cistanche_enjoyer

How many real friends do you have?

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Actually, seeing the definition of friends you said later, I do have a group of online friends. We hangout on tiktok live and discord lol


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11 hours ago, Eskilon said:

Probably just one true friend, and she is my ex-girlfriend.

how is it for you? I don’t think I’d be able to really be friends with an ex

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Having a friend means wearing a mask. Means I choose you over someone else. You gotta pretend around friends.

Edited by Hojo

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7 hours ago, Ramasta9 said:

The deeper you are are, the smaller the circle.

What if you go so deep, that the circle becomes zero?

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17 minutes ago, cistanche_enjoyer said:

What if you go so deep, that the circle becomes zero?

ALL - ONE - ALL - ONE

0 1 0 1

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To those that answered zero only one friend: do you feel lonely? Do you wish you had more close friends?

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23 hours ago, cistanche_enjoyer said:

Why do you think this happens?

For me I just became very introverted and I did a lot of introspection for ages and I preferred to be on my own probably with me getting older as well. I believe it is called "intrinsic maturation. And loosing so many attachments while on Psychedelics.

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11 hours ago, manuel bon said:

I don’t think I’d be able to really be friends with an ex

In my case it works because we really love each other beyond sex and physical attraction. it didnt work for reasons I wont go into but true love doesnt fade.

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Just Leo, my best internet friend. I actually don't think we would get along at all. 

But serious answer: I think one from high school, I do most things on my own. But this year I've been staying at hostels a lot and I really enjoyed conversations with people, but I also enjoyed them not lasting very long 😅

It's as if I've become so good on my own that I now enjoy the shallow and brief interactions and it's nice that they end quickly. I don't crave anything deeper. 

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16 hours ago, Eskilon said:

In my case it works because we really love each other beyond sex and physical attraction. it didnt work for reasons I wont go into but true love doesnt fade.

Beautiful ❤️

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On 3/12/2026 at 6:32 AM, cistanche_enjoyer said:

To those that answered zero only one friend: do you feel lonely? Do you wish you had more close friends?

In truth people really only have a select few actual good friends if any.  Most people are just about themselves. 


 

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On 12.3.2026 at 3:20 AM, Ramasta9 said:

The deeper you are are, the smaller the circle.

I would say the exact opposite. 


Here are smart words that present my apparent identity but don't mean anything. At all. 

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On 12/03/2026 at 5:02 PM, cistanche_enjoyer said:

To those that answered zero only one friend: do you feel lonely? Do you wish you had more close friends?

@cistanche_enjoyer Yeah man I do feel lonely sometimes. But it's also my fault for not going out there and meeting new people. Maybe I am too comfortable in my own solitude.


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@cistanche_enjoyer That’s a gone wish. Got betrayed by all my friends, family and everyone around me just get envious. Even women, ex-gfs… Probably it’s a lesson for me to completely eliminate external validation and become as self sufficient as possible. At this point am more prone to contact spirits, entities and deities. Am done with human beings.


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2 hours ago, Kalki Avatar said:

 

@cistanche_enjoyer That’s a gone wish. Got betrayed by all my friends, family and everyone around me just get envious. Even women, ex-gfs… Probably it’s a lesson for me to completely eliminate external validation and become as self sufficient as possible. At this point am more prone to contact spirits, entities and deities. Am done with human beings.

 

Sorry to read that bro. Are you sure you’re not falling into the spiritual ego trap?

I think solitude is ok as long as it comes from a place where you actually enjoy being alone, and you don’t see other people as lesser than you. You have full compassion for others’ flaws and limitations, you just avoid being in their presence.

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@cistanche_enjoyer Not into spiritual ego trap because I’m not even associating it with being spiritual or anything. Am judging from a pure basic instinctual level. I’m open to friendship as long as it’s worthy and aligns it’s just that am not expecting, needing or looking for it. I’ve been like this for about 5 years. Have also lived half of my life as a loner and only at this stage of my life am truly starting to enjoy solitude. Not only for peace and spirituality but for everything. Silence, freedom, power, deep thinking, no expectations and compromises, self-sufficiency, confidence, etc. I combined this with all my past burning sexual karma and am really happy alone, I literally feel like an alien God. I love celibacy. And am more than ready for a deep spiritual/material life at this point after all the preparation. Even though I could get a beautiful wife and probably will it feels really good not having a woman nagging or trying to manage you. It’s so much freedom. I feel at one when I go into a forest on my own. There’s no better sensation. 

In fact I always saw people as so much good that they couldn’t even understand. Most of humanity is simply not ready for love and goodness. My love is to alien. Is something so supernatural that not even women can grasp. Everyone will try to explode it as it happen once when I was young and was self discovering. And that was exactly my problem. At this point I just see them mostly as long term problems. I’m open to helping but on my terms and in my way. Even helping others can bring you problems and bad karma. It’s too much unnecessary drama. 

In conclusion, relationships and friendships are amazing but mostly only as an extra tip not as something fundamental. You should socialize but not need to for validation. It took me a long journey to get to this point and I still love people and socializing, but I’ve had to learn the hard way to self respect and self prioritize. Even in friendships you will have to learn game as ugly as that sounds. There will always be a power and advantage factor unless the person is really advanced in morality, ethics and consciousness from past life karma which is literally like an ingrained blue print. For example, I’ve done immoral things for the sake of necessity and even if I may appear as a monster to someone, I’ve never lost my true morality and inner values. I can hack my inner system them temporarily but I never get lost from it. Online friendship like this forum works great. You can avoid so much unnecessary crap and go straight to the point without all the social conditioning. 


Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. - Jeremiah 33:3

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