Azote

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  1. Fuck proactivity I'm a reactive person, and you know what? I'm okay with that. I'm here to evolve by skilfully reacting to my environment. To absorb the stimuli and then morph them into whatever the inspiration tells me to. So, I'm done feeling guilty for not being active, entertaining or enthusiastic enough. If someone has a problem with my style, they can go proactively fuck themselves :3
  2. Damn, those songs are beautiful. I mean. Woah.
  3. Suffering != Growing up Have I mentioned it already?
  4. Try member search
  5. Sounds like this is just the type of girls you would be attracted to at current stage of development
  6. @jjer94 2. Thanks, it was worth it, I guess 4. Well, if it really is prozac, then it's one sneaky bastard. Anyway, now I gotta take charge of my fat butt 6. Yeah, it feels like catching up with simple human activities after 20 years of being an alien theorizing... plant?.. Lol
  7. Updates, updates I think I should document some news and recent shifts in my mindset, for the glory of pseudo science. Cult or not, deathproof dynamics checklist is a cool tool. Really helps if you are an overthinking fucker like me. I'm a fucking bachelor of applied mathematics and physics now, Jesus Christ. Now that my concerns about homework are gone, my weakspots start to be seen practically, not just as low SAAFE scores. Particularly appearance. Like, it suddenly hit me that my value (as assessed by clients and employers) very much depends on it. I never put much effort into it, because it was about looking fuckable, and why would I need that? Oh but suddenly it as about looking reliable and respectable, and here I am, borrowing mascara and decent shoes for a job interview, lol. I even started mini-research on how to look decent and distinctly adult female, but without sex appeal. I became really really fat, + 22 lbs, and there are 3 possible reasons. Either it is a year without PE classes, or a year without learning advanced maths, or a year on prozac. Oh yeah, life purpose. I guess the best definition for my recently acquired path would be "data artist". Guys, look for your LP, knowing is relieving. I also tried socialising, and you know what? Friends are fucking important and good for ya.
  8. To become the world's dopest data-driven visual communicator
  9. Man, I can feel it right now
  10. Metaphysically I dunno, but 'something wicked this way comes'.
  11. Things kinda started to move
  12. Okay, I don't knowhow to do shit. That's confusing. God I need a mentor Just, get this lazy ass up and find them.
  13. Just wanted to share Finally, I had to merge the "science" and "art" folders on my hard drive into one "life purpose" folder.
  14. Update Yo, folks. Guess who's still alive and on their way to get shit handled Although my health marathon doesn't go as expected, I kinda proceed organically with my development. Made some progress in both life purpose, relationships, mindsets and body domains.
  15. @thesmileyone This particular test is kinda lame tho. The best easy introduction to SD imo is given in "spiral dynamics integral" book. Or Leo's first video on the subject: