my whole life i've been taught that i'm good at the stem side of things. So when the process from high school to college happened i thought about what i was taught about what i was good at and what i loved deeply at the time, still love, was video games. Now that i've been focused on fitness for so long and put less of my mind into coding, i felt pressure. I felt like i'm way too far behind. someone the same age as me who was way further in his learning is this field told me he's depressed and stressed from the job market. Right now my dream is to live a spontaneous, nomadic, adventurer who figured out some way of way to make money to fund his traveling at first, some way to make time to foster his creativity, and finally travel and make travel vlogs. I want them to be focused on the traveling, the culture, the people, the environment, the history, the politics, and at the same time have real talks and use cinematography. Either that or van life, train hopping, urbex, etc.