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  1. Maybe or maybe not? Vendors post lab reports but how can you really know for sure? What's your reason for taking kratom anyways? Take it from someone who took it daily for two years, just go ahead and stop before it's to difficult. It will turn around and bite you eventually, slippery slope that you don't want to go down. I sell cars so I was taking it for work, but I started experiencing negative side effects into the second year and had to stop taking it.
  2. Just give yourself time, what your feeling right now will pass. The mind likes to set expectations on how the awakening journey should go, and really you just don’t know. I see a lot of monkey mind in this post, maybe it’s time to slow down a little? Put down the the psychedelics for a moment and take it easy for a bit.
  3. I've never had any problems coming down from mushrooms. The only thing with LSD is that it just lasts a long time, your over it and ready to go to bed but can't because you're still to stimulated. I could take two grams of mushrooms at 4pm and be in bed by 2-3am, not with LSD though.
  4. @Vadiminator I would try reaching out to a Psychic in your local area. Read their Yelp, google reviews, etc, it needs to be someone good. Someone who you can feel comfortable with and discuss what your going through. I formed a good connection with one in my area, she helped me get through some dark times, and I still go see her a couple times a year. Worth a shot, don’t lose faith.
  5. Oh absolutely, especially if a mind is already ripe and ready to be cracked open.
  6. Sounds like you had some sort of glimpse. This is how it is, it can come and go so quick, then your mind will be like wait... what was that? The mind wants to "understand", I think Leo had a blog post about that. I would just let that play out and don't become to attached with trying to understand what happened.
  7. I would guess no one could know as long as the body is alive and breathing, because when the body dies then it can’t come back and explain what happens. I think its different from a near death experience because you get to come back. People report having a out of body experience or some mystical experience, or even just some void but who really knows when the body is gone for good. If I had to take a guess, once the body dies your experience dissolves back into awareness as a completely blank state and depending on any spiritual work done during the lifetime, maybe awareness can stay aware of itself as the whole or become lost in a dream again.
  8. For me not much has changed, other than I have a better understanding of what reality is. Life just carries on, it doesn’t care whether you’re god realized or not. All it took was one mushroom trip and the realization has stuck with me since, and you also realize there is no beginning or end. What did I do first as god? Well I was always god, I was just aware of it. I got up the next morning and just went to work like an average human being.
  9. I feel you on this, for me this comes and goes. No your're not bullshitting yourself, just enjoy it when it happens. So next time this happens just be mindful of the ego mind, you might feel this way because it's unfamiliar and the mind might perceive it as threatening.
  10. You reach a point where you really don’t care anymore. Let the mind throw it’s tantrum then go back to work... lol.
  11. I’m at a point where I’m seeing how challenging this can really be. My ego mind is really starting to hate this work in the last year or so. I’ve had some pretty severe ego backlashes after awakenings. I have a pretty big drive for truth so I just keep going though, sometimes fast or sometimes slow.
  12. I took a LSD trip right before all the panic buying and shutdowns here in the United States. I was feeling a "everything is going to be ok" vibe and that this is temporary and will pass just like anything else, we will get through this. Its the beginning of the end for the old world. I agree with with @Nemo28 , a new world is being birthed, the old one has to die first though. There's a bigger picture going on here.
  13. @Erixoon50 That would be more wise in my opinion. Also make sure your well rested before you start the trip.
  14. Once you're in the trip you won't want any confrontation with your parents at all, it could very easily derail you into panic. You also might get tired of being confined to your room during the trip, also your going to be up all night too. Two grams is a good starting dose but given your circumstances, I would suggest to start even lower, just to see how you react.