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  1. What could be a good answer to say? I know she’s trying to get validation from me.
  2. @impulse9 Which type of meditation?
  3. I need a spiritual therapist that knows about chakras. I have extreme OCD that I’m always going to hurt myself, specifically my chakras and testicles. Does anyone know any online spiritual therapists or psychiatrists that can help me?
  4. @Tim R Thank god, my OCD was getting the best of me. Should I take it easy and rest my head today anyway, or not worry about it?
  5. I was slightly focusing on my third eye for a few seconds and my brother came up to me and yelled in my ear messing around. I don’t feel hurt but I’m worrying a lot. Did I do any damage to it?
  6. My sacral chakra was active, twitching and beating. While this happened I started walking and felt a pull - like a muscle - now have a weird feeling in that area. It feels better now but now it got me thinking, is it possible to pull/strain your chakras like pulling a muscle? Is it all just metaphysical?
  7. @Leo Gura Okay.... now say I wasn’t tripping. How did you put those knots, butterflies, and intense sensations in your body at ease? Trust yourself and increase self belief? In your videos you’ve changed. There’s more of a comfort in yourself, more trust. You stand you’re ground and you can be totally serious about something. It doesn’t look like your suffering from energy overload. You’re more comfortable in your own skin. You aren’t worried about who says what and a nasty comment doesn’t shake you to your core. Do you get butterflies in your stomach? How did you do it? What experience did you have that made you more authentic?
  8. I’m going to be tripping on LSD soon, what’s the best experience to get past and learn from these problems I have? I want an experience where I regain the trust in myself and feel comfortable in my own skin. Here are some of the problems I face every day: I got surgery on my testicles 2 years ago. I’m healed, but ever since then I have a obsessive compulsion over everything I do physically. I feel like I can’t do normal things when I can, and am overly careful every moment where my balls are. If there’s a slightest pain I freak out and have to sit down, afraid I’ll ruin the ability to have kids. I’m very obsessed over everything about my balls. I feel like I always have to be careful and play it safe. It’s affecting my life I feel anxious 24/7. My solar plexus is overactive. I can’t relax. My energy is always overactive and feel like I want to just jump out of my skin I don’t trust/believe in myself When I feel intense emotions I feel my bottom chakras shaking. I resist it’s so intense. I’m an empath When I put my hand over my bottom chakras, they are overactive. They beat like a heart 24/7. Even while typing this I replay how my last relationship ended over and over and can’t help but to think what I could’ve done to prevent what happened (happened 2 years ago) Every time I post on social media I feel overly anxious, I feel like I’m exposed to the world and feel uncomfortable being seen (lack of trusting myself) Basically I obsessively worry about everything, my balls, any pain I have ( I ask is this going to last forever?? ) I replay the past every day. I lack trust in myself, I have no self belief. Ever since the balls thing happen I always worry about every little injury I have. Is this going to last forever?? I am very anxiously attached in relationships, worrying about EVERYTHING Fear of people getting angry at me Feel like I’m always being judged Always ANXIOUS, never at ease I really just need a flush and emotional body cleanse Major father wounds Here are some more keywords of what I am experiencing: That ANXIOUS feeling: Knots and butterflies in stomach all the time Excessively anxiously attached to outcomes Lack of trusting myself Lack of self belief Lack of self worth Lack of surrender Lack of forgiveness Replaying what went wrong in a past relationship Overthinking Unhealed inner child OCD Germaphobia Worrying: WORRY WORRY about everything Lack of Self Love People Pleasing Anxiously Attached Replaying the past Having Guilt, Fear, Regret, Anxiety Major Father Wound/Abandonment/Fear of rejection I’m more feminine than masculine Feels like I have PTSD everyday Root/Sacral/Solar OVERACTIVE Fear of change Lack of relaxation What enlightenment experience is best for me to trip with? What’s the way to conquer this? You know that feeling. Emotional freedom and the feeling like a weights been lifted. I need a hardcore experience that will change my life with these problems I mentioned above. I just need to be at ease
  9. I went in my front lawn barefoot and stood up straight in the grass. I visualized roots going from my feet into the earth. I was deeply connected to the ground breathing and visualizing energy going from the earth into my root chakra. While this was happening it got intense and I felt pins and needles through my legs and testicles. While I had this feeling my dad came outside, startling me, causing me to step foward one step. This really hurt as I felt my body being ripped from the ground. The pins and needles in my testicles hurt a lot too. I felt normal the next day but did I do any damage? Should I take it easy the next few days?
  10. I was listening to this Last night I was 30 minutes into this meditation and my mom came in my room and interrupted me trying to turn on the heater. I tilted my head up slightly and tensed up. I said I don’t want any heat right now, please leave me alone. While I was speaking I felt a part of my head strain itself. I drew a circle exactly which part of the head below. I know this meditation has intense sounds in it, so maybe something got triggered. I was slightly dehydrated, and I also tensed up so that played a part too. The part of my head with the circle feels very tender, but mostly surface level. It’s like having a headache, I feel some pressure. I woke up this morning feeling slightly better, it’s not as intense but it’s still there. What can I do to heal this strain? What happened to my head?
  11. My ex and I have been separated for a year. We’ve been in no contact. It’s a twin flame relationship. I’m a codependent with an anxious attachment style and they are a covert narcissist with an anxious avoidant style. We’ve been obsessing over each other to this day, looking at each other’s instagram profile. I’m able to use insights and see how often she looks at my profile and it’s everyday. She also try’s to call and text me with fake accounts. On valentines day she posted a picture on her story with her new supply she recently started talking to, and made it all official. When we hung out she took pictures of us but didn’t post it like she did here. We had a deeper relationship and talked for months but she had no problem posting with this new person. That hurt. He had her arms around her and she posted it for everyone to see, drawing a heart on the photo. She knows I’m able to see these photos. She wouldn’t do it with me for some reason. We’ve talked for 4 months over texts social media and FaceTime but only hung out once. I’m shaking and cannot relax. This is the lowest I’ve felt. I’m shaking specifically between my root and sacral chakra. It’s a uncontrollable feeling and it’s consistent. I’m struggling to eat, I am feeling very triggered over this. I can’t sleep. I have feelings like I missed out, I never got to really be physical with her. She always acts happy on social media. I never thought this would happen since she’s pretty shy. I kept telling myself I can’t believe she did something like this. She knows that I also look at her social media too. Also this whole time we’ve not talked she posts way more selfies than she did before and has followed over 1000 other people from other schools she doesn’t even know. All these people can then have access to her pictures and hit her up. I feel jealous, betrayed, shocked, anxious jealous, sad and angry. This whole time I thought we were nearing to be back together in union again since we miss each other. Suddenly she’s putting out these pictures with the karmic partner. I don’t know what to do. I kind of feel like this was to make me feel jealous but I know there are other reasons too. What healing technique should I do? I am consistently shaking and it won’t stop. Is there a recommended solfeggio frequency you have? I am very jealous over this whole situation and I feel like like she values them more than me even though we had that soul connection. What wound am I triggering from childhood that’s causing this shaking? Did I reopen something? I feel obsessively attached. I also feel too tightly in control. I want to do a meditation for this, something to put me at ease. I’m shaking as I’m typing as this has really triggered me
  12. What is the best way to heal attachment from previous relationships? I’m shaking and can’t control myself.