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  1. Secure. I'd be surprised if the result were otherwise, considering both my routinely self-analysis and other peoples comments about my personality.
  2. Finally some quality content lol jk
  3. Idk I can talk extremely easy to some and it's a hill-climbing task when talking to others. I just stop talking to the ones that are too hard. And yep, you need to talk to more women to know how to talk to women. That's the way
  4. When I talk to: Blue and below people: no/yes depending on how it benefits me Orange people: hell no full atheistic Green and above: Yes I do. We are all one and God is the all-encompassing consciousness that permeates experience. I do a more or less new-agey explanation depending on the context.
  5. N-Acetylcysteine is your best bet. It doesn't "block" dopamine but has plenty of studies on it for treating some types of addiction.
  6. I don't try anything. I don't check my thoughts. If something goes through my mind and I find it relevant, I say it Next to some people, if I feel like talking I do and if I don't, I keep quiet Sometimes I feel weird after speaking something but I just brush it off. If I don't then I'll feel anxious about feeling weird in an endless loop. As an example, at work, I speak little. But I'm there to work, not to talk! My work is pretty physical and you can get by mostly based on short sentences. And most of the time it's so fking noisy it's pointless to try to have convos. When going out and chatting with people, I ask questions and try to know them better. Maybe I'll speak for 5 minutes non-stop. But if I feel it's better to keep quiet, I keep quiet. I have a quirky sense of humor and use that to my advantage, in moderation. Reading the room is important. Sometimes I'll go to a place and not feel quite right or vibing with people... So, then I leave. No problems. If they think I'm weird that's on them. Quiet ≠ socially anxious Pretty rare Sometimes I don't say much but that's because nothing goes through my mind. I speak things mostly without fear of repercussion. Nevertheless, I am empathetic and rarely make obnoxious and idiotic comments. That's my self-analysis for your information. I'd consider myself an introvert with little social anxiety.
  7. It varies between 2 and 5. If i drink too much caffeine it goes to 6
  8. You're a good candidate to try 5g then. Make sure to put the mushrooms on lemon juice. Not that I'm saying you should do it but... if you don't care about trauma? heh
  9. Purpose and direction are not necessary for living. I agree with the other posters here. Just listen and let people be. They think differently and live differently. And yes you're right, don't shove philosophies down people's throats cause that won't amount to anything. They won't understand. See how you don't understand them? How can they understand you?
  10. Aim at where Green is at. You may find some yellow ones. There aren't many, and probably they aren't easily available as a group.
  11. Non-addictive? Kava-kava Addictive but better than alcohol? Phenibut
  12. Test it. I went 10 months without a drop just to see if it had negative effects and chose to stay on it. If I ever have too many consecutive days of bad sleep I'll have one or two days without it to catch up.
  13. Caffeine does that to some people. May I ask about your consumption?
  14. Get better friends. The only thing I benefited from friendships like that is to avoid being friends with people like that, always.
  15. It can mean something or mean nothing. People have wacky dreams about lots of shit. Haven't you ever entered a school and shot everyone in your dreams? You're missing so much. Now being serious, if you think you are developing attraction to men: it happens. That may be confusion too. For me, what happens is that the overwhelming amount of sexual and intimate attraction i feel is geared towards women or feminine creatures, idk ? I need to admit maybe I've been romantically and sexually attracted to men before but looking back, it was of such low intensity and a fleeting experience. I could even have confused it for anxiety ABOUT being attracted to them(search about Homosexual-OCD). I don't remember enough to have a final word. When I feel attraction to women it's just undeniable. It's polar, magnetic and I just can't lie about it. It's different shit man.