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    14 minutes ago, jbram2002 said:

    100% agree with this. It's one of the things I dislike most about this forum, and also with the cult-like religion that's starting to sprout from it. Group pressure is something that doesn't really affect me much, but I know it strongly affects a lot of people. I can almost guarantee people have gotten hurt directly from Leo's advertisement of psychedelics.

    i don’t have a problem with pantheism if you are referring to that, i think awakening enlightenment and spirituality can be seen in a certain way and are congruent with what i‘ve experienced before - but psychedelic drugs are not obligatory to it. i‘ve read an article about psylicobin being tested against depression and i think other psychedelics can be mindopening and kickstarting creative thinking - leo also said in several discussions that everything has to be integrated - i just don’t believe people really do it. joseph did it and some people here do it. there are some guys who really go deep into it. the problem is if people are not developed enough to integrate it they just integrate more ego, instead of going deeper they get more shallow, imposing that onto others. there is so much empty hollow orange spirituality in this world - just have a look on facebook.

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    4 hours ago, mandyjw said:

    Can you make love? Can you make space?

    well i don’t know if it’s proper english but of course, we can create space. well in an absolute sense we can’t because space has always been there, but if space is taken you have to remove what‘s already filling it to make space for something new. we can also create space for things to happen, like a forum. we can create narrow space and huge space and small space and space of different kinds of moods for different things to happen in them. i try at the moment. but still no answers...

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    17 minutes ago, Devansh Saharan said:

    OK time wasted is time gone, no problem nothing can be done now, more you'll think about that wastage more you'll waste and so on and so on.

    But when I make good choices, when start working on, in very subtle ways and very subtle decisions do so, everything is fine. Then this Immense wave of regret kicks in for me, that things are working good now and maybe the decisions I made now could've been made a month, 6 months, an year ago. Its really, simply depressing and no matter what logic and explanations I impose on myself I just can't stop this. 

    What should I do? 

    hahaha - aren‘t you lucky! most people start to regret when things start to go wrong. enjoy that it’s going right for you! if you could have done it then you probably would have, because you didn’t it showes you couldn’t. maybe when you stop regretting you will regret that you didn’t stop earlier. or you realize you should have regretted earlier.

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    On 25.6.2018 at 8:58 AM, now is forever said:

    sharing some songs from the past, just thought about oldschool hip hop and how it is so different from what we listen to now. here is one from a german group, with friends from overseas. well it‘s an international album mostly in german, from 1999 straight to the now called esperanto.

     

    i deleted a post of alt-j in the same thread and wanted to have a look about what new stuff they did and stumbled upon this, it came out later in 2018:

    it’s kind of weird. the ending is horrible. it’s the supersale of emotions.

    in this world of person-machine interaction we have to make sure the machine becomes us not we become the machine. we are dynamic entities, all our holes are connected. 

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    6 minutes ago, billiesimon said:

    Yes, I want to protect myself from othe suffering, because this scenario has caused me a lot of suffering in the recent weeks. 

    She appreciates my friendship, but she doesn't seem very attached to me.

    I can guarantee you that she will not miss me. I'm not an important person to her, she just finds me a nice person.

    if you are so sure about it then why risk the friendship? although it sounds a little toxic, too. the person might not be, but she’s toxic for you. what about going on distance? do you think she would care?

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    10 minutes ago, billiesimon said:

    @Emerald could you elaborate on this?

    Would you want to keep a man you really really like as a friend even though he rejected you and dates other women? 

    you wanting to quit the friendship is probably because you want to protect yourself - you will hurt her with that, because she probably really likes you as a friend. maybe you can take some distance from her... but the question is would you rather not see her ever again or stay friends? can’t you try making a move on her without asking her out? it would probably work out better if it developed naturally. i think the chances are higher if you start playing with the friendship aspect instead of asking her to show flag.

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    some parents love all children, without investing time into them. but they still love their children more because they waited for them and they know that they are everything the child has to survive on the world - it’s not about the time invested... really it’s about being allowed to love another being completely and being loved unconditionally - because that’s what children do. how can it be the time someone invested in their children? it’s the heart invested, the smiles and worries and love feeling into another beings needs.

    but not every parent is born a parent. some parents don’t know how to be loved unconditionally. how to not reject.

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    On 10.6.2018 at 6:58 AM, Faceless said:

    @Joseph Maynor

    What if there is really only one insight?

    What if by us continuing in the direction of time (psychological becoming) we are preventing that one major insight that ends the movement of time altogether? 

    What if the reason there are so many partial insights is because each of those insights is fragmented and a movement of duality? 

    Could there be only One whole insight? 

    What is insight? Is insight gained through the accumulation of knowledge, experience, memory? 

    Something that may interest you buddy:)

     

    On 10.6.2018 at 8:39 AM, now is forever said:

    and what if there is no time? only process only space? and literally we might never reach light speed. 

    what if your brain activity would just look like a river from above (if you could look inside) and a thought is really nothing else than a thunderstorm?

    that's how time stands still, in the earth and we are processing on it, no past no future just like that only now.

    that's the most logic for myself. but i won't prove it, i'm happy that i  came to that conclusion some years ago - makes life so much easier. in the end we still only know that we don't know.

    (hope i didn't spill the beans, by the way luke skywalker is darth vaiders son) ? just worked for me and is only a possible solution.

    for me it worked well because i understood every moment is just one chance - if it's gone it's gone, if i hesitate the chance is gone. but what i achieve now, change now will last as a small change forever. it is a help for decision making.

    will you just watch or get involved? and do something meaningful for another?

     

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    1 hour ago, CreamCat said:

    I feel infinite love God has poured into creating all the beautiful city structures and every person.
    It's the labor of infinite love.

    When I look at my computer screen, I feel infinite love that's gone into my computer system.
    Open source programmers make programs out of love. CPUs were designed out of infinite love of engineers.

    I also feel infinite love from the efforts I put into optimizing my petty human life. There's also infinite love in the way I configured my computer system.
    I feel a great deal of love from my efficient task management system that I spent many hours to create.
    I feel self-love. If you think you are not loved, you should try to feel self-love that you put into your creations.

    i love you for this ? it’s not unconditional though. i love you for the open source part for example. but much more i love you because you love it.

    taskmanagement system sounds interesting by the way.

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    14 hours ago, kieranperez said:

    What if I, you, we have a Will? It’s not free. Yet we still have a Will? So it’s not that we don’t have Will, it’s that we don’t have free will.

    Was wondering this after @Leo Gura video on the Purpose of Life and Becoming God...

    I also wonder about this because you’ll notice if you ask very deeply enlightened masters, they don’t give you a single “yes” or “no”. It tends to be a “yes” and “no”. 

    i=you=we have the will to be aligned. it’s not completely free as long as we follow blindly. that’s why groups or egos develop. will is not free from the beginning although it has the choice to free itself. it can learn to be a salmon. but therefore it must know the streaming direction.

    don’t let someone tell you there is a wrong question as long as you find the right answer there is no wrong question although, the answer might be wrong most likely the worse a question is formulated!

    there are no dumb questions only dumb answers.

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    On 9.6.2018 at 11:22 PM, now is forever said:

    @Leo Gura group pressure is something  really massive, you understand your roll don't you?

    don't want to moralize here, just want you to be careful. you are the center of this discussion.

    i also came here because i was aware that the use of drugs is not for everyone, also making a cult out of drugs is group pressure. it always was. it’s not much better doing it on an online forum than any other group pressure. i also got the proof that it’s just an ego game now, because i also see that it’s spiral backwards for some people. from green into solid orange.

    it‘s difficult to find a synthesis in this as there has to be a pulling for the closed minded, but what about the inhibition for the ones who feel themselves supported in their addiction for egoic reasons alone?

    that‘s actually what weed does it inhibits the inhibitors. we can act like drugs with advertisement and group pressure. weed is a more sedative drug. and so is the support of addiction to ego, it gets pushed towards ego not towards higher self.

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    On 9.6.2018 at 10:13 PM, now is forever said:

    ok, what about the other way round? what about questioning them while taking them?

    i know that you can get some insights, because i took psychedelics in my youth and had near death experience. but nothingness experience you can have without it. even infinity is something you can experience without them (maybe only by taking them in advance) but at some point isn't it better to stop? a lot of my friends had a really rough time, because they couldn't stop or they got lost on the way. i stopped taking drugs when i turned 18. and still am happy i did. though i never forget what i was able to see.

    all i want to say is: the craving mind can be delusional, too. 

    hahaha i came here because i where not ok with the way drugs where advertised by leo, i also came here because people who experience the dark night of the soul need some support. i don’t even know if the drug advertisement got better, it’s not advertised as the sole path to enlightenment anymore. at least that. it’s good that the talk about the how’s and when’s got more reasonable, too. so there is nothing more to do actually, i already gave my best.

    yesterday i realized again why i don’t like weed for example, i tried it again because it was available and i watched what it does. the pictures that it produced where often weird and ugly- it really changes the way of thinking and people i experienced who smoke weed get some weird ego based attitudes after a while, even get more aggressive than others. although cbd and such are probably nice products.

    before we are able to use drugs as medicine we need to get rid of their myths first. i appreciated it greatly that the advertising always aimed towards drugs without high addiction rates. or well researched drugs more used as psychopharmakon. 

    so i‘m not against using drugs to alter the state of mind - but i‘m against taking them regularly if there is no other reason in taking them than being addicted. the addicted ego always finds an excuse. 

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    23 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

    Love is forgiveness, not support, in fact sometimes it completely flies in the face of things that are not love. 

    "Jesus entered the temple courts and drove out all who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves." Matthew 21:12

    no love is not always forgiveness. obviously this didn’t happen out of forgiveness but out of principles - i don’t know mandy. i‘m tired of talking about it. but yes principles are often a result of love, question is with what kind of love they are aligned with.

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    19 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

    @now is forever I'm not sure but I think that was true about them and is true of us all. We set an intention to love. We can't forgive the world if we can't also forgive ourselves for not being able to love it all the time. 

    loving the world doesn’t mean that we can’t be sad or that we can’t choose rejecting to go along with how it imposes itself onto us. loving the world doesn’t mean to support reasons we can’t support because they are counterproductive to our principles and therefore to our integrity.

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    8 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

    @now is forever That's not true, Abraham Lincoln, Martin Luther King and Jesus all had open hearts as they went around the world. Let's not say what else they have in common, ok?

    yes but i‘m not one of them. far, far away from being or wanting to be like that. my heart is more vulnerable - i am not that forgiving as i still am a person who needs to forgive the world sometimes for being like it is. i‘m not all accepting, i also want the world to be in a certain way but i‘m not like that. there is only a hand full of people who can open their hearts like that.   and others who need a protected surrounding for it.

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    @Zigzag Idiot i‘m very thankful for that! i just want to remind you that a complete heartopening always only happens in a protected space/frame - there is a reason why people chose to found monasteries or why gurus need followers to protect them. there is another way, a way of hiding it away. and there is a point where we must accept choices people make, because self- determination is a human right. in an absolute sense it is the right to live or to die - reasons are ultimately a matter of metaphysics.

    it is only a yes, no, maybe because i am forced to delete all of them by hand. and i can’t do that without attachment as i lived through a very intense time while writing them. as i tried to convey what my heart told me. i don’t want to leave data behind but it takes me hours to delete it - and my voice is not being heard, or is heard but not being answered to. even frustration is gone, what remains is sadness and the wish it could be easier to be allowed to retreat, from this space i have inflated myself into. i just want to vanish. i don’t want to be understanding, describing or motivating anymore. yes it’s a deep melancholy about being not disappointed as i tend to be a sceptic, now more than ever before.

    you probably talk about something else so never mind. my mind is preoccupied with leaving.