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@Clarence Thanks for everything! ❤️

@Clarence Reading that, I had an affinity. I can generate the feeling you are talking about by having my male body but taking on a female identity and a subtle body. So it's kind of the opposite of the experiment you suggested. This experiment had never occurred to me before because the one you suggested is so logical. It creates a mismatch with my physical body that makes me uncomfortable and makes me want to get breast implants and chop of my dick. So I understand body dysmorphia now. Thank you so much for answering so many of my personal questions. This was very insightful.

I hope this is fictional because it would be so bizarre and funny if this were someone's hobby. I'd personally find this dehumanizing, but I think this wouldn't bother a more secure person.

I've tried this. I'd feel uncomfortable with how other people would see me, but in my fantasies, I wouldn't have a problem with having a female body in private. Maybe I'm wrong, or perhaps I'm a bit more feminine than most guys, so I'd react differently. Do you feel the same way: uncomfortable with how you are perceived but okay with your body in private? There is a gross and a subtle body. The gross body is the one we see and touch. The subtle body is a psychological overlay that is on top of the gross body. It's our feeling of our bodies. It contains energy and emotions. Shadow limbs are when the subtle body has body parts that the gross body doesn't, like how people still feel they have arms after their arms are cut off. We can create the sensation that we move our bodies without actually moving our bodies. Vividly feel yourself curling your fist without actually doing it. Using the subtle body is how astral projection is done. Do you have a tangible understanding of the difference between the gross and subtle body? If so, is your experience of transgenderism a missmatch between your gross and subtle body? Do you have a phantom limb where you feel your dick should be? When I imagine myself having a girl's body, I think I'm changing my subtle body. I can vividly imagine how i'd be like to be fucked while having a vagina and I like that feeling. I don't seem to be able to adequately imagine myself with a female gross body with my male subtle body. Maybe that's the reason why I can't generate the uncomfortable feeling you are talking about.

@Clarence I'm only attracted to women. I'm a switch, so I both like dominating and being dominated. I like being dominated by girls with dicks and strapons in my fantasy. I'm a virgin, so maybe I'm more vanilla irl. I'm only attracted to female bodies, but like both feminine and masculine energy. I think this gives me insight into the nature of femininity and masculinity. Are you attracted to power dynamics? If so, do you have a preference for who is in power? I wish I could be trans for a day so I could understand it.

@Clarence Sexuality is a great window into masculinity and femininity. What are you attracted to? Let's clarify this question. An ideal is an amalgamation of all the greatest feminine or masculine qualities in one person, so it's usually not a particular person. Do you have a conception of a masculine and a feminine person? If so, do you have a conception of degrees of virtue and health for them? If so the highest virtue and health is the ideal. The feminine ideal for me is unconditionally loving in a nurturing way. She seeks to heal through empathy, intimacy and bonding. She has deep feeling-based wisdom. She respects the masculine prescription of logic but doesn't see it as very important for her own purpose. She always keeps telling me not to underestimate love. You'd think I'd have learned that lesson after years of reminders lol. My masculine ideal is primarily a strategist who's main purpose is to make good decisions for the benefit of all being using cutting logic and wisdom. He is unconditionally loving but isn't nurturing, rather, he seeks to help others by empowering them to help themselves. This is done primarily by teaching wisdom. He is a warrior with great precision if he has to be, but when it's not needed, he is joyful and playful.

Thank you so much for sharing that's interesting. I feel like a male because I identify with the masculine while the femenine feels like something external. When I try to connect with the femenine ideal an old wise, loving and nurturing woman comes to me. When I envision the masculine ideal I see the ideal version of myself, not someone else. What do you see when you look for the masculine or femenine ideals?

So fascinating. Can you share some insights into the male and female gender roles, having lived as both? What are pros and cons to how people treated you for both genders?

@Husseinisdoingfine Me hungry. Me eat. The end.

Jordan Peterson Louis CK Luna from Harry Potter Jirou from A Wind Rises Hayao Mizazaki Stirgill Simpson: Elon Musk (I hope he dies) Chuck Rhoads from billions I would put Leo on the list, but he doesn't represent a part of me. Instead, we are so similar that we are like half brothers. @Leo Gura I'm so curious what your list would be.

@Raze You are talking like we are still in the first Trump administration. What I'm talking about are terrifs, threatening annexation of Greenland and mishandling of Ukraine invasion.

MAGA and republicans will lose big in coming elections as long as Trump doesn't manage to steal them. This is a nightmare we need to get through for 4 years and then we will wake up and things will be back to somewhat normal. The USA's interest is maintaining the liberal order and being allies with the EU. Selfishness isn't steering the MAGA ship; stupidity is.

Integral is great at justifying centrism. That's what happens when analysing values and culture takes priority over analysing economics and class dynamics. In America, the economic analysis is that people aren't invested in nearly enough. The class analysis is that super wealthy people control the government and rig everything in their favor.

Good to see The Integral Stage on the blog. I have been a fan for 4 years.

@Davino There are many different ways for a stage to be toxic. Demonizing other stages is one of them. All tier 1 stages have that to some extent but some people are way worse than others. Another toxicity is how all tier 1 stages can be twisted by fear in particular ways. Beige becomes greedy and cowardly, Purple becomes hostile to outgroup, Red gets antisocial, blue becomes hateful of deviants etc.. All Tier 1 stages are driven by fear to some extent but some people more than others.