How Did You End Up Where You Are Now?

[samijiben]

Feel free to answer in whichever way you please! I am not looking for a specific answer! Nor is there a "correct answer!"

Please refrain from resorting to past-beliefs, presumptions, or even "premonitions" while answering this question. 

Aim to be simple, as my mentor always says:

BE BRIGHT!

BE BRIEF!

BE GONE!

[Davino]

I don't know

Really 

It just happens to be the case

There is actually an explanation but it goes on forever

[Natasha Tori Maru]

I simply took opportunities as they arose.

And as I grew in wisdom, my ability to discern which opportunities were worth it, also grew.

This led to a snowball effect where I struggled for a long time - and then one day BAM! I begun to make the right choices. And rapid growth in career, spiritual work and life in general happened.

I also learned the essence of creativity and success is in what one ISN'T doing.

Usually it is what you are DOING that is holding you back 

 

[enchanted]

Im married, have a great career, own two houses, and I got it all by dumb luck just stumbling through life. I should be on the street living in one of the tent cities. But the universe provides what it wants to provide. 

[Sugarcoat]

Years and years of self inquiry led me to a point of being almost devoid of a self. Stuck in this “in between “ state of life and death

[PurpleTree]

I don’t know.
 

I think i was always trying to look for a way out of suffering.

Which in turn lead me to build up a lot of defense mechanisms.

So now i saw that the defence mechanisms cause more suffering than they avoid.

So I’m trying to let go of everything.

Or whatever.

[LambdaDelta]

The short of it is I've always been here, just not conscious of it 'in the foreground'.

I'm a nil that's naught but an amalgamation of the thousands of faces I wear – cause and effect, happenstance, societal dynamics, reincarnation, predetermination, personal choices, fictional influence, obligation, escapism, curiosity, physicality; all superficially distinct yet originating in the same field.

Edited August 9 by LambdaDelta

[Salvijus]

I asked for it 

[samijiben]

10 hours ago, Davino said:

I don't know

Really 

It just happens to be the case

There is actually an explanation but it goes on forever

Indeed, this bullshit never ends.

8 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I simply took opportunities as they arose.

And as I grew in wisdom, my ability to discern which opportunities were worth it, also grew.

This led to a snowball effect where I struggled for a long time - and then one day BAM! I begun to make the right choices. And rapid growth in career, spiritual work and life in general happened.

I also learned the essence of creativity and success is in what one ISN'T doing.

Usually it is what you are DOING that is holding you back 

 

I hope that you make it out alive, Natasha. Happy to hear of your material success!

5 hours ago, enchanted said:

Im married, have a great career, own two houses, and I got it all by dumb luck just stumbling through life. I should be on the street living in one of the tent cities. But the universe provides what it wants to provide. 

Good for you. Thank God.

4 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Years and years of self inquiry led me to a point of being almost devoid of a self. Stuck in this “in between “ state of life and death

Indeed, it seems to that we are teetering on the Brink of the Irrevocable.

4 hours ago, PurpleTree said:

I don’t know.
 

I think i was always trying to look for a way out of suffering.

Which in turn lead me to build up a lot of defense mechanisms.

So now i saw that the defence mechanisms cause more suffering than they avoid.

So I’m trying to let go of everything.

Or whatever.

Yeah man, that hits the SPOT! KEEP GOING!

 

3 hours ago, LambdaDelta said:

The short of it is I've always been here, just not conscious of it 'in the foreground'.

I'm a nil that's naught but an amalgamation of the thousands of faces I wear – cause and effect, happenstance, societal dynamics, reincarnation, predetermination, personal choices, fictional influence, obligation, escapism, curiosity, physicality; all superficially distinct yet originating in the same field.

That's a whole lot of variables! 

2 hours ago, Salvijus said:

I asked for it 

Yes, yes, yes you did. And why? Why did you ask FOR THIS? ISN'T THERE SOMETHING BETTER TO BE HAD?

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, samijiben said:

ISN'T THERE SOMETHING BETTER TO BE HAD?

It's coming. 

[Princess Arabia]

Short answer: I don't know

Long Answer: I know but it would just feel like telling stories that never happened.

[ExploringReality]

• As a young boy, I had anger issues, always appreciated beauty and excellence in the world.
• During highschool, I started reading the book by Michael Talbot "The holographic universe", that led to "the structure of scientific revolutions by Thomas Kuhn which eventually led to non duality teachings and then finally at the end of my highschool years I got hold of LSD and Psilocybin which pretty much lead me where I am today.

[martin_malin]

I remembered to laugh

[samijiben]

10 hours ago, Salvijus said:

It's coming. 

great. so we  shall Leave "IT" there!

1 hour ago, Princess Arabia said:

Short answer: I don't know

Long Answer: I know but it would just feel like telling stories that never happened.

The long answer hardly fills my appetite! Our grasps at explanation are indeed falling away in the Face of this ALL-Encompassing Mega-Mystery!

1 hour ago, ExploringReality said:

• As a young boy, I had anger issues, always appreciated beauty and excellence in the world.
• During highschool, I started reading the book by Michael Talbot "The holographic universe", that led to "the structure of scientific revolutions by Thomas Kuhn which eventually led to non duality teachings and then finally at the end of my highschool years I got hold of LSD and Psilocybin which pretty much lead me where I am today.

Cool story! Have you resolved your "anger issues?" Have you DISCOVERED what "Anger" really Is? I would delight in reading a response from you, and I would die a slow, non-existent death were you to not respond at all...

38 minutes ago, martin_malin said:

I remembered to laugh

Ha Ha Ha! Are we talking about cute giggles here? Or are we talking about the Particular Intensity of Cackling Insanity that leaves you with lockjaw and a mind so displaced that you haven't a clue What You are "laughing" about, that you are the one laughing, that Anything is Real At All?!?!?

[ExploringReality]

@samijiben 

Not completely, I completely own my own dark side, I embody spiral dynamics stage red pretty well, a lot of that energy is channeled through my intense presence, fighting and being direct with people. I still have a lot of inner psychological work to do. 

I have discovered that all emotions including anger is not something that happens because of the outside world or other people even though it sure seems that way, anger is something that I am doing as a defense mechanism against perceived pain and hurt. It's something that is done for my ego's survival, it's an emotional manipulation tactic to get what I want or to avoid what I don't want 

[samijiben]

@ExploringReality I hope and pray that your insight leads you to a place that you've never seen before that cannot be unseen.

[Oppositionless]

I identified God with nature in catholic school as a boy. I believed I had powers and could influence sport games on the tv with my mind.

I was introduced to the concept of alternative religion by a friend when I was 14 who practiced Wicca, claimed to be able to astral project and enter other people's dreams, and to be a demon. 

I learned about enlightenment from Leo in high school. I also started smoking weed and having otherworldly experiences at this time.

Life has been a disappointment and I have not made the progress I would like, and it appears as if I could not have done anything different. Yet the curtain hasn't fallen, and the show must go on.
 

 

Edited August 10 by Oppositionless

[samijiben]

4 minutes ago, Oppositionless said:

I identified God with nature in catholic school as a boy. I believed I had powers and could influence sport games on the tv with my mind.

I was introduced to the concept of alternative religion by a friend when I was 14 who practiced Wicca, claimed to be able to astral project and enter other people's dreams, and to be a demon. 

I learned about enlightenment from Leo in high school. I also started smoking weed and having otherworldly experiences at this time.

Life has been a disappointment and I have not made the progress I would like, and it appears as if I could not have done anything different. But the curtain hasn't fallen, and show must go on.
 

 

Beautiful, sad, enormous, a fleeting detail, a poetic drauma, either to be ended or entered without a glance in any other direction.

[Cheese]

I was certain that I found Truth, then I went all in.

[Human Mint]

What lead me here? Geography, school, genetics, parents. Two decades and a half of life basically. But something interesting was weed, seriously. If it wasn't for weed I would never have been interested in psychedelics and I would certainly not have encountered Actualized.org. What about you?

PD: I stop using weed because is harmful, don't use it.

Edited August 10 by Human Mint