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The Infinite Library - My Biggest Fear

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God is already infinitely special. There is no need to try to be special, only to realize God.

The best thing you can do to be special is just realize God.


You are God. You are Truth. You are Love. You are Infinity.

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13 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

God is already infinitely special. There is no need to try to be special, only to realize God.

The best thing you can do to be special is just realize God.

It's my way of questioning your motives... as the individual called Leo. My question is not about God. Don't run away into that paradigm.

You do like being special as a person... and being 'among the few' truth-seekers. Would you deny that you have such a competitive desire to be the rare one? The one that stands alone seeing Truth where all else are too unconscious to do so?

Could you accept yourself and love yourself if you were not such a rare Truth-seeker?

Could you accept and love Leo if he was just a random low consciousness pleb on the street that was ignorant and knew nothing of Truth?

If the Tooth Fairy came up to you and beat you with her wand and magically made you average in EVERY SINGLE WAY, could you love and accept that?


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21 minutes ago, Hojo said:

@Wilhelm44Yes, because you just do what you want ,like a dream at the highest level. Here we have self reflection, its like a bounce back of us the dreamers, and what we want to see and do. When you are at the highest levels, there's no reason to have that, and move like a super highly intelligent machine because you are God and whatever you do works and is perfect. 

You know this because every single kilobyte on the harddrive is screaming that they are pleased with the dream. And you are just existing basking in it.

I like that, thanks. 

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16 minutes ago, Emerald said:

It's my way of questioning your motives... as the individual called Leo. My question is not about God. Don't run away into that paradigm.

You do like being special as a person... and being 'among the few' truth-seekers. Would you deny that you have such a competitive desire to be the rare one? The one that stands alone seeing Truth where all else are too unconscious to do so?

Could you accept yourself and love yourself if you were not such a rare Truth-seeker?

Could you accept and love Leo if he was just a random low consciousness pleb on the street that was ignorant and knew nothing of Truth?

Of course I would hate being non-special.

The point though is that's an illusion. The truth is I am infinitely special.

Do I make strides to increase my specialness? Yes. I hate human conformity and mediocrity. That's why I am who I am in the relative human sense.

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If the Tooth Fairy came up to you and beat you with her wand and magically made you average in EVERY SINGLE WAY, could you love and accept that?

I would rather be dead.

This is like me asking you: could you accept your children put in a Nazi gas oven?

You have your biases and I got mine.

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58 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

Of course I would hate being non-special.

The point though is that's an illusion. The truth is I am infinitely special.

Do I make strides to increase my specialness? Yes. I hate human conformity and mediocrity. That's why I am who I am in the relative human sense.

I would rather be dead.

This is like me asking you: could you accept your children put in a Nazi gas oven?

You have your biases and I got mine.

That's how I used to feel about it too, prior to my medicine journey where it showed me that there was so much that was positive and superior in beauty on the other side of embracing my ordinary side.

I'm picking on you about this because I think your resistances to average-ness are holding you back from your stated spiritual goals.... and that your goals towards seeking Truth may partially be a cover for your resistance to average-ness.

You have to be able to kiss the frog to experience the higher state of the prince.

You may be motivated to transcend the 'human smallness' through enlightenment because that is another way of creating a differentiated ego and setting yourself aside from all other humans because other humans are the frogs. But that motivation would just be an outgrowth of the same human smallness and non-Truth that you're seeking to get away from... and would make you just another frog.

So, even your resistance to ordinariness is a really normal and average human condition. I've experienced it... and many of my clients over the years have too. It's very ordinary to want to not be ordinary and to hate mediocrity.

And because specialness is power... t's nearly impossible to truly cast away that "ring of power". So, when you make a show of "I'm one of the rare special ones who can ACTUALLY cast the one ring into Mordor." forgive me if I'm skeptical and poke at you a bit.

If what I have glimpsed is true, God is one that can embrace all things completely and staying with the reality of being God requires such an embrace of all polarities along all spectrums in the everythingness (as that is what Love is)... how can you expect to stay with the Truth that you are God, if you can't even accept the inescapable ordinary averageness of the Leo character?

That resistance alone will keep you clinging to the ego story of "Leo, the special alien."

And yes, I do still have a resistance to malice and that which causes suffering that sometimes gets in the way of my goals. But I've been working for several years on breaking down my resistance to ordinariness.

But those resistances used to be almost equal. I couldn't tolerate blending in with the crowd in nearly similar to the resistance to causing suffering. That's the big boss level resistance for me.

But the truth is that every human is fundamentally ordinary, you included. And aging alone will rob you of all relative specialness that you currently enjoy. Can you accept that truth?


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I don't need to try to be special. I just need more consciousness of God. So that's what I pursue. Human stuff is irrelevant.

The truth is that I am not human at all. I am INFINITY. That is more special that anyone will ever comprehend.

I don't pursue specialness. I pursue Consciousness and understadning. Which automatically makes me special because no one else pursues it.

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@Emerald 'But the truth is that every human is fundamentally ordinary, you included. And aging alone will rob you of all relative specialness that you currently enjoy. Can you accept that truth?' 

Apologies, I cannot quote a section on mobile! 

But the above is what pushed me into the ordinary. The realisation I will lose all. My intellect. My physical ability. I will age. There were a lot of hidden attachments there that only contemplating true loss revealed. 

And when I started to step into that surrender - the ordinary and SAMENESS came out screaming for me to look at it! The recognition of sameness. Deep rooted shame begin to unfurl.

Because I am unique and special - in EXACTLY the same way we are all unique and special in our infinite manifestations. And there lay the paradox of the beauty of the mundane and ordinary... Sameness 😀 

Love & unity 

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1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

I don't need to try to be special. I just need more consciousness of God. So that's what I pursue. Human stuff is irrelevant.

The truth is that I am not human at all. I am INFINITY.

Think about what I said on the paradigmatic level it's meant to be approached from. Don't hide up in the stars.

If I tell you that your fly is down... it might not be best to respond with, "God has no fly to be down. Human stuff is irrelevant."


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@Emerald I mean it. I no longer identify as human.

You have a clever way of making this thread about me. When it was about you.

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1 minute ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Emerald 'But the truth is that every human is fundamentally ordinary, you included. And aging alone will rob you of all relative specialness that you currently enjoy. Can you accept that truth?' 

Apologies, I cannot quote a section on mobile! 

But the above is what pushed me into the ordinary. The realisation I will lose all. My intellect. My physical ability. I will age. There were a lot of hidden attachments there that only contemplating true loss revealed. 

And when I started to step into that surrender - the ordinary and SAMENESS came out screaming for me to look at it! The recognition of sameness. Deep rooted shame begin to unfurl.

Because I am unique and special - in EXACTLY the same way we are all unique and special in our intimate manifestations. And there lay the paradox of the beauty of the mundane and ordinary... Sameness 😀 

Love & unity 

Thank you for sharing this!

I had a lot of fears of aging for the same reason. And I couldn't even deal with them until I had the direct of experience of the unity that's only possible through the embrace of ordinariness.

It's hard to get there though, as it requires us to relinquish power. It requires one to embrace and love the wilting flower and to recognize the wilt as part of the beauty of the flower. Blooming is only meaningful because it's temporary and finite.

So, anyone who is clinging towards eternal expansion and immortality will start to grow hardened. You see a lot of this in the tech space with the lofty ideas of trans-humanism and all the Patrick Bateman-esque health routines.

Such a fear and denial of average-ness does no good and only makes one feel perpetually like a stranger in a strange land.


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2 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

@Emerald I mean it. I no longer identify myself as human.

I'm sure that that's true.


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@Emerald Yea or when you’re sitting at the family table, thinking you’re infinity, so what’s the point of the humanness & human conversations anyways.

Doesn’t it get pretty difficult living in modern daily human life when you are in infinity mode most of the time, to function and have ‘human purpose’.

is it a constant back’n’forth switch from acting human and being practical to going back to being Infinite?

@WonderSeeker how do you stick to the ‘human purpose’ when going deep and loosing the grip of the ‘humanness’.

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3 minutes ago, Emerald said:

So, anyone who is clinging towards eternal expansion and immortality will start to grow hardened. You see a lot of this in the tech space with the lofty ideas of trans-humanism and all the Patrick Bateman-esque health routines.

Yep totally. Limits generate creativity. A problem is just a set of limits where a solution exists somewhere. 

The fact that we die forces our hand. Because we face that limit - and on the other side of that is the fear of infinite. It is never the fear of physical death. It is fear of infinite. All is there. No newness. Nothing to create. A calcified existence.

It lead me to understanding why duality is here, why limits were manifested. Why everything is configured this way... And why I love life and it's beauty. Even the bad. The good. The ugly. Even my own ugliness. My own beauty. 


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Great conversation here guys, thank you.

For me, what drives me to extraordinary is the fullness, depth, intimacy, and the potential of life.

The other extreme would be something like living the simplest, most ordinary life in nature. And I have lived both. I have enjoyed both. Truly. But what tickles me more is the extraordinary path. Why? Maybe it's ego, maybe it's childhood trauma, maybe it's genes and personality traits, or the combination of all.

I don't know. But I know that I simply don't find meaning and joy (or nearly as much) in the ordinary life. To me, that would be kind of like being dead. What's the point?

Since we are here as humans for a short moment, why not as well push ourselves to our very limits and experience our full potential?


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14 minutes ago, Emerald said:

So, anyone who is clinging towards eternal expansion and immortality will start to grow hardened. You see a lot of this in the tech space with the lofty ideas of trans-humanism and all the Patrick Bateman-esque health routines.

They are doing fake immortality and transhumanism.

The real work is realizing you were never human to begin with.

"Human" is just a state of Mind.

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You are God. You are Truth. You are Love. You are Infinity.

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1 minute ago, Miguel1 said:

Great conversation here guys, thank you.

For me, what drives me to extraordinary is the fullness, depth, intimacy, and the potential of life.

The other extreme would be something like living the simplest, most ordinary life in nature. And I have lived both. I have enjoyed both. Truly. But what tickles me more is the extraordinary path. Why? Maybe it's ego, maybe it's childhood trauma, maybe it's genes and personality traits, or the combination of all.

I don't know. But I know that I simply don't find meaning and joy (or nearly as much) in the ordinary life. To me, that would be kind of like being dead. What's the point?

Since we are here as humans for a short moment, why not as well push ourselves to our very limits and experience our full potential?

I think the dive into simplicity and ordinariness was a recognition there is infinite experience to be had there, as well as anything that would be considered extraordinary by human standards. 

I shift perspectives and engage. And a different type of connection with others came about. A new understanding. 

That drive for the extraordinarily IS ordinary. 

I think it is really human to want to explore our uniqueness. It is another aspect of that 'sameness' 


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1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

I don't need to try to be special. I just need more consciousness of God. So that's what I pursue. Human stuff is irrelevant.

The truth is that I am not human at all. I am INFINITY. That is more special that anyone will ever comprehend.

I don't pursue specialness. I pursue Consciousness and understadning. Which automatically makes me special because no one else pursues it.

I'm still waiting for the day Leo will reveal to us that he is actually an alien from a far away galaxy that has came here to cure us of our backwardness. 

I have this thought ever since Leo became all of a sudden interested in UFO's & alien consciousness.


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12 minutes ago, Daniel Balan said:

I'm still waiting for the day Leo will reveal to us that he is actually an alien from a far away galaxy that has came here to cure us of our backwardness. 

I have this thought ever since Leo became all of a sudden interested in UFO's & alien consciousness.

Alien Consciousness is not about aliens or UFOs.

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You are God. You are Truth. You are Love. You are Infinity.

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