and I love the high in all levels and I never have a crash. I'm just worried I might overuse it and then fuck it up. Basically I guess I want to drink it my entire life but only as a nootropic. So I want to maximize the effects and minimize the negative things. What I'm drinking at the moment is one nescafe a day and it's only because of exams. Coffee makes me feel so good, like physically pleasant, energetic, concentrated, everything. And it's a pretty cheap legal drug too. Is one daily with 2 days detox the way to go or how the fuck should I go on with drinking this and not becoming the zombie coffee addict type where coffee just becomes a crutch and not a stim. thanks in advance
  10. @Marks199 No problems with the monkey. My actualized life demands a slim healthy body. I don't feel aligned nor like I'm doing personal development when I've got chubby cheeks. @Average Investor Why is it a terrible idea?
  11. Im more concerned about the mindset. Whenever I get depressed, even though I have the habit to weigh myself daily, I dont care about the increasing numbers and keep eating a lot.
  12. I've lost 7.5 kg. I don't want to gain weight ever again, I feel like this is the healthiest body fat for my size. I'm making it a daily habit to weigh myself. I don't think it's enough though - because sometimes I eat without caring about gaining weight. Last time I lost weight but got depressed and regained it in two-three months. I don't want that ti happen ever again. I don't ever want to have extra fat ever again. It impacts the quality of both my mind and my life. I want to make a fool-proof plan to never gain again. Please help.
  13. Oh I guess that isn't too damaging. Don't worry, taper it off responsibly, and your system will clean itself in less than a year. Hope you don't have any severe sexual dysfunctions. Best of luck man
  14. Hey man, I'm extremely anti-medication. I have a lot of science behind that. Would you like me to send you all that? They do you more harm than good unless in extreme acute cases where it should be used for a short short time, just to tranqulize the body-mind and give it some rest.
  15. @Keyhole sorry, dopamine or ANY neurotransmitter imbalance in psychosis and schizophrenia is just a hypothesis. This medication does a lot more to the brain. Dopamine might be tok excited in the mesolymbic system hence the "mystic" experiences. If I make the map the territory, and call the neurotransmitter that I have as a certain sensation in my experience as dopamine, then, yes, whenever I had a spiritual experience a lot of dopamine was being released. You need to take into account that psychiatry's main quest is to remove symptoms (agitation) and to actually tranqulize those who don't comply to social norms. Mental hospitals are usually incarcetation and coercion. Also, the money in the game... Pharmaceutical industry. You know the amount of charges pressed against Lily for Zyprexa, the most popular antipsychotic? They tried to sell it for everything, then they figured, hey, the crazy man is not screaming anymore. Let's make a scientific hypothesis of how we fixed him! (insert science and neurotransmitters)