bmcnicho

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  1. @Nak Khid The idea of what is being perfect by definition seems strangely similar to social Darwinism or radical conservatism, even though it’s framed as a higher consciousness way of thinking. Another weird paradox I suppose.
  2. I’m becoming more conscious of the cruelty of the capitalist system, and the cruelty inherent to most of our social and political systems. However, given that other systems throughout history and in many other parts of the world were if anything worse, it seems to be inherent to survival itself rather than to any particular system. Even if reality is infinite, it seems that more entities will want to exist in any given space than will be able to, at least in realms of existence resembling this one. Therefore wouldn’t cruelty be a huge survival advantage? And wouldn’t you expect any entity that exists to have a certain amount of it? Cooperation, of course, is also a very effective survival strategy, but even so a certain level of enforced conformity and exclusion would need to be present to keep things functional. So how can reality be Infinite Love, as Leo has been emphasizing recently, if cruelty is so essential to how beings maintain themselves? One answer could be that I only view cruelty as a negative out of fear of falling victim to it. Would that then make cruelty good by definition because it exists? Although it seems like cruelty would decrease as beings reach higher levels of consciousness.
  3. I'm currently 8 months into a relationship, and up until now we've been seeing each other 3 days a week. Recently she was furloughed from her part time job, and my hours were cut from 5 days a week down to 3. So now she wants us to spend more time together. I agreed to increase it to 4 days last week, but now this week she doesn't think that's enough. She told me she's jealous of her roommate who gets to she her boyfriend almost every day. So I guess I'm just looking for some feedback on what seems reasonable. Am I neglecting her because I want to have a few days to myself?
  4. I've been dating someone for less than 3 months and they're developing an unhealthy attachment to me. She has mental health issues, so I don't think it's good for her. The relationship is going well, I'd just like for her to be a bit less intense and be ok when I'm not around. Not sure how to help with that or how to prevent things from getting more out of control
  5. I just see ego and lies all around me. I've been considering different career paths, and everything seems to boil down to manipulating people in order to get some money. Money is completely meaningless anyway, and people spend it on silly things. You can survive pretty comfortably on $30,000 a year, so I don't see why people want more than that. So much suffering is inflicted upon people and we're doing so much damage to our future. And the thing is most people aren't actively malevolent, they're just either too lazy to pay attention or just don't care. Politics is so full of shit. Even people I agree with are full of shit in their own way. We have so much work to do collectively, but very little of it is getting done. I feel like the world is a giant machine of ego and devilry and everything I could do would just feed back into it. Even those who oppose the system end up being a controlled opposition, to appease everyone else and give them false hope. It's gotten to the point where I just don't want to do anything. I'm not depressed, I love myself and I love life. I just don't want to be manipulated by the system. There's so many lies, I'm just looking for truth. I've been reading lots of great books, but no source is a hundred percent pure. I sometimes lose motivation to read something when I realize it's only giving me a partial perspective. I feel like 99% of people over 30 have sold their soul to society. They have bad marriages, mediocre kids, meaningless jobs and are content to waste their entire lives. I'm in my early twenties now and get so much terrible advise. I'm conscious enough to reject it, because I feel like the modern world has descended into total nihilism. I can't imagine myself becoming like the people I see around me, but don't see viable alternatives. I absolutely love life, but I'd happily die to avoid becoming a slave. Maybe that's the key to finding truth: Put meaning ahead of survival
  6. Since I was young, I've been very distrusting of authority and culture. Everyone around me seemed way too conformist, like they were blindly accepting the ideas of other people and acting only in the ways that were expected of them. Therefore it seemed like I couldn't find truth from any outside source and decided to rely exclusively on my own judgement. As a result I was very selfish, rebellious, and angry as a child. Of course that kind of egotism didn't work out well for me, and I gradually learned discipline and self control. By the time I was about 12 years old, I was also very distrustful of myself, seeing the potential of self deception in my emotions and impulses. And yet I also understood even more clearly the problems of the collective. If I couldn't receive truth from others, and I couldn't find truth within myself, then where was it to be found? That's when I decided I wanted to become a scientist. I saw science as the only valid source of truth, because I viewed it as separate from all human bias. It was only when I arrived at university that I started to see the problems with academia and institutions. I began to contemplate the potentially dangerous technologies that science was leading to, and that corporate interests distort it from being a pure pursuit of the truth. Leo's talked a lot about epistemology and he's talked a lot about the Absolute and awakenings. His teachings have been incredibly valuable, but what I'm still wondering is where is a valid source of conceptual relative truth? It seems like everything out in the world is clouded by collective ego, and my own thoughts and feeling are clouded by my individual ego.
  7. @Keyhole She had a knife to her throat and said she almost did it. I don't know if that technically qualifies as an attempt. I don't know if I want to be a hero, but I would like the opportunity to help someone. I wouldn't call myself dead inside, although I have had some nihilistic phases.
  8. @LordFall You bring up a good question which I'll need to devote some serious contemplation to. What is it about me that attracts and is attracted to girls with mental health issues? This has happened to me before, but in the past it was much less severe.
  9. Thanks for the thoughtful responses eveyone! There's some good information in this thread! Update: She had a suicide attempt about a week and a half ago. She seems to be doing a lot better now. She's now open to getting help, but still hesitant. I've learned that her family situation is pretty rough, and that it's contributed a lot to these issues. We've gotten a lot closer over the past month. She really is very sweet, caring and accepting despite her mental health issues. I really want to make this work but am starting to understand that it might be necessary to step away @Leo Gura Thanks for your insights on this topic! I'll keep that in mind as I move forward. At a certain point I might have to accept that there isn't gonna be a way to make things work. @remember That's important to keep in mind as well. Individual situations are distinct, so our judgement shouldn't be clouded by trying to fit a story to some abstract stereotype of "the toxic relationship".
  10. @egoeimai I'd like to think I could be capable of that, I just don't know...I'd really have to confront my own selfishness The consensus advice seems to be that I should end it, and I see why you all would say that. The idea of that just makes me really sad, and it feels wrong...
  11. We've only been dating a few weeks and she's already shared a lot of heavy personal stuff with me. She has pretty severe anxiety and depression, and she worries a lot that I'm gonna break up with her, even though I give her lots of positive attention and compliments. I found out that she self harmed today. She refuses to get help and is upset when I say she should. She's already very attached to me, and some of the things she says make me uncomfortable, but it makes her sad when I suggest that things are going too fast. She's also very energetic, and when we spend several hours together it gets pretty exhausting, but I can't really talk to her about that, because that's something she's insecure about. I really like her for other reasons, she's very creative, very kind, and I feel comfortable enough to be very authentic around her. It's just feels like way too much way too fast. It seems like I have to be very strong and stable in order to help her, but I have issues in my own life to deal with too. I know that if anything happened to her I'd blame myself. I feel responsible for her even though we just met. It's scary knowing that even being a little impatient with her or making a slightly negative comment could have a large effect on someone in that kind of mental state. It seems like a state of selflessness is required here that's way beyond my level of development. Any comments or advice would be greatly appreciated
  12. It's important to distinguish between equality of opportunity and equality of outcome (otherwise known as so called "equity"). Equality of opportunity is a noble aim based in compassion, which should be at the core of a well functioning social democracy. However, equality of outcome is motivated by resentment, jealousy, and laziness. The only way to make outcomes equal would be to tear down the excellent, which would ultimately be to the detriment of everyone. This is why communism failed. Remember that devilry exists on all sides, even though at this time the largest devils are the elite capitalists. Marxism will gradually reemerge over the next few decades, and it will present itself under the guise of progressivism, tolerance, and diversity. We're already beginning to see this in the form of radical identity politics.
  13. In Leo's conscious politics series, he seems to have a positive vision of the future, yet I see the possibility that artificial intelligence could cause a collapse before much of that would be able to happen. I'm not against artificial intellience or transhumanism in theory, since I understand that every form must someday surpass itself. Yet it's hard for me to see a scenario of artificial intelligence working out well at our current level of consciousness Many of the people producing AI seem to be rushing to be the first ones to build it with little regard for safety. In addition to the possibility of terrifying technical problems, there's the issue of the motivations of the people building it. What would a corporation like Google do with that level of power?(Especially considering that if the AI is designed to improve itself, it could exponentially increase to unimaginable levels of intelligence) Also, with our current geopolitical situation, imagine what would happen if some countries had it and others didn't. An unstoppable empire could form, and other countries might resort to nuclear weapons out of sheer desperation. Artificial intelligence would also facilitate the development of other technologies, so even at the level of individuals, imagine what would happen if you could step into a simulator and effortlessly produce anything you wanted. It would be pure, unchecked, hedonic unconsciousness and there'd be very little insentive for anyone to develop themselves. It's possible that my pessimism is coming from a lack of consciousness, since Reality as God is Good as an absolute. Yet, large scale collapses aren't unprecedented. The fall of the Roman Empire and the Bronze Age Collapse each set humanity back a thousand years. It seems to me a similar collapse is imminent, and it could be unimaginably devastating. I suppose it's possible that our culture could develop enough so that we'd decide to delay AI until it could be done safely. Yet some estimates say that AI could be created as early as 2029, so this seems higly unlikely. It's also possible that the AI would somehow end up being at a higher level of consciousness then its creators, and would essentially act as a benevolent god that could solve these problems for us. Yet intelligence doesn't necessarily correspond with consciousness, and creations tend to be a reflection of their creators. @Leo Gura You tend to speak about the future as if a collapse isn't imminent, so what's the possitive scenario here? It could be that this topic is so radical that our imagination and intuitions are largely irrelevant
  14. @Leo Gura Ah, that makes sense. I've been studying Carl Jung a lot lately and am perhaps overly enthusiastic about such things. I find that his teachings synergise in my mind quite well with yours, however I do acknowledge that he gets too bogged down in theories. Still, I think it's a valuable perspective, since this forum tends to be skewed towards Eastern traditions, and Carl Jung is based in Western Gnosticism.
  15. In his lastest blog video, Infinite Love Awakening, Leo showed his drawing of a mandala, a universal symbol common to all spiritual traditions. Carl Jung describes it as a symbol of the archetype of the Self, essentially his conception of God. He did extensive studies where his patients would spontaneously draw these symbols, and he claimed that it was an expression of the person's psychological state. Leo's mandala was an esspecially important one: the Quaternity. (For those who didn't see, it looks like a flower with 4 petals in a cross shape) The Quaternity is a symbol common to all spiritual traditions which represents wholeness and totality (i.e. non-duality or God). The Christian cross and the Hindu swastika are the most well known examples. Leo described his drawing as a symbol of God, yet didn't identify it as a mandala or a Quaternity. Not only that, but he went on to say that the shape didn't matter! We're talking about the single most important spiritual symbol here! @Leo Gura I'm wondering why you downplayed the significance of your drawing?