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I got 7+ hours for 2 days and its back again I am stuck awake until 4-4.30AM again and i am sleeping 4-6 hours again I am very concerned this is never going to end U can cheat diet, u can smoke, drink abit ect.. consequences are marginal or gradual U cannot cheat sleep over the long term, and the damage shows up fast too I am losing my looks, my skin, my vitality, the glow in my eyes, i will lose my hair, i am losing ahtletic function, i will have mood disorders and anger problems if this continues long enough, i will not be able to compete in business against people who are in good health, i may barely even be able to pay my bills Gym recovery is far slower, i will lose muscle, and who knows if i'll even be able to exercise anymore as this will become my last depserate priority I will lose everything if i dont solve this And given what my baseline is, and given i am pretty young still (not 60) This is hard to tolerate I will lose my productivity I dont even get to be awake during the day .. Trust me i have tried everything for months If this doesnt get solved i am going to kill myself I cannot be anyone im not I cannot be tired, i cannot live with it, i cannot be unproductive, i cannot just lose my looks like this This is tragic, like i said the only one thing u must never lose in life is sleep, continous sleep is the number one lever that decays your entire body I have a couple months to find a solution or im going to kill myself. I will not quit yet but after a certain point when ive tried everything what am i supposed to do? ... just suffer and accept it like some bitch? No i have a standard that i have for myself across everything based on the strong genetics i was given and i am not dropping below that standard, i cannot live with it, i was blessed with so much talent in virtually everywhere area imaginable, intellectual, athletic, physical appearance, personality, charisma, energy, and now its just being taken away from me like this? u expect me to just live with that fuck you Maybe i need much stronger but also higher quality weed, i dunno i cant resort to addictive and toxic benzodiazpine or sleeping pills, maybe the last resort for me is ultra sedating, high quality, high potency indica weed and maybe a lot of CBD added in, if i can even find it, if only i lived in California then i could just source that inmediately, it is also expensive but nothing is more expensive than health decay I have to use Te i guess, i have to consider every variable I currently drink tea and these teabags contain microplastics - for example that is one variable But my caffiene consumption is low, intentionally low and it doesnt help, i used to abuse caffiene and still sleep enough, now i have 1-2 teas max by about 12pm, it is very unlikely this is causing it, im even extra tired because there is still residue caffiene withdrawal I just have to use a sheet tracker simple and track the variables, every day, exhausting and sloppy to do it in my head Maybe i should buy an aura ring, but again so expensive, but again maybe just goodbye to all my capital again, maybe i have to sell everythign and throw everything at this before i kill myself There are so many variables, this is not simple I can only use Te and iteration There has to be Te and tracking and iteration, or i will feel like a victim and not know whats going on Maybe i have to quit finasteride maybe i am in the 5% of people who experience side effects, although DHT sepression it wouldnt be expected to influence sleep as it isnt related to the same system imo, but again, "What do i really know about anything" If i come out of this healthy and recovered though i will count it a blessing, but only if i solve it Either i die or i come out of this a lot more grateful for my body and my life Probably i will never have any fear or anxiety about anything trivial again, i will never be desperate for money or pussy again, i will just be eternally grateful for being alive and healthy, i will probably be a much stronger person, i will probably be impossible to manipulate, i will probably have a profound work ethic, energy and motivation, if i can just solve this, i will never take anything for granted again, its like going to jail and being released and seeing your freedom like air, but the health version of this. I am a strange person and most people would not benefit from this, most people just want to work a lame job and watch TV and reproduce with any random woman fit in and avoid all their fears and be safe lol, but i am not wired like most people

Success, but no stress Yeah I want success but i don't want more stress Give me some millions, but keep the rest. Give me challenge art expression, let me grow and explore, but leave out the media scrutiny drama the conflict and the debates, leave the frowning and the cigarettes and caffeine man this shit juss just ages my face. Yeah caffiene, yeah leave out the caffiene i'ved had enough, gets exhausting man these days i just wanna smoke some weed and make love to women I see, take a walk with some palm trees. Yeah leave the social media comments and the forums and the opinions yeah give it a rest, put it aside yeah not for me just leave it for the rest No more caffiene man im done its too much let me sleep god just let me rest Work hard yeah but i believe stress is just working hard on things that dont work, like smart work comes first orient myself then i can grind, but grind with fluidity flowing through life, dancing in the process and swimming in success, no frowning or resistance yeah that shit dont even work, be like bad bunny make that shit dwerk.

Landscaping, Plants, Gardening & decorative art This will be new passion hobbie of mine Requires money, space, land, time and energy once i can buy a spacious house and garden i will start doing this I will learn a lot about nature, natural science, chemistry, technology, art ect.. Not merely gardening, but all forms of design and decoration, lighting, painting ect.. This will be cool af I also like the ocean and want to own jet ski or motor boat

My tolerance to THC has become so high its now a futile compulsive activity No pleasure, not even noticeable sedation or relaxation anymore It is just money and energy burning ritual at this point Has just become a meaningless, pleasureless autopilot habit And how boring would it be if i pulled a cool liberal chick or met some new friends who wanted to smoke up, in like some fucking tropical forest and i just didnt feel anything in that moment ... Everything has its time and place, smoking alone constantly is super lame and i knew this but tbh it was just a desperate response to chronic insomnia Still i completely forgot about and underestimated how powerful tolerance is with weed, and tolerance like this makes it extremely expensive because i'd have to reload 3-5x/week and still not get much out of it, then i'd also have to smoke a lot of carinogen just to get a fraction of the effect too so its unhealthy i will leave it for a month so i can enjoy it ritualistically again

Another night, Smoked another blunt to numb the stress and the pain Another night but no more i feel the same Insomnia down but still sleep late Te, structure, goals, waking up early I think insomnia going now i have nothing to blame I think i need Te again Clarity, note book & pen, schedulling on sundays Meaningful big goals but specifics, measured, Deadline Move x y date z in bank Also input based goals/standards, aided by sunday time schedule Output goals for the energy, motivation and dreaming LOA & deadlines, pressure make diamond Input goals for grounding to reality, ensuring consistency, clear cause & effect progression, trackable self honest daily momentum and using the principle of minimum standards (not, "I would like to do x 3 hours per day but, doing x y amount per day is a hygiene standard, with no days off) Time structure that frames every day, organized and mechanistic machine ENTP Ofc daily checklist/review for input goals, especially simple task box icon checklist Lets do this, build leverage i turn the crank Yeah I wanna brake the bank Insomnia going down getting back into professionalism I need a tailored old money suit to wear Introspective me is over for now, I am now mechanistic old money suit wearing money machine psychopath. Marketing sales leverage skills learning communication human psychology charisma energy mood vocal projection professionalism room setup technology superfast wifi capital engineering Transcripts reviews, SRS repetition mastery drills 14H work days SMT goals deadlines visualization mediation Optimizing immersion studying practicing applications networking content personal brand 8-12H sleep recovery, Juicing celery juice quality meat 30K months 8s 9s and 10s focus vibrancy energy success

I want so much money it overflows it frightening Weatherman make it rain but all this capital i make lightning Corporate charm but i know im a warrior im a Viking Core tennet of game is marry the game dont chase the fame, Notice the bad luck and pray but only find yourself to blame, Same time elevate and dont fall to shame, guilt is a cancer that shit only inflame I keep vaping is it heavy metals that going to my brain Can I even feel the stress in my veins? same shit another night i smoked a blunt to heal the pain But im still logical and sain, i should quits the carcinogens and just mediate away

Yeahh, stress from my feet through my head Its medical, not recreational as I lift this blunt on my bed These are the rawest flows dont call me ted, talk no more Only chalk, chalk and flows that I draw I don't promote drugs only greatness, im not a role model but im chosen to be somebody dont mistake this Not just another dude, an ordinary guy with some regular shoes Pleasant and safe, home insurance but no gold in the safe, married a 6 at 30, alimony at 40, Met her through work never learnt to be flirty Never took a risk Always did what his parents think Cosey home and that wine he drinks, with his bored wife who emotionally cheats And denies sex 6 times a week That could never be me That shit make me freeze Only 4 9s, and a dozen palm trees And a 4 by 4 in the cana isles, in fall 30 degrees Only abundance im relentless Even when my family look in my eyes and tell me i cant and i know that they meant it And they know that money I spent it But I know i had to invest it Insomnia life and stress got me restless

Yeah lord im crying for success In public i dont shed a drop But when im alone its starts with a raindrop Always at night Especially after a blunt But in every raindrop is a fire, a fire is lit Yeah a fire is lit noo i wont ever quit Am i waffling or are these bars that I spit I need a dentist i guess i let myself go a bit Yeah a fire is lit noo i wont ever quit Got a family to feed i squeeze the clip (JC) Yeahh a fire is lit have to let go of a bitch Excuse my language but don't misintpret Writing loses its touch when u watter the message, that shit sloppy and wetted Its diluted, feeling polluted I pray for success and i pray for beauty Nonono no more misery One choice no decision tree Find the light no matter how far u have to go, sail the seas if u need because the end result is dope

People who never faced any adversity or something seem to think u can speed run to caring about "consciousness" and spiritual development lol .. You think raw masculinity is a luxury, or even a performance Really its non negotiable We tried being nice, we tried being interesting and open minded and getting into philosophy It doesn't pay the bills It doesn't get pussy And if no one pays the bills and gets good pussy the human race dies off, or only the ugly kids live on

Time to stop talking about women I just have to be professional for a while Build up some true value Time to rest properly and work properly Conservative mind u could call it that Cant full into misery cant fall to copes Depression is slippery its a slope Only work ethic value can carry me its a tote Inputs and delayed gratification yeah i know Have to forgive have to let go Find the gold and the beauty never lose hope Would I feel worse without all these words that I spoke? For the young gold is glitter I suppose Trapped into systemic scams then they lose hope I want a million bands like the pope

Mastery always elevates me a little, Reminds me i dont have to stay little I know im worthy i know got, i know i got immense value dont u belittle Devine source of energy yeah its a skittle

I accidentally quit caffiene and its brutal I had already reduced my intake by 1.5-2X and i still had insomnia (5h) But i just accidentally quit caffiene almost entirely, maybe 0-50mg atm And its accientally brutal I have enough brutality though so its not as noticeable, maybe im just hardened now I feel tension in my knees sort of like an achey, itchy feeling and no im not crying out for sympathy Its not a heroin addiciton lmao But it is dead right unpleasant for a week or maybe more But that im ready for And i've quit the main forum again too There may be some insight but I just know that it will be muddled & mired in shit and weird negativity and bullshit and bias So fuck off all of u Yesterday I slept like 10-12 hours but i have so much debt to reclaim Sleep has become such base maslows need for me rn that id smoke a blunt over any temptation for caffeine even in the day, I need 12 hours a day for 12 days, its debt that god made me pay

This was inauthentic No i will never pretend to be a role model Pretend to be a grounded guy Do i blame my environments for all those times All those times i lost my mind I'm losing my mind A couple bad nights in the wrong places and im losing my mind Barely slept for months im losing my mind No more night game nows not the time Had a good run back then that was then now i need money and peace 30 degrees, flights to Greece Get blow from a 10 i wont need no fake smiles say cheese Private jet, skeet skeet No more fucking mcdonalds only real meat I've been through hell burning 100 degrees No more tragedy no please Success is the only revenge Fuck you im not a role model i wont pretend I'm just the success and ambition guy and im ready to kill, kill hearts with envy, flex them into a frenzy I'm going full savage mode, I'm going war mode Me against the world, on this mission of revenge i wanna find a bitter girl partners in crime, flex on normies with diamonds and trillion $ dimes

This, no one would disagree with But as i was pointing out, leo just saying "stone cold" would confuse a lot of people, especially newbies You can be an adventurous, fun, emotional (in expressiveness) charismatic guy AND be grounded, centered ect.. Im not saying anything new or anything but it is better when these ideas are deconstructed into simple, instantly understood components, rather than using strange terminology from an 80s swarznayger movie

Exactly, its a ridiculous and unheard of way to describe attractive masculinity, no one ever uses this word

You are sometimes bad and imprecise with your ambiguous language and too contradictory. A lot of people will get confused at what you mean and draw the wrong lesson form it. Of people i have seen do well with women, i've rarely ever percieved them as "stone cold", if anything that sounds creepy and unapproachable Being emotionless or "stone cold" doesnt make you mascluine, just boring or creepy. If you already have muscles or height or a masculine face and a deep voice and are confident, it would only hurt your game to try and be "stone cold", it would be much better to add in some softness, approachability, emotion, smile ect.. obviously you still want to be masculine, bold, flirtatious and dominant too ideally , but it a chill, not scary or robotic way, and id argue thats more of a bonus, being approachable and likeable is the first big threshold to cross, i dont think i ever got laid from acting "stone cold" I'm sure you get a lot of things right about attraction in general, but sometimes you really do just suck with your language, it leaves the wrong message. Most truly stone cold men i have noticed are incels or divorced or something, those tough looking central European dudes who live to work and just look scary and tense ..

I flinched yesterday She was like a 10 or something Amazing face, slim frame but everything went to the ass She was beautiful, and she looked at me too I've had insomnia for months and i smoke tree to cope for it But i let it be an excuse When u these kinda issues u need extra strength over normal, overlike obviusly the energy and default blessing of sleeping 8 hours, how i felt 4 months ago, which is now gone, but not approaching her wont help me sleep any more, I was too weak No, i am not yet the man i should be No i am not my greatest self I can only do it with 7s i still need to ascend But god i prey that I sleep for once, and build up my inner game again She made me realize something I only want the most beautiful and feminine women, im not really fulfilled by much else, I cant deny myself anymore Goodbye 6.5s and 7s, i dont want you anymore Hello 9s and 10s, hi, hello! No more writing, action again Action in the pain, action when im tired, never stop. War I was never given the cards of piece but the dealer told me i can flip my 1 to an ace i want a fucking 9 or 10 fuck just looking "for a mate" And fuck flinching thats a FUCKING disgrace. Time to play those hands, hand of god, mara maradona Take action never overthink no dont run away Dont run from yourself u running from urself ngrr I need a doctor i need a doctor i need a 9/10 doctor she a love doctor

I have managed to possibly have 2 nights of 7 hours sleep and this is a good sign, trying to reduce anxiety, overthinking and doomer thoughts and (well more specifically) focus on the inverse the poisitve as u dont remove negative thoughts and inner game by nega negativing, you have to just focus on positive, the best inner game guy on the planet is not whipping himself to be positive, he just is positive, hes literally deluded in the sense that if he approaches 10 girls, and 9 of them go terribly, but 1 of them blows his brains out, he doesnt think "wow you know numbers game" no, no he literally ONLY REMEMBERS the girl who blew his brain out, he has a fish memory for any negative interaction or energy apart from any learning lessons/iterations (whcih is still positively orientated because thats assuming that he can improve and not "ah modern women suck" blackpill nonsense) Compared to the last 1-2 years i have a stronger work ethic, higher risk tolerance, and higher standards for myself and my life in all areas, i'm also more mature and humble - in the sense that i know that failure, autopilot, cowardice, mediocrity, regret and a life of quiet desperation is the default mode for almost every man on the planet, and that you have to be both extremely proactive, decisive, and be this way consistenly, every day in order to get a fighting chance of winning. What has sort of got shaky though is my inner game, i really built up some god level inner game last year and i am coming back to it, coming back to my notes, coming back to and realizing how far i need to push things, how far i need to go, in making money, cold approach, with women, no limits, no moral or personal boundaries, married women arent off limits, nothing is, making millions at a relatively young age is still possible and should be perused, not just 10K a month, even literal fame is still posible for me in the next 2-4 years if i really decide i want to persue it. I dont want "decent inner game", i want god level king inner game, nothing else is satisfying for me, and i am not entitled anymore, im going to keep working my ass off to achieve it, it will not be handed to me automatically, sleeping with 5 or 10, even 20 * 7+ women this year isnt enough, I want to sleep with 100s of 8s 9s and 10s, and date many of them, relatipnships, get retention, married women, all types of women Now i am rediscovering the deep inner game and combining it with the increased maturity, humility, disicpline and work ethic that I have. And in my career i dont just want to "make money", i want to become so good and valuable that i just simply cant be ignored, i want to be better than 99% of people, have better metrics, be a better public speaker, i want to earn and create so much that I just overflow with value, I want to provide so much value and love to the world that it outweighs my narcisissm (which isnt going away nor am i being someone else) by a 100 fold. A lazy narcisist who just talks shit is cringe, someone who actually works their ass off for years and builds everyone up around them is respected, the world and god ultimately cares about impact, contribution value and net value, not petty personality flaws.

I know i sound like a deluded hypocrite but .. it is actually seving me again. I dont smoke in the day and its only a last resort, its because i have chronic insomnia and a huge amount of stress, and about 14 hours of my day are just grinding But i also changed the strain which is much more indica dominant, lower THC (relative to the previous strain, allthough its all pretty high thc honestly) , and smoke a smaller dose so it is calming me down again I dont glorify or promote it but it can help with suffering a lot and that is a legit medical and philosophical stance, but it really aint for everyone And yeah the strain seems to be hugely important from my anecdotal experience, this one doesnt give me any anxiety at all, just calms me down. A good trick if for smoke too much : Buy CBD leaf, then make 90% of your roll CBD and then just sprinkle some weed on it and you still scratch that itch of "smoking it up, i should buy some CBD It's also great if you get stopped by police, then you have an alibi and if you act normal they'll just laugh and nod

It's about proving the blackpill wrong too! People think if you're good looking fighting the blackpill isnt relevant, NO! U dont realize how toxic the blackpill became These energy vultures even pray on the good looking and extroverted these days, years ago it was actually somewhat reasonable, it was about the deformed face guy with severe autism and trying to help him feel understood (still toxic but it was somewhat reasonable and based on truth) Nowadays they talk so much bullshit, they talk about "women (as in ALL women not just 8s 9s and 10s) are "extremely picky now, they need the full package, being good looking isnt enough, women dont need men" (This is just simply. undeniably false, anyone who actually goes outside and has lived a little will realize that yes, women do need and want men, not all of them obviously, some of them are just a lost cause and hate men, just like some men are too, but even then, they're not the majority at all They even say "if u have adhd or dont have the "focus gene" or "motivation gene" then your screwed for life They also talk about IQ, they fuckng hammer on about IQ and all this They talk about fait, location, all this stuff They literally forma grove in their mind of seeing their world, dial it up to 10/10 and apply it to everything Yes, there is a partial truth to the blackpill, being very good looking or some genuis helps and increases what your max ceiling is, yes a guy whos genetically a 4/10 in looks probably cant just bang 100s of 8s 9s and 10s and will have to settle a fair bit unless hes a celebrity, yes most people probably wont just become a billionaire, yes there are some limits for a lot of people yes ect.. but thats it? why take it further? Why think about it? why not just do YOUR BEST, thats what makes people happy, a good looking guy like me feels jsut as much suffering, often even more, because his max cieling is higher, so getting any 5 or 6 automatically from his looks and just half assing life isnt fulfilling So fuck the blackpill, if i had it my way, i'd kill every harcore blackpill influencer in a single day, id get an AK47 and shoot their fucking brains out, and im not even joking, the net positive to society would outweigh that evil 1000 times. I'm at fucking war, im battling insomnia, im battling adhd, im battling poverty, im battling everyone, time to fucking kill (not literally chill out mods im not going to go jail and i'd only kill these vultures (and obviously i wont because im not goin to fucking jail) and i mean it symbollicaly and energetically , we need some fucking warriors in this weak society) I'm battling (a history of...) severe anxiety, im battling heartbreak, im battling panic attacks, im battling insomnia, im battling regret, im battling debt, im battling adhd, im battling negativity, im battling battling negative energy, im battling mediocrity, im battling laziness, im battling battling a history of being used, manipulated and scammed of all my hard earnt money, im battling social media, im battling phone addiction, im battling battling disorganization, im battling indecisiveness, im battling the market, im battling overthinking, im battling self doubt, and i still dont accept that im cursed, i dont think im genetically doomed, i think i will find a way to sleep 7-8 hours and earn hundreds of thousands and millions of dollars, and dates 8s and 9s and 10s, in abundance, i will do everything it takes, i will do 1000* more than everyone on here, than 99% of men, i will pay the fucking price, i will not live a boring, stressful, life, i still think the potential is there, i still think i can go to the highest levels,no, i know that i can and i will, will do it all, and i'll die trying either way.

This is mostly just a reminder to myself. I dont care about people on this forum, nor does any1 give a shit about me, this isnt a serious place But i have to remind myself again, again and again I have stress tolerance problems, i have financial pressure, i have terrible sleep, and im running on adrenaline I dont want any of this and i've tried to solve the sleep, but it hasnt fixed yet So what i dont have right now is health or peace The only thing i can control is mindset And its especially important to brainwash yourself into masisve success and action exactly when you are tired, stressed, and overwhelemed, anyone can do it when life is easy Doesnt take long, could be 10 minutes, 10 minutes of affirmations, of visualization, of regrounding, but those 10 minutes can carry you for days, that push, everyone needs that push ALl i know for sure i want it badly enough, i am egotistical enough, i am abitious enough, i am hardworking enough, i am driven enough, i am inspired enough, i just need that ignition, especially in these circumstance, i need to light that spark, every single day. I need to stay in absolute belief and conviction, absolute decisiveness, absolute certainty, absolute god levels of self confidence, of proactivity, always taking action, always persisting, always bigging myself up to the moon, absolute momentum, nothing else works, nothing else takes man to great heights, the standard must be extreme, no one will hold my hand here, no entitlement, no support, no therapy, no loans, no american credit cards, no money from family, my family dont even understand my choices and think I am being stupid, tell me to go work some stupid job, I am all alone here, this is the true american dream i have to prove right, i have to prove the left wrong, that they are wrong, that it is up to me and not the system, not my education, not my access to X services or X loans or credit or X location, I am either my greatest leader or enemy and god fucking bless the internet for giving me a once in history opportunity to create an awesome life that my ancestors could never dream of, the kind of life they would've killed for, gone to war for, sacrificed themselves for their children to have, I will not fucking fail, i will fucking make this shit happen, i am ascending to god mode.

Many men, even on this forum, STILL DO NOT INTERNALISE THE POWER OF THIER LANGUAGE & MINDSET Leo has, in other words and framing, gone over this with TENS of different videos, i have also discussed it at length But the theoretical part is only 1 half, you then have to EMBODY (work your ass off and apply it) IT FOR YEARS (Assuming u didn't have a rare perfect childhood, with an incredible father figure, environment ect.. and this is all done unconsciously) Positive thinking Visualization Self Talk Affirmations Goal Setting Mindset Beliefs, limiting beliefs, Not needing validation Being Uninhibited - low inhibition men, shameless, unapolagetic Not giving a fuck what people think Saying and doing what you want How u interpret reality Overthinking, OCD, anxiety within your body, lack of presence Authenticity, speaking with your chest, vocal tonality, eye contact All of these things can and should be msatered individually, and worked on for multiple years, EVERY SINGLE DAY BUT There is a core connector that needs to be unraveled That is that, many of these things are just extentions of a few core foundations The core foundation(S), once its truly mastered, everything else becomes a byproduct, or become smuch smoother to emoby and integrate And the core of it is subsconsious reprogarmming, core beliefs about yourself and your value Another foundation is the linguistic programming and brainwashing within your mind, which creates these core beliefs Another foundation is positive thinking - but much more specifically, is your mind, constantly, permanently, instantly, orientated towards solutions, success, the future (or enjoying the present), growth, transformation, dreaming, refining, improving, where you will be, how amazing your life will be ect.. and how deep and subconscious, instant and effortless this mechanism is And again the foundation to achieving this is affrimations, visualizations, self talk, but it sounds way easier than it is, easy in concept, not academic, but who actually drills it in, day and night, for years? who the fuck even does that Then, this becomes so deep and unconcious that when you talk, speak write on a forum, the actual emotionality of your language changes, i still see people on this forum casually mention how they're "absolutely terrifed of ... (insert mundane petty thing that really is just a linguistic reasoning shaped by the deep subconcious anxiety, insecurity, envy. desperation and inner inadequacy within the cells of there body, because they never truly repgrommaed themselves, they never went all the way, they just dabbled in self help as a fad, like everyone else, where is the god level of fearlessness, confidence, masculinity when a guy is fucking terrified of a basic ability of a 130 pound woman (an ability which, he could very simply learn thorugh work and struggle for a few months and benefit from inmediately for the remaining entirety of hisl life)? its pathetic, but if we're all honest, we are all pathetic and mediocre, and this post is how you rise above mediocrity, only when applied, daily, day and night, for years. This is just an honest reminder to myself I got some results but i still mostly dabbled with it all in practice I did not TRULY master it on a deep, subconcious level, to the level that lionel messi rapidly makes decisions, positions his body, knows where the next pass is, already knows the next 3 steps ahead of the defender, to the level of zidannes first touch, effortless, permanently ingrained, unstoppable, never bends or waivers, true mastery.

HELL YEAH BITCH!!! THIS IS BASICALLY WHO I AM AS WELL HE WAS LIKE A CARTOONISH VERSION OF ME FUCK FEELING GUILTY ABOUT NARCISISM I WEAR IT ON MY FUCKING CHEST, IM A FUCKING NARCISIST AND IM PROUD OF IT.

I'm an extrovert and i hate social circle Not because i dont like groups But because regardless of your extroversion level you do not resonate with 95% of people if you are just being yourself Therefore i could REALLY enjoy social circle but i would have to have a large group of multiple, compatiable people, that is extremely difficult to do unless you have the time, logistics and money to hunt for it day and night for years to build it It took me years just to find 1 single friend who is compatible enough for me to want to see often, and even then he is mostly just busy with work, and the pragmatic realities of life, so i still mostly go out alone 99% of the time, not merely by choice, but because this is a niche game, 99% of men dont have the heart to approach in the first place, of the tiny minority that do, 95% of those people arent even compatible wit hyou personality wise, so it makes no fucking sense. So its definitely an option but it requires a huge amount of time, money, perfect logistics, location ect.. which 99% of people dont have Social circle is an upper class game, not an extroverts game I find pushing social circle as unfair on working and middle class people, or people who havent fully made it in business yet, its just not realistic But if i was in leos position then social circle would be a piece of cake