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Who knows? The illusion is illusion, ok. But why the illusion exist? If you realize that it's a conciousness in the inmutable no time, you're going to realize that you are an illusion and the colored reality with time and space is all illusion. But illusion exist! Maybe the base of the illusion is the nothingness, but the illusion is something. It's duality? Maybe...not all of us realized the non duality, I m not doubting about it but it seems that some accept it like a dogma. About free will....In the illusion level it seems that you, as illusion , have a wall of concept that keep you isolated of the self, and you could break it or not... why? Who knows that. In a level seems that reincarnation exist, and a path of different lifes exist. How? Why?

@Someone here, thank you for sharing your thoughts. And sorry for all of the questions, but not really since I didn't choose to ask them I see reincarnation as a story too. But in a broader sense, what are your thoughts on our role in the awakening process? Aspirants practice the paths of yoga to receive enlightenment, but is all of that misguided and unnecessary? Krishna approves the paths of karma yoga and raja yoga. I understand the nonduality of uitimate reality, but "we" are in a world of time and space. If it's all an illusion, why go through the motions of realizing enlightenment? Agree with killing the snake for protection, but many criminals are punished beyond the point of protecting society from them. Are these punishments unjust since the criminals weren't responsible for their crimes? Even following an egoic act, why apologize? If we can't control whether or not the ego is at the helm, aren't we guiltless?

@Moksha Well you just gave me a nice list of questions lol... I don't really like tackling questions partially.. You can watch some Bashar videos and listen to cool reincarnation theories.. But if you want actual answers here you go.. .. This is just a story. A limiting story to keep you asleep. Reality is nondual. There is no such thing as free will. Can you point to it? Touch it? See it? Or is it just a concept in your mind?. It's not determined either. That's also a concept in your mind. It's not random either. That's also a concept in your mind. It doesn't fall into any category or mechanism. The world of forms does not exist. You mistake the formless for a formed because of your sense of self and your constant conceptual overlaying process. What is actual is nothing. Only the mind says otherwise Source and here are one. Cause and effects are one. Reality is nondual. As long as you assume yourself to be something seperate from awakening that you can only get it in the future you will never wake up.. Because essentially this is a lie. You are awakening itself. Because of misunderstanding. These are two separate issues. If a dangerous snake is trying to bite you.. You kill it.. Even tho you know it has no choice..it is just being a snake doing what snakes do.. But you gotta kill it anyways., Depends on your state of consciousness. If you in ordinary ego state of consciousness and you perceive mistakes.. You apologize. If you are conscious enough there are no mistakes...and then it won't make any difference to apologize or not. Because there is no mistakes.

This is one thing I don’t know is true because this is infinity we are talking about. 1 all things in the universe are your simultaneous lives past lives and future lives this works because time is one moment and doesn’t exist. 2. If reincarnation of an individual soul holds any weight in truth I feel like none of our past reincarnations have been anything like earth . Because it’s infinity

@DrewNows thanks for the answer. Is this something similar with remembering past lives or does it have anything to do with reincarnation? Like the wanderers from the Ra Material? Or the new age concept of star people?

@Mu_ That's cool, for me also the times of depression are of great use in poetry and music and philosophy also. I am still functionally afraid of death as in if I was about to die id probably shit my pants, but I'd rather die than kill someone. I see death as a continuation of the metaphysical factors which gave birth to you to begin with, in other words death is simply the necessary step to reincarnation. So actually I am terrified of death, but only in so far as I have negative karma(action(s))

Reincarnation framed as Cosmic Bowling Arnold Keyserling made the case that basically the 12 potentials of the Zodiac are to be actualized and mastered in a series of lifetimes. After which, eternal existence is only then assured. Not surprisingly, very similar to Gurdjieff's notion that just because we're born, eternal life is not a guarantee. I like that Leo used a quote from Don Juan Matus in his last video regarding Controlled folly in relation to fulfilling one's life purpose. Arnold Keyserling used the same phrase here in describing his notion/theory about attaining immortality. Keyserling- "You must choose to use all twelve of the basic potentials, both in language and in life, when the opportunity is presented by life. Otherwise, they will remain latent. These potentials do not automatically grow. They require choice and intentional efforts. First, your language must become holistic and coherent. To make sense of your life you have to make sense in your speech. The twelve basic concepts presented in the chart above are the keys to making sense. You have to learn to use these concepts in your speech, your language. Then, eventually, you will learn to master these conceptual cluster-words in a three step process: apprentice, companion, master. This mastery of language allows for mastery of the human faculties which they represent. This means mastery of the full human capacities in controlled actions, or as Don Juan said, "Controlled Folly". Both learning processes - language and life - must go hand in hand. One without the other will not allow for full development. Words alone are hollow. Life alone is incomprehensible. Only both - language and action - allow you to actualize these potential powers. With both you can integrate them into your being, and thereby make sense of life. You can walk your talk. You fully master the twelve time potentials in a three step process. First, you learn them. Next, you learn them even better by acting them out. Finally, you master them after you have taught them to others. In the final Master teaching stage the Self can merge with the Sun. The Self then can become radiating, full of life giving light. But, until all nine of the potentials are integrated, and the whole potential of your Being is realized, you will be submitted to reincarnation. As Keyserling says, you will be stuck in the "cosmic game of bowling". Only when all of your pins, your potential, have been set up and mastered, can you survive the inevitable black ball of death." from - http://www.chanceandchoice.com/course-overview/time-cycles/ He makes the case that the nine potentials of the Enneagram are basically key and the other three have to do with those life plans which have to do with playing a larger historical role in a particular lifetime. I' ve paraphrased some so, grain of salt,,,,,

I don't know if there is a heaven after death but if there is it's still the SAME reality! It's one reality. Imagine growing old, getting sick and then dying. What a fricken horror, haha. Maybe one shouldn't joke about it, but death seems completely stupid to me. The same with reincarnation, idiocy! Surely, if it's all one and the same reality, then the smartest thing would be to improve our current physical reality. I suspect that the crystallized ego at the personal stage of development goes totally mad, because it clings fervently to its possessions in this life, both material and immaterial such as loved ones and so on. At the same time the ego believes that the body will die and all the possessions lost! So it must be in an insane kind of inner conflict all its life. Can physical reality change? If reality is all mind, then yes, and especially if reality is infinite intelligence then surely something as trivial as a physical human body can be improved greatly. I'm aiming for eternal life in this and other universes, not for some heaven, reincarnation or nonexistence as are the options at the personal stage. Well, there is also the transhuman option with nanotech and biotech to achieve immortality but that's too limited I suspect.

I mean you can look at models to predict the future but really it’s impossible, how many people accurately predicted the industrial revolution or smartphones or the internet, something equal or greater could happen, society totally moves at a slow rate (historically) but there is no telling how fast it could go, I agree with kenWilber if he says there is a tipping point like a singularity of consciousness. also I’ve listened to a lot of the great awakening theory and the people who talk about it certainly don’t mean the level of awakening you are talking about @Leo Gura. They simply mean spiritual awakening like what most people have from blue-yellow they don’t mean stages they mean temporary states and then there is the whole complicated thing with souls and reincarnation(which I certainly believe) but yea it is a story and maybe a great story but it can be problematic and you will sound like deepak chopra to a lot of people lol having said all this, knowing the nature of growth and especially collective consciousness, there is many problems with evolving too quickly and no perfect way to evolve it’s often bloody and crazy and unstable but ultimately none of us can tell at what time in the future we will progress to solid green yellow etc. I think sadhguru has don’t a great job of integrating turquoise values into society pretty easily and other youtube teacher such as yourself leo, the problem with improving consciousness rapidly is that it requires everything else to improve rapidly which isn’t the case yet, but I am very optimistic that solid green will happen in our lifetimes of you’re around my age (25h and live a long life maybe even a yellow country/society will emerge, it’s impossible to predict, but just from when I was born 1995-2020 seems like a quantum leap

I'll quote his message to give my 2 cents. This is a really good reply and basis to start building up from. This topic is not an easy one and I still don't have enough first hand experience besides some awakenings, god/oneness/all is a dream realizations and some contemplation I did, so I'll try to do my best. The "standard" way of describing solipsism is to say that all there is out there is you and that everything other is imaginated. People get confused by this phrase because they don't understand what is meant by "you". By saying "you" it's NOT meant: 1) a person 2) an identity 3) an ego but "you" as one single being (nondual being), so for everything there is, consciousness. And that's actually true. After having some awakenings and going deep into the spiritual studies you will discover that all there is out there is is both nothing (the emptyness) and something (consciousness). Simultaneously. This is then what is really meant by solipsism: the essence of oneness. "You", as such as your friends, your parents, animals and all people out there are simply imaginated. You don't materially exist. You perceive that you exist, but you cannot prove that you physically REALLY exist, because you cannot prove that your perceptions are true (saying: I perceive therefore I exist is an assumption and a dogma and proves absolutely nothing, because it's not based on any kind of proof) So "you" as a specific being (you, the one who is thinking he is reading my post) are not experiencing anything at all. Because you as the concept/believe you think to be don't actually exist! This is just a believe that's deepely rooted into you There is rather just one thing that experiences itself through active creation (molecules, atoms, energy, physical laws, energies, universes, frequencies, animals, humans, identities etc.) and that "look through" the lens of your ego (or of a something other living/not living being) to experience itself in many different forms and ways. What I still don't understand is what happen when you die. Leo says that everything (the entire universe) disappears and that noone will keep living here, proving then that there isn't any objective singular reality, but rather that's everything subjective. What I don't understand is: how can it be true, if there are/were many cases of reincarnation or people reborn in other bodies and have some remembering about their past lives (eg I saw long time ago that documentary of this child who discovered his old child body that was murdered, digged and never ever found)? If the previous reality just disappears, then you cannot go back to it. So this is a higly paradoxical and not so intuitive topic to understand

Mahasamadhi means the end of self,soul identification forever. No more reincarnation no more others,it is a conscious choice and only desireless people can achieve it. So basically yeah,people should contemplate if they never want to have any kind of external world,experiences and others for the sake of just being in beingness forever. Some of them come back though presumably. Eternity is a long time

First of all I think you need to understand that Islam deals with spirituality in a different way, or we might say Islam has its own path to reach God. Ideas like reincarnation, I´m God, God is everything, Karma is inevitable … etc do not exist in Islam and you won’t find any resources related to these ideologies. If you see a Sufi talking about stuff that looks like these ideas make sure that the meaning is lost in the translation. Personally I think that your father does not need this kind of ideas and ideologies, what he needs to know is 1- he is a creature created by God 2- his actions will have consequences in the afterlife. This will take him a step further. There are a lot of resources in Arabic, but in order to choose one you need to understand your father more, for example what’s making him stuck? Also kindly note that some people are just too stubborn and whatever you do nothing going to change them. hehehe are for real man this woman is = to Teal Swan or sth like that. she was a meme 10 years ago.

Life Birth Marriage Death Afterlife Garden of Reeds /Heaven/Afterlife Rapture Restlessness Reincarnation Soul/spirit Karma Sins Gifts The Hand (Ace card) Chaos Grace Embrace Prayer Faith Hope Charity Perseverance Persecution Evil Redemption Protection Deliverance Suffering Commune Universe Beauty Divine Path Purpose Fate Supernatural forces Spirit Devil Connection Relationship Seek D' forces Cardinal Virtues Saved Liberation Repentance Profound realization

Chapter 1 General terms Life Birth Marriage Death Afterlife Garden of Reeds /Heaven/Afterlife Rapture Restlessness Reincarnation Soul/spirit Karma Sins Gifts The Hand (Ace card) Chaos Grace Embrace Prayer Faith Hope Charity Perseverance Persecution Evil Redemption Protection Deliverance Suffering Commune Universe Beauty Divine Path Purpose Fate Supernatural forces Spirit Devil Connection Relationship Seek D' forces Cardinal Virtues Saved Liberation Repentance Profound realization

Important terms used in the last few posts Life Birth Marriage Death Afterlife Garden of Reeds /Heaven/Afterlife Rapture Restlessness Reincarnation Soul/spirit Karma Sins Gifts The Hand (Ace card) Chaos Grace Embrace Prayer Faith Hope Charity Perseverance Persecution Evil Redemption Protection Deliverance Suffering Commune Universe Beauty Divine Path Purpose Fate Supernatural forces Spirit Devil Connection Relationship Seek D' forces Cardinal Virtues Saved Liberation Repentance Profound realization

I believe that this universe and God always coexisted like sand and ocean water. I think that both God and universe are both infinite and eternal. Because if God created this world then he cannot create such a cruel world. So it's not logically feasible for God to create the world. The world is designed by human rules and human free will. There are only 2 aspects of Hinduism that I believe in. Not anything else. That is reincarnation and karma I don't believe in heaven and hell. Although I believe in karma I feel like when you connect to God, you bring God's power into you

Anything you can imagine, that is not dead. It means death is not "dark" as atheist think but other cool stuff like paradise or reincarnation neither. All the answers in these thread are spiritual ideology.

No-Consciousness or reincarnation

Things you can research(Some resources linked): To search CIA research documents and articles on "ESP", "Psychic", "Remote Viewing", "UFO" etc., Go to this CIA Webpage https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/search/site/ and search for those keywords, you'll get many results. Clicking on them will take you to the particular article or research document's page, from where you can download the pdf file, which is usually numbered something like this: "cia-rdp96-00792r000300070001-7.pdf" under the title "Attachment". From CIA public release documents: CIA's Gateway Process - (Please read the whole report if possible - A must read for this forum members): Old Yogic States of Conciousness with Siddhi type powers like reading past, future and OBEs using Modern Methods of Hemi Sync Tapes / Binaural Beats, etc. In my opinion the assessor had to bullshit his way through some of the stuff by replacing the old paradigms with made up scientific concepts and names to please the concerned people so that it doesn't get rejected by getting a stigma of an occult phenomena, which is evident from what he himself says at the end of the first paragraph itself. ANALYSIS AND ASSESSMENT OF GATEWAY PROCESS https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/cia-rdp96-00788r001700210016-5 1 - Psychic Phenomena: AN ASSESSMENT OF THE EVIDENCE FOR PSYCHIC FUNCTIONING (Read the conclusions on page 20 & 21) https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/cia-rdp96-00791r000200070001-9 STUDY OF SOME ESP TESTING METHODS AND THEIR VALIDITY (Read Conclusion on page 21) https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/cia-rdp96-00792r000300070001-7 U.S. SPACE ADMINISTRATION OFFICIAL REVIEWS TELEPATHIC PHENOMENA AS ENERGY TRANSFER https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/nsa-rdp96x00790r000100040002-2 PROPOSAL FOR AND INITIAL SPECIFICATIONS OF PROJECT SUN STREAK BIBLIOGRAPHIC DATABASE(Project to catalogue all sorts of phychic phenomena from ESP, OBE, REINCARNATION, etc. etc.. Published by anyone) https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/cia-rdp96-00789r003700720001-2 CIA's Interest in CHINA`S PSYCHIC CHILDREN: https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/cia-rdp96-00792r000300420017-1 CIA's Interest in OBE(Out Of Body Experiences): EXCEPTIONAL HUMAN EXPERIENCE, OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCES https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/document/cia-rdp96-00792r000700350009-4 Prahlad jani(passed away now): Dynamo Jack: Buddha Boy:

Reincarnation

You are right, some guru isolate themselves on a mountain because they realize that there is no one ripe enough to understand their message. So by teaching them of spirituality the guru would just make them more miserable, giving them a false hope to achieve something which is unachieavable. This is rude and useless. Then there have been compromise lately when the guru knows that it will cause suffering to some people who can't achieve nirvana, but it's the price to pay to teach to those few who can benefit from its message. In this era of the internet, the message is being spread worldwide, sometimes in distorted form (for various reason which I'll not get in to now). Those who can benefit from it will do, others will still hear it and become unhappy knowing that they can't achieve in their present reincarnation. Others will not understand/believe the message and not become unhappy for they can't achieve it in this life. But they will achieve in their next lives so all is good in the end, we all gonna make it.

@Arzack I will just assume you have no idea what you are talking about reincarnation and just parroting Buddhist beliefs.

And what does that have to do with reincarnation? I asked you how do you know reincarnation is real.. You said you read about it in "spiritual material"..that's like a Christian saying hell is real because it is written in the Bible!

Even you are enlightened since yesterday , you said that reproducing that you read about reincarnation.

DISCLAIMER: I had no intention initially of writing this trip report, but I just had to because of how interesting it was, and for personal documentation reasons too. This post is admittedly crazy, outlandish, bizarre and just plain weird. And I don't want this to start a non duality war. I also don't want this post to invoke judgement on the 'electrobeam' physical avatar (it will happen anyway by God's design (how else is duality possible ) , but I'm just pointing out my intention is not to troll or invoke such a response). I fully appreciate and embrace anyone who believes I'm deluded, crazy, zen devil, etc. I love you all and embrace all opinions that may come of this. I almost know nearly no one will resonate with what I'm about to write here. Maybe one or 2 yogis out in the jungle somewhere. But this post might strike a chord in 1 or 2 of you. Who knows and lets see. Why I wrote this Trip Report During the trip, I wasn't that surprised or valued this trip with any importance. In a weird way, everything that was happening was just normal. After coming down though and reflecting on it again, I just went "hold on, that was actually insanely crazy" I started to feel the significance of what just happened. I felt absolutely no significance, no surprise, at all during the trip. Absolutely no reason to feel alarmed. I even talked to people around me completely normally, and talked to them genuinely with what I was becoming conscious of as if its a normal talking point with people. But afterwards I went "what in the hell was that???". And I regretted sounding like an unusual guy to my flatmate. I was extremely shocked. This humbled me on the come down. And here I am, recording it. Also I dont claim to be enlightened(far far far from it), but I will use enlightenment terms to help with explanation. Intention for the trip So I awoke to infinite love some time ago, and after that I saw the universe completely differently. I basically realized that all suffering, evilness, etc was actually designed to give me a massive loving awakening. It was all done out of love. Just imagine your mum said "sorry I can only give you 20 bucks for your 21st birthday" and then you chastise her, attack her, then on your birthday she said "just joking! I actually gave you a million dollars!" And you find out later that she gave you that million through working 90 hours a week. Can you see how lowering your expectations by saying she can only give you a little, is actually better than if she said "i will give you a million dollars on your 21st birthday"? By lowering your expectations, when you actually get the gift, its a massive gift. Well thats why god invented world war 2, trump, etc. Because he's lowering your expectations so that when you do realize infinite love, you get extremely excited. That's why there's so much self deception, it all increases your surprise. And people on here asking "why is there torture, rape, etc" is like the child chastising her mum saying "why do you only give me 50 bucks for my 21st? You horrible mum!". And how would you feel once you realised that all those judgements of trump was like you chastising that mother? Once you realised trump was you? How sorry would you feel? Knowing all those judgements you did was pure stupidity and ignorance? So for the san pedro trip, I wanted to repent all my sins (all my judgements and hatred) because I felt so fucken ignorant, sad, arrogant and stupid for judging God, myself. And also my intention for this san pedro trip was to simply ask God for how to embody and live a life fully immersed in infinite love. BUT I'm not your typical seeker, I'm extremely/radically open minded, and I'm an extremely curious seeker that loves to 'understand'. I love omnipresence. Absolutely love it. A scientist's/INTPs dream is 100% omnipresence. Its philosophical nirvana. That's what us scientists get wet dreams over. We aren't like other seekers that just want to feel happy, or get over suffering, or just care about feeling good all day. We want to 'KNOW', 'UNDERSTAND' we aren't just satisfied with feeling good, we want to consciously know what's going on here. We want to go meta, again and again and again and again for absolutely no reason at all except because we are curious. And so, I had my intentions for the san pedro trip, but honestly, God decided to reveal some juicy secrets instead, so I just went for that. Drinking San Pedro I drank 30cm of san pedro juice I made up (getting pretty good at this brewing shit now, also my body must be getting use to san pedro because it didnt vomit this time, woohoo!) Trip Report - All the normal stuff that most teachers on here would agree with I think So I came up extremely slowly. Again just like the other san pedro trip report I did a while ago, I did not realise how high I was getting. I was getting waaay higher than I noticed. For me I thought what was happening was just a slight buzz. Nothing serious. Infact I was convinced I did the brew wrong, and I microdosed on this stuff (until later ). So I started questioning, how do I completely eliminate all hatred and judgement so that I can be infinite love all the time. Because I'm 2000% aware that I'm jumping from 1 to 2 and back to 1 again, and I'm doing that due to hatred and judgement. Once judgement and hatred is gone, and I embrace everything, that's it! Game over boiiis! I won! But then of course, being the highly meta, and scientific/INTP mind that I am, I jumped to questioning "wait, why am I even trying to eliminate judgment and hatred all together?". Like a curious question I've had for a while is, why did I, God, jump to duality in the first place. And then I became aware of the play. How we are all actors just pretending. The level of pretending that I became conscious of was insane. We pretend so much that its incredible. Matt Khan is pretending to be a spiritual teacher, that's the level. He's so conscious yet he's still pretending. And of course he isn't actually there and there are no 'others' but what I'm saying is God is capable of pretending to such an extent, that you could be as deeply enlightened as Ramana or Matt Khan and you'd still be pretending. Those teachers aint free of pretending, trust me. They get sucked into the thought story of being a teacher, and don't even realise they are getting sucked into that thought story. You can be deeply enlightened and yet still dogmatic and still believe in stuff and confuse truth for falsehood. This is how insanely large self deception is. Its unbelievable. I became aware of all of my lies (and this was necessary for repenting my sins of judgement and hatred). I had to let go of all lives to fully surrender to god. Then I became conscious for the first time of True omnipresence. I felt exactly, ex-act-fucken-leeee why everything was the way it is (and there is a ridiculously mind twisted answer below in the "off the deep end" section) but for now lets just say that I became aware that God knows everything about me, and before reincarnating as me, he knew exactly what was going to happen to me. Every single bit. He knows why I suck at meditation, COVID-19, my reincarnations of past lives, every-fucken-thing. Because the Godhead is a land where you know fucken everything. Its insane. And so when you think you're struggling with meditation and it sucks, and how everyone is better than you, or some other hardship, God KNEW all of that precisely! (to the nearest millimetre, nanosecond, micro moment, including the devilry) before deciding to reincarnate as you. Like in ego consciousness, it really feels like you're here for the first time, and God's doing something new and your the first. That's true. BUT! At the exact same time, God also knew everything that was about to happen. Its sort of like, imagine genes are the Godhead and the phenotypes are your life. Yes the phenotype is happening for the first time, But you knew everything that was gonna happen from the genes, just the knowledge from the genes is different to the experience of the actual phenotype though. So that's sort of what omnipresence is like, you dont experience everything but you fucken KNOW! The image I had of omnipresence was heaps of clouds out in the sky, and a dragon flying through it just looking down. Don't know why but there ya go. I decided to go for a walk because I was convinced I took a microdose and whats the worst that could happen (should have learnt my lesson from the last san pedro trip I did, but I'm God's son, so not learning my lesson is in my genes ) And again, just like the last san pedro trip, I didn't wake up, here I am 100% conscious as God. Just happened without realising it. No ego death, just here it is. And see at this point this is where doing trips to better or improve your life or spirituality goals starts to break down, because once you're fully conscious that everything is God's plan, you realise all your deficiencies are God's plan too. Even what I'm writing now, God knew all of this before reincarnating as me. And so improving spirituality from that state of consciousness doesn't make sense, because its already perfect. Your failure is perfect. At that point its just like, everything is already done. There's nothing to do, or improve on. And you realise, you entering this trip with an intention is itself a persona. Like you've got an intention because you're an actor pretending you're going through a spiritual journey that isn't actually there. But once you take the acting clothes off, there goes your intention. There goes everything. The intention's meaning requires acting as a basis for it to make sense. And so at this point its like, ok well, I'm at the beginning, where I'm trying to arrive at. Now there's no need for an intention...... now what? (meanwhile nearly got hit by a car because I stopped in the middle of the road just to recognise what's going on... oh the irony of being highly micro and macro at the same time) But then consciousness changed its tune. No, I'm gonna pretend again. And when I pretend, we need to change. I need more love. This story has gone through too much suffering, and not enough love, and the story's course needs to balance back to love again. And then I remembered total 100% omnipresence and perfectness. But then I went I know! But I need more love! That's gotta happen! Then God reminded me of 'the beginning'. Where I was before this entire, multi incarnation, multi universe world began. And reminded me that, you've known infinite love all your life. For eternity. This dualistic world you're in now, its new. Its never happened before. And that's amazing. Instead of rushing to where you were when you began, enjoy what this world has to offer. Trip Report: Off the Deep End: This is where I'd imagine the teachers on here reading this like wtf?? Insanity started here (if it didnt already hahahaha) Like stop rushing, and appreciate duality and form. Duality and form is a gift. Its not horrible. Its a gift. And I resonated with that godly message to a certain level, because this world is beautiful, and I am rushing too much to the enlightenment finish line, without enjoying the process. But honestly, from God consciousness, from a non dualistic standpoint, I rejected it. For the first time I witnessed God rejecting his own advice. Saying no to it. I said (extremely sincerely and genuinely and deeply) (as God) I know but, its not fun anymore. What's the point if its not fun? Its getting boring. Its getting too suffering intensive. I want a change to this world. Then an extremely subtle "snap!!!" happened in my brain. So subtle that the devil tried to cover it up. But it felt like I had just communicated my sincere plea for help, for love, to an extremely alien form of my higher self/God. Ridiculously alien. Expressing a need for change to the story I'm pretending to be in. And this is where things start getting trippy. Mind you, during the trip I thought all of this was completely normal. Only after the comedown when I remembered all this did I go, what is the actual fuck was all that about? So God said to himself in a monologue (as I AM God) "you really reject this dualistic life? You're seriously fed up with it? Its seriously not quenching your thirst?" And I thought about that, and honestly the answer was "yes". If I'm extremely honest with myself. I don't give a fuck about being a spiritual teacher, helping others, engaging with anyone in this world, all I want to do is know thyself. I'm super curious, and just want to know what the truly fuck is truly going on. I dont want bliss, or even love suprisingly, I just want to KNOW. To be as One as possible. Fuck the world. (this is in god consciousness, depression and human disorders are so long gone by this point I can't explain. So this is God saying it, not depressed electrobeam). Then God said "if you truly want to know all this stuff, then there's only 1 way". "what is that?" Then I got shown shit that I remembered. It didnt suprise me at all(until I came down). I remember this very very well. I knew this before the big journey. God showed me what true awakening is and said "all of your questions wont be answered, and what you truly want wont be discovered, until you truly awaken. There's absolutely no way to know the answers to your questions without 100% awakening" And what's the cost of 100% awakening? Completely and utterly forgetting everything that happened. Like completely forgetting when you were born, where you were born, your reincarnation's births, dmt machine elf incarnation births, your parents, the entire massive journey. Full on Universal Mind dementia. You'll know exactly what you want to know, but you'll need to completely forget your life to truly get the answer. Complete dissociation and never ever remembering it again, you wont even know this life happened. You (god mind you hahahaha, like the highest of the highest) wont even have a slight clue whether this journey happened or not. (like thats insane). And I went "hmmm that's right, I totally forgot about that" (now that seems insane but yes that happened hahahah; because im a good pretender. lets be real). So there I was walking around the park, contemplating (as God) whether I should completely and utterly wipe out this entire universe and multiverses to merge with True infinite love. Completely forget. And I walked back inside to take a sit on my sofa, because, you know, this is a pretty big decision, I need to think this through. and my flatmate asked if I was feeling ok, and I said "yeah I think I screwed up the brew because I don't feel anything". And I said that genuinely, I literally didn't feel like this san pedro did anything except for a slight buzz. But then I remembered I'm contemplating whether I'm gonna wipe out the entire universe. So I said "actually, I'm contemplating wiping out the entire universe, so maybe it did have an effect". But then from this level of consciousness, psychedelics are completely and utterly imaginary and everything is happening because of God, got absolutely nothing to do with psychedelics. So I'm like, wtf this is weird, I dont usually act like this off psychedelics, but at the same time psychedelics are completely imaginary, wtf... I'll come to that another day if I dont choose to wipe it out. The Absolute/Final/Total: Not Infinite Love, but infinity itself!!!! Mindfuck, radical open mindedness alert woo woo. I don't mean to offend anyone, but through the process of contemplating True awakening. I became conscious that all of my awakenings (no self, infinite love, everything/nothing, intelligence) were all just 1 dimensional, or all just apart of the matrix! Like I became conscious that the next big journey CAN and possibly WILL journey towards God completely differently to all of my awakening experiences. Like there are infinite different types of awakenings. And all of my awakenings were just 1 fucken type. Like I mean, non duality, and wave in the ocean, its all just 1 type of being. Non duality is just 1 type of being out of an infinite number of beings(at the same level of consciousness. Of course there's lots of types of beings, but I'm saying there's an infinite number of beings with the same level of consciousness as non duality), used to journey towards God. non duality is just a tiny sand spec in the beach. I've experienced infinite love, non duality many many many times before. I know those states very very well. I'm not confusing non duality for something else. I mean it when I say non duality is just 1 type of being, and there are completely different "big journeys" that probably happened in the past that uses completely different types of being equivalent to non duality but completely different. And of course, I had to ask the question. What's infinite love? Is it final? Is it absolute? And God made it clear, to truly know, I need to merge into infinite love and completely forget everything about this big journey. Even forget that non duality is a fucken thing! Because when I truly forget, even non duality wont exist. True awakening is beyond non duality, and the next being might be equivalent to non duality in terms of states of consciousness, but it will be completely different. And this sort of realisation of forgetting, made me realise, that Love also, is just 1 type of being. Its just 1 type of the highest state of consciousness. There are infinite states of Being equivalent to Love, but different! In other words, each big journey uses an equivalent state of consciousness, but one that is completely different to Love. But for you to realise those different states, you need to completely wipe out this big journey and completely forget and dissociate from it. What is God really? But see this is the thing, what is god really? God is pure unlimited-ness. Its not divisions, or energy or even fucken Love. Its pure, utter pure, unlimitedness. Like Ramana Maharshi is 0% aware of how blank the canvas really fucken is. Its extremely blank. The canvas isn't fundamentally made of love, no, no, no. You haven't reached the highest awakening if you're not aware of that. That canvas is made of pure unlimitedness. You can dream up any fucken thing, so much that its terrifying. That's what God is. Its not Infinite Love, that's not final. I know that sounds off, but I know 10000%, Infinite Love is not final. Final/Absolute is pure unlimitedness. Pure dream up whatever the fuck you want. Yes God ultimately wants to merge with itself, to unite with itself, and it does a dance between duality and non duality, but keep in mind, that's not what God ultimately is, beyond that is pure unlimitedness. That's what God actually is behind the scenes. And at this point of the trip, God started sweating a little. Because he just remembered what he actually is, and its terrifying. Electrobeam was fine. He was high, happy, low heart beat. But God was having a bit of an existential crisis. And God wasn't surprised, or shocked, God was like "oh thats right". And a bit of terror. At the fact that he's pure unlimitedness. Because the scary part is not that God is pure unlimitedness. God can do everything. Can dream up anything, but the terrorising part, is the fact that the one thing he can't do, is kill himself. Eradicate himself. Stop himself. You have no choice but to dream everything that you're capable of dreaming because you can't kill yourself. Holy fuck if that doesn't scare you, then I didn't imagine you and duality was real all along. Are you aware that your ability to create horror is unlimited? Youre a fucking supernova on repeat! And your job as God is to control yourself! Woah and I thought I had it tough doing my day job. What is Omnipresence really? Yeah we like to think that omnipresence is knowing stuff. unravelling stuff that's hidden. Omnipresence at the lower levels (in this dimension) is western science. Discovering microbes and stuff. The next level higher is awakenings, like everything and nothing. knowing what God actually is. The next level is revealing devilry and self deception, the next level is total omnipresence, knowing everything about why everything is the way it is... but that's not the highest... the highest level of omnipresence is, accepting, or being fully conscious that you created everything. Literally everything. I used the gene phenotype above in the normal section of my post about what 100% omnipresence feels like. The highest level of omnipresence is realising you made that entire thing up on the spot. You're so unlimited, your canvas is so empty, that everything you could be 100% omnipresent of, is there, not because God planned it, but because God created it on the fucken spot. god doesn't need to bend to any rules to make things appear. He doesn't have to plan. God doesn't have to plan the laws of physics. God is so unlimited, and his canvas is so empty, that he just makes it up on the spot. Your entire life, infinite love, waking up process, etc. Wasn't planned. God made it NOW, by saying "this is what I want NOW". Nothing else needed. Just now. Just this is it now. He doesn't even need intelligence, its beyond intelligence. Its pure unlimitedness. Everything that is to be omnipresent of, is literally just accepting that what you create is what is. In its purest form. And at this stage of the trip, I started questioning "wait, did I just create duality because I was worried about how unlimited I was and I needed to rein myself in?" I felt like God was a wild gorilla, and duality was the cage. Then further I questioned "did I just create infinite love just to rein myself in"? Because its 10000% clear to me that infinite love isnt final. Then I came down from the trip. And reflected on what happened and went wait, what the fuck? I failed to get takeaways for that one, I need to do more trips.