zenjen

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  1. Work is easy for me once I get into the “flow state” (there are many articles and videos on how to do this, I’d suggest looking it up). I also aligned myself with a job where I get to be creative, and that’s something I love to do so even when I’m staying late and drowning in tasks it still doesn’t exactly feel like “hard work” to me because I’m in the flow. It’s also important to watch your thoughts. If you truly believe doing work like writing a book is difficult and miserable, it probably will feel difficult and miserable when you do it. If you believe “writing books is challenging but fun” the process will probably feel much lighter and simpler even though it’s still time consuming work.
  2. Update I temporarily decided not to start Zumba with my roommate due to the expense. I already paid for PIIT so I think I'll just stick to that program and maybe see if she wants to do it with me. Room has been kept decently clean. I threw some clothes in the hamper once I got home today Still need to make time for contemplation and journaling, will probably do that tomorrow when my roommate is gone so I have some alone time with my thoughts Cut back on smoking a bit Still need to enroll in Community College and School of motion, missed my personal deadline but for a good reason at least. I will probably end up doing CC next Monday. Exciting news! My work will probably end up paying for my School of Motion course! It's almost $900 so I was scared about asking for it but my boss said it was reasonable. They also want to get me the Cintiq drawing tablet which I have been wanting but it's $800 so I was reluctant to spend the money on myself. So work is going to save me about $1700 total for my creative endeavors in the new year. Good deal! Keep the good vibes flowing, universe
  3. @Arthur gave some good advice. Your lifestyle may have to change temporarily, but it’s not the end of days. With time, you can come back from this stronger than ever and then I imagine you having one hell of a story to tell. Are you currently employed? Full time?
  4. @martins name thank you my friend 🙏🏼
  5. @XYZ This is good advice. I've probably been too complacent for too long in this area of my life. I think it's finally time for me to get a little uncomfortable with where I'm at currently and start pushing for more.
  6. Major Changes and Finding Happiness
  7. This book is a great starter for getting acquainted with the many facets of self-helpery with a spiritual aura. I'd like to stress that this is more of a beginners guide through self-help (it is a #1 New York Times bestseller, after all), so if you've been doing self-help for a few years like I have, these concepts probably won't be anything new to you. Nevertheless, it was a great refresher and I was able to learn about manifesting money, which is a topic I normally ignore (she has another book about money which I will probably read). This would be a great gift book for someone who is a newbie to self-help that you think would benefit from the topics listed below. It's an easy, entertaining read. Some of the topics: Forgiveness Faith in a Higher Source Meditation for beginners The stories we tell about ourselves/the ego, which she calls "the big snooze" Giving and Recieving Gratitude Fear Projection Money Surrender Here are some quotes I highlighted "Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past" "If you're serious about changing your life, you'll find a way, not an excuse" "The more you have, the more you have to share" (in regards to finance)
  8. @Manjushri I'm not sure exactly what wage slavery means. I know Leo has an episode about it though, so I'll give it a watch.
  9. @aurum This is a great insight! I feel like I should get clearer on my intention to make more money now and start looking up about how much I'll need in order to get the things that I desire, that way I have some sort of goal instead of just thinking "I want more money". I notice the more clear I am about my vision, the more likely it is to happen. I'll look this up now, thank you
  10. Hey everyone, I feel as though my relationship with money isn't that bad, but it could be better. I drive an old car and live in a rather small apartment with a roommate, but for whatever reason it doesn't upset me in the least. I pride myself in not being envious of others who have wealth, even though I don't have much myself. Currently, I feel I can afford most of the things I want and so I really don't spend much time thinking about money. I guess you could say I live a comfortable life, by my terms. However, I was just reading a chapter in a book about manifesting money and realized I probably have some limiting beliefs about making money, considering I don't make a whole lot. I guess my question is how do you balance being happy with what you have and wanting more money-wise? I realize now that there are a lot of potentially great things I could do if I had an abundance of money, such as helping my parents with their retirement and being able to pay for my very own house. Is there anyone on the forum who makes good money/has a good relationship with it who could provide some advice? Tips to overcoming limited beliefs around money? Any books about making money that you highly recommend? Thank you!
  11. Action "There's nothing as unstoppable as a freight train full of fuck-yeah" — Jen Sincero Here we go, about to plan some shit and hope I can stick with it. 1. Health Start using my diet tracking app again By January 2nd Start exercising using PIIT By January 2nd Choose 3 days per week (probably saturday, monday, tuesday) Enroll in Zumba with my roommate Starting December 9th Every Sunday Slowly taper down nicotine Cut back on smoking for next 2 weeks Go to smoke shop and buy vape juice with less nicotine 2. Improve AfterEffects skills Enroll in School of Motion By December 11th Enroll at Community College By December 11th 3. Get back into setting goals and making action plans Sit down every week and make to-do lists/add to existing ones Starting now 4. Spend time reflecting/contemplating each week I plan to do this either before or after I do my goals/to-do's each week Here's the plan: Pick cards from my Universe Has Your Back deck Contemplate the past, present, and future Light my favorite candle Either free-write in this online journal or my notebook (I'd prefer to stay away from the computer but sometimes typing out my thoughts is just easier) Starting tomorrow 5. Keep my room clean Pick up a few things around my room each day Put my laundry on hangers in my closet Starting tomorrow
  12. Start with Why “Sow a thought and you reap an action; sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson I think the why is just as important to think about as the how when we make goals. I don't want to strive after something for weak reasons that won't stick when the going gets rough. So today I am contemplating why my top goals are important to me. My action plan is going to come soon after. 1. Health Why this goal? Health is going to be very important as a approach 30. Around that age I suspect my health habits to solidify and I want to start implementing in small steps now because it's going to become a bigger deal the older I get. This is something I've put off for a long time, I've been using my normal BMI and lack of symptoms as an excuse not to change anything health-wise. I did start working out every single day and carefully watching what I ate back in October, but the changes didn't stick after I went on a week-long vacation and I saw my habits crash and burn. I want to quit smoking and vaping for obvious reasons, like cancer and wrinkles and having a voice that sounds like a dying goat. An added bonus is I just feel so much better and more energetic when I'm working out and eating right. 2. Improve AfterEffects skills Why this goal? I want to have a solid foundation in AfterEffects because I have a strong feeling that I won't be able to make it as easily in the future as a graphic designer without this knowledge. So I suppose this is partly driven by fear, but not completely. I have a fantasy where I'm working as an animator/director at Disney/Pixar or Cartoon Network. In order to get my foot in the door at these companies, I think learning motion graphics and animation in AfterEffects is a good place to start. I got a substantial raise and a job offer this year based on my new ability to create video ads, and want to secure my future at my current company because I have a feeling that I will be there for at least another year. I like to make videos more than I like to create static designs as I'm currently finding out. Maybe one day that will change again but I'm going to ride this wave and see where it takes me. 3. Get back into setting goals and making action plans Why this goal? I really just gotta get more organized. Since I've been out of the hospital, I've just been taking the days as they come, not even thinking about life more than a week in advance. This actually works fine for me, but I feel like I want to get as much juice out of life as I can, and I think the way to do that is to start getting clearer about where I want to go and how I want to get there. I'm not looking at my goals as if they all need to be done. I'm not even looking at them with a sense of urgency, really. My goals are just like putting icing on the cake that is my life right now. I just want be more strategic about the way I'm spending my time this year in hopes that I can become an even better version of myself. 4. Spend time reflecting/contemplating each week Why this goal? This is something that just feels good. I feel just by writing this, in a way I am reflecting and contemplating right now. I can put aside the theory and the learning for awhile and just focus on myself, relax, and think about whatever arises. There are so many distractions that we use to run away from our thoughts. I'd just like to sit with them for awhile each week (preferably away from technology) and work through things on my own. 5. Keep my room clean Why this goal? I've just been letting my room get messy lately and I don't like it. It makes me feel frazzled. I feel like if my room is cleaner, it will reflect in cleaning up other areas of my life. I can organize things and get myself together easier. I like the idea of coming home after a long day of work and seeing a room that doesn't need to be completely cleaned. I have a particularly habit of throwing my laundry on the floor that I need to get out of.
  13. Balance - 2019 "When you want something, all of the universe conspires in helping you achieve it" ― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist I've been trying to put some time into quiet contemplation and reflection for the past few days. It's been one hell of a ride this year. I've been needing to take the time to think about where I've been, what I've learned, and where I plan on going next. What better time than the new year to contemplate these things? I decided that I wanted to come up with a theme this year, I guess you could say that my theme for the past 2 years was finding happiness. Now that I finally feel more at peace with the Universe, I want my focus to shift to stability/balance, which is something I definitely need more of in my life. Balance Themes Theory and action Working and relaxation Dreaming and planning Saving and spending (Budgeting) Being healthy and treating myself 2019 Goals (*Top Five) Health* Diet Exercise regularly Quit smoking and vaping Strive to do my absolute best at work Create a demo reel for animation Improve AfterEffects skills* Set up my classes for the next year and finish school Make a new friend Nurture existing friendships Travel to a new place Make more time for writing Write my story, continue outlining and developing characters/plot Spend more time drawing Continue to save money and control spending Get back into setting goals and making action plans* Spend time reflecting/contemplating each week* Spend time reading (away from the computer) each week Put time into visualization for my future goals Define my life purpose in clearer terms Keep my room clean*
  14. It sounds like you have a built up resentment toward women and you're worried that your emotions toward women will get you punished. You also sound like you have a deep-rooted insecurity that you are inferior to women and it makes you feel aggressive toward them. Simply by writing all of this, it seems like you really want to mend your emotional relationship with women to the point where you feel like you can love them. I wouldn't say this necessarily means you are gay, but perhaps it causes a lot of confusion. It looks like you are onto something here. Everything we see in others that triggers us can be a facet of ourselves that we don't want to face. Here are a list of questions I put together for examining my shadow. I would suggest journaling these out to get the best results. Pick a situation or person, past or present, that you have felt strong negative emotions towards, then answer the questions below: What judgments arise when you think of this situation/person? How do you judge yourself based on the feelings this situation/person brings up? How have these types of judgments affected your life in other areas? How can you learn to accept or let go of these judgments? I feel like @Emerald might be able to help more with this question.
  15. Practice, practice, practice! Reread all of your notes, then stand there in your bedroom or wherever and talk for 10 minutes (while you are recording yourself) and see if you can remember all of your points. I had a lot of trouble in my speech class because I wasn't good at bullshitting my way through the speeches. The only thing that helped me was to record myself practicing a bunch of times and writing out exactly what I wanted to say.