Surrounding observers are part of your imagination.
If you put on sunglasses the world doesn't tint for everyone else.
Consciousness compartmentalizes itself, otherwise things would become a shitshow. How silly would it be if my putting on sunglasses tinted your world? That would spoil the illusion of objective reality. We could code a video game to work that way, but why?
You have to carefully think through the consequences of your imagined scenarios. Life has a very intelligent design. It is not some willy-nilly stuff that some idiot threw together. It is a design of utmost genius that allows for rich experiences like that of humans. This requires some serious design constraints.
The flaw in your thinking is not taking into account that your are currently putting enormous energy into imagining exactly your current reality. To enter a new reality you'd have to stop imaging this one.
If you fully imagined a new reality nothing would be left of the current one. That would basically be a totally new life. And then you would still ask, "But why can't I be in some 3rd reality?" You can! But then you lose the 2nd one. You can't be in two realities at once. You have to pick one, which means excluding all others.

You got your causality backwards.
That's what low consciousness egos do.
Narcissist != psychopath
Stage Red is not psychopathy. It just appears that way to higher stage people who lack the nuanced understanding of these complex issues.
It's all too easy to call dictators and strong-men psychopaths or "crazy" because the mind is looking for a way to dismiss them as so "other" as to be incomprehensible. But that's not the case. Stage Red explains Trump's actions quite well. Study Stage Red more.

When we inquire into the existential nature of a thing -- like in this case the notion of reproduction -- we do not limit ourselves by survival concerns. Rather, we go for what is true.
What is reproduction? That is the question. Do not corrupt this question with egoic fears.
If it is true that reproduction is an illusion, then that is what's true! Even if it means the whole human race will die out as a result of knowing it.
And of course it doesn't have to mean that at all. Good luck getting 7 billion people to stop fucking. Even the intelligent ones. Even the enlightened ones still manage to fuck like rabbits.

Nothing less will work.
So long as you are attached to needing to survive, you are enslaved to falsehood and all your actions will be corrupted by devilry.
This is what is really means to sell your soul to the devil. Your birth was the selling of your soul. Now you are in a struggle to get your soul back.
You sold your soul the day you said, "I am a human."
How does a devil scrub himself of himself?

To die!
Hehehe...
You are never going to think your way out of the illusion of death. You must experience what is on the other side of death.

A deeply religious man who spent his whole life studying the Bible hears a knock on his door.
He asks, "Who is it?"
"It's God. Open up. I have come to show you the way."
"Oh wow! This is amazing! But please come back next week, I'm really busy right now reading about you in this Bible."

Of course! How else could it be?
This is the fundamental nature of knowledge/science.
You're damned if you do but you're even more damned if you don't.
Hold ideas loosely, is the key.

Because the alternative is often worse.
Commitment just means you're not a selfish child who runs away at the first sign of trouble or something better on the horizon.
It's not different than commitment to a business plan or showing up on time to a meeting. It's hard to create anything worthwhile in life without a commitment. Try executing any major project without a serious commitment. See how far you get.
You couldn't even keep a hamster without a commitment.

1) The story it tells
2) How it shows up in your consciousness, its being
If you had a thought in a foreign language which you did not understand the sounds would register in your consciousness (that's the actuality or being of a thought) but it would have no meaning/content/story.
速い茶色のキツネが怠zyな犬を飛び越えた
That sentence has being for you but no meaning (unless you know Japanese).
Notice that being is what's primary while meaning is secondary. You can have being without meaning but you cannot have meaning without being.

No reading on retreat!
The point of a retreat is to break your attachment to symbolic reality.

Jerking off into napkin is killing a billion lives.
Having a period is killing a life.
Surviving an infection is killing millions of microscopic lives.
See the arbitrariness and self-bias of how your ego-mind draws its boundaries.
Pro-lifers are stuck because they refuse to admit the relativity of morality. And nothing you say will change their mind because they are not interested in seeking truth, they are interested in defending their beliefs.
What people don't want to admit is that all evil is imaginary and invented by the ego for the purpose of its survival. Evil is falsehood.

No, men are not being oppressed. The ego just perceives equalizing as oppression because a self-biased mind doesn't see a difference.
If you owned slaves 200 years ago your ego-mind would perceive abolition as unfair and oppressive. Because it is from the POV of a slave owner. The slave owner feels fully entitled to own slaves. To take way his slaves would appear to him as robbery or debasement of the natural order.
Equality is a radical thing. It means the ego has to surrender what it has taken for granted as its own.
It is a projection of a low consciousness mind that if it gives up domination it will be dominated by those who complained about being dominated by it. The key is to realize that those you dominated may not be interested in dominating you back, they just want a non-dominating dynamic on all sides.

If you ever die in your dreams you should notice that you still exist as nothingness afterwards.
That should be your clue that you cannot actually die.

Women had less rights because for the majority of mankind's evolution the state of consciousness was so low that physical force determined rights and power hierarchies. Survival was unbelievably brutal and physical. The strongest dominated the weakest and established "rights" and rules which served them.
But now we are starting to move away from brutal animalistic survival and now the physical strength difference between men and women is becoming less and less important.
It is not a matter of men deciding to give women rights, but rather the entire species is evolving in consciousness and society is developing hard and soft infrastructure which allows for non-violent means of existence. This is not a process anyone controls. Men do not control it. Both men and women are puppets of larger evolutionary forces which drive the entire universe towards greater consciousness and love. Those who are physically weaker are treated with more compassion. This is true not just of women but children, the sick, the disabled, the mentally ill, animals, the environment, etc.
Once you are conscious enough it is no longer tenable to dominate others even if you happen to be physically bigger or stronger than them. It hurts your own consciousness to do so. Ego is slowly realizing the existential equality of all beings by looking past the material differences -- which are not fundamentally important.
Rather than seeing all this as a fight for rights, see it as an expansion of consciousness, love, and self-identity.
If you were highly conscious and had high Self-Love, you would not have a desire to dominate anyone, even if it gave you some temporary material gain. The material gain is inferior to Selflessness.

Love is EVERYTHING.
It doesn't matter what feeling you have or choice you make. That is the point. The ego sets conditions on love to suit its survival because it's biased. But love is not limited to that. Love is unlimited, infinite, and unconditional. Whether you understand that is another matter.

@lukmi
1) How many times did this happen exactly? Two times? That doesn't necessarily mean anything. Could just be a fluke. Although it is a bit odd.
2) Learn to provide amazing sex and girls will be begging you to go exclusive with them. Seems like your sex is missing the dominance and newness components. For sex to be good, you have to find ways to keep it new. Don't be doing the exact same routine every time. Fuck her in the restaurant bathroom once in a while. Etc. Get creative. Dominance is also important. Drive up the masculine/feminine polarity. Make her feel feminine so she is satisfied.
You can also up your value as a man. As you become more successful, more confident, more humorous, more wise, more healthy, etc. all this will massively attract her to you. She should see you as a one-of-a-kind catch. She should feel like she won the lottery in dating you.

India simply lacks basic high-quality governmental infrastructure to sustain peace between all those tribes: court systems, roads, uncorrupted police, bridges, toilets, parks, meat inspections, etc. All of that must be built up before Stage Green can emerge in a significant way.
There cannot be Stage Green if 200 million people are still wiping their ass with their bare hands like they did 5,000 years ago.
The function of government is to solve such logistical challenges. By solving such challenges egos are pacified and there can be talk of higher consciousness values. Otherwise people behave like animals.

By becoming a passionate musician today you ARE setting an example for generations to come.
The example must be set way early. These are seeds that must be planted hundreds of years in advance. Just like how the seed for democratic government had to be planted some 2500 years ago by the Greeks. Those seeds are still just sprouting.
Don't wait to plant the seed.
That is the point of automation. That is why automation is a very good and important trend. Automation frees up mankind to pursue their passions without needing to do grunt work. Most people simply don't understand this yet because living a passionate life is scary -- it takes a lot more responsibility and consciousness.

Of course your Spiral Stage totaly depends on where and when you were born.
If you were born into Hitler's shoes, you'd be precisely Hitler. This is so obvious it should go without saying, yet people are in such denial about it that they manage to overlook this obvious fact.
Nothing whatsoever seperates you from the most evil people who ever lived. The ego is that imagined seperation.

No, it's not conscious. It's a lack of consciousness. It's self-bias, closemindedness, ego, and just how Stage Blue cognition works.
He is genuine in his beliefs. Basically all people are genuine in their ignorance.
From Ben Shaprio's POV, he's helping the world be a better place, he's acting from love -- like all people. But since his self-awareness is quite low, his love ends up being very selfish and partial. It's not really his fault. All evil is simply lack of consciousness. Which is why evil doesn't really exist. It is just misdirected love.
Here you must distinguish between the intelligence required to think within the box of society vs the intelligence of truly original thinking.
To earn a law degree you don't need to do any original thinking, you just need to be very good at following the rules and orders that society has laid out for you. You need to be a good soldier. Which is what Stage Blue excels at. Stage Blue is great at being meticulously conformist. If you need to hire someone to make sure that concentration camps operate like well-oiled machines, you hire a nice conformist boy like Ben Shaprio to manage it for you. He will do it without asking any questions. This was in fact how Nazi Germany was run.
Nothing strange about it. Every political position can be criticized from above or below, not just left vs right. You can be anti-interventionist from above or below. For example, you could believe that it's wrong to start a war in the Middle East because they are low-life savages who don't even deserve to fight the noble white man. But such anti-interventionism is further from Stage Green anti-interventionism than wanting to invade the Middle East to steal their oil. One would first have to evolve in consciousness just to see the Middle East as a worthwhile place to steal oil from, and only then one might evolve further in consciousness to actually care about the lives and interests of Middle Easterners as much as white lives and interests.
You can be opposed to war for the wrong reasons. What matters most is not the fact that you oppose war, but what level of consciousness you're seeing the situation from. You might oppose war because you're to fearful of getting drafted. But that is a selfish perspective which is very different from opposing war because you're conscious of the suffering it would cause the "enemy".
The true problem with the Middle East wars is not that it hurts America's interests, but that it creates suffering for innocent and powerless people in the Middle East. It's like kicking a wounded dog and blaming the dog.

If every human took a shit in the same room, we'd all be dead.
Nothing material scales infinitely. Everything has to be in proportion in a complex society.
The mistake in your logic is that you assume that following your passion means that this should scale across 7 billion people. But of course it won't, simply because 95% won't ever even hear the advice, let alone follow it, so it's not something to worry about.
Following your passion is advice aimed at 5% of the population. And that is workable. And by the time 5% of the population is following their passion, that will open the doors for another 5% to do the same, and so on, until one day we can have 50%+ people doing it, and maybe some day 90%+. But this will take many generations.
You can be a musician precisely because most people have no interest in being musicians because they are not wired like you. Probably less than 1% of people in the world would choose to be a musician if they have total freedom to do whatever they wanted.
For example, human civilization would collapse if everyone became enlightened overnight. Which is precisely why it will never happen. Enlightenment is very rare precisely because it needs to be rare in order for civilization to sustain itself. But this is irrelevant if you are the one who knows awakening is your thing.

This applies all the way up and down the chain of life.
If a Unified World Government seems unlikely or impractical, just remember that 2000 years ago the idea of a country was crazy because there were only walled city-states. And 2 billion years ago, the idea of multicellular organisms was crazy because there were only single-celled organisms eating each other.
For a human body to exist, single-celled organisms had to learn to cooperate with each other despite having their own selfish agendas.
This is a game that life has played out for 2 billion years.

Every US general and secretary of defense is a war criminal by the US's own logic.
Of course top military leaders mastermine the deaths of thousands of people. That is their job.
By the US's own logic, all top US officials are justified to be assassinated for their military planning. That's how absurdly self-biased the position is.

JP carefully avoids serious discussions of policy. He's focused on culture wars to distract from real issues like corporate corruption, environmental destruction, military-industrial complex, gross income inequality, gerrymandering, voter suppression, suppression of unions, anti-trust violations, etc.
Because in his world these are not important issues. His world revolves around silly happenings on college campuses. You can't make a good career out of talking about serous policy issues. It's much easier to make a career out of being a cultural warrior who wages a lesser Jihad.
The fundamental conservative position is that things are basically fine if we just return to the way things were and stop rocking the boat with progressive ideas. The need for structural reform isn't evident to them because they are busy defending the system to which they have hitched their identity.
A Christian doesn't see a need to reform Christianity, he sees the evils of Islam instead.
A scientists doesn't see a need to reform science, he sees the evils of religion instead.
A democrat doesn't see a need to reform the democrat party, he sees the evils of republicans instead.
This is classic self-deception: create a distraction by projecting the problem outward at some scapegoat. Meanwhile, no deep self-reflection is done and no real internal structure change is made -- which his exactly what the ego wants.
JP doesn't want to seriously investigate the structural limitations of capitalism. So he scapegoats liberals as Neo-Marxists which creates a loud flashy sideshow that draws in a crowd of mouth-breathers who also have no interest in a deep analysis of capitalism. As that would actually require some mental and emotional labor. It would be scary and unsettling to admit that maybe you are part of a corrupt and mindless capitalist regime that perpetuates the needless suffering of millions. Especially if that regime earns you good money and feeds your children.

Your issue is more basic than meditation. Meditation is not going to fix your neediness because you're not at a level of development yet where you can even take meditation seriously.
The advice for you is: work on your isolation, learn to socialize, build social skills, develop friends, develop dating skills, have sex, and THEN meditation will help you reach higher levels.
Meditation is not a shortcut for avoiding learning basic survival skills like dating, making money, proper diet, etc. Meditation is a rather advanced skill for people who have already become proficient at survival and want to reach the next level.
Once you've had a bunch of sex and made a bunch of money, then you ask, "Okay, what's next?" That's where meditation starts to look appealing.
Don't assume that. Most people here don't meditate or meditate so ineffectively that they might as well be watching TV.
Serious meditation is a rare skill that very few people practice.
And meditation takes years to pay off.