RendHeaven

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    2 hours ago, spinderella said:

    I wish I knew.  I intellectually feel like I have love for my parents and my cat and my friends, but, I don't have a feeling of secure love in my heart when I think about those things.  I feel more of a sense of sorrow - which I know sounds kind of sad, but it feels as if I don't trust the feeling of love.

    I love that.

    2 hours ago, spinderella said:

    It's as if I don't want to get to close to it, because I don't trust that it will stay.  But at the same time, I know intellectually that nothing is permanent.

    Ground your trust in impermanence. Then it becomes easy to love.

     

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    21 hours ago, thisintegrated said:

    Well, he can often seem very Orange/Yellow for someone claiming to be Turquoise

    He recently openly claimed to have a SD yellow bias.

    I don't think he's ever announced himself to be fully SD turquoise... careful with the accusations!

    21 hours ago, thisintegrated said:

    He's also way too serious!  If there's one problem with his videos and approach to everything, it's this.  And I don't think I need to explain what I mean..

    Excellent. This I agree with.

    20 hours ago, asifarahim said:

    This forum is very toxic to non psychidelic user.i have seem very intelligent,capable non druggie meditators leaving this forum because of how toxic it is for meditators

    I was a non-psychedelic user following Leo for nearly 4 years. I faired perfectly fine. Did the sober practices where they were called for.

    16 hours ago, The Buddha said:

    He understands love but does not embody it. Someone with his level of realization is almost always very much more kind, compassionate and loving towards others and all beings.

    INTP love looks different from more flashy, mainstream appearances of love.

     

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    On 5/14/2021 at 8:59 PM, diamondpenguin said:

    They say in this article https://medium.com/@sterlingcooley/coral-meme-spiral-dynamics-level-9-3db412799198 that it would be like red with the power-eccentric AI god kings

    Lmao I read this dude's post on SD turquoise and it completely misses the mark.

    Totally laughable.

    The author sounds SD stage orange tbh, thinking he understands higher consciousness but is not aware that he has to take his orange sunglasses off first and literally become turquoise before being able to say anything intelligent about it.

  13. Posted

    The more Truth-Realized I am, the less "lonely" I am (in any problematic sense).

    If I ever feel lonely in a way that feels problematic, I immediately know I am not aligned with the Truth.

    1 hour ago, RMQualtrough said:

    I think there is a natural inclination to, first of all, feel a sense of isolation when realizing your friends and family are you.

    Oh no! Ultimate Union, Connection, and Intimacy! Whatever shall I do about it!  ;)

    1 hour ago, RMQualtrough said:

    these experiences are permanent

    ???

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    46 minutes ago, Etherial Cat said:

    I'm hesitating to give you this information, but basically, the sooner you'll be out of a dynamic where they'll have control over your survival (house, bills, food) the better. Because a lot of your problems here are coming from the fact that you are kind of their prisoner. In another environment, you'd be doing far better.

    Also, you know. Your parents are totally unaware but they really do love you. It's just that they love you at their level of awareness and it doesn't meet your needs from where you are at.

    Yes yes yes yes yes

     

    @soos_mite_ah You're far stronger than you give yourself credit for.

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    2 hours ago, imhumaniswear said:

    Small, but potentially important things that are bothering me:

    1. My boyfriend isn't very occupied with actualization, and that's fine he doesn't have to be. However, when I feel the need to talk about something that's deep, spiritual or something that I've been struggling with when it comes to trying to build discipline I feel like he isn't able to understand me. I feel this disconnect between us. And it does upset me if I'm honest, but I don't know how to change this or if I should change this.
    2. He is against psychedelics. He doesn't stop me from using it, but he definitely guilt trips me if I use it.  I only use psychedelics as a tool for personal growth. I've also explained to him that these substances don't have any lasting physical effects on the body (which he was worried about, which is kind of ironic since he doesn't mind drinking alcohol). I even stopped using psychedelics for a while because of him. But since I have some free time on my hands, and he is going on a two-week vacation with his friend, I'm planning on using it again without telling him about it. I feel like I'm missing out on a lot by not letting myself experience these things. 

    LOL you're leagues better than him... he's dragging you down.