Optimized Life

Be the light u wish to see Be the beacon u wish to be Negative energy no, negative energy csn touch meee Only see beauty Beauty is all i see Yo sex eeee Sexy ladeee

Update : I am struggling with 2 things Focus, staying on task and work blocks until full completion Emotional self regulation & stability - I feel into my body the desire for validation, loss of validation oh no, checking for validation, all these useless dynamics that distract me from just focusing on my work and becoming succesful Yes im ambitious and creative and that will serve me down the line, But right now reality demands consistency, structure, focus, locking in, no social media (unless business related), no content nothing It sounds basic, but i aint some wealthy rapper who can just dance and smoke weed and slap asses on video for 10 million dollars month right now So this is it, military style discipline mode I can have my weed and dancing moments on friday night or sunday night or something, but its time to lock in for 90 hours every fucking week. Fuck all the distraction, fuck social media, and fuck all the losers on this dam place, fuck the main forum never again. Success, 90 hour work weeks.

EVERY DAY I do my affirmations, every day, every single day Visualization, manifestation, every fucking day wont fail no fucking way, no way 17 hour grind every day, every fucking day, next 90 days Wont fail no no no way This grind is here and im stressed and im down and im struggling price of greatness, I will pay I will pay, I will pay, the price of greatness, I will pay, ay eh eh eh Talk is cheap Talk is cheap. I know i know i know but I just cant sleep, at least im dreaming and scheming and at least im not acting so sad and weak Pay the price of greatness or my future is very bleak Bleak bleak bleeee Dance in the palm trees and with the beees, bad bitch on her kneeees On her kneeees On her kneeee eeeee

Make money yeah make money but fuck all these soulless mf no please, oh please you guys are disease

Turn water to wine no turn pain into peace Endless work I got, endless work ahead of me Pressure make diamonds but stress make disease Dripped in white all clean no grease God give me greatness god give me peace.

Pain stress pressure regret guilt suffering fucked up sleep chaos harshness Only ever grew up around misery gloom, doom and darkness I'm not the most secure reliable or composed, I got 99 problems but aint one a hoe I got pressure i got stress I know, I know, I know Smoking again because im up at weird hours in the dark but im all dripped in white because i just wanna glow, glow glow glow Glow glow glow Glow glow glow, glow glow glow Shine bright, ice white, every day a dam good night I love bitches yeah Im a womaniser I know Odd thing im here why am I here but main forum I leave because I only feel negatvitee, eeeeee negativat teeeeeee God give me grace when I dance on the yacht in france with my 19yo wifey no conflict treat her nicely, only beauty love and peace, fuck all these misery in the world and in the streets, only riches and peace, love beauty and palm trees. God forgive my failures and my negativity God got more opportunity, but take every chance I got no entitlment i'm aware of the cost, cost of greatness, definitely my purpose, greatness the end itsefl no means, dripped in white, whip shine in beams God give me greatness, mastery life riches and acres.

Yeah i work every day every fucking day work like hell its all work even cold approach yeah work smart then hard hard hard but smart first no point driving so fast on the wrong dam train track. These actualized.bitches aint got the work ethic, they aitn got the driveee mf fucking keep flipping burgers bitch ahahahahahah

Success Success yeah im insane have to be insane yeah you dont want it you dont want it enough you aint got enough chip chip chip chip chip on your shoulder shoulder shoulder chip chip chipc yeah yeahyeha yehyehea Lets get rich fuck

Beast mode got aborted due to severe allergy reaction I wanted to work but i got all swollen Then the frustration built up and i smoked cigarettes Then that made it even worse, like i reacted with hyper-sensitivity Felt defeated couple hours just stuck, sneezing and swolen eyes and all this bs Trying to find health but im angry and i wanna smoke a fucking ciagerette even though it;ll make me fucking worse af bitch. Have to grind have to grind Have to make it have to make it cant stop cant stop Not until the top.

17-18 hour work days BEAST mode 17-18 hour warrior mode I need more freedom and power and im taking it, extreme freedom and power

Every man wanna be attractive and they wanna be confident and high value, But are you ready for the looks and ready for the envy, are you ready for their energy, Used to think people wanted to be friends until I realized they just wanna test me Used to think being nice was the key i realized its limits and how many people will abuse it, make u their little dog but they'll be the ones biting Hell, fuck that bs had to get hard, but I don't wanna fight no one, its just deterrence, dont test my patience Same time I still got patience, dont throw no hands and i dont really fight no one dont wanna be a patient, but its all about mentals Yeah mentals but its all about frame, i used to be too tame How they going hit you with an iron frame? Truth hurts you thought you had an iron frame but you had a glass jar and they shattered it with shame.

Have to learn to forgive myself yeah have to find peace For so long i was lost hustling in the dark, no one understood my choices, only judgment and ignorance, alone and ambitious but I was incompetent, so I couldn't back up my promises and i wont deny, many times the pressure and the stress tore me apart, my own friends abused my state of mind,, but from the pain I did grow and, and I learnt, and i became someone inside, Became someone inside, so its only time the world reflects it and I will ascend and I will shine, i'm already half way their already had some moments but i continued to lose myself and it kept dragging me down, I built some castles but i guess they were made of sand, but im ready now im really ready for the crown.

I dont wanna hear your anxiety yeah give it a rest I dont wanna another youtuber or influencer tell me how to life my life or tell me whats best I dont care about your judgement liberated from the judgments of others yeah god finally gave me strength Strength comes from within but you have to dig deep and find it, pain insight it cant be explained, have to find it within it will come just believe I dont wanna watch another youtube video about society politics no more i really dont care, fuck your opinion you circle jerking nerds No I dont wanna hear about violence or crime stats or pickpockets or police, I dont wanna watch another viral ragebait video that brings me out of my peace.

Most people live in hate but it just tears them apart, no self awareness just resentful and emotionally scarred, 40 years of cementing now their bitterness is a work of art. Introspection is hard but admitting it is a start, life an iterative process, you cant rush reality but but today you can find that inner spark, find the light and the beauty and it will find you back, cant be expecting beautiful women if you focus on the ugly, law of attraction aint no joke but you have to actually live it and manifest it everyday like another book is just cope, have to visualize and self talk and see what you want, and take action every day, common sense i know but these reminders are here to stay, because humans are wired to destroy themselves i know its sad but its the default way. Sometimes my writing flows but often It don't, best believe i write off the cuff so not all of it lands and some of it feels forced fake or irrelevant, cant always make it rhyme or hit rhythms on time, sometimes its just waffle and sometimes just off beat, sometimes Im just forcing shit because im chasing some peak

Success, but no stress Yeah I want success but i don't want more stress Give me some millions, but keep the rest. Give me challenge art expression, let me grow and explore, but leave out the media scrutiny drama the conflict and the debates, leave the frowning and the cigarettes and caffeine man this shit juss just ages my face. Yeah caffiene, yeah leave out the caffiene i'ved had enough, gets exhausting man these days i just wanna smoke some weed and make love to women I see, take a walk with some palm trees. Yeah leave the social media comments and the forums and the opinions yeah give it a rest, put it aside yeah not for me just leave it for the rest No more caffiene man im done its too much let me sleep god just let me rest Work hard yeah but i believe stress is just working hard on things that dont work, like smart work comes first orient myself then i can grind, but grind with fluidity flowing through life, dancing in the process and swimming in success, no frowning or resistance yeah that shit dont even work, be like bad bunny make that shit dwerk.