Nemra

@Leo Gura, it just dawned on me why you say "private hallucination". The sentience of others is a hallucination inside my experience because there cannot be an experience existing independently of my experience and yet intersecting my experience. So, true independent experience would never intersect with mine, making my experience private hallucination and those true independent experiences potential hallucinations. My private hallucination could not have existed if there weren't infinite kinds of potential true independent hallucinations. It's the same with sensory fields. Each of my sensory fields is proof that there are infinite kinds of sensory fields that have the potential to exist, but they are not actual as of yet. Because if there were not infinite kinds of sensory fields to exist, the sensory fields that currently exist would have never existed in the first place. Am I right that the infinite kinds of potential true independent hallucinations point to the infinity of Gods or alien awakening that you have mentioned?

If the sentience of humans or animals is a hallucination from each of our points of view, I don't see why that would stop a form from being organized in a way that it would have sentience. If I mess up the structural organization of a sentient form, it can cease to have sentience, e.g., killing an animal. So, the structural organization of forms would be a deeper layer of hallucination that grants forms to have sentience. But the "how" would be the most difficult part.

Thanks for the support. When I was a child, it dawned on me—through a lot of suffering—that understanding is much more fundamental than what people were doing; it is an interaction with the world through observation that reveals the intelligence of reality. Gaining understanding on my own for the sake of understanding is a greater joy for me than just knowing, or especially just believing, something. Without you, I would not have known how important truth is and would have remained in a state of stagnancy. But I don't claim that I have become someone who is conscious of a lot of truth or a master of truth.

It seems that the more I deconstruct my ordinary experience the more I would grasp the degree of its hallucinatory or dream-like nature, not only just that it's a hallucination or dream. Years back I would have never imagined this being a dream. The directness of it is like looking directly at the sun and being totally alone. Understanding it changes the quality of my experience. E.g., I look at my body and recognize that it is being dreamt. I'm more open towards my death because who else is going to experience stuff other than me?

One time I had a radical experience that everything was revealed as a hallucination or the other time it's a dream. When coming back from those experiences, they become treated as other. But deconstructing my ordinary experience helps reveal its nature. E.g., no dream exists outside of the dream in my sleep, and no experience exists outside of my own in my waking life. This makes waking life and the dreams when sleeping equal in terms of existing. But using the term "dream" is more appropriate to describe both realities because it is thought of as being self-contained, even if we think that it happens in our brains.

For me, a "hallucination" is totally lacking external or internal influence. Nothing outside or inside is generating it. It is self-generated. Which totally applies to my experience.

Ok, but what makes a hallucination a hallucination for you? Do you follow the technical definition of it? There has to be some meaning you give to the word "hallucination" so that you can apply it.

@Leo Gura, what's your definition of "hallucination"?

It seems like the rest of the chemicals add up to the potency of the venom.

Oh, I totally ignored that part. I wonder if it's less potent than the pure one. I wanted to go to a psychedelic retreat for my first psychedelic experience. I'm glad I found a cheaper option.

OMG, that shaman was giving at least 90mg of 5-MeO-DMT. That's crazy!

My tactile sensations were overwhelming on 5-MeO-DMT. I haven't dosed higher than 20mg if I recall, but I imagine it would be more violent. The onset of 5-MeO-DMT is difficult to manage. THC was like a light switch, immediately experiencing God.

Jesus! I fucking had a mini-shock of how I would feel experiencing God just by watching that man.

Wait until you live in an almost entirely ethnically homogeneous country with a national identity depending on religious identity and a state religion, especially a Christian one. Your mind will get raped there if your not careful. You wouldn't want anything to do with most people. If they found out you aren't Christian, they would feel betrayed and think you no longer belong to the nation. Basically, a large cult.

The protective mechanisms of the dream are very intelligent, like the script of a great movie that makes you so enmeshed in it that you don't want it to end.