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  1. Its such an excellent idea as i think this is the main part many of us struggle with but i dont feel it should be done in the open space as rather than getting your self into trouble you may soon start seeing your favourite Dea****s getting shut one by one.. I dont think you would get in trouble your self by sharing info as long as you are not caught pushing the "buy now " button. And i also dont think police is that interested in small man ordering anything small for personal use. However, open sharing may cause bigger problems for the vendors as they are the target really.. Also just sharing is never going to be enough as you may have to give a full methodology on how to use dark net, onion, bitcoin etc. Lots of work .. Having said that, perhaps DMing each other a friendly message ? I am in the UK, i am happy to connect with others also in the UK through DM
  2. well according to the last video, he can't know if there is another :-D
  3. you mean downgraded from clear light? :-D
  4. have you seen a urologist? if you feel your problem is more psychological, I wonder if you may consider sex psychotherapy? Also that SSRI may apperantly help .
  5. I actually re-listened to it and these are the conclusions i got to ; Although we are all made out of the same consciousness, we are all sovereign in our own right.. we are all gods playing with our own avatars in this collective dream we created as Godheads and we have a duty to awaken each other to recognise our own sovereignty. When you awaken, the reason why you feel you are one is cos you are awakening to your own sovereignty there is infinity number of gods within infinity but ultimately there is one consciousness so again all doors open back to the same room hence solipsism This in turn implies the other exists in its own sovereignty but you can never fully know even as a godhead whether it is existing independent of you or as a figment of your imagination. I felt there were some discreet messages here where he actually was saying we are indeed sovereign beings who decided to cosplay with an avatar in a collective dream and surrendered our sovereignty in the process. Now it's our duty that those who awaken also need to awaken others. This also seems to have given Leo a new purpose.. what do you guys think?
  6. i am glad that many others feel in similar ways about this latest video.. multiple gods are making solipsism look amazing right about now ! The idea of multiple gods takes away the majestic and grandiose quality of what i feel God should be! However, I am yet to watch the second half of the video though!
  7. yes not extensively but yes.. did some MDMA, mushrooms and had an ayaheusca ceremony back in October.. so i am not a complete newby.. Thank you ThoughtArt, that gives me encouragement :-) This is very helpful VincentS. i used to smoke so i think i know how to properly inhale but toad venom might feel a bit bitter I suppose, so good to bear that in mind.. My facilitator is great and she already told me a little about the preparation process which i assume includes this.. @Leo Gura how lovely to receive a response from you ! I think i am so prepared for the worst, anything else will be a bonus. :-) And i usually see things to the bitter end, quitting i dont do :-) I remember you said to Kurt 10 times should be sufficient for most people to get a basic awakening expereince - so thats the goal.. :-)
  8. yes i had an ayaheusca ceremony in holland by a brilliant organisation called Om-Mij. based in Dotinchem or something, couple of hours outside of Amsterdam. They have retreats in Spain as well .. here the link
  9. All booked and happening ! Ofcourse nervous but equally excited ! Mine will be the actual toad venom as this is what found me! (I didn’t even seek it, it just found me!) . I feel like after 5 years in this journey, following Leo from the beginning of his journey, which also became our journey collectively I suppose, I have a pretty good idea what I m getting my self into .. But just wondering if you guys have any last min tips ?! Anything you wish you knew before you went for it perhaps?
  10. Hmm! Interesting view . I am a psychotherapist working for national health services in the uk so I have a few things to say about this topic I suppose .. it’s true that more than half the people I see at work are people under the age of 28. I often wondered why! Being 40, I am a different generation , i didn’t grow up in the technological era with apps and social media. I actually went out and played voleybal in the park where I would stay all day with my friends, having real interactions .. What I notice more and more is the lack of resilience, lack of basic coping skills .. so it’s interesting to think what the hell has happened that the young people fall apart at the sight of the slightest obstacle .. not always but often! Are we forgetting how to have a bit of a skin and wanting to live a life full of avoidance and delusion ?!
  11. agreed with @Osaid its mostly metaphorical . Although, doesnt seem to prevent the terror from getting through! According to this, I am sooo going to burn in eternal hell :-D But Also maybe whatever you believe becomes your next dream? and perhaps only when you awaken yourself, you recognise yourself as god and then get lost in the eternal bliss and love.. Just a thought.. !
  12. yes , i realize that one has to be quite careful not to think of this from an ego perspective as all characters are equally main characters played by the same actor, however, this obviously gets very complicated from this level of consciousness when you start thinking about others being imaginary.. what is that "other " being compared at ? if you say "the self", we already know there is only one self-expanding large enough to leave no room for "the other". I realise any of us won't quite get this but mind-boggling for sure.
  13. @BipolarGrowth Do you feel the actual physical death would feel that different than ego death? I kinda assumed it would be similar / same more or less..
  14. @RevoCulture @GreenWoods Thank you both for quite helpful answers..
  15. okay so this question will need to bring two concepts together to be answered; solipsism and the purpose of human life. Solipsism: according to solipsism, everything is imaginary including your physical body, so you are imagining other people's consciousness, other people's experiences, happiness, pain, etc, so in that you are the only conscious being that can awaken. Purpose of human life: God ultimately wants you to seek and find him and to awaken yourself because he wants nothing more than smother you in love but can't do so because if he did you'd literally cease to exist in this human body (leo's own words in i think 30 days of outrages experiments in consciousness ) and so I started thinking does everyone with consciousness actually awaken at the end of their dream, through whatever means it may have been before they imagine their death and this is the only moment of death? Did I just put 2 and 2 together come up with a 5.. ? :-D