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  1. With regards to dating + relationships, or reality at large?
  2. I don't see this at all. Leo is far more integrated than whatever credit you give him. Of course his advice to struggling men will be within the confines of the status quo social game. You can't expect struggling men to "rise above" a crooked system while they're starved and hungry. Leo's advice is tailored. Don't equate him to his advice. We would see different advice from Leo if he were to answer the questions of a non-starving and fulfilled man. Unfortunately, we just never see this happening because fulfilled men don't come crawling onto online forums for help.
  3. @Raphael It's a stunning video. Highly recommend. @soos_mite_ah They're lonely and reaching out, not so different from you and I.
  4. I'm not a lady, but I'm relating strongly to a lot of the responses so far, so I'll add my story to the soup too, as encouragement. Currently, I have 2 guys that I'd consider very close friends. They are on their respective spiritual journeys and are startlingly mature for their age (20ish). I have a couple dozen more people that I hang out with regularly and bond with, but there's a sense that they will "never understand me" because they're not serious about contemplation and introspection the way I am. I often dumb myself down to vibe with these people. Aside from that, I loosely consider anybody that I interact with a "friend." I had an amazing 40 minute conversation with my uber drive today. Even though I'll never see him again, he felt like a "friend." At the end of the day though, I understand that even my 2 closest dudes are temporary. Furthermore, I only hold them in high regard insofar as they serve my egoic survival agenda (acceptance, being listened to and understood, they provide massive value to me through their presence, energy, and insights, etc.) Truly, they are not any more special than someone I feel unable to befriend. Being friends with all of humanity is my ultimate ideal, but fundamentally I'll always be alone, as are we all.
  5. this paradox/strange loop is "a feature not a bug" (as leo would say) It's hard to explain how what you wrote is perfect to someone who insists that it can only be either/or
  6. Right, so this is why I prefaced the statement with "past a certain point..." There are many useful distinctions early on that melt away the more Realized you become. Maybe she was suggesting with her answer that she was past the point of making "wokeness" distinctions.
  7. I've done this kind of male behavior before, many times. I didn't realize this gave y'all "Eww" sensations. I'm so glad you're spelling it out like that, it makes my future judgements easier. The good news is I will never do this again even if y'all wanted me to. But now that I know that even you guys don't want that kind of treatment from me, the path forward is clear Uh oh. Just the mere urge to retract whatsoever hints at some subconscious part of you being misaligned with Truth.
  8. Ladies & Gals Agreed...
  9. You know that's not true
  10. Mark Manson is not very conscious. He is soaking in the worldview of physicality/materialism continuously, even after reading sources that would point him towards alternate modes of being. He's a great teacher for basic self-help but not for transcendence.
  11. Lol, welcome to the social matrix. Yes. Simple - do what you know to be right, and accept(!) all consequences (both internally & externally). Let your folks feel your appreciation from time to time
  12. Leo isn't really a master in this field. You're better off studying Owen Cook (the guy Leo learned from).
  13. @March Yes, that explains the fire behind your original post. Getting your shit together is important and good. But you'll learn to naturally, spontaneously, and lovingly act over time. Being a tyrant towards yourself is a temporary solution - use that fuel as far as it takes you, but be willing to go beyond it some day
  14. Hey sean, I'm also sean! How old are you?
  15. It doesn't matter at all as long as it doesn't matter to you. The moment it matters to you, that "weight" and "focus" will transfer onto her.
  16. Lol careful - the triggered, anti-vegan "but aighe need muh meat" mob is comin'
  17. Yes - I observe that yellow tends to "take a break" from sexuality by recognizing that it doesn't lead to to Eudaimonia. Yellow can appear to act in the same manner as blue (at quick glance), but rather than coming from a place of suppression/repression/tension/inauthenticity, it has genuinely let go of sex, is capable of having it, but decides not to from of place of sincerity & relaxation. In some ways this is a "phase" bridging green and turquoise, a right of passage. You can't really go turquoise with your sexuality before knowing what it feels like to let sex go completely. I also see some people pretending to be "above" sex by mimicking this stage, but you can tell when people are faking it. I think stage yellow sexuality is what blue was trying (and failing) to copy with all of its denial. How to know you're at this stage (instead of faking it): You've had mind-blowing and fulfilling-loving sex before but you naturally don't chase it whatsoever - it doesn't even cross your mind. Turquoise comes full circle imo and engages with sex again, but with the newfound recognition that life and people are more mysterious and beautiful and full of love than we ever imagined at green or yellow, and the difference between self and other is imaginary. Turquoise can appear to act in the same manner as green (at a quick glance), but rather than coming from a place of "two people merging" to "make love," it doesn't even see "two people" to begin with - in that sense, sex with a partner and masturbation are metaphysically identical, in either case Self-Love (and especially appreciation for existence) is expressed - and there is never a moment of "turning on the lovemaking" since love was never "off" to begin with... "sex" is happening as you stroll around the street just as much as it occurs in the sheets. Sounds impossible, sounds like I'm redefining the word "sex" on a whim... maybe I am, and maybe that's fine. In a nutshell, this stage is about realizing that definitions were never solid anyway. It's like all of our collective human definitions are shapes made by clouds, and we think they are immutable, until the clouds move and we realize the shapes were "never solid anyway." And only then are we free to appreciate the cloud for simply existing, no matter what shape it takes. And acknowledging the cloud no matter what shape it takes - that's basically what sex is, isn't it? When the clothes come off and the bodies merge, what we're doing is we're dissolving definitions and holding space for whatever unfolds. The same with masturbation: when "you" stroke "yourself" it's like God petting his child, "I love you" by becoming the child and definitions dissolve... ...ok that last bit sounds weird without a reference experience 😭😭😭
  18. Lucky girl doesn't realize that normies like us would kill for her gifts
  19. My girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me yesterday. There is nothing but contradiction within me - between letting go and holding on - between fear and Love. Overwhelmingly, I feel loss. This is intellectually understood as imaginary, but I can't think my way out of this one. She really was the "best of the best." 10/10 in thoughtfulness, compassion, and physical beauty. A stage yellow soul with enthusiastic submissiveness. For a self-described spiritual & heterosexual male, it doesn't get better than this. I am afraid that I will never find anyone like her ever again. I am afraid that someone else will "enjoy her benefits" whereas I no longer can (sounds disgusting writing it out like that but that is how I feel). Her sexuality and validation being aimed solely at me gave me feelings of superiority, and now that has all come crashing down. I have this delusion that if someone else "attains" her sexuality and validation, that somehow "dethrones" me. This is ALL so selfish, selfish, selfish. I am currently quarantined in a rural area with my parents. This adds to the feeling that I'll never find someone like her ever again. I went on Tinder for one day and became jaded seeing all these party girls with heavy makeup (yes, I am aware of how arrogant that sounds). It's interesting that my immediate reaction is to try to convince myself that there is still someone else just like her still out there. Why do I feel like I must have a (very specific kind of) woman at my side to feel complete? It really, really sucks because I don't want to be this way. Deep down I want to be a touchstone of pure love, and it feels so gross to admit that I am currently a vessel of fear. I want to talk to @Nahm (mostly for comfort) but I know that as wise as he is, there is nothing that he can give me which I cannot give myself. Still debating whether or not I should reach out. ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════ Everything is bittersweet. My entire field of consciousness is bittersweet. From the walls in my room, to the food on my plate, to the air I breathe. Every online interaction, every desire to improve or stagnate. It's bitter because it all feels so empty, but somehow it all takes my breath away. Life has never looked simultaneously so beautiful yet so grey. I am currently 21 years old. I can intuitively recognize that this is an incredible opportunity for me to discover and pursue my life purpose full-steam-ahead: Still, I am held back in this area due to fear. I have so many feelings of "I don't know" regarding my life purpose. What exactly I want to do is lost on me, but I do know my strengths. Still, are they marketable strengths? I don't know. Even if they are, not knowing how I should market them seems to hold me back. In fact, this is one of the reasons that I was dumped. She felt like I was making her my #1 priority (which I was) and in a cosmic sense, the divine goddess within her actually broke up with me as a reminder for me to find myself. I think it's time I fucking buy the LP course. This quality of bittersweetness is something I'd like to focus on in my life purpose. I don't think it's a coincidence that for the longest time, my go-to music has always been bittersweet: I wonder if I can touch the hearts of others out there by somehow wielding my personal suffering. I am at my weakest right now but perhaps also at my strongest in a twisted way. I only say this based on my intuition; by every other measure, I just feel weak. ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════ I keep thinking of this quote by Leo: "It should be your goal and dream to die alone. Enjoy people while you are here, but when it comes to death, this is too profound to do other than alone. Don't allow idiots to interfere with your facing of death." What an absolute warrior. I long to be so brave one day. I wonder if Leo has ever felt the way I feel right now.
  20. Of course Because I want to "save him" but I know that I can't. It's a personal projection... He has an even worse video on "My problem with women" It's an hour long, feigns introspection but is entirely projection, and of course the comment section fully supports him. Talk about cringe... I watched about 1 minute and it gave me enough unhealthy orange for a whole year
  21. Common theme seems to be charismatic/nice people "in disguise." Why might we struggle to tell the difference between genuine and disguised niceness?