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Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread
Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-ThreadAgain, you guys need to just contemplate what conformity means and what it doesn't mean.
Because any time I say something is conformist, some offended guy will stand up and say, "But Leo, I love my kombucha man! Why you hating on kombucha man? Why you so judgmental? Kombucha is good for me."
I don't care if you swim around in a bathtub full of kombucha. As long as you do it of your own agency and not as a machine.
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One month of approaches and game
One month of approaches and gameI made the decision about a month ago to get myself out in the city more often and start doing some approaches to get over my anxiety and hopefully improve my social skills - mostly for dating but I've found it helps me with being social in general. I've wanted to write down my experiences so far and hopefully give helpful advice for anyone else new to this. I'm a 29 yo male from UK.
Best locations - During the day I'd walk around the busy high streets and shopping centres. Coffee shops are really good, bookstores, clothing stores, pop culture shops (in UK we have HMV and some anime/comic book stores), the plaza, and some parks. How I'd approach - This mostly depends on what environment I'm in - e.g. in a store I would open with some sort of observation. The girl may have been flipping through a book and I'd ask her if it was any good. Or in the Hot Topic I'd ask if she liked this particular band or not. If I was approaching a girl just as we were walking down a busy street I would be more direct by saying something among the lines of "excuse, do you have a sec? I know this is kinda random, but I just saw you as I was walking, and I wanted to come say hi". Eye contact and a smile is also being used in all these scenarios. Dealing with the anxiety - The key thing I've learned so far is that getting rejected is not the end of the world. It's honestly pretty liberating when you get knocked back and realize there was nothing to worry about. You learn it doesn't faze you and that you should be proud for actually having the balls to even take a shot at all. Approach without knowing what to say - The best approaches I had were the ones were I acted first before thinking. It's better to let go and trust yourself that you can just flow into a conversation. Making observations - When asking questions like "what do you do" or "do you like x or y", I found it didn't do much just to be like "oh cool" or "oh I see". It felt more engaging to make guesses. e.g. if a girl had tattoo's and piercings I would say she seems like one of those 'ex-goths' and she'd laugh a little. Light teasing and common ground - If a girl told me something about herself I'd generally either do some playful teasing over it or find a way to relate to her in some way. e.g. a girl mentioned to me she was going to get dinner later with a friend out in a restaurant, when I asked her whether she worked or was studying she said she was a student. Since students here are on a tight budget I teased her by going "ha, as if you could afford a dinner out in the city". Or I could've said something like "oh you're eating there? I love their food! I make that stuff at home" if I chose to try and be relatable in some way. Out of the 30 or so girls I've approached I've not been able to get a number or a date yet. The only thing that's happened so far was me and one girl ended up making out while I was out in a club.
My favorite approach so far was probably with this one girl I saw while walking down the busy street - her looks blew me away (an alt girl with tattoo's, dyed white hair and some piercings). Without thinking about it I had waved as we were walking past each other. I stood in front of her and while making eye contact I went "I just wanted to say, you're very pretty" and she went to me "oh thank you! so are you!". While it didn't go anywhere (she said she had to keep moving and I just thanked her and moved on), I remember the massive confidence boost I felt. When you do these approaches you'll get counter-evidence to any limiting beliefs you have about yourself.
I'm on the spectrum and I've lived most of my life being super logical and flat and my social skills suffered as a result, but I'm trying to make up for that now.
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People are Extremely Selfish
People are Extremely SelfishOf course.
Contemplate why you feel anything negative ever. What is the purpose?
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People are Extremely Selfish
People are Extremely SelfishAll negative emotional reactions are selfishness.
Why else would you have them?
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Struggling With 5-MeO-DMT Breakthroughs Despite Very High Plugged Doses
Struggling With 5-MeO-DMT Breakthroughs Despite Very High Plugged DosesI've reached a point in my spiritual journey where I'm sincerely questioning what the fuck is wrong.
I’ve been seriously trying to break through for a long time, and I want to give you the full picture so you can see my situation clearly.
Substance & ROA:
– 5-MeO-DMT freebase, dissolved in vinegar
– Plugged, following Leo’s plugging protocol exactly
– Same batch and method used by two of my close friends — both broke through easily
– Onset is fast (1–3 min), peak hits hard, and the entire experience fades after ~20 min
– Body load is intense, especially dry heaving, but no nausea (empty stomach)
Doses attempted:
– Past: up to 30 mg
– Current streak: 20 → 35 → 40 → 45 → 53(!) mg plugged
At these levels, I assume a breakthrough should be happening, given my friends’ results.
Phenomenology:
– Extremely heavy body load
– Very intense sensations
– Strong alteration of state
– But “I” remain coherent and do not “break through”
– After ~20 min the peak is over, then the experience fades over the next hour.
My mind during the peak:
– There is still a sense of agency
– I catch myself subtly monitoring the experience (“is it happening?”)
– When I notice this, I relax it
– No major fear during the peak (just pre-trip anxiety because high doses are uncomfortable)
– Experience is mostly abstract/intense, not visionary
My psychedelic background:
– Extensive LSD use (many trips, though not always serious)
– Mushrooms, ketamine, ayahuasca, MDMA, DXM
– I’ve had one LSD breakthrough 3 months ago that felt meaningful, although I can see that it goes a lot deeper. I became conscious of the distinction between actuality and imagination, unity, and that time/people/places are imagined — but there was a subtle sense of I throughout.
– Basically: I have never had a full ego death on any psychedelic, despite many attempts
My spiritual practice background:
– Started 10 years ago, at the age of ~18 when I found Leo
– Meditation, self-inquiry, Hatha Yoga, Kriya Yoga
– Two 10-day Vipassana retreats
– I've had many distracted periods and some periods of 1–3 months with daily practice (30–60 min)
– Read and listened to quite a lot of spiritual stuff (Ralston etc.)
– Watched all of Leo’s videos at least once
– Plenty of breathwork
– No major nondual breakthroughs outside psychedelics
My mind’s baseline nature:
– Highly conceptual, analytical, active
– I’m intelligent and curious, easily pulled into thought
– Concentration meditation has always been difficult
– My mind tracks things automatically, even when I try to relax it
My emotional orientation:
– I don’t fear the breakthrough
– My real fear is: “What if it never happens for me?”
– After 10 years of trying, I don’t know what else to do
– There’s a deep longing for Truth / God / direct realization
– I feel confused why I’m not progressing despite consistent effort and very high doses
– At this point, I'm really longing for guidance because I can't seem to proceed on my own
My question:
Given this entire picture —
why am I not breaking through, even at 45–53 mg plugged?
Is this purely psychological resistance?
Epistemic resistance?
Energetic block?
Something about my baseline consciousness?
Or something about how my mind “grips” experience even at high doses?
Any insights would be massively appreciated.
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Deconstructing Rationality - Part 1 - New Video
Deconstructing Rationality - Part 1 - New VideoYes, that is part of it. Sense of self, reality, and sanity are all interconnected.
This series does not tackle the sanity question. That's a topic for another day.
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Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread
Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread@Daniel Balan Lenin was extremly pig-headed and combative, which was the clear red flag with him.
His obnoxious, angry, and dogmatic attitude even towards his fellow socialist intellectual commrades revealed his true character. Lenin was a nasty, power-hungry, Machiavellian character. Nothing good can come from a character like that even if all his criticisms of capitalism were theoretically sound.
At the end of the day you just have to be a good judge of human character. It should be obvious that guys like Lenin, Stalin, Hitler, Trump have rotten, devilish character, which overrides any ideology or theory.
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Spiral Dynamics Book
Spiral Dynamics BookHis books go beyond Spiral Dynamics.
Integral Psychology Integral Spirituality
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Owen Cook: How to be an Executor!
Owen Cook: How to be an Executor!If Owen has an abundance mindset then surely there is no scarcity for his products and services, right? There is no need to act like his pickup teachings are about to expire.
A subtle example of how business corrupts the integrity of one's mind.
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Trying Out a 4-Substituted Tryptamine & More
Trying Out a 4-Substituted Tryptamine & MoreTHCA isolate is also extremely cheap. You can buy a lifetime supply for $100.
It is the ideal chemical. People who buy/smoke weed are conformist idiots.
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Pause on the blog ?
Pause on the blog ?No. I deliberately try not to, so their limited human ideas don't limit my mind.
I am at a pioneering level now, so I have to go alone into the uncharted alien swamps.
I still research stuff and an open to ideas from others. But I do not follow their work as if it were true.
This is necessary for true innovation. You have to stop following others because by follwing you can never exceed them.
That is a huge topic.
But very simply, there are many so-called enlightened people who still misunderstand reality in various ways and hold false beliefs. So clearly enlightenment does not solve the core epistemic problem. And beyond that, there is much higher consciousness and understanding than enlightenment. And beyond enlightenment is personal development. Developing yourself is a distinct pursuit. Awakening & mystical experience is not cognitive development, nor does it give you the kind of life you want.
There are many important development topics which do not fall under Awakening. Like relationships or career development or business or art.
And none of this even mentions the Alien aspects of Consciousness.
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Reflecting on my relationship to this forum...
Reflecting on my relationship to this forum...It makes sense that women in underdeveloped nations are more stereotypically feminine since that's the only role afforded to them by collective survival conditions. The less developed the more women are playing the role of baby machine.
Gender has a large performative aspect. You are feminine just by virtue of having 5 babies and not working a 9-5 office job.
Lower development has stronger gender roles as survival is harder and requires more specialization.
Having 10 babies is a full time career, not a weekend hobby like in the West.
The local cultures also reflect these norms, further deepening them.
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I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine men
I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine menThat's why a real man doesn't care if he doesn't have a girlfriend.
The problem is you aren't going all the way. You want the goodies.
If you want the goodies then you gotta jump through the hoops like a poodle to get them.
Instead of having a girlfriend I created Actualized.org, and it's better than any girlfriend could be.
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I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine men
I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine menNo. This is how a serious man is.
Think of a Zen master. That is a real man. Not some pickup clown.
The truth is that a real man doesn't make his life around chasing club bitches.
A real man does such serious things that he doesn't have time for games, flirting, and galavanting with drunk fools.
Marcus Aurelius, that is a real man. These pickup guys are truamatized sex-obssessed children.
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on death
on deathDeath IS Infinity!
That's where you end up. You don't die, you become infinitely conscious.
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The Psychology of Being Right
The Psychology of Being RightBut what makes 1+1=2 true and certain?
Really contemplate this matter deeply. It is not a simple direct experience. You don't experience numbers per se.
A political view is such a high-order thing that it can never be guaranteed correct. Political views are not correlated with any particular facts or experiences.
There just is no such thing as a "correct" political worldview. Although there are many bad ones.
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Why is that so?
Why is that so?Then they get laid more, but otherwise they remain fools.
Combination of genetics, bad education, and bad culture.
You virtually have no role-models of real philosophers. Even in university there are no real philosophers as role-models.
The entire culture is anti-philosophical and anti-truth. It is like trying to swim against the current of the Amazon river. You almost have no chance unless you are uniquely motivated. Everyone is lost in the survival pressure-cooker and doesn't even know there is anything else.
Humans who have transcended survival are extremely rare.
Humanity is a herd of sheep.
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Why is that so?
Why is that so?Yes.
Because truth is the only thing that's real. Everything else is human illusions.
Living properly all boils down to truth. You can't fake this with human BS. Which is why the Greeks pursued philosophy.
Without philosophy you are just an animal.
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I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine men
I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine menIf by masculine you mean stoic, serious, unexpressive, unemotional, untalkative, and logical -- then yes, this will kill all your results with women.
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John Anthony's channel taken down
John Anthony's channel taken downThere is not much new in game. Everyone took ideas from others and naturals.
Owen stole the techniques of naturals who he mirrored like a monkey.
I talked to the natural who Owen stole techniques from. He was very upset at Owen for not crediting him.
"Hand of God" was one of those stolen technques.
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I Am Behind The Eyes
I Am Behind The EyesThe feeling of being centered inside your head is imagined. It is necessary to construct the sense that you are a human organism.
That sense gets unimagined in higher states, and at death it is lost entirely, freeing you to be Omnipresent.
If you felt Omnipresent, you couldn't form the human organism identity. You would feel surreal, dissociated, and not a solid entity. You would also lose sanity.
A big part of your sanity is that you imagine you are a biological organism with a singular identity. You don't mistake yourself with a goat. But this is actually false. You are a goat.
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Deconstructing Rationality Coming Soon
Deconstructing Rationality Coming SoonNo one ever renounces reason, they just use reason to rationalize whatever they want. Which is what all rational people do.
Notice that every lunatic has his reasons. The biggest lunatics are rational.
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I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine men
I don't care what people say, women DO NOT like masculine menLike I said, game is about learning how to act like a girl.
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Why can't I stop hurting every time I get rejected?
Why can't I stop hurting every time I get rejected?Just do it.
Stop asking how.
Stop thinking those thoughts. Do it and keep doing it until you stop thinking those thoughts.
I am not asking to stop all thinking. That is virtually impossible. I am just asking you to not indulge those thoughts by focusing on other things. This does not require some super Godly state.
You can't be hurt if you don't think hurtful thoughts. Catch yourself doing hurtful thoughts.
If you were out having fun all night you won't feel hurt if some girl refused to talk to you. You would brush it off and not even remember it. But you ruminate on it.
Obviously this will take lots of experience. You won't succeed in one weekend.
Your inner game is shit. It takes years of practice to build rock solid inner game. You go out each night and work on your inner game. Go out tomorrow and refuse to care how anyone reacts to you.
