The battle between heart and the self (fear)

[Forestluv]

@Charlotte A strong trip is golden, yet it also can be a huge energy drain on the mind and body. It’s like expanding two conscious levels and having years worth of direct experience in one day. Then, condensing that into the mind-body. That is a lot to ask of a mind-body. When we break new ground so dramatically, it will feel ungrounded. The mind and body is trying to communicate “whoa! Slow down and rest. Let’s spend some time integrating this and getting grounded”. 

The mind will want to contextualize and make sense of the experience, yet our previous level of conscious cannot accommodate this depth. It may come up with all sorts of thoughts and images, grasping for a sense of grounding. Since the balance is tilted way over to groundless, I would spend more emphasis on getting re-grounded - do the things that ground you. Yoga, cooking, walks in nature - some routine. Treat your mind and body with love and be grateful it absorbed so much of the divine. It will allow you to expand, yet gradually. 

[Charlotte]

@Serotoninluv wow. Priceless advice dude and it rings so true. Thank you so much for your wisdom ♥️

[Charlotte]

It's crazy this week. I realised last night that after my trip I've been eating raw foods which I never ever have done. 

Yoga last night was incredibly different, beautiful.  

I find myself putting spiritual videos on and then realising and then turning them off to remain as grounded as possible. 

I keep placing my hands in involuntary random mudras throughout the day. I have a compulsion to take up Tai chi. Last night the owner of the yoga classes I take told me they're starting new Tai chi classes. How mad is that!! Synchronization. ?

My exams are literally round the corner and I am knuckling down with them. One shot. 

 

I also have a date Saturday with a lad from Brazil who's into spirituality so that should be interesting. 

♥️?

[Charlotte]

 

[zambize]

1 hour ago, Charlotte said:

 

That was such an adventure, thank you for posting that.  I really like the art style and everything, the people who made that are so talented 

[Charlotte]

8 hours ago, zambize said:

That was such an adventure, thank you for posting that.  I really like the art style and everything, the people who made that are so talented 

I know right!! My absolute pleasure ♥️

[Charlotte]

I'm only just coming to terms with what the self does to survive, it's utterly unbelievable, surely a fucking miracle? And I thought I knew last year, oh my god I know ABSOLUTELY nothing ? how far can this go? There's just layers upon layers of sheer intelligence at work here. 

[DrewNows]

Oh nice profile pic ? 

“Just saying”   

[Forestluv]

3 hours ago, Charlotte said:

oh my god I know ABSOLUTELY nothing ? how far can this go? There's just layers upon layers of sheer intelligence at work here. 

Ooohhh yea. . .exploration into uncharted lands. So beautiful ♥️ ? 

[Charlotte]

@DrewNows That was taken 12 hours after the trip the other day 

Thank you! 

@Serotoninluv uncharted lands... Exactly! ?? 

❤️

[DrewNows]

Ahh yes godhead showing ?

[Charlotte]

??

[Charlotte]

 

[Charlotte]

@Thabit Al-khateeb my pleasure. 

It is very interesting isn't it!

Wow that's a beautiful life purpose!! 

I also recommend (if you haven't already)... 

 

[Charlotte]

I've actually been revising!! Like soooo much. I'm buzzing ?

Leo's right, the only way to counteract procrastination is to take action. 

Legend leo... Legend 

✌️

 

... Back to it 

I'm passing these exams if it kills me ?

 

[Charlotte]

On 29/05/2019 at 7:41 PM, Thabit Al-khateeb said:

@Charlotte I'm passing my exams even if it kills me too haha, I'm currently facing the procrastination challenge as well as I'm studying! My procrastination is meditating, contemplating, taking walks in nature, and also spending quite some time on the forum reading people's comments and questions, especially from moderators like yourself, and the rest of the lovely moderating gang. I just started interacting on the forum for the first time yesterday night! I'm curious what are you currently studying for, and have you made progress in finding out your life purpose? 

How are you getting on with the procrastinating dude? 

Are you enjoying the forum?? 

I'm studying for... I don't know in all honesty ? my life purpose will be based around some sort of healing career but I really don't know what yet... Just getting my basics out of the way (qualifications I should of got in high school). How about yourself? 

 

@Thabit Al-khateeb oh I saw that, that outlandish posted yes it looked good. Was it good?? 

 

[Charlotte]

So did what I set out to do and I smashed the studies this week. Today I took all the homework in I had done (revision workshop) and when it was marked the teachers told me I could be aiming for a grade 7 which is like a top B. Buzzing with that. This week I've really got stuck in after watching Leo's video and I also were hyper aware of homeostasis. 

Apart from that I've been doing a lot of yoga. Yoga has completely shifted after the trip. It's now more grounded in an actual spiritual practice, I don't know how to explain that but you'll have to take my word for it. 

Also yesterday in the kitchen (on my way to take the dogs out for a walk) randomly started moving my arms and hands again in synchronization, could feel the energy escaping through the finger tips. Same movements as the trip. 

Felt a sense of liberation and love followed by crying. Completely random. Even the dogs looked confused ?

Awwrene of the mind and how it's creating reality is falling ever deeper still, I literally just see this loop.

[zambize]

10 minutes ago, Charlotte said:

So did what I set out to do and I smashed the studies this week. Today I took all the homework in I had done (revision workshop) and when it was marked the teachers told me I could be aiming for a grade 7 which is like a top B. Buzzing with that. This week I've really got stuck in after watching Leo's video and I also were hyper aware of homeostasis. 

Apart from that I've been doing a lot of yoga. Yoga has completely shifted after the trip. It's now more grounded in an actual spiritual practice, I don't know how to explain that but you'll have to take my word for it. 

Also yesterday in the kitchen (on my way to take the dogs out for a walk) randomly started moving my arms and hands again in synchronization, could feel the energy escaping through the finger tips. Same movements as the trip. 

Felt a sense of liberation and love followed by crying. Completely random. Even the dogs looked confused ?

Awwrene of the mind and how it's creating reality is falling ever deeper still, I literally just see this loop.

Sounds like you're kicking ass

[Charlotte]

On 03/06/2019 at 6:51 PM, Thabit Al-khateeb said:

@Charlotte Yes the art of life was a really Beautiful documentary, highly recommend it! ?

 

I enjoy reading topics on the forum, it’s been helpful for the most part, however I must say that I find myself becoming increasingly annoyed by users who are engaging in mental masturbation, rather than actually going and doing the practices to see for themselves the results they’re questioning about! ?

 

 

Don't worry about anybody else dude. Just focus on yourself. 

[Charlotte]

Wow what a week. 

So I had the first exam yesterday. I genuinely gave it my all. Mindfulness played a huge part in the exam as did observation of thought. I noticed from previous practice exams that my nerves were getting in the way so I devised a plan for my self and it worked a treat. 

I really smashed homeostasis and turned everything around. I didn't want to attend philosophy yesterday because my mind was actually hurting from the exam so I went to the gym instead. 

Last exam on Friday ((the big one)) and then off to Minorca for a yoga retreat 0500 the next morning so trying to cram everything in. 

Monday I also had a huge breakthrough with regards to shadow work (I've been working on that simultaneously) I'll write more about it when I get back. 

I made myself come off the forum whilst I crack on with the exams and I'm glad I did because remaning on here was part of the homeostasis, not gonna lie though I can't wait to come back ?