PepperBlossoms

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  1. Also - I used to consider myself a perfectionist as well.  Now I have realized that, depending on what it is, being a perfectionist can be a waste of time.  It may be that the type of work is better suited to doing it quickly and then making easy changes later or that it requires meditating what steps will be done and how in your head for a few minutes and then making it happen that way..  you can play with different methods.

    Yeah I have the same problem of doing one thing and then putting everything else off as well and then taking too long to be able to get to the next - (we are quite similar!) I guess just trying to get the present task done to an extent that it is done ENOUGH even if not perfect and submitting it and then moving on to the next thing.

    I also found that the feeling of getting stuff done, no matter how dreaded, is so much better than the feeling of just letting it linger... although some tasks can just have like 100 steps to them and some have to happen before others and it is kinda like a sudoku of what to do when (as my boyfriend pointed out).. really complex stuff.


  2. I use Trello and I like it a lot.   I also use Microsoft Paint and thinking.

    I can put all the to-do's I want in there - doesn't mean I will be able to get myself to do them - I have the resistance probs pretty strong too.  I find that even if I ignore the task I tell myself that I need to do, the resistance doesn't go away and is calling me more and more to do it.  It's like an alarm that doesn't stop going off until I get it done...  I kinda wish I could just forget about the tasks and not do them but... the strongest ones are work related... so I "have" to do them or leave the job...


  3. @Bubba66 Thanks for commenting on this and thanks for your perspectives and suggestions.

    I have realized that I did not do enough thinking when I posted all of the comments and was "oversimplifying a whole segment of the population" yes as you mentioned above.  

    It is amazing at how we can look at something based on our current focus and see it one way and then later on go back and see how much stuff we forgot or did not include in that thought group (or did not know about).

    I agree in that many careers that people do today are very helpful and essential for our infrastructure to function and I am very grateful for their contributions.  I think I was acting out of a low ego earlier..

    I think that the lure of personal development and trying to grow/invent/integrate may create an ego blinder of wanting to consider ourselves above those that we may, for whatever reason, say that they are not doing enough of- when in fact they could very well be doing it but in a different outlet than what we are doing - (similar to what you said above) - you said it pretty good.

    Thanks for your service as being a nurse!  I am an engineer.

    I agree in that work can be seen as "killing yourself" from one perspective, but at the same time, there are many other ways to look at it and many valuable things that it has.

    To one degree it can be helpful to have the ideas that one does not want to be a worker slave, but to another, one could see - well if we did not have workers - okay fine - how would that need get met and can we practically make that happen or do we still need workers to fit this need?  It can still be helpful to at least have awareness of if the job is using you for profit/output or if, in addition, you are using the job to better yourself and help yourself for some additional purpose.

    I'll check out those Leo videos again that you suggested.  Thanks!

    Yeah it is nice to try to break more out of the "unconscious matrix."  Well said on that.

    Those are some nice ideas that you have for the future.  If we switched our goals to make it so that we can work less instead of work more - make things more automated and have more needs met on a more massive scale - we could eventually get into the reality of working far less hours... it may happen eventually!

    It is sad to set one's purpose as "somebody's gotta do it" but I can see that it was a valid need that society has as well as it gave him a way to help address that need as well as support himself.  I can see even my role as an engineer can have the mindset - "somebody's gotta do it too..."... hmm will have to think some more on that.

    Thanks.


  4. On 12/22/2020 at 10:20 PM, cetus said:

    @PepperBlossoms Have you been listening to Alan Watts lately?:)

     

    @cetus No I hadn't listened to him lately.  I love his voice - he sounds so magical when he talks.  Maybe we've had similar info sources to come to similar conclusions.

    I guess what I need to ponder some more is how the heck all of this stuff comes together.

    Living things are made of cells which can live from days to months.

    Everything is seemingly made of atoms which is approx at the age of the universe.

    The creature body after death will have cells that die but atoms that continue to exist.

    A question to ponder:

    Is consciousness tied to the physical world - it is the computer reading the software which it is made of.  The minds thoughts are physical things/systems that happen in an x,y,z space with a mass made up of atoms.

    Sure when you die, your atoms get rearranged differently and eventually may get arranged into another computer to read software.

     


  5. On 12/22/2020 at 6:02 AM, aerox1988 said:

    The problem (I think) is that I have been to pushy regarding to her and when we was gonna meet I sounded a bit stressed a desperate to book this which she then said "You make me feel so stressed" so I changed subjet and said haha ok but I need to know so I can plan my days but no worries lets decide next week. And this week she avoided the question.

    @aerox1988  This sounds so painful.  I am so sorry you are in that situation.  It is better when the other person reciprocates the effort and interest.  RIP.

    There is no too pushy when the other person is interested.  

    On the next open weekend/day that you can go visit her, ask her if y'all can hangout.  If she says no and does not suggest another day that would work, drop her and start talking to someone else - even if that means using social dating apps - gotta do something to change your focus away from her - (don't have to but may feel intense pain/attachment).


  6. @assx95  You can take any field and make it low consciousness or high consciousness - you can chose to do with it how you want (to some degree).

    You can take working in medicine to deliberately kill people just like you can take working at a jail to deliberately help people.  You can use finance to finance bombs and guns or use it to finance energy made with magnets, alien-like space craft, mind-bender movies, super cool architecture, affordable housing... you can kinda take money in whatever direction you want..

    For "low consciousness vs high consciousness" consider what the phrases even mean - I came up with basically looking at the amount of thinking done, the amount of knowledge/insight/variables known and considered, the amount of perspectives taken on, and the impact of the work.

    Congrats on making it to how far you have made it in school!  Good job!  Keep up the good work!


  7. I was hypothesizing that when we die, we won't remember we were ever alive.  Everyone that knows us will also all die and not remember that they were ever alive either (so do whatever the heck you want - you won't remember it anyway, you'll just have to live with the circumstances till death).

    We all tend to procrastinate our own inevitable death.

    Any children we have will just die too.

    Eventually, life will not find a way - there will be one more problem than there are solutions and all of "life" will die.

    However life can be reborn when the right ingredients for life come together and so all of life has probably been wiped out and recreated an infinite number of times.


  8. Money from different perspectives:

    Counselor/coach/teacher - help people manage their funds and help them grow their opportunities and achieve what they want to achieve

    Manager - direct the money to stuff to promote it; make change happen; create opportunities

    Engineer - Design/analysis with equations/variables/conditions of best ways to make the money work for the best outcome

    Principal/lawyer/police - Make sure stuff adheres to code, budgets met

    Inventor - new money systems, software, equations, needs, uses


  9. 45 minutes ago, kag101 said:

    I think you're overconceptualizing.

    To me, this idea of "tuning in to your feelings" never worked. Paradoxically, this would make me go even more into my rational mind.

    What has helped me the most is to let my feelings course through me naturally -- with as less interference as possible. 

    @kag101 Thanks for the input!! (If that was to me haha)

    I guess the question to ponder is: what is too much and what is too little when it comes to thinking and what is natural and what is not natural?  We tend to think ALL DAY whether we realize it or not.

    Yeah I agree in that sometimes it is better to just "let things happen" but even then, what is "just letting things happen"?

    I also like to think that overthinking is better than underthinking because at least with overthinking, thinking is being done and is trying to get to the root of something while with underthinking, thinking is technically still happening but with no purpose...

    SOOO maybe what you are trying to say is that by not having a purpose.. the mysterious issue may reveal itself whereas with purposeful thinking, distractions may pop up that may lead us away from the real root.  I guess I just like the idea of trying to have more control and purpose over my thoughts.. but again that goes to - how much control do we think we have versus actually have?

    Sorry yeah I do tend to "overconceptualize" and go all over the place.


  10. 2 hours ago, JTL said:

    @PepperBlossoms  Everyone gets sad for different reasons , and yeah that could just be normal, For me being a black Norwegian I often get sad over that fact it is hard to be a minority in a mainly white country in the sense, talking about racist experiences and how to deal with them. So when Leo had the video the power of letting go I just knew It could be really powerful. any luck with  the techniques yourself ?:)

      haha, yeah it fucks with your body. I have alot of muscle tension because of it and yeah some its hidden its so weird.  

    Wow yeah I can see that that would be hard.  I was in China myself for a few months and felt like I was a black person or could relate to how they may commonly feel with how much I stuck out because the population was like 99.99% Chinese people -  I went 3 weeks until I saw another white person and 2.5 months before I saw a black person.  When I saw the black guy, I wanted to go up and take a photo with him just because neither of us were Chinese.  One of my African American coworkers has told me about how the cops would treat her differently because she was black and it was sad.

    No I think I am pretty horrible about letting go of stuff other that just finally not caring - saying/being like, okay I don't care anymore. Whatever! (saying the words "whatever" with the preppy girl wrist flick or the low voice stoner method.. any way that works!... and that mindset seems to work for getting rid of the clingyness to something and then eventually I can reflect back on whatever the issue was with new learned things and be able to better connect the dots.  I can see that connecting the dots while strongly holding onto something can blind us so the idea of letting go to allow for some temporary distance can be helpful.  Or another option is to even separate oneself by LEAVING the area and creating distance because you can forget about it because you aren't seeing whatever it is that was bothering you all day, everyday.  

    I think I am not the best person to ask about how to deal with racist experiences.  I didn't even notice race till around high school I guess because the schools and my friends were pretty well mixed from the start.. I guess I notice it more when I go to an area that is all one race and find it nicer when the area is just a whole bunch of races because it is just like, okay no one is outnumbered or sticking out here - awesome.

    I would say living in a super racially mixed area would be the most helpful but if that doesn't work.. I guess focusing on what you enjoy and getting so freakin immersed in that that it is a waste of time/useless/not helpful to think about the pettiness/drama that people create... if they are trying to bring you down, they are just wasting their own time and energy.

     


  11. I feel like the trickiest part with the God identity thing, based on what I have experienced so far is that A - technically the sperm and egg had to be combined for us to be born and before those were combined, there was just a male and female and no offspring. 

    B - The woman and man had to have been alive for the offspring to be born.  Everything that is alive today is alive because the stuff that birthed it was alive and that was alive because the stuff that birthed that was alive and we all go back to the same origin, all of us plants/animals/insects/birds/etc.  So those ants that you see on the ground could have been you, or the birds, or the aliens, or the fungus, or whatever - it all has the same origin and anything that is seen clumping to one origin had to come together from another origin and from another origin going back to the same first origin (maybe).

    I can see the hard part is... okay so yeah we all maybe came from the same source and the source has had to continue to be alive for the existing life to happen.. although life could have just spontaneously first started when the recipe for it to start just so happened to be in the right concoction/place for that to happen which eventually happened.. (which in that case all of life can wipe out and start over an infinite amount of times).

    But I still find it hard to grasp the identity as being infinity when I had to have the sperm/egg combination to be created... (although this also forgets that life can be created in other ways without a sperm/egg combination such as with cloning?? and asexual reproduction??)

    When I was able to for few hours drop the human identity and take on a glimpse of seemingly "infinite" identity, I pictured all of life as a chandelier - where it all came from the same thing and branched out and saw that even if I died, "I didn't fully die" as long as life, the other parts of life, were still alive - kinda like how a tree can lose leaves and branches but as long as some of it is still going, life is still alive.


  12. Reading this is like watching god talk to itself haha.

    Also - I guess a lot of this depends on the identity/perspective/definition of self/god/scope taken on.

    God has various levels of experience, knowledge, and wisdom.  Some parts of God understands various things before the other parts of it catches on or experiences it.  God learns all the time.

     


  13. @JTL  Ahh I'm sorry that you are feeling that way! 

    I get sad too sometimes!!  In a way, sadness may seemingly be a pre-programmed response the mind has - there is happy, sad, angry, bored, confused, etc.  It is like going down a pathway and depending on the one you go down and the stimuli you presently receive as well as the stimuli that you have received in the past, you may respond a certain way (like your mind getting programmed with software that just keeps getting more programming added to it every moment - the software in the mind may be programmed to respond with depression/sadness based on x,y,z stimuli based on a,b,c programming!)

    I guess it is also interesting just to experience what it is like feeling sad and see how that impacts the view/inpretation/experience on reality.

    I also find that walking slow, listening to sad music, or not moving around much can make me sad while walking fast, listening to upbeat music, and getting stuff done will totally change my thoughts/feelings.

    I can see that staying in the sadness state is not sustainable as it makes it hard for the body to do what it needs to survive and so the body may tend to do whatever it takes to get out of the sadness state eventually in various ways.


  14. Thanks for making the thread!  I'm having the same problems.  

    I guess I would say - just start.

    The hardest part about doing something tends to be starting and once it is started, it is easier to keep going.

    Have to make the switch from the doing being avoidance to the doing being engagement.. something I need to do right about now!


  15. 14 hours ago, Manusia said:

    Wow.. nice thought.. It explain why some people disgusted by my new idea about things. And why I dont really be happy around people that have traditionalist mindset. They not inspire me. Sometimes I found they are just shallow mindest.

    @Manusia I'm sorry people are being disgusted about your ideas!  

    Yeah I find if anything, when talking to a traditionalist person, I learn more about how not to think than how to think.

    The traditionalist mindset is helpful for having people who will want to take care of existing assets like property, information, etc. and may take pride in duty in repairing and maintaining it which is definitely helpful to some degree.. although in a way.. I wonder if that mindset warps how they picture reality and they have a harder time seeing things for how they really are and focus too much on how they want them to be and hold on to that instead...

    I guess the difference is that the traditionalists tend to not engage with asking questions about WHY stuff is the way it is and they are not considering what could be changed.

    Yeah I think you hit it spot on when saying that they tend to not be as creative!

     


  16. @Preety_India Yeah.  Looking at how he would get low to the ground with the animal and explain all of these things about it and interact with it not like it is an object but as an actual amazing creature like us- makes me imagine myself being him and interacting with the animals in front of a camera.

    I wonder what he was like when the camera wasn't rolling and what his other hobbies/passions were other than animals, if any.

     


  17. 7 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Trump admin advisors have publicly said months ago that their strategy is herd immunity. Nothing new here.

    They must that this approach because they are too incompetent at governance to actually manage the crisis. So they just a libertarian free-market attitude. It's an every-man-for-himself approach -- which is their entire philosophy.

    @Leo Gura Ah.  Good point.  Sounds right to me... 

    Why bother go into a government position when you aren't going to do anything?  If there are lots of people willing and wanting to make a difference, step aside and let those people take over.  Yeah we can have people who don't want to do anything to solve a problem but they don't belong in government.

     

    6 hours ago, Preety_India said:

    Is that a general republican philosophy as well? 

    @Preety_India Yeah sounds right to me.  "If the system worked for me, it should work for you."  Viewpoint ignores the situations when it does not work and why it does not work.

    There are all these moving parts to consider and  you want your government to be the most willing to explore, understand, and utilize all of the moving parts to the best of its ability.... As an engineer.. engineering the best outcome - what are the options, variables, constraints, requirements, solutions, options, models, info - we need more "engineers" in government who run all the scenarios and pick what will work the best. 

    A new form of engineering other than civil, mechanical, electrical, etc. - it will let us make the most optimal government. 

     


  18. Or the emotion could be a hint/reminder that you have something unresolved and needs more attention.

    Yeah I guess just trying to "feel through the emotion" and let it feel however strong it wants to feel to let it run its course/figure it out/get past it/not be able to take it anymore - let it do its thing rather than suppress it because suppressing it may take longer and be avoiding whatever needs to be confronted...

    I hope that helped.  It is an interesting topic.  I am sorry you are having the issues.


  19. @JTL Leo has talked about how, if you are having a hard time giving something up, just go ahead and let yourself have it and observe how it makes you feel - once you see how horrible (if any) it makes you feel, you will no longer what to do whatever it is that you are not wanting to do.

    So in that regard - go ahead and feel/act on the emotion as you are wanting to and observe yourself closely - what are the impacts?  What do you like/not like about it?

    That can then make it easier for reasoning with yourself of - oh okay, yeah I should do this instead of that.

    Or - you could find other info too such as the emotion is not the problem at all and the problem was that you didn't know what the problem was - when you know what the root of the problem really is - it is a lot easier to address it.  The emotion could be a distraction from what the real problem is... Just some thoughts! 

    Have a nice day.


  20. It is tough.  Might as well lock down the entire country and try to eliminate it more instead of just doing a partial -some areas and not others - lockdown.

    That is a good point - what is the point of locking down one area if another area can still interact and spread it that way and then just spread it back to the big area?

    We need a world-wide lockdown - and we need all countries to interact.  And those that do not lockdown will have banned travel/exports/imports to and from.

     


  21. Pretty sad that they have that viewpoint.

    The trump administration in charge of this virus should jailed for life for allowing the virus spread to get to this point.

    The government should be doing a stimulus to keep businesses closed/people home to get the virus to go away until we have enough vaccines ready or when the virus is small enough rather than doing stimulus to keep businesses open/keep people working.

    The vaccines are going to take too long for everyone to get them and too many people have already died and are yet to die.

    We need the nerdy/engineer/artsy/abstract-type people running government, not whatever we have now.

    I feel helpless saying this because I feel I, you, any of us - it seems that we have no voice or our voice makes no change.


  22. Hey y'all.  I realized how amazingly exciting and awestruck Steve Irwin was and Bill Nye the Science guy is.

    Can you guys list some more names of people that have this kind of contagious excitement?  

    I'd put Leo on this list too.

    Thanks!

    I wondered if shrooms had a correlation to the excitement/interest/educational level and found via google search that Irwin died when he was on them (from the stingray) and Bill Nye did have a segment on his show that discussed it...

    The shrooms open up the level of exploration/observation to a whole new level.

    I just want to see who the others are that also have this excitement.


  23. I realized after I posted this that I hadn't thought enough about it and that every moment is different and so even though there is the desire to be doing new stuff, everything is technically new as no 2 moments are the same.  Also, once something is invented, it instantly becomes old because it has already been invented but you can change the way you think about how new something is such as being 5 minutes new or being 5000 years new.

    Even with "old stuff", we can look for new ways to do it and think about it.

    I guess the difference between traditionalist and integrative/progressive is that traditionalist doesn't tend to look for new things and ways to change things while a integrative/progressive may tend to.

    Sounds tough with the family Sahil.  I think lots of us may be in similar boats to various degrees.