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I'm on the first day of a urine fast today. I am excited to remove the deepest toxins stored in my toxins. I want to reset my metabolism so that I can maintain my low calorie diet without those emotional cravings throughout the day. I learnt today that food need not be "raw" or solely fruit as found in the extensive sciences of Chinese medicine and Ayurveda, that actually maintaining a balanced diet of whatever is in season is more important for wellbeing. Fruit overtime when not in the tropical regions can cause imbalances for some organs in the body which need hot food to function at their best, the carbohydrates in fruit also can cause candida, and other unhealthy bacteria to grow. It's certainly interesting, although it does confuse me a lot, when I also have evidence that fruit is what makes the brain function optimally, and how it is the highest vibrational food to consume. And to integrate this with urine therapy too, how the urine is the highest vibrational food I know of (save for pure love, and sunshine) would be helpful in developing this understanding. Although, my diet currently has been highly panic, the physical aspect is becoming less and less necessary as I surrender into the love of my soul, especially after this fast. I also want to experiment with the Ketogenic diet versus the carbohydrate based fruitarian diet to see which works best. In either case, the wisdom of the body is the best teacher to maintain the ideal balance I will go over 7 days for as long as my body tells me. I am very curious about the high states of consciousness that may happen which as described by John St Julian feels similar to tripping. I haven't really had huge experiences before, just the usual feeling bigger than my body in meditation, and the feeling of being one on a more superficial level so I just would love to see what a true enlightenment experience is. I'll meditate for most of the day as well upon the rising and falling of my chest, to connect more with my soul of pure divine love. I intend to realise myself as this love on the deepest level possible, to accelerate my spiritual journey into the infinite, harmonious state of bliss; of eternal natural meditative awareness. In this time I will not be actively exploring more concepts because it gets me back into the conscious ego mind, triggering many subconscious thoughts and emotions too. I am grateful to have this time to go deep into myself. I want to know myself as divinity, and I trust that by focusing on my heart more than the stories that arise in my mind, that this realisation will happen. The stories are grounded in the conditioning of the subconscious mind, rooted in the groundlessness of separation. I choose to focus on eternal love in every moment instead, cause I trust that will naturally release all beliefs in separation, and allow my soul to express itself through me perfectly instead of in fragments. We all are a gentle and loving soul having a human experience, to evolve ourselves by finding our true nature, against all of this separation, as the oneness. And so by focusing on the core of my oneness in my spiritual heart, in every moment this is my silent vote for love. When rooted in the heart I also trust, and know, that following your highest excitement is always happening, for the soul is fully expressing itself, the programming and fear no longer stops the soul from this. This is why I choose to spend up to 6 months in deep meditation, because of the life of love, synchronicity and excitement that I will create for the next 100 or 200 years (and I also love meditating, I wouldn't force it if I didn't). After these months there will be no question of what I want to do, for I will be the soul incarnate. I wish you all love in discovering who you truly are! This is all of our life purpose on Earth, to realise this one simple Truth, that we are truly one, like it was always meant to be. There is lots of beliefs in separation in my mind, which has left me to embrace my spiritual heart as the ultimate purifier of this "mess". It is there I will rest, and embrace all of life just as it is. As a side note, I will be off the internet for a bit, I'm doing a technology fast as well to help me focus. Love is greater than knowledge. I will give my life to it, and dissolve into the love forever. I see the possibilities there, and I'm ready for it

Some meditations just humble you. The ability to surrender your ego, to be humble in the face of truth is priceless. Life is beautiful when you are aware of your place in it. You are not the centre, you are a just a piece. It's ok, accept it. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. thats the basis for doubt. Because all knowing is founded on the belief that knowledge exists. So i guess when you are confronted with the experience of doubt, just accept it and see where to go from there. These nights are rare. Full of love and acceptance, there's still a hint of fear but whatever it's just my ego projecting. i love life and all it's bliss and misery. the name of this diary still bothers me, i regret putting fuck in it because i don't want people to think poorly of me. i'll try to let it go but really i don't like it. goodnight. love u zel

Matey, this is just your fantasy coming through. Things you have read from spiritual teachers who want you to believe they live a life of absolute 24/7 bliss . Watch closer your spiritual teachers. Most of them you know are facing the public and are watching their behaviour. How do you know what happens behind closed doors? This is reality.

@Arkandeus Why wouldn't there be value in basking in fear and resistance? Until you are fully enlightened, Truth =/= Bliss. Until then, your ignorance is veiled from you by the very things you are refusing to experience. Feel free to follow your bliss. Ultimately, that will go full circle and you will seek to face resistance because that will make you experience bliss deeper and more often when you realize how not surrendering makes you suffer more, not less.

@Revolutionary Think wow, I've known that on an intellectual level for a while now. but it was shown to me in a very 'visceral', 'bodily' way through MDMA. that substance connected me to my emotions that deeply, that my mind just rested in complete silence. it was utter bliss. no monkey, only love, harmony and peace. the day after the mind slowly crept back. and it demonstrated me very directly how thoughts literally construct all problems. there are no problems, the mind projects them onto reality. entirely self created. such a humbling experience..

I don't want death my 5-MeO, I want to experience bliss. Given that ego-death thru 5-MeO can be horrendously painful and extreme, what would you say is an essential prep to prevent the slaughter. Would AL- LAD, which you had suggested as a substitute for newbies, be hard on one too?

For me, I cannot be at peace If I have worries about my future, they are root in the subconscius, and even if you are happy in the present they dont allow to experiment full bliss because they are like a background energy drainer.

I worked in an office with import and export overseas. It was a good job and I had great contact with many big companies. I knew every chain in the company but after 6-7 years a shift happend. One day I woke up in my bed and the only thing I was thinking was ”I dont want to work. No way! I see no point in doing stupid things with my life” I guess meditation, questioning and the right timing made all this happen. I have one life and I want to do what I want do without compromising. You get the feeling Many. Not everyone was happy. A lot of people probobly thought I was crazy. I left friends and girlfriend and family members that didnt serve me. I left co-workers and I cut my self off from most things. This process started aprox 1 year before I quit. In fact, I was so sure that I didnt care if everyone hated me and I had to live on the streets. I could not care less because my bliss and inner peace is worth more than anything in world. And the culture in your country sucks man. Its so fake! No one likes other people. It looks so damn good on the outside but when you do some investigation you clearly see the house of cards.

If reality is infinite and non dual as Leo teaches, that means there are infinite realities where you are experiencing bliss, and infinite realities where you are experiencing hell, simultaneously. "You" being consciousness or god. Is this a fair trade off? Infinite hell for infinite heaven? From my understanding, it is not?. Id rathet not exist than be expericing hell 24/7. So the fact that reality exists is a scary and frightening thing rather than a good thing? ?Or am I missing something. Please share your insights. Namaste

When one moves with focussed attention (6th chakra) on the lower first 5 chakras, then reality is challenging. Is an eternal growth, ups and downs, challenges, depression and bliss. Just forcing by thought to impose into yourself a state of being, will make you feel maybe at ease and peace, but no growth and is boring. One will feel the routine and the automated life without excitement.

@The White Belt in live in my van and i mostly spend my time in areas of outstanding natural beauty . It's bliss internet signal is ropey and I have to go to the gym to shower. Apart from that it's incredible for meditation..i am on the verge of being a yogi

@White I’ve been doing it for three months. Due to working through so many worksheets, these days I live a significant part of my life being aware of the difference between my thoughts about the situation, and the situation itself. This creates a feeling of bliss on those occasions. About a fifth of the day, I live without any mental chatter. My chronic anxiety that I used to have just three months ago is gone. I have more energy. I sleep less (I waste less energy stressing out). Most importantly, I’m disidentifying from my body. That’s just my progress in three months. In the past I’ve done self inquiry for three full months, and Kriya yoga for another three and a half months. The results I’ve obtained from The Work have very clearly surpassed both techniques combined. If you want to see it working on other people:

@NoSelfSelf Great question, I don't know... It's my perspective on life, but I'm only one of 8 billon people on this earth. People, like me, don't have the answers, they are deep within your own being. Follow your heart, find your bliss! Wishing you all the best my friend with your journey! ?

It may sound banal and cliche, but hear me out: there is no you to be lost. The empty bliss you experience is the natural state that is being clouded by thoughts. It is not that thoughts are covering it up. You have became aware enough so that you can experience both. This is a preliminary step to experience emptiness and thought at the same time. The thing that prevents you is that you think that you think your thoughts. You don't. Thoughts arise by themselves. They calm down by themselves. The fact that you sit and meditate has nothing to do with it. There is no you to be lost.

Everytime I meditate, I can get to a state where thoughts are almost gone very quickly. Then I feel a slight bliss inside, I think I feel the taste of the essence of being, my body starts to feel lighter. I start to slowly let bit by bit of myself go to be consumed by nothingness. Then fear arises, the heart starts to go faster, anxiety crawls up, i need to breath, I cant let go any further. Am I really on the edge of ego death? Is this really the reason why fear comes up? It sure feels like just fear of losing myself.

I know the secret to eternal happiness. In my meditation I feel complete, not just for a few moments, but for the duration. It is utter joy and bliss. I always wanted it so much from society, and those closest, only to realize I was the one I was searching for this whole time ? It's quite an emotional ending in a nice way. Everyday I merge further into oneness now. There is no addiction, because even the thoughts have found the love they always wanted. The samadhi in meditation compels me, the thoughtless, alert, present, blissful state. I feel unworthy of this love for some reason. My body cry's when it comes in soothing waves, and the unworthiness vanishes in deep meditation, that belief is healing the more I become one. It feels strange when you feel yourself more expanded than the skin of the physical body, when you stop feeling any boundaries. It feels light, like I'm a cloud. Just relaxed, drifting slowly across the sky. All is. Happy Winter Solstice for tomorrow beautiful souls.

@Highest Don't do it! In your case I have the feeling it could be toxic. Solitude is not healing in and of itself. It can be a preferred environment for contemplation but only for someone who has a variety of experiences to choose from. When you watch Leo's videos be aware that he is someone who does "self-improvememt" for many years! The techniques he uses require a lot of experience. Dedication doesn't make up of training, you see? You can't lift 500 pounds with will power! If you want to change your life, that's great!! Be honest with yourself: what do you want? Because it sounds to me that you are suffering inside and hope that the solitude will cure that suffering - it won't. Solitude for the rest of your life (Dude!) would be for someone who wants to be alone to sit in the infinite bliss of being. Rather than extracting yourself from the world, be in it! Realize, that it is NOT the cause of your pain and there is no need for seperation. Masturbation, internet whatever is NOT the problem! The problem is that you use these things to distract yourself from your suffering. So my advice: be brutally honest with what you want! Sure, in forums like this people talk a lot about nothingness and Samadhi and what have you. And though it is interesting to know about these things it is important to act according to YOUR OWN level of consciousness. So ask yourself what you want: Girls? Money? Travelling? Reading? Making New friends? Then go after that! It will eventually lead you back to where you think you are now, but now in sync with your level of consciousness. The work that is discussed in this forum is not an escape, it's a confrontation. All best, take care of yourself!

@Colin I’m really excited now. Everything about the game is amazing, by its release I hope to be truly enlightened, then I can see all the non-dual aspects easier. If there’s multiplayer then we’ll have a go at it I want to make a few commitments to myself for the second half of this year. The first half was about learning deeply about the core principles of spirituality, and to find the most direct route to enlightenment. I have been through at least 20 spiritual teachers, and have finally found one which I resonate with, Lincoln Gergar. I had fallen into so many traps, and learnt from my mistakes. For example, I started to meditate on my head for a whole month attempting to “rise my kundalini” to the crown chakra unbeknownst of the existence of the spiritual heart. The spiritual heart in my experience has filled me with love. The first time I meditated upon it, I was shocked. It felt like there was another person next to me giving me unconditional attention and love. I didn’t know how powerful it was. It was the answer I was looking for in regards to my addictions to food, and the internet. I needed to find out how to find the love that my addictions tried to supplement for. And now I’ve found it. With at least another 6 months of free time I want to commit this time to lots of meditation, I mean even all day. Because that is what feels good, there is nothing else as fulfilling as meditation. After this year I can meditate less to maintain the same feeling of love, but just like hatha yoga, you need to put in lots of hours at the start. The funny thing is, I want to meditate. I used to see it as torture training last year, yet I didn’t know that my technique led to this happening. Also to be in the sun more, in the grass would be lovely, while seeing some friends here and there. So my goal is to reach true enlightenment in less than 6 months. To get there I am happily going to shed the last layers of avoidance of what IS (addictions). I commit to: Spending less than one hour online each day to give people heart-centred guidance (Its my pleasure to do this). Meditating for as long as possible (to rise my vibration, realize I am one). Eating 8 pieces or less of fruit per day (Godliness is cleanliness). Having time to explore new things that may excite me (walking in the forest, working with crystals such as moldavite, talking to spirits, walking in the city, making new friends into personal development, taking psychedelics to see what they’re about, playing my guitar more, learning about aromatherapy). Bramacharya (celibacy, to allow the kundalini to rise, and to return my self-worth). These are very simple changes. They are not rules, they are just principles to live by. Some days life happens and we’ve gotta be flexible. The second half of the year I would like to call “embodiment” of everything I’ve learnt. Where it is all disciplined, and loving practice. My goal is to become truly enlightened, to be in a state of total bliss. I am capable of it, I have the potential. And it’s not “forced”, it’s all my highest joy to make these commitments. Sobriety in itself is a powerful spiritual practice in the later stages of awakening. Let’s see how the journey unfolds together as one!

@pluto@Quanty "The Spiritual Heart is not the heart chakra (anahatta). In true kundalini teachings, there is no such place as the "heart chakra", it is called the Anahatta. "Heart chakra" is a New Age term based on the location of this chakra - but not the actual characteristics of the chakra. In the chakra body there are no physical organs. The Spiritual Heart is located in the causal body and is the deepest energy center in a human." "There are 3 centers in the causal layer of our being - behind the eyes (physical dimension awareness), in the throat (dreaming awareness) and in the heart area (deepest self / dreamless sleep). In genuine meditation a person takes their attention and descends it into the heart area to awaken the experience of the deepest layer of the self." In response to a viewer: "No, I learned about the Spiritual Heart directly from the Higher Self. It was the first time I ever learned of this energy center, even though I had studied hundreds of spiritual teachings for many years. The Spiritual Heart is a relatively unknown aspect of our selves. After experiencing the Spiritual Heart center in myself, I later learned that a few other spiritual teachers knew and taught of this center. I consider it the most significant aspect of the human being." The result of focused attention "First it may begin as a energetic embrace that is comforting and soothing. Then it will grow, increasing in the feeling of peace. As it grows, it become Love and feeling of oneness with the Source within and also the world around us. Then it becomes a powerful bliss." And especially for your interest @Quanty this quote shows how the spiritual heart is directly linked to kundalini: "There are 3 knots in yoga - called grandhis. One knot is located in the Anahata (heart) chakra. Meditating on the Spiritual Heart (in the causal body) will help to untie all 3 knots in the charka body. Ultimately, the Spiritual Heart energy draws the mind stream back into the Self / Source Consciousness." I also love this cherry picked quote from Lincoln! "The most delicious experience we can have is when we realize the Divine Love within our Spiritual Heart and then choose to live from this state in this world." -Lincoln Gergar This man used to study and practice Zen Buddhism, meditating as the awareness of the no self. He then realized that although he was calm with no thoughts, very few emotions, there was a "lack" (which he said wasn't a lack in the conventional sense, more so a deep knowingness) that there was "more" that being the quality of pure love in the center of our hearts. This stuff is practically unknown to anyone, even advanced yogis, but here it is thanks to Lincoln. I have meditated on the heart, and felt myself merge into oneness just Yesterday. It is thus, so so important for the world to know this, so I at least want you guys to look more into it It's simplest and the most powerful technique, perfect for our society to come into greater alignment with the divine higher selves they already are. Thank you. Here's a meditation I'll do now for fun, and to explore this deeper if you guys want:

See you would think this, and I could both believe they exist or don't - but the sensations are there man.. even gone so far as to have tests and MRIs because I thought they must be based on something physical. And yet no nothing, and they appear with mediation. Are they chakras? Honestly I've stopped caring about calling them anything specific. I experience a level of bliss that drugs have never been able to deliver... so if that's a placebo... fck I'll take it.

You seem to be in the Bliss stage as talked about in Tara Branch’s book Stairways to Heaven. Basically, it talks about that sensitive stage just before enlightenment when you’re much more emotional and moody than usual or the kundalini awakening as they call it. See it as spiritual puberty maybe — where every hidden emotion and insecurity submerged under your unconsciousness is suddenly brought into light — to force a deep emotional change and revolution to you. Extremely painful, but after it might be the greatest healing in your life. I recommend you go read books by Tara Branch soon — if your vibration is that strong, then I bet you’re in that stage. Send me a PM if you’d like, though I’ll be a bit busy these next few days so don’t expect something so soon. Take care.

Please do a body-dwelling meditation in which you become aware of the sensations of your body parts. This practice, coupled with the practice of deep breath and breath awareness make the mind silent. That's when you cannot experience suffering. If you keep doing it and keep returning to the sensations / breath after your mind starts to wander, eventually you will become enlightened. It's simple, because you have all you need for that practice always right here right now. And you can use it to calm yourself down and experience that bliss we are talking about. It's about focusing your attention more on your life and not so much on your life situation. In the end it's all a big dream, so it only matters while the dream is happening. Enjoying yourself in the now through these meditations drastically reduces suffering. You can enjoy yourself in the now though many things, but what makes meditation special is that you don't need anything external to do it. It's the answer.

@Why? Did you have a stage where you had a breakthrough and felt a sense of bliss, euphoria, etc? If so, you are in the Dark Night phase that follows the Arising and Passing stage. Daniel Ingram's book explains it and how to move past it. Its a necessary stage but can last a long time and be debilitating if not handled skillfully.

im absolutely tired of suffering its not fun, its hell, its hell on hell on hell and to all the spiritual guru's and know hows who keep saying that you have to put in the hard work that enlightenment and eternal bliss is to be deserved, FUCK YOU if it was up to me everyone would be allowed to be happy instantly, to be enlightened right now without putting in any hard work without any practice, without any friggin dedication, just happiness for everyone I dont want to bear the worlds suffering like jesus, no thanks to that cross I dont want to live a life without sex like buddha, I wanna fuck pretty girls, there I said it, its how I really feel I want a ton of girlfriends, I want to live my daily life doing something I love, not getting grinded from 9 to 5 at a daily job just because I dont want to end up homeless on the streets without money, who designed this shit? God?me?us? spiritual teachers telling everyone we chose this live out of free will? I never chose this bullshit and I dont want any of it one big fucking brain wash, it almost seems I tried the infinite love, but reality always wins they want you to pretend everything is fine, you better smile and love and be positive or else.... im tired of this garageswamp bullshit painfilled mess that we call earthly reality, its the worst dream I ever made and if I ever fucking awaken to my higher self beyond this life ill punch myself for having chosen this "spiritual journey" I never killed anyone, I never beat anyone,I made a few mistakes yes,those mistakes make up a 0.050 of my ovrral behavior I tried to play nice, I tried to be kind,I hoped for everyone's success, for what? everyones dead because I "realized" we're all one and life still sucks, jesus f there's one thing I learned in this spiritual journey is that I deserve better, I deserve fucking better, if it really turns out I chose this journey out of free will I need to respect myself more ps. fuck you life

I was having awakenings daily, quiet in nature as i had experienced extremes in my whole life so it was kind of a natural feeling for me like i was finally coming home but one day the awakenings stopped and something complete/infinitely more profound occurred. The experience was so profound it was beyond any physical expression. I remained mute in absolute bliss, pure ecstasy without the excitement, pure knowing, pure understanding. I simply became the embodiment of the one infinite creator. I cannot exactly say how long this lasted as it felt like i was here but also not here all at once, nowhere yet everywhere. I wish i had the words to explain in detail, it is pure magic.