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@Razard86 @Leo Gura Another thing to add, Leo talks about how you are the ultimate authority, how direct experience is number one, and no one can tell you about your own reality better than yourself. From everything that has gone on for me in my life, I have sufficient evidence for it to be reasonable for me to expect awakening in my specific case, even if in most cases you can't predict awakening. "You have to save yourself from so many good-intentioned people, do-gooders, who are constantly advising you to be this, to be that. Listen to them and thank them. They don't mean any harm; but harm is what happens. You just listen to your own heart. That is your only teacher. In the real journey of life, your own intuition is your only teacher." - Osho

@Razard86 I think what you and Leo are saying about not being able predict or will awakening to happen is true for 99.9999% of people, but there are rare cases where God chooses people and intentionally beings specific souls back to itself, and in that case the awakening becomes predictable. That is largely what the path of Love is - on this path your heart is intimately connected to the love of God, and that love gradually pulls you into awakening and reunion, sometimes without the person having to put any effort into it at all, which is how it has been for me. I have done almost no spiritual practice in my life, I have only suffered like crazy. I am on the verge of permanent ego death, I have an extremely deep connection with existential love, my life is so deeply led by divine guidance that I am powerless to being able to get out of it or change anything. The more time that goes on, the more my ego dissolves and the closer I get to awakening, even though I put zero effort into making it happen. I have so obviously been chosen by God for some specific purpose, i have had direct communication from the divine that i will be reaching union with God, so I would be a fool to doubt all of that, and to think that my awakening wouldn't happen and I would be left hanging. Watch this video I posted here if you want to - it is a detailed explanation of my spiritual path and exactly what kind of awakening I appear to be heading towards

@Human Mint Please read this and tell me if you think going for a run would help me. It's like getting into a high-speed car crash and trying to soothe it with a band-aid I do enjoy exercise but I have stopped it over the years, because my mental health is so bad that leaving the house and exercising only makes me feel worse, not better

@Natasha Tori Maru Because in the scene there's a boy and a girl, and you're the girl lol

Hahaha That's @Leo Gura at the beginning coming to get @mmKay and @Natasha Tori Maru from the non-mod pool and offering them a chocolate bar. @Natasha Tori Maru decides to throw it in the pool with the non-mods before they leave. That's me at 0:56

If you could create your own psychedelic with any qualities you want, what would it look like? Consider things like the amount of visuals/type of visuals, body effects, duration, how gentle or intense it is, what the overall feeling signatures of it would be, what it could be used for (profound awakenings, emotional healing, contemplation, etc). Consider any unique experiences you've had on psychedelics in the past that you would want to add as a normal part of this psychedelic, and consider combining traits you like from different psychedelics into this new substance. Don't say things like 'gives you instant enlightenment' or other things like that. Make it at least somewhat realistic. Give it a name if you want to.

I thought I saw some chocolate in the main pool. But it wasn’t chocolate😭

@Breakingthewall Makes me think of: "The lover is a veil, all is Beloved. Beloved lives. The lover is a corpse." - Rumi

This pains me to read. I know exactly what it’s like dealing with people like that and it drives me crazy.

@Leo Gura What are the deepest levels of ego death you have experienced and what have they felt like? I remember hearing in your salvia trip report video that salvia gave a particularly strong ego dissolution/death. I'm curious how deep your ego deaths have gone with your deepest trips on 5-MeO-DMT and other substances

@integration journey That’s really beautiful. It describes God in a really gentle, feminine way

Wow, that's beautiful. This is fana (fana fi allah). Put through a pretty gruesome lens, but still a beautiful quote

The path of Love chose me, and through research I discovered that the Sufis walk the path of love, so learning about Sufism has helped me understand my own path. I’m curious why the Sufis walk the path of Love and reach fana far more than people from any other spiritual tradition, considering this path often isn’t something you choose for yourself.

In terms of practical advice I could give to you, first of all consider that there is always something to learn from suffering and to gain from it. Suffering can teach lessons in a way that nothing else can, it can build your empathy for the suffering of others, and it can make you stronger and more resilient. If you easily become suicidal in the face of suffering, I suggest developing a deeper reason to live, a reason that you are passionate about, something that touches your heart, something that won't make you back down in the face of pain. Something that makes the suffering worth it. For example, for a long time I have wanted to create emotional healing techniques and help people heal their emotional pain. I knew I had a lot of potential and a lot to offer the world. My desire to help people and give love to people was strong enough that it helped me to keep going even when things got really bad. I think it is important to understand that suffering is a necessary part of life. It is something that helps you learn and grow, not something you need to escape from. That is the truth of how life works. When you can integrate that and live in alignment with that, rather than resisting it, things will become easier. Suffering is your ally, something to be welcomed and learned from. With that said, I know it takes strength to have that attitude. It's not easy, suffering is awful, we hate it and we want to get away from it. But that's the point of it. If it wasn't that difficult, it wouldn't have the benefits it does. Another important thing to mention is that the type of suffering you are going through makes a difference. If you have chronic mental health issues and have been suffering for years, I don't expect you to be fine continuing to live for years longer with nothing changing. Obviously something needs to change, and you won't be happy otherwise, and it would be natural to become suicidal. Also don't think that you should start putting yourself in situations to intentionally cause suffering because it "makes you stronger" or that "you have to become okay with it". This is more abusive than helpful. Suffering should be gone through with intelligence and wisdom, not by recklessly forcing yourself into it. At the end of the day you're human, we all are, it is natural to hate suffering and to want to escape it, and it is natural to become suicidal when it gets too bad. The solution is to approach the situation with wisdom: What can I learn from this suffering? What needs to be changed about my life? How can I become more okay with suffering in a way that is healthy and loving towards myself, and not abusive and hurtful? Hopefully that helps