I think I should document some news and recent shifts in my mindset, for the glory of pseudo science.
Cult or not, deathproof dynamics checklist is a cool tool. Really helps if you are an overthinking fucker like me.
I'm a fucking bachelor of applied mathematics and physics now, Jesus Christ.
Now that my concerns about homework are gone, my weakspots start to be seen practically, not just as low SAAFE scores. Particularly appearance. Like, it suddenly hit me that my value (as assessed by clients and employers) very much depends on it. I never put much effort into it, because it was about looking fuckable, and why would I need that? Oh but suddenly it as about looking reliable and respectable, and here I am, borrowing mascara and decent shoes for a job interview, lol. I even started mini-research on how to look decent and distinctly adult female, but without sex appeal.
I became really really fat, + 22 lbs, and there are 3 possible reasons. Either it is a year without PE classes, or a year without learning advanced maths, or a year on prozac.
Oh yeah, life purpose. I guess the best definition for my recently acquired path would be "data artist". Guys, look for your LP, knowing is relieving.
I also tried socialising, and you know what? Friends are fucking important and good for ya.