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  1. @felixk_priv This only happened a couple weeks ago, so it’s yet to be seen what the long term effects are going to be. She has said that these other lives feel very distant now. It’s seems like she’s forgotten most of the details, but still remembers the major life events. I think this is the sort of thing where you snap back to your regular life fairly quickly, although she does happen to be an odd individual who often seems unphased by things, so it’s hard to say. But yes, she did say that she feels old now. This is quite the radical thing to think about, all my trips have been tame by comparison.
  2. @woohoo123 I’ve only tried it with harmine. Like @What Am I said, harmaline is sedating, while harmine is slightly stimulating. For that reason, most people prefer harmine. As for THH (tetrahydroharmine), from what I’ve read it’s only a weak maoi that doesn’t contribute much to the total effects. It’s also a mild ssri (not enough so to be dangerous at the recommended dose). Someone on DMT Nexus said it provides a subtle improvement that really only those who are highly experienced would notice. And then full spectrum contains all 3 at the same proportions as found in Syrian rue. That would be the most similar to traditional ayahuasca.
  3. Yes, my friend experienced a full lifetime as a Celtic Druid, and years as an Indian princess during less than an hour of a high dose mushroom trip. She experienced both of their deaths, they went to an afterlife where the machine elves celebrated the accomplishments of their lives, and then she returned to her body here. I haven’t dosed nearly as high, so I’ve only experienced other places as 30 second flashes that were more like vivid imagination than actually being there. There were two trips where it seemed like I experienced my own death and rebirth, but the time in between was blank and I don’t remember being anywhere else. This does seem like a phenomenon that happens sometimes, I’ve also read multiple reports of this, but I’m not sure if it’s something that can be easily replicated or if it only happens to certain individuals. I have no idea what to make of this without first hand experience, it’s possible it that these other lives could just be extremely vivid dreams, but it’s also possible that these experiences break conventional understandings of reality.
  4. @woohoo123 There are also pure extracts available, that way you would remove uncertainty in dosing. There are 3 types of extracts that would work, with the following doses for full mao inhibition: Harmaline HCl: 100 mg Harmine HCl: 200 mg Or Full Spectrum: 150 mg
  5. This is different from regular bacopa. This nootropic contains ebelin lactone, which is a positive allosteric modulator for the 5-HT-2A receptor, which is largely responsible for the effects of serotonergic psychedelics. I tried taking it with mushrooms, and the trip lasted 8 hours instead of the usual 5 hours. So the effects are similar to harmala alkaloids (maybe not quite as potent, it’s hard to say from only one experience), but due to a different chemical mechanism, there aren’t the same dietary restrictions as harmala, and the mild physical side effects I get from harmala were also absent. It also significantly increases the strength of lysergamides. I tried it with Hawaiian baby woodrose seeds (LSA), and the first half of the trip was much stronger than normal, although the total duration was unchanged. Cognance also about doubles the potency of cannabis, and has interesting effects when taken by itself, similar to a psychedelic microdose.
  6. @ZenSwift Yes, that’s the right kind. I took 2 capsules, because they found that produced full effects, such that taking more would only make it last longer. Taking just 1 should have enough of an effect to be noticeable though.
  7. I know that theoretically no matter how deep and crazy a trip gets, normal mental functioning is supposed to reassert itself when the chemical is no longer present. There may be lingering destabilization in some cases, but you’re supposed to resume existing as a human, because when used responsibly these substances are physically safe. But I’m wondering if it’s possible for your consciousness to be permanently severed from the regular causal processes of this world, such that you go somewhere else and never come back to this human life. Yesterday, I took 3 grams of golden teacher mushrooms with 200 mg of harmine hcl. Things started off similar to previous trips, but then at the peak I blacked out for about 5 minutes and it felt like being erased from existence. Waking up from that is extremely strange, because while my memory returned quickly, it seemed like a bunch of stories I had in my head that I had no connection to. There was a discontinuity from my past self, as if I had just emerged in that moment from the cosmic void. I’ve done about 20 trips so far, and it seems like my sensitivity increases a bit each time. Maybe the experience of death and rebirth is a key component of higher dose mushroom trips, but it’s very unsettling and terrifying for me. Maybe the key is to surrender completely, while I always want to maintain an aspect of stability. So is coming back guaranteed? Because it actually feels like ceasing to exist rather than simply memory loss, falling asleep, or the classic ego death where you feel at one with the landscape. Maybe I should lower my doses for awhile, and focus on practical insights, because I still have a lot more to learn.
  8. @Razard86 For me it was on ayahuasca a few months ago. The meanings of all words became identical with their opposites, so language was no longer useful for understanding anything. I also was opened up to the fact that whatever it is that’s actually going on with this reality is so much larger than anything that can be conceptualized. It’s like my internal ability to imagine the possible scale of things was increased by over 100 times.
  9. @SQAAD I don’t think the sedative aspect of certain psychedelics is necessary negative, putting aside personal preference. I’ve found that sedation can work in my favor by quieting down the parts of my mind that would resist, making me more open to insight. The sense of self, being an illusion, has to be actively perpetuated, so it might be essential to how these substances operate. But I agree that mushroom sedation, for example, is a lot easier to handle and feels pleasantly dreamlike while you still have energy to function. I haven’t tried any stimulating psychedelics yet, so I don’t know what my preference would be.
  10. @SQAAD I’ve taken them 6 times so far, at doses between 6-12 seeds. Only one of the trips was partially negative. In general, I think this substance is largely overlooked, for me it’s been as powerful as anything else. It’s missing the visionary component of classic psychedelics, but it provides strong cognitive enhancement and has led me to intense spiritual realizations.
  11. @SQAAD The seeds do contain some toxins, but nothing of particular concern unless you have certain medical conditions. Some people take them regularly for years and don’t seem to have any problems. The benefits vs potential harm need to be weighed, but I think they can be a useful tool. It’s not my main substance, I’ll probably cut down to like twice a year now, mainly due to the sheer cognitive intensity it can have.
  12. @SQAAD LSA is pretty strongly sedating. It makes sense that taking it while sleep deprived would make it much more so. Feeling like you’re dying in a negative way (not in the spiritual awakening sense) is fairly common during bad trips. The idea that the plant was “trying to kill you” may have been psychologically present during that particular experience, but I wouldn’t assign too much weight to these ideas, as they can be self-fulfilling. Usually if you try again under better conditions and mindset, then the effects will be positive again, unless there’s something deeper psychologically going on.
  13. Basically back in 2016 I was a strict rationalist materialist. Some personal difficulties made me more open to other perspectives, which was right around when I discovered Leo. Following along with his teachings, along with listening to intellectuals like Jordan Peterson and John Vervaeke made me realize that rationality could be transcended. But a couple years ago, I realized that even these higher quality ideas had their own limitations. That’s when I got started with psychedelics. I’ve done about 25 trips so far, and been opened up to a lot of radical things. The problem is, I don’t seem to be naturally inclined towards radical mysticism as some people here seem to be. I have a fairly strong sense of identity, and need for control, and usually encounter quite a bit of resistance while tripping. I guess my question is, can a naturally anti-spiritual person still benefit from this work? Maybe I’m just wanting this stuff to be an intellectual abstraction, without it impacting my actual life and reality too much.
  14. I would support increasing standards on homeschooling to make sure that actual education was taking place. But regulations shouldn’t be so strict to prevent meaningful alternatives to the public system. Religious homeschooling is a large problem that unfortunately I don’t see good ways of preventing. The public system also has lots of problems, but of course any attempts to substantively improve education would result in giant culture war backlash. The best solution I can see is that at some point Artificial Intelligence could take over education. But because we have compulsory schooling, homeschool can’t be banned. Otherwise children would effectively be enslaved to the state.
  15. @jdc7733 What I’ve experienced so far is phenomenon of imperceptible size, such that it could very well be finite, but I’m not aware of where its limits lie. In these states, the duality between nothingness and somethingness collapses and these things become metaphysically identical. Obviously, these states are very strange and difficult to describe using ordinary language. One time, I experienced a different but related state where the very properties of size and quantity either ceased to exist completely or just became unintelligible. I know from my intuition and other’s reports that psychedelic experiences can be much stronger and stranger than this. So I can’t see why someone in principle couldn’t have a truly infinite experience. However, your post does raise the tricky metaphysical question of how someone could actually know if their experience was infinite. Can infinity be cleanly distinguished from finitude? Could a finite experience merely seem infinite? Or would an experience of infinity be tautologically self-evident in a way that I can’t understand from my current perspective? Maybe the real answer is that whatever it is we’re actually dealing with here lies so far beyond the understandable meaning of these terms that the distinction becomes irrelevant.
  16. @Jowblob What do you mean by this? I think this is true in the sense that your concepts about reality can be permanently altered, but are you suggesting the possibility of literally not being able to return to your body? From what I understand, after the chemical is fully metabolized, the effects end and you’re mostly back to normal. Even after very intense experiences, the mind has a strong tendency to reassert psychological homeostasis in the weeks that follow. I could see there being additional concerns for people already prone to mental illness though.
  17. This is a response to the following blog post: https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-043 Obviously, we have very little idea of what exactly Leo means by this just from one paragraph. However, it does seem to be a plausible result of pushing substances such as DMT, ayahuasca, or mushrooms to their ultimate extent. I’ve taken ayahuasca at moderately high doses 8 times over the past year, and there definitely is an alien strangeness to it that’s difficult to describe or contextualize within any sort of conventional understanding of reality. In one of my recent trips, I delved into the territory of what would be called “regular insanity”. It didn’t get to the point of full blown psychosis, but I did experience extreme confusion, an inability to understand basic concepts of reality, and a sense of radical expansiveness that made thoughts seem irrelevant. Insanity to almost anyone is a quite unpleasant experience, but that doesn’t necessarily mean it lacks value. A key component of generating new insights is first breaking down old frameworks. Ideally, one would strike a balance between chaos and order, such as what occurs in the flow state. This has also been called the zone of proximal development. However, the more radical psychedelic states require pushing further than this. It’s sometimes necessary to go too far to gain a broader understanding of what’s possible. During my trips, I think of this as dancing with the line between sanity and insanity. Even so, it’s difficult for me to think of complete insanity as being anything other than undesirable. If the goal is Truth, then Insanity would certainly be a large component. However, if Truth is Infinity, then your goal would be everything. Having Everything as a goal, though, isn’t a goal at all, it’s the same as not having a goal. Because having a goal implies there’s a difference between what is and isn’t desired. If the main purpose of actualized.org is still personal development, then spirituality can be thought of as self actualization taken to its ultimate extent. However, that would imply that there’s a difference between what can be considered developed versus undeveloped. Therefore, it would be possible for me to claim that Insanity (even of the “Alien” variety) is spirituality gone wrong if it leads to mental dysfunction. It may be foolish for me to ask if Insanity can be achieved “safely”, as it seems to be the precise opposite of safety. This comes across to me as an extreme form of nihilism, as I imagine that one could fully awaken to the fact that they were never a human, but still be content living out the rest of this human dream relatively normally. If Infinity is the Truth, then shouldn’t we try to cultivate the highest of what’s possible? Doesn’t that seem better than succumbing to cosmic madness? Because no matter how high of an awakening you reach, don’t you then have to come back to your life and do something with it?
  18. I do think this is a good sign that psychedelics are gaining more mainstream acceptance. However, I’m not exactly sure what to make of this. I’m concerned that this could result in the website being shut down, or a bunch of people getting into legal trouble. The company is based in Canada, where there’s a pretty active grey market, but they also claim to ship to the US. I think this channel would vet their sponsors well, although it seems dangerous to purchase a schedule 1 substance openly on the clear-net. This isn’t the first I’ve heard of this sort of thing, there’s also podcasts openly discussing microdose sources. It seems paradoxical that there’s potentially severe legal consequences for this, yet a lot of people say that the authorities don’t care much about psychedelics anymore. So I’m wondering if it’s safe to order from websites like this, because right now I have to travel a few hours to get to my current source.
  19. @Cocolove No, this website sells capsules, teas, and chocolate bars.
  20. Holy shit, that was a terrifying one! And that’s a perfect accent for narrating bad trips. My last 2 trips have been negative, but thankfully nothing close to that. I’ve taken a month off so far, and am considering getting back into it with a nice and easy low dose that will hopefully be positive again. I’m now imagining that very few of us have any idea how deep this can go.
  21. I had to read it very slowly, 7 times in a row so far. Very deep and direct. I’m sure that anyone who has the courage to spend some serious time contemplating this could deepen their understanding. https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-040
  22. I don’t think suicidal thoughts are guaranteed in the same way someone with depression would have them, although it’s not uncommon at high doses. I think it has to do with the way the relationship between life and death can be recontextualized. Like I’ve definitely had the thought “Death is Goodness” but with “Death” being a spiritual notion not related to the destruction of the body or unhappiness with oneself as it’s conventionally thought of. The one experience I had that veered into that territory was actually motivated by pure contentedness in the present moment. I viewed reality as inherently perfect, and the thought popped into my head that if I randomly wandered off into traffic, it wouldn’t be a bad thing. Because I wasn’t able to conceptualize anything as being bad at that time. I still had the presence of mind to not take that thought seriously though. A more negative version of these thoughts are definitely possible and worth taking seriously. But I don’t think someone who’s otherwise psychologically healthy needs to worry too much. Trip sitters can definitely be helpful at high doses, even though a lot of us prefer doing these things solo. And yes, I have had some profound revelations, I don’t know if they’re the same ones that you’ve had. I understand now that words can be dangerous. I see people enjoying their realities, and know that language can rewrite reality. It’s difficult, because I see Truth as being the birthright of mankind, but maybe some things should be left to those willing to actively seek it out.
  23. It’s called the Whatever Dating podcast with Brian Atlas. It’s recently surged in popularity with viral clips online. In general, this podcast is very low consciousness. Its main purpose seems to be bringing women on and trying to make them look dumb while spreading red pill ideology. However, they have guests with a wide variety of opinions, so there will occasionally be a worthwhile discussion. 5:34:12 is when Leo is brought up. I think that Leo would have much more important things to spend his time on. However, it did occur to me that going on would be a chance to share better perspectives with a large, misguided audience. This type of content online does seem to be sending a segment of young men in a bad direction.
  24. Lol, are you a Mr. Girl fan? That’s the only place I’ve heard that from. As far as I know none of that was credible. Hypothetically the benefit would be that Leo could give more nuanced, high consciousness perspectives on these topics to a large audience that particularly needs to have better views on these things.
  25. @Danioover9000 No, the super chat was someone else. I guess my wording was unclear. I think Leo going on would hypothetically be a good thing, but probably not be worth the opportunity cost compared to what he would otherwise spend that time doing. I don’t necessarily think that going on a bad platform promotes it. The podcast already has 4 million subscribers and hundreds of thousands of views per episode, so as a guest you’d also be exposing that audience to you. The streamer Destiny was a guest a couple weeks ago, and he provided good pushback to a lot of the bad points. I think it would be hypothetically interesting, because in my opinion Leo would have better points and could potentially be more persuasive than Destiny. The panels usually have 7 to 10 people, and usually only about 1 or 2 are worth listening to, point taken. The red pill stuff seems to be pretty massive online, and it’s part of a larger right wing movement. I guess I don’t know exactly what percent of guys are falling for it, but it’s definitely worth taking seriously.